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[Illustration: “AND THEN IN ONE GLORIOUS, SUPREME MOMENT CAME THE
‘FLASH’”]




  EMILY
  OF NEW MOON

  BY
  L. M. MONTGOMERY

  _Author of “Anne of Green Gables,” “The Story Girl,” “Rainbow Valley,”
  “Rilla of Ingleside,” “Anne’s House of Dreams,” etc._

  _WITH FRONTISPIECE IN COLOR BY
  M. L KIRK_

  [Illustration]

  NEW YORK
  FREDERICK A. STOKES COMPANY
  MCMXXIII




  _Copyright, 1923, by_
  FREDERICK A. STOKES COMPANY

  _All Rights Reserved_

  _Printed in the United States of America_




  To
  MR. GEORGE BOYD MACMILLAN
  ALLOA, SCOTLAND
  IN RECOGNITION OF
  A LONG AND STIMULATING FRIENDSHIP




CONTENTS


  CHAPTER                                    PAGE

        I THE HOUSE IN THE HOLLOW               1

       II A WATCH IN THE NIGHT                  8

      III A HOP OUT OF KIN                     19

       IV A FAMILY CONCLAVE                    33

        V DIAMOND CUT DIAMOND                  44

       VI NEW MOON                             52

      VII THE BOOK OF YESTERDAY                63

     VIII TRIAL BY FIRE                        79

       IX A SPECIAL PROVIDENCE                 91

        X GROWING PAINS                       105

       XI ILSE                                113

      XII THE TANSY PATCH                     122

     XIII A DAUGHTER OF EVE                   137

      XIV FANCY FED                           146

       XV VARIOUS TRAGEDIES                   153

      XVI CHECK FOR MISS BROWNELL             165

     XVII LIVING EPISTLES                     179

    XVIII FATHER CASSIDY                      193

      XIX FRIENDS AGAIN                       211

       XX BY AËRIAL POST                      216

      XXI “ROMANTIC BUT NOT COMFORTABLE”      227

     XXII WYTHER GRANGE                       238

    XXIII DEALS WITH GHOSTS                   247

     XXIV A DIFFERENT KIND OF HAPPINESS       257

      XXV “SHE COULDN’T HAVE DONE IT”         264

     XXVI ON THE BAY SHORE                    270

    XXVII THE VOW OF EMILY                    282

   XXVIII A WEAVER OF DREAMS                  302

     XXIX SACRILEGE                           315

      XXX WHEN THE CURTAIN LIFTED             326

     XXXI EMILY’S GREAT MOMENT                340




EMILY OF NEW MOON

CHAPTER I

THE HOUSE IN THE HOLLOW


The house in the hollow was “a mile from anywhere”--so Maywood people
said. It was situated in a grassy little dale, looking as if it had
never been built like other houses but had grown up there like a big,
brown mushroom. It was reached by a long, green lane and almost hidden
from view by an encircling growth of young birches. No other house
could be seen from it although the village was just over the hill.
Ellen Greene said it was the lonesomest place in the world and vowed
that she wouldn’t stay there a day if it wasn’t that she pitied the
child.

Emily didn’t know she was being pitied and didn’t know what
lonesomeness meant. She had plenty of company. There was Father--and
Mike--and Saucy Sal. The Wind Woman was always around; and there were
the trees--Adam-and-Eve, and the Rooster Pine, and all the friendly
lady-birches.

And there was “the flash,” too. She never knew when it might come, and
the possibility of it kept her a-thrill and expectant.

Emily had slipped away in the chilly twilight for a walk. She
remembered that walk very vividly all her life--perhaps because of a
certain eerie beauty that was in it--perhaps because “the flash” came
for the first time in weeks--more likely because of what happened
after she came back from it.

It had been a dull, cold day in early May, threatening to rain but
never raining. Father had lain on the sitting-room lounge all day. He
had coughed a good deal and he had not talked much to Emily, which was
a very unusual thing for him. Most of the time he lay with his hands
clasped under his head and his large, sunken, dark-blue eyes fixed
dreamily and unseeingly on the cloudy sky that was visible between the
boughs of the two big spruces in the front yard--Adam-and-Eve, they
always called those spruces, because of a whimsical resemblance Emily
had traced between their position, with reference to a small apple-tree
between them, and that of Adam and Eve and the Tree of Knowledge in
an old-fashioned picture in one of Ellen Greene’s books. The Tree of
Knowledge looked exactly like the squat little apple-tree, and Adam and
Eve stood up on either side as stiffly and rigidly as did the spruces.

Emily wondered what Father was thinking of, but she never bothered him
with questions when his cough was bad. She only wished she had somebody
to talk to. Ellen Greene wouldn’t talk that day either. She did nothing
but grunt, and grunts meant that Ellen was disturbed about something.
She had grunted last night after the doctor had whispered to her in the
kitchen, and she had grunted when she gave Emily a bedtime snack of
bread and molasses. Emily did not like bread and molasses, but she ate
it because she did not want to hurt Ellen’s feelings. It was not often
that Ellen allowed her anything to eat before going to bed, and when
she did it meant that for some reason or other she wanted to confer a
special favor.

Emily expected the grunting attack would wear off over night, as it
generally did; but it had not, so no company was to be found in Ellen.
Not that there was a great deal to be found at any time. Douglas Starr
had once, in a fit of exasperation, told Emily that “Ellen Greene was a
fat, lazy old thing of no importance,” and Emily, whenever she looked
at Ellen after that, thought the description fitted her to a hair.

So Emily had curled herself up in the ragged, comfortable old
wing-chair and read _The Pilgrim’s Progress_ all the afternoon. Emily
loved _The Pilgrim’s Progress_. Many a time had she walked the straight
and narrow path with _Christian_ and _Christiana_--although she never
liked _Christiana’s_ adventures half as well as _Christian’s_. For one
thing, there was always such a crowd with _Christiana_. She had not
half the fascination of that solitary, intrepid figure who faced all
alone the shadows of the Dark Valley and the encounter with Apollyon.
Darkness and hobgoblins were nothing when you had plenty of company.
But to be _alone_--ah, Emily shivered with the delicious horror of it!

When Ellen announced that supper was ready Douglas Starr told Emily to
go out to it.

“I don’t want anything tonight. I’ll just lie here and rest. And when
you come in again we’ll have a real talk, Elfkin.”

He smiled up at her his old, beautiful smile, with the love behind
it, that Emily always found so sweet. She ate her supper quite
happily--though it wasn’t a good supper. The bread was soggy and her
egg was underdone, but for a wonder she was allowed to have both Saucy
Sal and Mike sitting, one on each side of her, and Ellen only grunted
when Emily fed them wee bits of bread and butter.

Mike had such a cute way of sitting up on his haunches and catching the
bits in his paws, and Saucy Sal had _her_ trick of touching Emily’s
ankle with an almost human touch when her turn was too long in coming.
Emily loved them both, but Mike was her favourite. He was a handsome,
dark-grey cat with huge owl-like eyes, and he was so soft and fat and
fluffy. Sal was always thin; no amount of feeding put any flesh on her
bones. Emily liked her, but never cared to cuddle or stroke her because
of her thinness. Yet there was a sort of weird beauty about her that
appealed to Emily. She was grey-and-white--very white and very sleek,
with a long, pointed face, very long ears and very green eyes. She was
a redoubtable fighter, and strange cats were vanquished in one round.
The fearless little spitfire would even attack dogs and rout them
utterly.

Emily loved her pussies. She had brought them up herself, as she
proudly said. They had been given to her when they were kittens by her
Sunday School teacher.

“A _living_ present is so nice,” she told Ellen, “because it keeps on
getting nicer all the time.”

But she worried considerably because Saucy Sal didn’t have kittens.

“I don’t know why she doesn’t,” she complained to Ellen Greene. “Most
cats seem to have more kittens than they know what to do with.”

After supper Emily went in and found that her father had fallen
asleep. She was very glad of this; she knew he had not slept much
for two nights; but she was a little disappointed that they were not
going to have that “real talk.” “Real” talks with Father were always
such delightful things. But next best would be a walk--a lovely
all-by-your-lonesome walk through the grey evening of the young spring.
It was so long since she had had a walk.

“You put on your hood and mind you scoot back if it starts to rain,”
warned Ellen. “_You_ can’t monkey with colds the way some kids can.”

“Why can’t I?” Emily asked rather indignantly. Why must _she_ be
debarred from “monkeying with colds” if other children could? It wasn’t
fair.

But Ellen only grunted. Emily muttered under her breath for her own
satisfaction, “You are a fat old thing of no importance!” and slipped
upstairs to get her hood--rather reluctantly, for she loved to run
bareheaded. She put the faded blue hood on over her long, heavy braid
of glossy, jet-black hair, and smiled chummily at her reflection in the
little greenish glass. The smile began at the corners of her lips and
spread over her face in a slow, subtle, very wonderful way, as Douglas
Starr often thought. It was her dead mother’s smile--the thing that had
caught and held him long ago when he had first seen Juliet Murray. It
seemed to be Emily’s only physical inheritance from her mother. In all
else, he thought, she was like the Starrs--in her large, purplish-grey
eyes with their very long lashes and black brows, in her high, white
forehead--too high for beauty--in the delicate modeling of her pale
oval face and sensitive mouth, in the little ears that were pointed
just a wee bit to show that she was kin to tribes of elfland.

“I’m going for a walk with the Wind Woman, dear,” said Emily. “I wish
I could take you too. Do you _ever_ get out of that room, I wonder.
The Wind Woman is going to be out in the fields to-night. She is tall
and misty, with thin, grey, silky clothes blowing all about her--and
wings like a bat’s--only you can see through them--and shining eyes
like stars looking through her long, loose hair. She can fly--but
to-night she will walk with me all over the fields. She’s a _great_
friend of mine--the Wind Woman is. I’ve known her ever since I was six.
We’re _old, old_ friends--but not quite so old as you and I, little
Emily-in-the-glass. We’ve been friends _always_, haven’t we?”

With a blown kiss to little Emily-in-the-glass, Emily-out-of-the-glass
was off.

The Wind Woman was waiting for her outside--ruffling the little spears
of striped grass that were sticking up stiffly in the bed under the
sitting-room window--tossing the big boughs of Adam-and-Eve--whispering
among the misty green branches of the birches--teasing the “Rooster
Pine” behind the house--it really did look like an enormous,
ridiculous rooster, with a huge, bunchy tail and a head thrown back to
crow.

It was so long since Emily had been out for a walk that she was half
crazy with the joy of it. The winter had been so stormy and the snow
so deep that she was never allowed out; April had been a month of rain
and wind; so on this May evening she felt like a released prisoner.
Where should she go? Down the brook--or over the fields to the spruce
barrens? Emily chose the latter.

She loved the spruce barrens, away at the further end of the long,
sloping pasture. That was a place where magic was made. She came more
fully into her fairy birthright there than in any other place. Nobody
who saw Emily skimming over the bare field would have envied her.
She was little and pale and poorly clad; sometimes she shivered in
her thin jacket; yet a queen might have gladly given a crown for her
visions--her dreams of wonder. The brown, frosted grasses under her
feet were velvet piles. The old, mossy, gnarled half-dead spruce-tree,
under which she paused for a moment to look up into the sky, was a
marble column in a palace of the gods; the far dusky hills were the
ramparts of a city of wonder. And for companions she had all the
fairies of the countryside--for she could believe in them here--the
fairies of the white clover and satin catkins, the little green folk of
the grass, the elves of the young fir-trees, sprites of wind and wild
fern and thistledown. Anything might happen there--everything might
come true.

And the barrens were such a splendid place in which to play hide and
seek with the Wind Woman. She was so very _real_ there; if you could
just spring quickly enough around a little cluster of spruces--only
you never could--you would _see_ her as well as feel her and hear her.
There she was--that _was_ the sweep of her grey cloak--no, she was
laughing up in the very top of the taller trees--and the chase was on
again--till, all at once, it seemed as if the Wind Woman were gone--and
the evening was bathed in a wonderful silence--and there was a sudden
rift in the curdled clouds westward, and a lovely, pale, pinky-green
lake of sky with a new moon in it.

Emily stood and looked at it with clasped hands and her little black
head upturned. She must go home and write down a description of it in
the yellow account book, where the last thing written had been, “Mike’s
Biograffy.” It would hurt her with its beauty until she wrote it down.
Then she would read it to Father. She must not forget how the tips of
the trees on the hill came out like fine black lace across the edge of
the pinky-green sky.

And then, for one glorious, supreme moment, came “the flash.”

Emily called it that, although she felt that the name didn’t exactly
describe it. It couldn’t be described--not even to Father, who always
seemed a little puzzled by it. Emily never spoke of it to any one else.

It had always seemed to Emily, ever since she could remember, that she
was very, very near to a world of wonderful beauty. Between it and
herself hung only a thin curtain; she could never draw the curtain
aside--but sometimes, just for a moment, a wind fluttered it and then
it was as if she caught a glimpse of the enchanting realm beyond--only
a glimpse--and heard a note of unearthly music.

This moment came rarely--went swiftly, leaving her breathless with the
inexpressible delight of it. She could never recall it--never summon
it--never pretend it; but the wonder of it stayed with her for days.
It never came twice with the same thing. To-night the dark boughs
against that far-off sky had given it. It had come with a high, wild
note of wind in the night, with a shadow wave over a ripe field, with a
greybird lighting on her window-sill in a storm, with the singing of
“Holy, holy, holy” in church, with a glimpse of the kitchen fire when
she had come home on a dark autumn night, with the spirit-like blue of
ice palms on a twilit pane, with a felicitous new word when she was
writing down a “description” of something. And always when the flash
came to her Emily felt that life was a wonderful, mysterious thing of
persistent beauty.

She scuttled back to the house in the hollow, through the gathering
twilight, all agog to get home and write down her “description” before
the memory picture of what she had seen grew a little blurred. She knew
just how she would begin it--the sentence seemed to shape itself in her
mind: “The hill called to me and something in me called back to it.”

She found Ellen Greene waiting for her on the sunken front-doorstep.
Emily was so full of happiness that she loved everything at that
moment, even fat things of no importance. She flung her arms around
Ellen’s knees and hugged them. Ellen looked down gloomily into the rapt
little face, where excitement had kindled a faint wild-rose flush, and
said, with a ponderous sigh:

“Do you know that your pa has only a week or two more to live?”




CHAPTER II

A WATCH IN THE NIGHT


Emily stood quite still and looked up at Ellen’s broad, red face--as
still as if she had been suddenly turned to stone. She felt as if she
had. She was as stunned as if Ellen had struck her a physical blow. The
colour faded out of her little face and her pupils dilated until they
swallowed up the irides and turned her eyes into pools of blackness.
The effect was so startling that even Ellen Greene felt uncomfortable.

“I’m telling you this because I think it’s high time you was told,”
she said. “I’ve been at your pa for months to tell you, but he’s kept
putting it off and off. I says to him, says I, ‘You know how hard she
takes things, and if you drop off suddent some day it’ll most kill
her if she hasn’t been prepared. It’s your duty to prepare her,’ and
he says, says he, ‘There’s time enough yet, Ellen.’ But he’s never
said a word, and when the doctor told me last night that the end might
come any time now, I just made up my mind that _I_’d do what was right
and drop a hint to prepare you. Laws-a-massy, child, don’t look like
that! You’ll be looked after. Your ma’s people will see to that--on
account of the Murray pride, if for no other reason. They won’t let
one of their own blood starve or go to strangers--even if they have
always hated your pa like p’isen. You’ll have a good home--better’n
you’ve ever had here. You needn’t worry a mite. As for your pa, you
ought to be thankful to see him at rest. He’s been dying by inches
for the last five years. He’s kept it from you, but he’s been a great
sufferer. Folks say his heart broke when your ma died--it came on him
so suddent-like--she was only sick three days. That’s why I want you to
know what’s coming, so’s you won’t be all upset when it happens. For
mercy’s sake, Emily Byrd Starr, don’t stand there staring like that!
You give me the creeps! You ain’t the first child that’s been left an
orphan and you won’t be the last. Try and be sensible. And don’t go
pestering your pa about what I’ve told you, mind that. Come you in now,
out of the damp, and I’ll give you a cooky ’fore you go to bed.”

Ellen stepped down as if to take the child’s hand. The power of motion
returned to Emily--she must scream if Ellen even touched her _now_.
With one sudden, sharp, bitter little cry she avoided Ellen’s hand,
darted through the door and fled up the dark staircase.

Ellen shook her head and waddled back to her kitchen.

“Anyhow, I’ve done _my_ duty,” she reflected. “He’d have just kept
saying ‘time enough’ and put it off till he was dead and then there’d
have been no managing her. She’ll have time now to get used to it,
and she’ll brace up in a day or two. I will say for her she’s got
spunk--which is lucky, from all I’ve heard of the Murrays. They won’t
find it easy to overcrow _her_. She’s got a streak of their pride, too,
and that’ll help her through. I wish I dared send some of the Murrays
word that he’s dying, but I don’t dast go that far. There’s no telling
what _he_’d do. Well, I’ve stuck on here to the last and I ain’t sorry.
Not many women would ’a’ done it, living as they do here. It’s a shame
the way that child’s been brought up--never even sent to school. Well,
I’ve told him often enough what I’ve thought of it--it ain’t on _my_
conscience, that’s one comfort. Here, you Sal-thing, you git out!
Where’s Mike, too?”

Ellen could not find Mike for the very good reason that he was upstairs
with Emily, held tightly in her arms, as she sat in the darkness on
her little cot bed. Amid her agony and desolation there was a certain
comfort in the feel of his soft fur and round velvety head.

Emily was not crying; she stared straight into the darkness, trying
to face the awful thing Ellen had told her. She did not doubt
it--something told her it was true. Why couldn’t she die, too? She
couldn’t go on living without Father.

“If I was God I wouldn’t let things like this happen,” she said.

She felt it was very wicked of her to say such a thing--Ellen had told
her once that it was the wickedest thing any one could do to find fault
with God. But she didn’t care. Perhaps if she were wicked enough God
would strike her dead and then she and Father could keep on being
together.

But nothing happened--only Mike got tired of being held so tightly
and squirmed away. She was all alone now, with this terrible burning
pain that seemed all over her and yet was not of the body. She could
never get rid of it. She couldn’t help it by writing about it in the
old yellow account book. She had written there about her Sunday School
teacher going away, and of being hungry when she went to bed, and Ellen
telling her she must be half crazy to talk of Wind Women and flashes;
and after she had written down all about them these things hadn’t hurt
her any more. But this couldn’t be written about. She could not even
go to Father for comfort, as she had gone when she burned her hand so
badly, picking up the red-hot poker by mistake. Father had held her in
his arms all that night and told her stories and helped her to bear the
pain. But Father, so Ellen had said, was going to die in a week or two.
Emily felt as if Ellen had told her this years and years ago. It surely
couldn’t be less than an hour since she had been playing with the Wind
Woman in the barrens and looking at the new moon in the pinky-green sky.

“The flash will never come again--it can’t,” she thought.

But Emily had inherited certain things from her fine old ancestors--the
power to fight--to suffer--to pity--to love very deeply--to rejoice--to
endure. These things were all in her and looked out at you through her
purplish-grey eyes. Her heritage of endurance came to her aid now and
bore her up. She must not let Father know what Ellen had told her--it
might hurt him. She must keep it all to herself and _love_ Father, oh,
so much, in the little while she could yet have him.

She heard him cough in the room below: she must be in bed when he came
up; she undressed as swiftly as her cold fingers permitted and crept
into the little cot bed which stood across the open window. The voices
of the gentle spring night called to her all unheeded--unheard the Wind
Woman whistled by the eaves. For the fairies dwell only in the kingdom
of Happiness; having no souls they cannot enter the kingdom of Sorrow.

She lay there cold and tearless and motionless when her father came
into the room. How very slowly he walked--how very slowly he took off
his clothes. How was it she had never noticed these things before? But
he was not coughing at all. Oh, what if Ellen were mistaken?--what
if--a wild hope shot through her aching heart. She gave a little gasp.

Douglas Starr came over to her bed. She felt his dear nearness as
he sat down on the chair beside her, in his old red dressing-gown.
Oh, how she loved him! There was no other Father like him in all the
world--there never could have been--so tender, so understanding, so
wonderful! They had always been such chums--they had loved each other
so much--it couldn’t be that they were to be separated.

“Winkums, are you asleep?”

“No,” whispered Emily.

“Are you sleepy, small dear?”

“No--no--not sleepy.”

Douglas Starr took her hand and held it tightly.

“Then we’ll have our talk, honey. I can’t sleep either. I want to tell
you something.”

“Oh--I know it--I know it!” burst out Emily. “Oh, Father, I know it!
Ellen told me.”

Douglas Starr was silent for a moment. Then he said under his breath,
“The old fool--the _fat_ old fool!”--as if Ellen’s fatness was an
added aggravation of her folly. Again, for the last time, Emily hoped.
Perhaps it was all a dreadful mistake--just some more of Ellen’s fat
foolishness.

“It--it isn’t true, is it, Father?” she whispered.

“Emily, child,” said her father, “I can’t lift you up--I haven’t the
strength--but climb up and sit on my knee--in the old way.”

Emily slipped out of bed and got on her father’s knee. He wrapped the
old dressing-gown about her and held her close with his face against
hers.

“Dear little child--little beloved Emilykin, it is quite true,” he
said, “I meant to tell you myself to-night. And now that old absurdity
of an Ellen has told you--brutally, I suppose--and hurt you dreadfully.
She has the brain of a hen and the sensibility of a cow. May jackals
sit on her grandmother’s grave! _I_ wouldn’t have hurt you, dear.”

Emily fought something down that wanted to choke her.

“Father, I can’t--I can’t bear it.”

“Yes, you can and will. You will live because there is something for
you to do, I think. You have my gift--along with something I never
had. You will succeed where I failed, Emily. I haven’t been able to do
much for you, sweetheart, but I’ve done what I could. I’ve taught you
something, I think--in spite of Ellen Greene. Emily, do you remember
your mother?”

“Just a little--here and there--like lovely bits of dreams.”

“You were only four when she died. I’ve never talked much to you about
her--I couldn’t. But I’m going to tell you all about her to-night. It
doesn’t hurt me to talk of her now--I’ll see her so soon again. You
don’t look like her, Emily--only when you smile. For the rest, you’re
like your namesake, my mother. When you were born I wanted to call you
Juliet, too. But your mother wouldn’t. She said if we called you Juliet
then I’d soon take to calling her ‘Mother’ to distinguish between you,
and she couldn’t endure _that_. She said her Aunt Nancy had once said
to her, ‘The first time your husband calls you “Mother” the romance of
life is over.’ So we called you after my mother--_her_ maiden name
was Emily Byrd. Your mother thought Emily the prettiest name in the
world,--it was quaint and arch and delightful, she said. Emily, your
mother was the sweetest woman ever made.”

His voice trembled and Emily snuggled close.

“I met her twelve years ago, when I was sub-editor of the _Enterprise_
up in Charlottetown and she was in her last year at Queen’s. She was
tall and fair and blue-eyed. She looked a little like your Aunt Laura,
but Laura was never so pretty. Their eyes were very much alike--and
their voices. She was one of the Murrays from Blair Water. I’ve never
told you much about your mother’s people, Emily. They live up on the
old north shore at Blair Water on New Moon Farm--always have lived
there since the first Murray came out from the Old Country in 1790. The
ship he came on was called the _New Moon_ and he named his farm after
her.”

“It’s a nice name--the new moon is such a pretty thing,” said Emily,
interested for a moment.

“There’s been a Murray ever since at New Moon Farm. They’re a proud
family--the Murray pride is a byword along the north shore, Emily.
Well, they had some things to be proud of, that cannot be denied--but
they carried it too far. Folks call them ‘the chosen people’ up there.

“They increased and multiplied and scattered all over, but the old
stock at New Moon Farm is pretty well run out. Only your Aunts,
Elizabeth and Laura, live there now, and their cousin, Jimmy Murray.
They never married--could not find any one good enough for a Murray, so
it used to be said. Your Uncle Oliver and your Uncle Wallace live in
Summerside, your Aunt Ruth in Shrewsbury and your Great-Aunt Nancy at
Priest Pond.”

“Priest Pond--that’s an _interesting_ name--not a pretty name like New
Moon and Blair Water--but interesting,” said Emily. Feeling Father’s
arm around her the horror had momentarily shrunk away. For just a
little while she ceased to believe it.

Douglas Starr tucked the dressing-gown a little more closely around
her, kissed her black head, and went on.

“Elizabeth and Laura and Wallace and Oliver and Ruth were old Archibald
Murray’s children. His first wife was their mother. When he was sixty
he married again--a young slip of a girl--who died when your mother
was born. Juliet was twenty years younger than her half-family, as she
used to call them. She was very pretty and charming and they all loved
and petted her and were very proud of her. When she fell in love with
me, a poor young journalist, with nothing in the world but his pen and
his ambition, there was a family earthquake. The Murray pride couldn’t
tolerate the thing at all. I won’t rake it all up--but things were said
I could never forget or forgive. Your mother married me, Emily--and the
New Moon people would have nothing more to do with her. Can you believe
that, in spite of it, she was never sorry for marrying me?”

Emily put up her hand and patted her father’s hollow cheek.

“_Of course_ she wouldn’t be sorry. _Of course_ she’d rather have you
than all the Murrays of any kind of a moon.”

Father laughed a little--and there was just a note of triumph in his
laugh.

“Yes, she seemed to feel that way about it. And we were so happy--oh,
Emilykin, there never were two happier people in the world. You were
the child of that happiness. I remember the night you were born in
the little house in Charlottetown. It was in May and a west wind was
blowing silvery clouds over the moon. There was a star or two here
and there. In our tiny garden--everything we had was small except our
love and our happiness--it was dark and blossomy. I walked up and
down the path between the beds of violets your mother had planted--and
prayed. The pale east was just beginning to glow like a rosy pearl
when some one came and told me I had a little daughter. I went
in--and your mother, white and weak, smiled just that dear, slow,
wonderful smile I loved, and said, ‘We’ve--got--the only--baby--of any
importance--in--the world, dear. Just--think--of that!’”

“I wish people could remember from the very moment they’re born,” said
Emily. “It would be so very interesting.”

“I dare say we’d have a lot of uncomfortable memories,” said her
father, laughing a little. “It can’t be very pleasant getting used to
living--no pleasanter than getting used to stopping it. But you didn’t
seem to find it hard, for you were a good wee kidlet, Emily. We had
four more happy years and then--do you remember the time your mother
died, Emily?”

“I remember the funeral, Father--I remember it _distinctly_. You were
standing in the middle of a room, holding me in your arms, and Mother
was lying just before us in a long, black box. And you were crying--and
I couldn’t think why--and I wondered why Mother looked so white and
wouldn’t open her eyes. And I leaned down and touched her cheek--and
oh, it was so cold. It made me shiver. And somebody in the room said,
‘Poor little thing!’ and I was frightened and put my face down on your
shoulder.”

“Yes, I recall that. Your mother died very suddenly. I don’t think
we’ll talk about it. The Murrays all came to her funeral. The Murrays
have certain traditions and they live up to them very strictly. One
of them is that nothing but candles shall be burned for light at New
Moon--and another is that no quarrel must be carried past the grave.
They came when she was dead--they would have come when she was ill if
they had known, I will say that much for them. And they behaved very
well--oh, very well indeed. They were not the Murrays of New Moon for
nothing. Your Aunt Elizabeth wore her best black satin dress to the
funeral. For any funeral but a Murray’s the second best one would
have done; and they made no serious objection when I said your mother
would be buried in the Starr plot in Charlottetown cemetery. They
would have liked to take her back to the old Murray burying-ground in
Blair Water--they had their own private burying-ground, you know--no
indiscriminate graveyard for _them_. But your Uncle Wallace handsomely
admitted that a woman should belong to her husband’s family in death as
in life. And then they offered to take you and bring you up--to ‘give
you your mother’s place.’ I refused to let them have you--then. Did I
do right, Emily?”

“Yes--yes--yes!” whispered Emily, with a hug at every “yes.”

“I told Oliver Murray--it was he who spoke to me about you--that as
long as I lived I would not be parted from my child. He said, ‘If you
ever change your mind, let us know.’ But I did not change my mind--not
even three years later when my doctor told me I must give up work.
‘If you don’t, I give you a year,’ he said, ‘if you do, and live
out-of-doors all you can, I give you three--or possibly four.’ He was a
good prophet. I came out here and we’ve had four lovely years together,
haven’t we, small dear one?”

“Yes--oh, yes!”

“Those years and what I’ve taught you in them are the only legacy I
can leave you, Emily. We’ve been living on a tiny income I have from
a life interest that was left me in an old uncle’s estate--an uncle
who died before I was married. The estate goes to a charity now, and
this little house is only a rented one. From a worldly point of view
I’ve certainly been a failure. But your mother’s people will care for
you--I know that. The Murray pride will guarantee so much, if nothing
else. And they can’t help loving you. Perhaps I should have sent for
them before--perhaps I ought to do it yet. But I have pride of a kind,
too--the Starrs are not entirely traditionless--and the Murrays said
some very bitter things to me when I married your mother. Will I send
to New Moon and ask them to come, Emily?”

“No!” said Emily, almost fiercely.

She did not want any one to come between her and Father for the few
precious days left. The thought was horrible to her. It would be bad
enough if they had to come--afterwards. But she would not mind anything
much--then.

“We’ll stay together to the very end, then, little Emily-child. We
won’t be parted for a minute. And I want you to be brave. You mustn’t
be afraid of _anything_, Emily. Death isn’t terrible. The universe is
full of love--and spring comes everywhere--and in death you open and
shut a door. There are beautiful things on the other side of the door.
I’ll find your mother there--I’ve doubted many things, but I’ve never
doubted _that_. Sometimes I’ve been afraid that she would get so far
ahead of me in the ways of eternity that I’d never catch up. But I
feel _now_ that she’s waiting for me. And we’ll wait for you--we won’t
hurry--we’ll loiter and linger till you catch up with us.”

“I wish you--could take me right through the door with you,” whispered
Emily.

“After a little while you won’t wish that. You have yet to learn how
kind time is. And life has something for you--I feel it. Go forward to
meet it fearlessly, dear. I know you don’t feel like that just now--but
you will remember my words by and by.”

“I feel just now,” said Emily, who couldn’t bear to hide anything from
Father, “that I don’t like God any more.”

Douglas Starr laughed--the laugh Emily liked best. It was such a dear
laugh--she caught her breath over the dearness of it. She felt his
arms tightening round her.

“Yes, you do, honey. You can’t help liking God. He is Love itself, you
know. You mustn’t mix Him up with Ellen Greene’s God, of course.”

Emily didn’t know exactly what Father meant. But all at once she found
that she wasn’t afraid any longer--and the bitterness had gone out of
her sorrow, and the unbearable pain out of her heart. She felt as if
love was all about her and around her, breathed out from some great,
invisible, hovering Tenderness. One couldn’t be afraid or bitter
where love was--and love was everywhere. Father was going through the
door--no, he was going to lift a curtain--she liked _that_ thought
better, because a curtain wasn’t as hard and fast as a door--and he
would slip into that world of which the flash had given her glimpses.
He would be there in its beauty--never very far away from her. She
could bear anything if she could only feel that Father wasn’t very far
away from her--just beyond that wavering curtain.

Douglas Starr held her until she fell asleep; and then in spite of his
weakness he managed to lay her down in her little bed.

“She will love deeply--she will suffer terribly--she will have glorious
moments to compensate--as I have had. As her mother’s people deal with
her, so may God deal with them,” he murmured brokenly.




CHAPTER III

A HOP OUT OF KIN


Douglas Starr lived two weeks more. In after years when the pain
had gone out of their recollection, Emily thought they were the
most precious of her memories. They were beautiful weeks--beautiful
and not sad. And one night, when he was lying on the couch in the
sitting-room, with Emily beside him in the old wing-chair, he went past
the curtain--went so quietly and easily that Emily did not know he was
gone until she suddenly felt the strange _stillness_ of the room--there
was no breathing in it but her own.

“Father--Father!” she cried. Then she screamed for Ellen.

Ellen Greene told the Murrays when they came that Emily had behaved
real well, when you took everything into account. To be sure, she had
cried all night and hadn’t slept a wink; none of the Maywood people who
came flocking kindly in to help could comfort her; but when morning
came her tears were all shed. She was pale and quiet and docile.

“That’s right, now,” said Ellen, “that’s what comes of being properly
prepared. Your pa was so mad at me for warning you that he wasn’t
rightly civil to me since--and him a dying man. But I don’t hold any
grudge against him. _I_ did my duty. Mrs. Hubbard’s fixing up a black
dress for you and it’ll be ready by supper time. Your ma’s people will
be here tonight, so they’ve telegraphed, and I’m bound they’ll find you
looking respectable. They’re well off and they’ll provide for you. Your
pa hasn’t left a cent but there ain’t any debts, I’ll say _that_ for
him. Have you been in to see the body?”

“Don’t call him _that_,” cried Emily, wincing. It was horrible to hear
Father called _that_.

“Why not? If you ain’t the queerest child! He makes a better looking
corpse than I thought he would, what with being so wasted and all. He
was always a pretty man, though too thin.”

“Ellen Greene,” said Emily suddenly, “if you say any more of--those
things--about Father, I will put the black curse on you!”

Ellen Greene stared.

“I don’t know what on earth you mean. But that’s no way to talk to me,
after all I’ve done for you. You’d better not let the Murrays hear you
talking like that or they won’t want much to do with you. The black
curse indeed! Well, here’s gratitude!”

Emily’s eyes smarted. She was just a lonely, solitary little creature
and she felt very friendless. But she was not at all remorseful for
what she had said to Ellen and she was not going to pretend she was.

“Come you here and help me wash these dishes,” ordered Ellen. “It’ll
do you good to have something to take up your mind and then you won’t
be after putting curses on people who have worked their fingers to the
bone for you.”

Emily, with an eloquent glance at Ellen’s hands, went and got the dish
towel.

“Your hands are fat and pudgy,” she said. “The bones don’t show at all.”

“Never mind sassing back! It’s awful, with your poor pa dead in there.
But if your Aunt Ruth takes you she’ll soon cure you of that.”

“Is Aunt Ruth going to take me?”

“I don’t know, but she ought to. She’s a widow with no chick or child,
and well-to-do.”

“I don’t think I want Aunt Ruth to take me,” said Emily deliberately,
after a moment’s reflection.

“Well, _you_ won’t have the choosing likely. You ought to be thankful
to get a home anywhere. Remember you’re not of much importance.”

“I am important to myself,” cried Emily proudly.

“It’ll be some chore to bring _you_ up,” muttered Ellen. “Your Aunt
Ruth is the one to do it, in my opinion. _She_ won’t stand no nonsense.
A fine woman she is and the neatest housekeeper on P. E. Island. You
could eat off her floor.”

“I don’t want to eat off her floor. I don’t care if a floor is dirty as
long as the tablecloth is clean.”

“Well, her tablecloths are clean too, I reckon. She’s got an elegant
house in Shrewsbury with bow windows and wooden lace all round the
roof. It’s very stylish. It would be a fine home for you. She’d learn
you some sense and do you a world of good.”

“I don’t want to learn sense and be done a world of good to,” cried
Emily with a quivering lip. “I--I want somebody to love me.”

“Well, you’ve got to behave yourself if you want people to like you.
You’re not to blame so much--your pa has spoiled you. I told him so
often enough, but he just laughed. I hope he ain’t sorry for it now.
The fact is, Emily Starr, you’re queer, and folks don’t care for queer
children.”

“How am I queer?” demanded Emily.

“You talk queer--and you act queer--and at times you look queer.
And you’re too old for your age--though that ain’t _your_ fault. It
comes of never mixing with other children. I’ve always threaped at
your father to send you to school--learning at home ain’t the same
thing--but he wouldn’t listen to me, of course. I don’t say but what
you are as far along in book learning as you need to be, but what you
want is to learn how to be like other children. In one way it would
be a good thing if your Uncle Oliver would take you, for he’s got a
big family. But he’s not as well off as the rest, so it ain’t likely
he will. Your Uncle Wallace might, seeing as he reckons himself the
head of the family. He’s only got a grown-up daughter. But his wife’s
delicate--or fancies she is.”

“I wish Aunt Laura would take me,” said Emily. She remembered that
Father had said Aunt Laura was something like her mother.

“Aunt Laura! _She_ won’t have no say in it--Elizabeth’s boss at New
Moon. Jimmy Murray runs the farm, but he ain’t quite all there, I’m
told--”

“What part of him isn’t there?” asked Emily curiously.

“Laws, it’s something about his mind, child. He’s a bit simple--some
accident or other when he was a youngster, I’ve heard. It addled his
head, kind of. Elizabeth was mixed up in it some way--I’ve never heard
the rights of it. I don’t reckon the New Moon people will want to be
bothered with you. They’re awful set in their ways. You take my advice
and try to please your Aunt Ruth. Be polite--and well-behaved--mebbe
she’ll take a fancy to you. There, that’s all the dishes. You’d better
go upstairs and be out of the way.”

“Can I take Mike and Saucy Sal?” asked Emily.

“No, you can’t.”

“They’d be company for me,” pleaded Emily.

“Company or no company, you can’t have them. They’re outside and
they’ll stay outside. I ain’t going to have them tracking all over the
house. The floor’s been scrubbed.”

“Why didn’t you scrub the floor when Father was alive?” asked Emily.
“He liked things to be clean. You hardly ever scrubbed it then. Why do
you do it now?”

“Listen to her! Was I to be always scrubbing floors with my rheumatiz?
Get off upstairs and you’d better lie down awhile.”

“I’m going upstairs, but I’m not going to lie down,” said Emily. “I’ve
got a lot of thinking to do.”

“There’s one thing I’d advise you to do,” said Ellen, determined to
lose no chance of doing her duty, “and that is to kneel down and pray
to God to make you a good and respectful and grateful child.”

Emily paused at the foot of the stairs and looked back.

“Father said I wasn’t to have anything to do with your God,” she said
gravely.

Ellen gasped foolishly, but could not think of any reply to this
heathenish statement. She appealed to the universe.

“Did any one ever hear the like!”

“I know what _your_ God is like,” said Emily. “I saw His picture in
that Adam-and-Eve book of yours. He has whiskers and wears a nightgown.
I don’t like Him. But I like Father’s God.”

“And what is your father’s God like, if I may ask?” demanded Ellen
sarcastically.

Emily hadn’t any idea what Father’s God was like, but she was
determined not to be posed by Ellen.

“He is clear as the moon, fair as the sun, and terrible as an army with
banners,” she said triumphantly.

“Well, you’re bound to have the last word, but the Murrays will teach
you what’s what,” said Ellen, giving up the argument. “They’re strict
Presbyterians and won’t hold by any of your father’s awful notions. Get
off upstairs.”

Emily went up to the south room, feeling very desolate.

“There isn’t anybody in the world who loves me now,” she said, as
she curled up on her bed by the window. But she was determined she
would not cry. The Murrays, who had hated her father, should not see
her crying. She felt that she detested them all--except perhaps Aunt
Laura. How very big and empty the world had suddenly become. Nothing
was interesting any more. It did not matter that the little squat
apple-tree between Adam-and-Eve had become a thing of rose-and-snow
beauty--that the hills beyond the hollow were of green silk,
purple-misted--that the daffodils were out in the garden--that the
birches were hung all over with golden tassels--that the Wind Woman was
blowing white young clouds across the sky. None of these things had any
charm or consolation for her now. In her inexperience she believed they
never would have again.

“But I promised Father I’d be brave,” she whispered, clenching her
little fists, “and I will. And I _won’t_ let the Murrays see I’m afraid
of them--I won’t _be_ afraid of them!”

When the far-off whistle of the afternoon train blew beyond the hills,
Emily’s heart began to beat. She clasped her hands and lifted her face.

“Please help me, Father’s God--_not_ Ellen’s God,” she said. “Help me
to be brave and not cry before the Murrays.”

Soon after there was the sound of wheels below--and voices--loud,
decided voices. Then Ellen came puffing up the stairs with the black
dress--a sleazy thing of cheap merino.

“Mrs. Hubbard just got it done in time, thanks be. I wouldn’t ’a’
had the Murrays see you not in black for the world. They can’t say I
haven’t done my duty. They’re all here--the New Moon people and Oliver
and his wife, your Aunt Addie, and Wallace and his wife, your Aunt Eva,
and Aunt Ruth--Mrs. Dutton, _her_ name is. There, you’re ready now.
Come along.”

“Can’t I put my Venetian beads on?” asked Emily.

“Did ever any mortal! Venetian beads with a mourning dress! Shame on
you! Is this a time to be thinking of vanity?”

“It isn’t vanity!” cried Emily. “Father gave me those beads last
Christmas--and I want to show the Murrays that I’ve got _something_!”

“No more of your nonsense! Come along, I say! Mind your
manners--there’s a good deal depends on the impression you make on
them.”

Emily walked rigidly downstairs before Ellen and into the parlour.
Eight people were sitting around it--and she instantly felt the
critical gaze of sixteen stranger eyes. She looked very pale and plain
in her black dress; the purple shadows left by weeping made her large
eyes look too large and hollow. She was desperately afraid, and she
knew it--but she would not let the Murrays see it. She held up her head
and faced the ordeal before her gallantly.

“This,” said Ellen, turning her around by the shoulder, “is your Uncle
Wallace.”

Emily shuddered and put out a cold hand. She did not like Uncle
Wallace--she knew that at once--he was black and grim and ugly, with
frowning, bristly brows and a stern, unpitying mouth. He had big
pouches under his eyes, and carefully-trimmed black side-whiskers.
Emily decided then and there that she did not admire side-whiskers.

“How do you do, Emily?” he said coldly--and just as coldly he bent
forward and kissed her cheek.

A sudden wave of indignation swept over Emily’s soul. How _dared_ he
kiss her--he had hated her father and disowned her mother! She would
have none of his kisses! Flash-quick, she snatched her handkerchief
from her pocket and wiped her outraged cheek.

“Well--_well_!” exclaimed a disagreeable voice from the other side of
the room.

Uncle Wallace looked as if he would like to say a great many things but
couldn’t think of them. Ellen, with a grunt of despair, propelled Emily
to the next sitter.

“Your Aunt Eva,” she said.

Aunt Eva was sitting huddled up in a shawl. She had the fretful face
of the imaginary invalid. She shook hands with Emily and said nothing.
Neither did Emily.

“Your Uncle Oliver,” announced Ellen.

Emily rather liked Uncle Oliver’s appearance. He was big and fat and
rosy and jolly-looking. She thought she would not mind so much if _he_
kissed her, in spite of his bristly white moustache. But Uncle Oliver
had learned Uncle Wallace’s lesson.

“I’ll give you a quarter for a kiss,” he whispered genially. A joke was
Uncle Oliver’s idea of being kind and sympathetic, but Emily did not
know this, and resented it.

“I don’t _sell_ my kisses,” she said, lifting her head as haughtily as
any Murray of them all could do.

Uncle Oliver chuckled and seemed infinitely amused and not a bit
offended. But Emily heard a sniff across the room.

Aunt Addie was next. She was as fat and rosy and jolly-looking as her
husband and she gave Emily’s cold hand a nice, gentle squeeze.

“How are you, dear?” she said.

That “dear” touched Emily and thawed her a trifle. But the next in
turn froze her up instantly again. It was Aunt Ruth--Emily knew it was
Aunt Ruth before Ellen said so, and she knew it was Aunt Ruth who had
“well--welled” and sniffed. She knew the cold, grey eyes, the prim, dull
brown hair, the short, stout figure, the thin, pinched, merciless mouth.

Aunt Ruth held out the tips of her fingers, but Emily did not take them.

“Shake hands with your Aunt,” said Ellen in an angry whisper.

“She does not want to shake hands with me,” said Emily, distinctly,
“and so I am not going to do it.”

Aunt Ruth folded her scorned hands back on her black silk lap.

“You are a very ill-bred child,” she said; “but of course it was only
what was to be expected.”

Emily felt a sudden compunction. Had she cast a reflection on her
father by her behaviour? Perhaps after all she should have shaken hands
with Aunt Ruth. But it was too late now--Ellen had already jerked her
on.

“This is your Cousin, Mr. James Murray,” said Ellen, in the disgusted
tone of one who gives up something as a bad job and is only anxious to
be done with it.

“Cousin Jimmy--Cousin Jimmy,” said that individual. Emily looked
steadily at him, and liked him at once without any reservations.

He had a little, rosy, elfish face with a forked grey beard; his hair
curled over his head in a most un-Murray-like mop of glossy brown; and
his large, brown eyes were as kind and frank as a child’s. He gave
Emily a hearty handshake, though he looked askance at the lady across
from him while doing it.

“Hello, pussy!” he said.

Emily began to smile at him, but her smile was, as always, so slow in
developing that Ellen had whisked her on before it was in full flower,
and it was Aunt Laura who got the benefit of it. Aunt Laura started and
paled.

“Juliet’s smile!” she said, half under her breath. And again Aunt Ruth
sniffed.

Aunt Laura did not look like any one else in the room. She was almost
pretty, with her delicate features and the heavy coils of pale, sleek,
fair hair, faintly greyed, pinned closely all around her head. But it
was her eyes that won Emily. They were such round blue, _blue_ eyes.
One never quite got over the shock of their blueness. And when she
spoke it was in a beautiful, soft voice.

“You poor, dear, little child,” she said, and put her arm around Emily
for a gentle hug.

Emily returned the hug and had a narrow escape then from letting
the Murrays see her cry. All that saved her was the fact that Ellen
suddenly pushed her on into the corner by the window.

“And this is your Aunt Elizabeth.”

Yes, this was Aunt Elizabeth. No doubt about that--and she had on a
stiff, black satin dress, so stiff and rich that Emily felt sure it
must be her very best. This pleased Emily. Whatever Aunt Elizabeth
thought of her father, at least she had paid him the respect of her
best dress. And Aunt Elizabeth was quite fine looking in a tall,
thin, austere style, with clear-cut features and a massive coronet
of iron-grey hair under her black lace cap. But her eyes, though
steel-blue, were as cold as Aunt Ruth’s, and her long, thin mouth was
compressed severely. Under her cool, appraising glance Emily retreated
into herself and shut the door of her soul. She would have liked to
please Aunt Elizabeth--who was “boss” at New Moon--but she felt she
could not do it.

Aunt Elizabeth shook hands and said nothing--the truth being that she
did not know exactly what to say. Elizabeth Murray would not have felt
“put about” before King or Governor-General. The Murray pride would
have carried her through there; but she did feel disturbed in the
presence of this alien, level-gazing child who had already shown that
she was anything but meek and humble. Though Elizabeth Murray would
never have admitted it, she did not want to be snubbed as Wallace and
Ruth had been.

“Go and sit on the sofa,” ordered Ellen.

Emily sat on the sofa with her eyes cast down, a slight, black,
indomitable little figure. She folded her hands on her lap and crossed
her ankles. They should see she had manners.

Ellen had retreated to the kitchen, thanking her stars that _that_ was
over. Emily did not like Ellen but she felt deserted when Ellen had
gone. She was alone now before the bar of Murray opinion. She would
have given anything to be out of the room. Yet in the back of her mind
a design was forming of writing all about it in the old account book.
It would be interesting. She could describe them all--she knew she
could. She had the very word for Aunt Ruth’s eyes--“stone-grey.” They
were just like stones--as hard and cold and relentless. Then a pang
tore through her heart. Father could never again read what she wrote in
the account book.

Still--she felt that she would rather like to write it all out. How
could she best describe Aunt Laura’s eyes? They were such beautiful
eyes--just to call them “blue” meant nothing--hundreds of people had
blue eyes--oh, she had it--“wells of blue”--that was the very thing.

And then the flash came!

It was the first time since the dreadful night when Ellen had met her
on the doorstep. She had thought it could never come again--and now in
this most unlikely place and time it _had_ come--she had seen, with
other eyes than those of sense, the wonderful world behind the veil.
Courage and hope flooded her cold little soul like a wave of rosy
light. She lifted her head and looked about her undauntedly--“brazenly”
Aunt Ruth afterwards declared.

Yes, she _would_ write them all out in the account book--describe
every last one of them--sweet Aunt Laura, nice Cousin Jimmy, grim old
Uncle Wallace, and moon-faced Uncle Oliver, stately Aunt Elizabeth and
detestable Aunt Ruth.

“She’s a delicate-looking child,” said Aunt Eva, suddenly, in her
fretful, colourless voice.

“Well, what else could you expect?” said Aunt Addie, with a sigh that
seemed to Emily to hold some dire significance. “She’s too pale--if she
had a little colour she wouldn’t be bad-looking.”

“I don’t know who she looks like,” said Uncle Oliver, staring at Emily.

“She is not a Murray, that is plain to be seen,” said Aunt Elizabeth,
decidedly and disapprovingly.

“They are talking about me just as if I wasn’t here,” thought Emily,
her heart swelling with indignation over the indecency of it.

“I wouldn’t call her a Starr either,” said Uncle Oliver. “Seems to me
she’s more like the Byrds--she’s got her grandmother’s hair and eyes.”

“She’s got old George Byrd’s nose,” said Aunt Ruth, in a tone that left
no doubt as to her opinion of George’s nose.

“She’s got her father’s forehead,” said Aunt Eva, also disapprovingly.

“She has her mother’s smile,” said Aunt Laura, but in such a low tone
that nobody heard her.

“And Juliet’s long lashes--hadn’t Juliet very long lashes?” said Aunt
Addie.

Emily had reached the limit of her endurance.

“You make me feel as if I was made up of scraps and patches!” she burst
out indignantly.

The Murrays stared at her. Perhaps they felt some compunction--for,
after all, none of them were ogres and all were human, more or less.
Apparently nobody could think of anything to say, but the shocked
silence was broken by a chuckle from Cousin Jimmy--a low chuckle, full
of mirth and free from malice.

“That’s right, puss,” he said. “Stand up to them--take your own part.”

“Jimmy!” said Aunt Ruth.

Jimmy subsided.

Aunt Ruth looked at Emily.

“When I was a little girl,” she said, “I never spoke until I was spoken
to.”

“But if nobody ever spoke until they were spoken to there would be no
conversation,” said Emily argumentatively.

“I never answered back,” Aunt Ruth went on severely. “In those days
little girls were trained properly. We were polite and respectful to
our elders. We were taught our place and we kept it.”

“I don’t believe you ever had much fun,” said Emily--and then gasped in
horror. She hadn’t meant to say that out loud--she had only meant to
_think_ it. But she had such an old habit of thinking aloud to Father.

“Fun!” said Aunt Ruth, in a shocked tone. “I did not think of fun when
I was a little girl.”

“No, I know,” said Emily gravely. Her voice and manner were perfectly
respectful, for she was anxious to atone for her involuntary lapse.
Yet Aunt Ruth looked as if she would like to box her ears. This child
was _pitying_ her--insulting her by being sorry for _her_--because of
her prim, impeccable childhood. It was unendurable--especially in a
Starr. And that abominable Jimmy was chuckling again! Elizabeth should
suppress him!

Fortunately Ellen Greene appeared at this juncture and announced supper.

“You’ve got to wait,” she whispered to Emily. “There ain’t room for you
at the table.”

Emily was glad. She knew she could not eat a bite under the Murray
eyes. Her aunts and uncles filed out stiffly without looking at
her--all except Aunt Laura, who turned at the door and blew her a tiny,
furtive kiss. Before Emily could respond Ellen Greene had shut the door.

Emily was left all alone in the room that was filling with twilight
shadows. The pride that had sustained her in the presence of the
Murrays suddenly failed her and she knew that tears were coming. She
went straight to the closed door at the end of the parlour, opened
it, and went in. Her father’s coffin stood in the centre of the small
room which had been a bedroom. It was heaped with flowers--the Murrays
had done the proper thing in that as in all else. The great anchor of
white roses Uncle Wallace had brought stood up aggressively on the
small table at the head. Emily could not see her father’s face for Aunt
Ruth’s heavily-fragrant pillow of white hyacinths lying on the glass,
and she dared not move it. But she curled herself up on the floor and
laid her cheek against the polished side of the casket. They found her
there asleep when they came in after supper. Aunt Laura lifted her up
and said,

“I’m going to take the poor child up to bed--she’s worn right out.”

Emily opened her eyes and looked drowsily about her.

“Can I have Mike?” she said.

“Who is Mike?”

“My cat--my big grey cat.”

“A cat!” exclaimed Aunt Elizabeth in a shocked tone. “You must not have
a cat in your bedroom!”

“Why not--for once?” pleaded Laura.

“Certainly not!” said Aunt Elizabeth. “A cat is a most unwholesome
thing in a sleeping apartment. I’m surprised at you, Laura! Take the
child up to bed and see that there are plenty of bedclothes. It’s a
cold night--but let me hear no more talk of sleeping with cats.”

“Mike is a clean cat,” said Emily. “He washes himself--every day.”

“Take her up to bed, Laura!” said Aunt Elizabeth, ignoring Emily.

Aunt Laura yielded meekly. She carried Emily upstairs, helped her
undress, and tucked her into bed. Emily was very sleepy. But before
she was wholly asleep she felt something, soft and warm and purry and
companionable, snuggling down by her shoulder. Aunt Laura had sneaked
down, found Mike and brought him up to her. Aunt Elizabeth never knew
and Ellen Greene dared not say a word in protest--for was not Laura a
Murray of New Moon?




CHAPTER IV

A FAMILY CONCLAVE


Emily wakened at daylight the next morning. Through her low,
uncurtained window the splendour of the sunrise was coming in, and one
faint, white star was still lingering in the crystal-green sky over the
Rooster Pine. A fresh sweet wind of dawn was blowing around the eaves.
Ellen Greene was sleeping in the big bed and snoring soundly. Except
for that the little house was very still. It was the chance for which
Emily had waited.

Very carefully she slipped from her bed, tiptoed across the room and
opened the door. Mike uncoiled himself from the mat on the middle of
the floor and followed her, rubbing his warm sides against her chilly
little ankles. Almost guiltily she crept down the bare, dark staircase.
How the steps creaked--surely it would waken everybody! But nobody
appeared and Emily got down and slipped into the parlour, drawing a
long breath of relief as she closed the door. She almost ran across the
room to the other door.

Aunt Ruth’s floral pillow still covered the glass of the casket. Emily,
with a tightening of the lips that gave her face an odd resemblance to
Aunt Elizabeth, lifted up the pillow and set it on the floor.

“Oh, Father--Father!” she whispered, putting her hand to her throat to
keep something down. She stood there, a little shivering, white-clad
figure, and looked at her father. This was to be her good-bye; she must
say it when they were alone together--she would not say it before the
Murrays.

Father looked so beautiful. All the lines of pain had vanished--his
face looked almost like a boy’s except for the silver hair above it.
And he was smiling--such a nice, whimsical, wise little smile, as if he
had suddenly discovered something lovely and unexpected and surprising.
She had seen many nice smiles on his face in life but never one just
like this.

“Father, I didn’t cry before them,” she whispered. “I’m sure I didn’t
disgrace the Starrs. Not shaking hands with Aunt Ruth wasn’t disgracing
the Starrs, was it? Because she didn’t really want me to--oh, Father,
I don’t think any of them like me, unless perhaps Aunt Laura does a
little. And I’m going to cry a little bit now, Father, because I can’t
keep it back _all_ the time.”

She laid her face on the cold glass and sobbed bitterly but briefly.
She must say good-bye before any one found her. Raising her head she
looked long and earnestly at the beloved face.

“Good-bye, dearest darling,” she whispered chokingly.

Dashing away her blinding tears she replaced Aunt Ruth’s pillow, hiding
her father’s face from her forever. Then she slipped out, intent on
speedily regaining her room. At the door she almost fell over Cousin
Jimmy, who was sitting on a chair before it, swathed in a huge, checked
dressing-gown, and nursing Mike.

“S-s-h!” he whispered, patting her on the shoulder. “_I_ heard you
coming down and followed you. _I_ knew what you wanted. I’ve been
sitting here to keep them out if any of them came after you. Here, take
this and hurry back to your bed, small pussy.”

“This” was a roll of peppermint lozenges. Emily clutched it and fled,
overcome with shame at being seen by Cousin Jimmy in her nightgown.
She hated peppermints and never ate them, but the fact of Cousin Jimmy
Murray’s kindness in giving them to her sent a thrill of delight to her
heart. And he called her “small pussy,” too,--she liked that. She had
thought nobody would ever call her nice pet names again. Father had had
so many of them for her--“sweetheart” and “darling” and “Emily-child”
and “dear wee kidlet” and “honey” and “elfkin.” He had a pet name for
every mood and she had loved them all. As for Cousin Jimmy, he was
nice. Whatever part of him was missing it wasn’t his heart. She felt so
grateful to him that after she was safely in her bed again she forced
herself to eat one of the lozenges, though it took all her grit to
worry it down.

The funeral was held that forenoon. For once the lonesome little house
in the hollow was filled. The coffin was taken into the parlour and
the Murrays as mourners sat stiffly and decorously all round it, Emily
among them, pale and prim in her black dress. She sat between Aunt
Elizabeth and Uncle Wallace and dared not move a muscle. No other Starr
was present. Her father had no near living relatives. The Maywood
people came and looked at his dead face with a freedom and insolent
curiosity they would never have presumed on in life. Emily hated to
have them looking at her father like that. They had no right--they
hadn’t been friendly to him while he was alive--they had said harsh
things of him--Ellen Greene had sometimes repeated them. Every glance
that fell on him hurt Emily; but she sat still and gave no outward
sign. Aunt Ruth said afterwards that she had never seen a child so
absolutely devoid of all natural feeling.

When the service was over the Murrays rose and marched around the
coffin for a dutiful look of farewell. Aunt Elizabeth took Emily’s
hand and tried to draw her along with them but Emily pulled it back
and shook her head. She had said her good-bye already. Aunt Elizabeth
seemed for a moment to be on the point of insisting; then she grimly
swept onward, alone, looking every inch a Murray. No scene must be made
at a funeral.

Douglas Starr was to be taken to Charlottetown for burial beside his
wife. The Murrays were all going but Emily was not to go. She watched
the funeral procession as it wound up the long, grassy hill, through
the light grey rain that was beginning to fall. Emily was glad it was
raining; many a time she had heard Ellen Greene say that happy was the
corpse the rain fell on; and it was easier to see Father go away in
that soft, kind, grey mist than through sparkling, laughing sunshine.

“Well, I must say the funeral went off fine,” said Ellen Greene at
her shoulder. “Everything’s been done regardless. If your father was
looking down from heaven at it, Emily, I’m sure he’d be pleased.”

“He isn’t in heaven,” said Emily.

“Good gracious! Of all the children!” Ellen could say no more.

“He isn’t there _yet_. He’s only on the way. He said he’d wait around
and go slow until I died, too, so that I could catch up with him. I
hope I’ll die soon.”

“That’s a wicked, wicked thing to wish,” rebuked Ellen.

When the last buggy had disappeared Emily went back to the
sitting-room, got a book out of the bookcase, and buried herself in the
wing-chair. The women who were tidying up were glad she was quiet and
out of the way.

“It’s well she can read,” said Mrs. Hubbard gloomily. “Some little
girls couldn’t be so composed--Jennie Hood just screamed and shrieked
after they carried her mother out--the Hoods are all such a _feeling_
people.”

Emily was not reading. She was thinking. She knew the Murrays would be
back in the afternoon; and she knew her fate would probably be settled
then. “We’ll talk the matter over when we come back,” she had heard
Uncle Wallace saying that morning after breakfast. Some instinct told
her just what “the matter” was; and she would have given one of her
pointed ears to hear the discussion with the other. But she knew very
well she would be sent out of the way. So she was not surprised when
Ellen came to her in the twilight and said:

“You’d better go upstairs, Emily. Your aunts and uncles are coming in
here to talk over the business.”

“Can’t I help you get supper?” asked Emily, who thought that if she
were going and coming around the kitchen she might catch a word or two.

“No. You’d be more bother than help. March, now.”

Ellen waddled out to the kitchen, without waiting to see if Emily
marched. Emily got up reluctantly. How could she sleep to-night if she
did not know what was going to happen to her? And she felt quite sure
she would not be told till morning, if then.

Her eyes fell on the oblong table in the centre of the room. Its cloth
was of generous proportions, falling in heavy folds to the floor. There
was a flash of black stockings across the rug, a sudden disturbance
of drapery, and then--silence. Emily, on the floor under the table,
arranged her legs comfortably and sat triumphant. She would hear what
was decided and nobody would be any the wiser.

She had never been told that it was not considered strictly honourable
to eavesdrop, no occasion for such instruction ever having arisen in
her life with her father; and she considered that it was a bit of pure
luck that she had thought of hiding under the table. She could even see
dimly through the cloth. Her heart beat so loudly in her excitement
that she was afraid they would hear it; there was no other sound save
the soft, faraway singing of frogs through the rain, that sounded
through the open window.

In they came; down they sat around the room; Emily held her breath; for
a few minutes nobody spoke, though Aunt Eva sighed long and heavily.
Then Uncle Wallace cleared his throat and said,

“Well, what is to be done with the child?”

Nobody was in a hurry to answer. Emily thought they would _never_
speak. Finally Aunt Eva said with a whine,

“She’s such a difficult child--so odd. _I_ can’t understand her at all.”

“I think,” said Aunt Laura timidly, “that she has what one might call
an artistic temperament.”

“She’s a spoiled child,” said Aunt Ruth very decidedly. “There’s work
ahead to straighten out _her_ manners, if you ask me.”

(The little listener under the table turned her head and shot a
scornful glance at Aunt Ruth through the tablecloth. “_I_ think that
your own manners have a slight curve.” Emily did not dare even to
murmur the words under her breath, but she shaped them with her mouth;
this was a great relief and satisfaction.)

“I agree with you,” said Aunt Eva, “and I for one do not feel equal to
the task.”

(Emily understood that this meant Uncle Wallace didn’t mean to take her
and she rejoiced thereat.)

“The truth is,” said Uncle Wallace, “Aunt Nancy ought to take her. She
has more of this world’s goods than any of us.”

“Aunt Nancy would never dream of taking her and you know it well
enough!” said Uncle Oliver. “Besides, she’s entirely too old to have
the bringing up of a child--her and that old witch Caroline. Upon my
soul, I don’t believe either of them is human. I would like to take
Emily--but I feel that I can hardly do it. I’ve a large family to
provide for.”

“She’ll not likely live long to bother any one,” said Aunt Elizabeth
crisply. “She’ll probably die of consumption same as her father did.”

(“I won’t--I won’t!” exclaimed Emily--at least she _thought_ it with
such vim that it almost seemed that she exclaimed it. She forgot that
she had wanted to die soon, so that she could overtake Father. She
wanted to live now, just to put the Murrays in the wrong. “I haven’t
_any_ intention of dying. I’m going to live--for ages--and be a famous
_authoress_--you’ll just see if I don’t, Aunt Elizabeth Murray!”)

“She _is_ a weedy looking child,” acknowledged Uncle Wallace.

(Emily relieved her outraged feelings by making a face at Uncle Wallace
through the tablecloth. “If I ever possess a pig I am going to name
it after _you_,” she thought--and then felt quite satisfied with her
revenge.)

“Somebody has to look after her as long as she’s alive though, you
know,” said Uncle Oliver.

(“It would serve you all right if I _did_ die and you suffered terrible
remorse for it all the rest of your lives,” Emily thought. Then in
the pause that happened to follow, she dramatically pictured out her
funeral, selected her pall-bearers, and tried to choose the hymn verse
that she wanted engraved on her tombstone. But before she could settle
this Uncle Wallace began again.)

“Well, we are not getting anywhere. We have to look after the child--”

(“I _wish_ you wouldn’t call me ‘_the child_,’” thought Emily bitterly.)

“--and some of us must give her a home. Juliet’s daughter must not be
left to the mercy of strangers. Personally, I feel that Eva’s health is
not equal to the care and training of a child--”

“Of _such_ a child,” said Aunt Eva.

(Emily stuck her tongue out at Aunt Eva.)

“Poor little soul,” said Aunt Laura gently.

(Something frozen in Emily’s heart melted at that moment. She was
pitifully pleased over being called “poor little soul” so tenderly.)

“I do not think you need pity her overmuch, Laura,” said Uncle Wallace
decidedly. “It is evident that she has very little feeling. I have not
seen her shed a tear since we came here.”

“Did you notice that she would not even take a last look at her
father?” said Aunt Elizabeth.

Cousin Jimmy suddenly whistled at the ceiling.

“She feels so much that she has to hide it,” said Aunt Laura.

Uncle Wallace snorted.

“Don’t you think _we_ might take her, Elizabeth?” Laura went on timidly.

Aunt Elizabeth stirred restlessly.

“I don’t suppose she’d be contented at New Moon, with three old people
like us.”

(“I would--I would!” thought Emily.)

“Ruth, what about you?” said Uncle Wallace. “You’re all alone in that
big house. It would be a good thing for you to have some company.”

“I don’t like her,” said Aunt Ruth sharply. “She is as sly as a snake.”

(“I’m _not_!” thought Emily.)

“With wise and careful training many of her faults may be cured,” said
Uncle Wallace, pompously.

(“I don’t _want_ them cured!” Emily was getting angrier and angrier
all the time under the table. “I like _my_ faults better than I do
_your_--_your_--” she fumbled mentally for a word--then triumphantly
recalled a phrase of her father’s--“your _abominable_ virtues!”)

“I doubt it,” said Aunt Ruth, in a biting tone. “What’s bred in the
bone comes out in the flesh. As for Douglas Starr, I think that it was
perfectly disgraceful for him to die and leave that child without a
cent.”

“Did he do it on purpose?” asked Cousin Jimmy blandly. It was the first
time he had spoken.

“He was a miserable failure,” snapped Aunt Ruth.

“He wasn’t--he wasn’t!” screamed Emily, suddenly sticking her head out
under the tablecloth, between the end legs of the table.

For a moment the Murrays sat as silent and motionless as if her
outburst had turned them to stone. Then Aunt Ruth rose, stalked to the
table, and lifted the cloth, behind which Emily had retired in dismay,
realising what she had done.

“Get up and come out of that, Em’ly Starr!” said Aunt Ruth.

“Em’ly Starr” got up and came out. She was not specially
frightened--she was too angry to be that. Her eyes had gone black and
her cheeks crimson.

“What a little beauty--what a regular little beauty!” said Cousin
Jimmy. But nobody heard him. Aunt Ruth had the floor.

“You shameless little eavesdropper!” she said. “There’s the Starr blood
coming out--a Murray would never have done such a thing. You ought to
be whipped!”

“Father wasn’t a failure!” cried Emily, choking with anger. “You had no
right to call him a failure. Nobody who was loved as much as he was
could be a failure. I don’t believe anybody _ever_ loved you. So it’s
_you_ that’s a failure. And I’m _not_ going to die of consumption.”

“Do you realize what a shameful thing you’ve been guilty of?” demanded
Aunt Ruth, cold with anger.

“I wanted to hear what was going to become of me,” cried Emily. “I
didn’t know it was such a dreadful thing to do--I didn’t know you were
going to say such horrid things about me.”

“Listeners never hear any good of themselves,” said Aunt Elizabeth
impressively. “Your mother would _never_ have done that, Emily.”

The bravado all went out of poor Emily. She felt guilty and
miserable--oh, so miserable. She hadn’t known--but it seemed she had
committed a terrible sin.

“Go upstairs,” said Aunt Ruth.

Emily went, without a protest. But before going she looked around the
room.

“While I was under the table,” she said, “I made a face at Uncle
Wallace and stuck my tongue out at Aunt Eva.”

She said it sorrowfully, desiring to make a clean breast of her
transgressions; but so easily do we misunderstand each other that
the Murrays actually thought that she was indulging in a piece of
gratuitous impertinence. When the door had closed behind her they
all--except Aunt Laura and Cousin Jimmy--shook their heads and groaned.

Emily went upstairs in a state of bitter humiliation. She felt that she
had done something that gave the Murrays the right to despise her, and
they thought it was the Starr coming out in her--and she had not even
found out what her fate was to be.

She looked dismally at little Emily-in-the-glass.

“I didn’t know--I didn’t know,” she whispered. “But I’ll know after
this,” she added with sudden vim, “and I’ll never, _never_ do it
again.”

For a moment she thought she would throw herself on her bed and cry.
She _couldn’t_ bear all the pain and shame that were burning in her
heart. Then her eyes fell on the old yellow account book on her little
table. A minute later Emily was curled up on her bed, Turk-fashion,
writing eagerly in the old book with her little stubby lead pencil.
As her fingers flew over the faded lines her cheeks flushed and her
eyes shone. She forgot the Murrays although she was writing about
them--she forgot her humiliation--although she was describing what had
happened; for an hour she wrote steadily by the wretched light of her
smoky little lamp, never pausing, save now and then, to gaze out of the
window into the dim beauty of the misty night, while she hunted through
her consciousness for a certain word she wanted; when she found it she
gave a happy sigh and fell to again.

When she heard the Murrays coming upstairs she put her book away. She
had finished; she had written a description of the whole occurrence and
of that conclave ring of Murrays, and she had wound up by a pathetic
description of her own deathbed, with the Murrays standing around
imploring her forgiveness. At first she depicted Aunt Ruth as doing
it on her knees in an agony of remorseful sobs. Then she suspended
her pencil--“Aunt Ruth couldn’t _ever_ feel as bad as _that_ over
anything,” she thought--and drew her pencil through the line.

In the writing, pain and humiliation had passed away. She only felt
tired and rather happy. It _had_ been fun, finding words to fit Uncle
Wallace; and what exquisite satisfaction it had been to describe Aunt
Ruth as “a dumpy little woman.”

“I wonder what my uncles and aunts would say if they knew what I
_really_ think of them,” she murmured as she got into bed.




CHAPTER V

DIAMOND CUT DIAMOND


Emily, who had been pointedly ignored by the Murrays at breakfast, was
called into the parlour when the meal was over.

They were all there--the whole phalanx of them--and it occurred to
Emily as she looked at Uncle Wallace, sitting in the spring sunshine,
that she had not just found the exact word after all to express his
peculiar quality of grimness.

Aunt Elizabeth stood unsmilingly by the table with slips of paper in
her hand.

“Emily,” she said, “last night we could not decide who should take you.
I may say that none of us feel very much like doing so, for you have
behaved very badly in many respects--”

“Oh, Elizabeth,--” protested Laura. “She--she is our sister’s child.”

Elizabeth lifted a hand regally.

“_I_ am doing this, Laura. Have the goodness not to interrupt me. As I
was saying, Emily, we could not decide as to who should have the care
of you. So we have agreed to Cousin Jimmy’s suggestion that we settle
the matter by lot. I have our names here, written on these slips of
paper. You will draw one and the one whose name is on it will give you
a home.”

Aunt Elizabeth held out the slips of paper. Emily trembled so violently
that at first she could not draw one. This was terrible--it seemed as
if she must blindly settle her own fate.

“Draw,” said Aunt Elizabeth.

Emily set her teeth, threw back her head with the air of one who
challenges destiny, and drew. Aunt Elizabeth took the slip from the
little shaking hand and held it up. On it was her own name--“Elizabeth
Murray.” Laura Murray suddenly put her handkerchief to her eyes.

“Well, that’s settled,” said Uncle Wallace, getting up with an air of
relief. “And if I’m going to catch that train I’ve got to hurry. Of
course, as far as the matter of expense goes, Elizabeth, I’ll do my
share.”

“We are not paupers at New Moon,” said Aunt Elizabeth rather coldly.
“Since it has fallen to me to take her, I shall do all that is
necessary, Wallace. I do not shirk my duty.”

“_I_ am her duty,” thought Emily. “Father said nobody ever liked a
duty. So Aunt Elizabeth will never like me.”

“You’ve got more of the Murray pride than all the rest of us put
together, Elizabeth,” laughed Uncle Wallace.

They all followed him out--all except Aunt Laura. She came up to Emily,
standing alone in the middle of the room, and drew her into her arms.

“I’m so glad, Emily--I’m so glad,” she whispered. “Don’t fret, dear
child. I love you already--and New Moon is a nice place, Emily.”

“It has--a pretty name,” said Emily, struggling for self-control.
“I’ve--always hoped--I could go with you, Aunt Laura. I think I am
going to cry--but it’s not because I’m sorry I’m going there. My
manners are _not_ as bad as you may think, Aunt Laura--and I wouldn’t
have listened last night if I’d known it was wrong.”

“Of course you wouldn’t,” said Aunt Laura.

“But I’m not a Murray, you know.”

Then Aunt Laura said a queer thing--for a Murray.

“Thank heaven for that!” said Aunt Laura.

Cousin Jimmy followed Emily out and overtook her in the little hall.
Looking carefully around to ensure privacy, he whispered,

“Your Aunt Laura is a great hand at making an apple turnover, pussy.”

Emily thought apple turnover sounded nice, though she did not know what
it was. She whispered back a question which she would never have dared
ask Aunt Elizabeth or even Aunt Laura.

“Cousin Jimmy, when they make a cake at New Moon, will they let me
scrape out the mixing-bowl and eat the scrapings?”

“Laura will--Elizabeth won’t,” whispered Cousin Jimmy solemnly.

“And put my feet in the oven when they get cold? And have a cooky
before I go to bed?”

“Answer same as before,” said Cousin Jimmy. “_I’ll_ recite my poetry
to you. It’s very few people I do that for. I’ve composed a thousand
poems. They’re not written down--I carry them here.” Cousin Jimmy
tapped his forehead.

“Is it very hard to write poetry?” asked Emily, looking with new
respect at Cousin Jimmy.

“Easy as rolling off a log if you can find enough rhymes,” said Cousin
Jimmy.

They all went away that morning except the New Moon people. Aunt
Elizabeth announced that they would stay until the next day to pack up
and take Emily with them.

“Most of the furniture belongs to the house,” she said, “so it won’t
take us long to get ready. There are only Douglas Starr’s books and his
few personal belongings to pack.”

“How shall I carry my cats?” asked Emily anxiously.

Aunt Elizabeth stared.

“Cats! You’ll take no cats, miss.”

“Oh, I must take Mike and Saucy Sal!” cried Emily wildly. “I can’t
leave them behind. I can’t live without a cat.”

“Nonsense! There are barn cats at New Moon, but they are never allowed
in the house.”

“Don’t you like cats?” asked Emily wonderingly.

“No, I do _not_.”

“Don’t you like the _feel_ of a nice, soft, fat cat?” persisted Emily.

“No; I would as soon touch a snake.”

“There’s a lovely old wax doll of your mother’s up there,” said Aunt
Laura. “I’ll dress it up for you.”

“I don’t like dolls--they can’t talk,” exclaimed Emily.

“Neither can cats.”

“Oh, can’t they! Mike and Saucy Sal can. Oh, I _must_ take them. Oh,
_please_, Aunt Elizabeth. I _love_ those cats. And they’re the only
things left in the world that love me. Please!”

“What’s a cat more or less on two hundred acres?” said Cousin Jimmy,
pulling his forked beard. “Take ’em along, Elizabeth.”

Aunt Elizabeth considered for a moment. She couldn’t understand why
anybody should want a cat. Aunt Elizabeth was one of those people who
never do understand anything unless it is told them in plain language
and hammered into their heads. And _then_ they understand it only with
their brains and not with their hearts.

“You may take _one_ of your cats,” she said at last, with the air of a
person making a great concession. “One--and no more. No, don’t argue.
You may as well learn first as last, Emily, that when _I_ say a thing I
mean it. That’s enough, Jimmy.”

Cousin Jimmy bit off something he had tried to say, stuck his hands in
his pockets, and whistled at the ceiling.

“When she won’t, she won’t--Murray like. We’re all born with that kink
in us, small pussy, and you’ll have to put up with it--more by token
that you’re full of it yourself, you know. Talk about your not being
Murray! The Starr is only skin deep with you.”

“It isn’t--I’m _all_ Starr--I _want_ to be,” cried Emily. “And, oh, how
can I choose between Mike and Saucy Sal?”

This was indeed a problem. Emily wrestled with it all day, her heart
bursting. She liked Mike best--there was no doubt of that; but she
_couldn’t_ leave Saucy Sal to Ellen’s tender mercies. Ellen had always
hated Sal; but she rather liked Mike and she would be good to him.
Ellen was going back to her own little house in Maywood village and she
wanted a cat. At last in the evening, Emily made her bitter decision.
She would take Saucy Sal.

“Better take the Tom,” said Cousin Jimmy. “Not so much bother with
kittens you know, Emily.”

“Jimmy!” said Aunt Elizabeth sternly. Emily wondered over the
sternness. Why weren’t kittens to be spoken of? But she didn’t like to
hear Mike called “the Tom.” It sounded insulting, someway.

And she didn’t like the bustle and commotion of packing up. She longed
for the old quiet and the sweet, remembered talks with her father.
She felt as if he had been thrust far away from her by this influx of
Murrays.

“What’s this?” said Aunt Elizabeth suddenly, pausing for a moment in
her packing. Emily looked up and saw with dismay that Aunt Elizabeth
had in her hands the old account book--that she was opening it--that
she was _reading_ in it. Emily sprang across the floor and snatched the
book.

“You mustn’t read that, Aunt Elizabeth,” she cried indignantly, “that’s
mine,--my own _private property_.”

“Hoity-toity, Miss Starr,” said Aunt Elizabeth, staring at her, “let
me tell you that I have a right to read your books. I am responsible
for you now. I am not going to have anything hidden or underhanded,
understand that. You have evidently something there that you are
ashamed to have seen and I mean to see it. Give me that book.”

“I’m _not_ ashamed of it,” cried Emily, backing away, hugging her
precious book to her breast. “But I won’t let you--or _anybody_--see
it.”

Aunt Elizabeth followed.

“Emily Starr, do you hear what I say? Give me that book--at _once_.”

“No--no!” Emily turned and ran. She would _never_ let Aunt Elizabeth
see that book. She fled to the kitchen stove--she whisked off a
cover--she crammed the book into the glowing fire. It caught and blazed
merrily. Emily watched it in agony. It seemed as if part of herself
were burning there. But Aunt Elizabeth should never see it--see all
the little things she had written and read to Father--all her fancies
about the Wind Woman, and Emily-in-the-glass--all her little cat
dialogues--all the things she had said in it last night about the
Murrays. She watched the leaves shrivel and shudder, as if they were
sentient things, and then turn black. A line of white writing came out
vividly on one. “Aunt Elizabeth is very cold and _hawty_.” What if
Aunt Elizabeth had seen _that_? What if she were seeing it now! Emily
glanced apprehensively over her shoulder. No, Aunt Elizabeth had gone
back to the room and shut the door with what, in anybody but a Murray,
would have been called a bang. The account book was a little heap of
white film on the glowing coals. Emily sat down by the stove and cried.
She felt as if she had lost something incalculably precious. It was
terrible to think that all those dear things were gone. She could never
write them again--not just the same; and if she could she wouldn’t
dare--she would never dare to write _anything_ again, if Aunt Elizabeth
must see everything. Father never insisted on seeing them. She liked to
read them to _him_--but if she hadn’t wanted to do it he would never
have made her. Suddenly Emily, with tears glistening on her cheeks,
wrote a line in an imaginary account book.

“Aunt Elizabeth is cold and hawty; and she is _not fair_.”

Next morning, while Cousin Jimmy was tying the boxes at the back of
the double-seated buggy, and Aunt Elizabeth was giving Ellen her final
instructions, Emily said good-bye to everything--to the Rooster Pine
and Adam-and-Eve--“they’ll miss me so when I’m gone; there won’t be
any one here to love them,” she said wistfully--to the spider crack
in the kitchen window--to the old wing-chair--to the bed of striped
grass--to the silver birch-ladies. Then she went upstairs to the window
of her own old room. That little window had always seemed to Emily to
open on a world of wonder. In the burned account book there had been
one piece of which she was especially proud. “A deskripshun of the
vew from my Window.” She had sat there and dreamed; at night she used
to kneel there and say her little prayers. Sometimes the stars shone
through it--sometimes the rain beat against it--sometimes the little
greybirds and swallows visited it--sometimes airy fragrances floated
in from apple and lilac blossom--sometimes the Wind Woman laughed
and sighed and sang and whistled round it--Emily had heard her there
in the dark nights and in wild, white winter storms. She did not say
good-bye to the Wind Woman, for she knew the Wind Woman would be at New
Moon, too; but she said good-bye to the little window and the green
hill she had loved, and to her fairy-haunted barrens and to little
Emily-in-the-glass. There might be another Emily-in-the-glass at New
Moon, but she wouldn’t be the same one. And she unpinned from the wall
and stowed away in her pocket the picture of the ball dress she had cut
from a fashion sheet. It was such a wonderful dress--all white lace
and wreaths of rosebuds, with a long, long, train of lace flounces
that must reach clear across a room. Emily had pictured herself a
thousand times wearing that dress, sweeping, a queen of beauty, across
a ballroom floor.

Downstairs they were waiting for her. Emily said good-bye to Ellen
Greene rather indifferently--she had never liked Ellen Greene at any
time, and since the night Ellen had told her her father was going to
die she had hated and feared her.

Ellen amazed Emily by bursting into tears and hugging her--begging her
not to forget her--asking her to write to her--calling her “my blessed
child.”

“I am not your blessed child,” said Emily, “but I will write to you.
And will you be very good to Mike?”

“I b’lieve you feel worse over leaving that cat than you do over
leaving me,” sniffed Ellen.

“Why, of course I do,” said Emily, amazed that there could be any
question about it.

It took all her resolution not to cry when she bade farewell to Mike,
who was curled up on the sun-warm grass at the back door.

“Maybe I’ll see you again sometime,” she whispered as she hugged him.
“I’m sure _good_ pussy cats go to heaven.”

Then they were off in the double-seated buggy with its fringed canopy,
always affected by the Murrays of New Moon. Emily had never driven in
anything so splendid before. She had never had many drives. Once or
twice her father had borrowed Mr. Hubbard’s old buckboard and grey pony
and driven to Charlottetown. The buckboard was rattly and the pony
slow, but Father had talked to her all the way and made the road a
wonder.

Cousin Jimmy and Aunt Elizabeth sat in front, the latter very imposing
in black lace bonnet and mantle. Aunt Laura and Emily occupied the seat
behind, with Saucy Sal between them in a basket, shrieking piteously.

Emily glanced back as they drove up the grassy lane, and thought the
little, old, brown house in the hollow had a broken-hearted look. She
longed to run back and comfort it. In spite of her resolution, the
tears came into her eyes; but Aunt Laura put a kid-gloved hand across
Sal’s basket and caught Emily’s in a close, understanding squeeze.

“Oh, I just love you, Aunt Laura,” whispered Emily.

And Aunt Laura’s eyes were very, very blue and deep and kind.




CHAPTER VI

NEW MOON


Emily found the drive through the blossomy June world pleasant. Nobody
talked much; even Saucy Sal had subsided into the silence of despair;
now and then Cousin Jimmy made a remark, more to himself, as it seemed,
than to anybody else. Sometimes Aunt Elizabeth answered it, sometimes
not. She always spoke crisply and used no unnecessary words.

They stopped in Charlottetown and had dinner. Emily, who had had no
appetite since her father’s death, could not eat the roast beef which
the boarding-house waitress put before her. Whereupon Aunt Elizabeth
whispered mysteriously to the waitress, who went away and presently
returned with a plateful of delicate, cold chicken--fine white slices,
beautifully trimmed with lettuce frills.

“Can you eat _that_?” said Aunt Elizabeth sternly, as to a culprit at
the bar.

“I’ll--try,” whispered Emily.

She was too frightened just then to say more, but by the time she had
forced down some of the chicken she had made up her small mind that a
certain matter must be put right.

“Aunt Elizabeth,” she said.

“Hey, what?” said Aunt Elizabeth, directing her steel-blue eyes
straight at her niece’s troubled ones.

“I would like you to understand,” said Emily, speaking very primly and
precisely so that she would be sure to get things right, “that it was
not because I did not like the roast beef I did not eat it. I was not
hungry at all; and I just et some of the chicken to oblige you, not
because I liked it any better.”

“Children should eat what is put before them and never turn up their
noses at good, wholesome food,” said Aunt Elizabeth severely. So Emily
felt that Aunt Elizabeth had not understood after all and she was
unhappy about it.

After dinner Aunt Elizabeth announced to Aunt Laura that they would do
some shopping.

“We must get some things for the child,” she said.

“Oh, please don’t call me ‘the child,’” exclaimed Emily. “It makes
me feel as if I didn’t belong anywhere. Don’t you like my name, Aunt
Elizabeth? Mother thought it so pretty. And I don’t need any ‘things.’
I have two whole sets of underclothes--only one is patched.----”

“S-s-sh!” said Cousin Jimmy, gently kicking Emily’s shins under the
table.

Cousin Jimmy only meant that she would better let Aunt Elizabeth buy
“things” for her when she was in the humour for it; but Emily thought
he was rebuking her for mentioning such matters as underclothes and
subsided in scarlet conviction. Aunt Elizabeth went on talking to Laura
as if she had not heard.

“She must not wear that cheap black dress in Blair Water. You could
sift oatmeal through it. It is nonsense expecting a child of ten to
wear black at all. I shall get her a nice white dress with black sash
for good, and some black-and-white-check gingham for school. Jimmy,
we’ll leave the child with you. Look after her.”

Cousin Jimmy’s method of looking after her was to take her to a
restaurant down street and fill her up with ice-cream. Emily had never
had many chances at ice-cream and she needed no urging, even with
lack of appetite, to eat two saucerfuls. Cousin Jimmy eyed her with
satisfaction.

“No use my getting anything for you that Elizabeth could see,” he said.
“But she can’t see what is inside of you. Make the most of your chance,
for goodness alone knows when you’ll get any more.”

“Do you never have ice-cream at New Moon?”

Cousin Jimmy shook his head.

“Your Aunt Elizabeth doesn’t like new-fangled things. In the house, we
belong to fifty years ago, but on the farm she has to give way. In the
house--candles; in the dairy, her grandmother’s big pans to set the
milk in. But, pussy, New Moon is a pretty good place after all. You’ll
like it some day.”

“Are there any fairies there?” asked Emily, wistfully.

“The woods are full of ’em,” said Cousin Jimmy. “And so are the
columbines in the old orchard. We grow columbines there on purpose for
the fairies.”

Emily sighed. Since she was eight she had known there were no fairies
anywhere nowadays; yet she hadn’t quite given up the hope that one or
two might linger in old-fashioned, out-of-the-way spots. And where so
likely as at New Moon?

“Really-truly fairies?” she questioned.

“Why, you know, if a fairy was really-truly it wouldn’t _be_ a fairy,”
said Uncle Jimmy seriously. “Could it, now?”

Before Emily could think this out the aunts returned and soon they were
all on the road again. It was sunset when they came to Blair Water--a
rosy sunset that flooded the long, sandy sea-coast with colour and
brought red road and fir-darkened hill out in fleeting clearness of
outline. Emily looked about her on her new environment and found it
good. She saw a big house peering whitely through a veil of tall old
trees--no mushroom growth of yesterday’s birches but trees that had
loved and been loved by three generations--a glimpse of silver water
glistening through the dark spruces--that was the Blair Water itself,
she knew--and a tall, golden-white church spire shooting up above
the maple woods in the valley below. But it was none of these that
brought her the flash--_that_ came with the sudden glimpse of the dear,
friendly, little dormer window peeping through vines on the roof--and
right over it, in the opalescent sky, a real new moon, golden and
slender. Emily was tingling all over with it as Cousin Jimmy lifted her
from the buggy and carried her into the kitchen.

She sat on a long wooden bench that was satin-smooth with age and
scrubbing, and watched Aunt Elizabeth lighting candles here and there,
in great, shining, brass candlesticks--on the shelf between the
windows, on the high dresser where the row of blue and white plates
began to wink her a friendly welcome, on the long table in the corner.
And as she lighted them, elvish “rabbits’ candles” flashed up amid the
trees outside the windows.

Emily had never seen a kitchen like this before. It had dark wooden
walls and low ceiling, with black rafters crossing it, from which hung
hams and sides of bacon and bunches of herbs and new socks and mittens,
and many other things, the names and uses of which Emily could not
imagine. The sanded floor was spotlessly white, but the boards had been
scrubbed away through the years until the knots in them stuck up all
over in funny little bosses, and in front of the stove they had sagged,
making a queer, shallow little hollow. In one corner of the ceiling was
a large square hole which looked black and spookish in the candlelight,
and made her feel creepy. _Something_ might pop down out of a hole
like that if one hadn’t behaved just right, you know. And candles cast
such queer wavering shadows. Emily didn’t know whether she liked the
New Moon kitchen or not. It was an interesting place--and she rather
thought she would like to describe it in the old account book, if it
hadn’t been burned--but Emily suddenly found herself trembling on the
verge of tears.

“Cold?” said Aunt Laura kindly. “These June evenings are chilly yet.
Come into the sitting-room--Jimmy has kindled a fire in the stove
there.”

Emily, fighting desperately for self-control, went into the
sitting-room. It was much more cheerful than the kitchen. The floor
was covered with gay-striped homespun, the table had a bright crimson
cloth, the walls were hung with pretty, diamond-patterned paper, the
curtains were of wonderful pale-red damask with a design of white
ferns scattered all over them. They looked very rich and imposing
and Murray-like. Emily had never seen such curtains before. But best
of all were the friendly gleams and flickers from the jolly hardwood
fire in the open stove that mellowed the ghostly candlelight with
something warm and rosy-golden. Emily toasted her toes before it and
felt reviving interest in her surroundings. What lovely little leaded
glass doors closed the china closets on either side of the high,
black, polished mantel! What a funny, delightful shadow the carved
ornament on the sideboard cast on the wall behind it--just like a
negro’s side-face, Emily decided. What mysteries might lurk behind the
chintz-lined glass doors of the bookcase! Books were Emily’s friends
wherever she found them. She flew over to the bookcase and opened the
door. But before she could see more than the backs of rather ponderous
volumes, Aunt Elizabeth came in, with a mug of milk and a plate whereon
lay two little oatmeal cakes.

“Emily,” said Aunt Elizabeth sternly, “shut that door. Remember that
after this you are not to meddle with things that don’t belong to you.”

“I thought books belonged to everybody,” said Emily.

“Ours don’t,” said Aunt Elizabeth, contriving to convey the impression
that New Moon books were in a class by themselves. “Here is your
supper, Emily. We are all so tired that we are just having a lunch. Eat
it and then we will go to bed.”

Emily drank the milk and worried down the oat-cakes, still gazing about
her. How pretty the wallpaper was, with the garland of roses inside
the gilt diamond! Emily wondered if she could “see it in the air.” She
tried--yes, she could--there it hung, a yard from her eyes, a little
fairy pattern, suspended in mid-air like a screen. Emily had discovered
that she possessed this odd knack when she was six. By a certain
movement of the muscles of her eyes, which she could never describe,
she could produce a tiny replica of the wallpaper in the air before
her--could hold it there and look at it as long as she liked--could
shift it back and forth, to any distance she chose, making it larger
or smaller as it went farther away or came nearer. It was one of her
secret joys when she went into a new room anywhere to “see the paper in
the air.” And this New Moon paper made the prettiest fairy paper she
had ever seen.

“What are you staring at nothing in that queer way for?” demanded Aunt
Elizabeth, suddenly returning.

Emily shrank into herself. She couldn’t explain to Aunt Elizabeth--Aunt
Elizabeth would be like Ellen Greene and say she was “crazy.”

“I--I wasn’t staring at nothing.”

“Don’t contradict. I say you were,” retorted Aunt Elizabeth. “Don’t do
it again. It gives your face an unnatural expression. Come now--we will
go upstairs. You are to sleep with me.”

Emily gave a gasp of dismay. She had hoped it might be with Aunt
Laura. Sleeping with Aunt Elizabeth seemed a very formidable thing.
But she dared not protest. They went up to Aunt Elizabeth’s big,
sombre bedroom where there was dark, grim wallpaper that could never
be transformed into a fairy curtain, a high black bureau, topped
with a tiny swing-mirror, so far above her that there could be no
Emily-in-the-glass, tightly closed windows with dark-green curtains,
a high bedstead with a dark-green canopy, and a huge, fat, smothering
feather-bed, with high, hard pillows.

Emily stood still, gazing about her.

“Why don’t you get undressed?” asked Aunt Elizabeth.

“I--I don’t like to undress before you,” faltered Emily.

Aunt Elizabeth looked at Emily through her cold, spectacled eyes.

“Take off your clothes, _at once_,” she said.

Emily obeyed, tingling with anger and shame. It was abominable--taking
off her clothes while Aunt Elizabeth stood and watched her. The outrage
of it was unspeakable. It was even harder to say her prayers before
Aunt Elizabeth. Emily felt that it was not much good to pray under such
circumstances. Father’s God seemed very far away and she suspected that
Aunt Elizabeth’s was too much like Ellen Greene’s.

“Get into bed,” said Aunt Elizabeth, turning down the clothes.

Emily glanced at the shrouded window.

“Aren’t you going to open the window, Aunt Elizabeth?”

Aunt Elizabeth looked at Emily as if the latter had suggested removing
the roof.

“Open the window--and let in the night air!” she exclaimed. “Certainly
not!”

“Father and I always had our window open,” cried Emily.

“No wonder he died of consumption,” said Aunt Elizabeth. “Night air is
poison.”

“What air is there at night but night air?” asked Emily.

“Emily,” said Aunt Elizabeth icily, “get--into--bed.”

Emily got in.

But it was utterly impossible to sleep, lying there in that engulfing
bed that seemed to swallow her up, with that cloud of blackness above
her and not a gleam of light anywhere--and Aunt Elizabeth lying beside
her, long and stiff and bony.

“I feel as if I was in bed with a griffin,” thought Emily.
“Oh--oh--oh--I’m going to cry--I know I am.”

Desperately and vainly she strove to keep the tears back--they _would_
come. She felt utterly alone and lonely--there in that darkness, with
an alien, hostile world all around her--for it seemed hostile now. And
there was such a strange, mysterious, mournful sound in the air--far
away, yet clear. It was the murmur of the sea, but Emily did not know
that and it frightened her. Oh, for her little bed at home--oh, for
Father’s soft breathing in the room--oh, for the dancing friendliness
of well-known stars shining down through her open window! She _must_ go
back--she couldn’t stay here--she would never be happy here! But there
wasn’t any “back” to go to--no home--no father--. A great sob burst
from her--another followed and then another. It was no use to clench
her hands and set her teeth--and chew the inside of her cheeks--nature
conquered pride and determination and had her way.

“What are you crying for?” asked Aunt Elizabeth.

To tell the truth Aunt Elizabeth felt quite as uncomfortable and
disjointed as Emily did. She was not used to a bedfellow; she didn’t
want to sleep with Emily any more than Emily wanted to sleep with
her. But she considered it quite impossible that the child should
be put off by herself in one of the big, lonely New Moon rooms; and
Laura was a poor sleeper, easily disturbed; children always kicked,
Elizabeth Murray had heard. So there was nothing to do but take Emily
in with her; and when she had sacrificed comfort and inclination to
do her unwelcome duty this ungrateful and unsatisfactory child was not
contented.

“I asked you what you were crying for, Emily?” she repeated.

“I’m--homesick, I guess,” sobbed Emily.

Aunt Elizabeth was annoyed.

“A nice home you had to be homesick for,” she said sharply.

“It--it wasn’t as elegant--as New Moon,” sobbed Emily, “but--_Father_
was there. I guess I’m Father-sick, Aunt Elizabeth. Didn’t you feel
awfully lonely when _your_ father died?”

Elizabeth Murray involuntarily remembered the ashamed, smothered
feeling of relief when old Archibald Murray had died--the handsome,
intolerant, autocratic old man who had ruled his family with a rod
of iron all his life and had made existence at New Moon miserable
with the petulant tyranny of the five years of invalidism that had
closed his career. The surviving Murrays had behaved impeccably, and
wept decorously, and printed a long and flattering obituary. But had
one genuine feeling of regret followed Archibald Murray to his tomb?
Elizabeth did not like the memory and was angry with Emily for evoking
it.

“I was resigned to the will of Providence,” she said coldly. “Emily,
you must understand right now that you are to be grateful and obedient
and show your appreciation of what is being done for you. I won’t have
tears and repining. What would you have done if you had no friends to
take you in? Answer me that.”

“I suppose I would have starved to death,” admitted Emily--instantly
beholding a dramatic vision of herself lying dead, looking exactly like
the pictures she had seen in one of Ellen Greene’s missionary magazines
depicting the victims of an Indian famine.

“Not exactly--but you would have been sent to some orphanage where you
would have been half-starved, probably. You little know what you have
escaped. You have come to a good home where you will be cared for and
educated properly.”

Emily did not altogether like the sound of being “educated properly.”
But she said humbly,

“I know it was very good of you to bring me to New Moon, Aunt
Elizabeth. And I won’t bother you long, you know. I’ll soon be grown-up
and able to earn my own living. What do you think is the earliest age a
person can be called grown-up, Aunt Elizabeth?”

“You needn’t think about that,” said Aunt Elizabeth shortly. “The
Murray women have never been under any necessity for earning their own
living. All we require of you is to be a good and contented child and
to conduct yourself with becoming prudence and modesty.”

This sounded terribly hard.

“I _will_ be,” said Emily, suddenly determining to be heroic, like the
girl in the stories she had read. “Perhaps it won’t be so very hard
after all, Aunt Elizabeth,”--Emily happened at this point to recall
a speech she had heard her father use once, and thought this a good
opportunity to work it in--“because, you know, God is good and the
devil might be worse.”

Poor Aunt Elizabeth! To have a speech like that fired at her in the
darkness of the night from that unwelcome little interloper into her
orderly life and peaceful bed! Was it any wonder that for a moment
or so she was too paralyzed to reply! Then she exclaimed in tones of
horror,

“Emily, _never_ say that again.”

“All right,” said Emily meekly. “But,” she added defiantly under her
breath, “I’ll go on thinking it.”

“And now,” said Aunt Elizabeth, “I want to say that I am not in the
habit of talking all night if you are. I tell you to go to sleep, and I
_expect_ you to obey me. Good-night.”

The tone of Aunt Elizabeth’s good-night would have spoiled the best
night in the world. But Emily lay very still and sobbed no more, though
the noiseless tears trickled down her cheeks in the darkness for some
time. She lay so still that Aunt Elizabeth imagined she was asleep and
went to sleep herself.

“I wonder if anybody in the world is awake but me,” thought Emily,
feeling a sickening loneliness. “If I only had Saucy Sal here! She
isn’t so cuddly as Mike but she’d be better than nothing. I wonder
where she is. I wonder if they gave her any supper.”

Aunt Elizabeth had handed Sal’s basket to Cousin Jimmy with an
impatient, “Here--look to this cat,” and Jimmy had carried it off.
Where had he put it? Perhaps Saucy Sal would get out and go home--Emily
had heard cats always went back home. She wished _she_ could get out
and go home--she pictured herself and her cat running eagerly along
the dark, starlit roads to the little house in the hollow--back to the
birches and Adam-and-Eve and Mike, and the old wing-chair and her dear
little cot and the open window where the Wind Woman sang to her and at
dawn one could see the blue of the mist on the homeland hills.

“Will it ever be morning?” thought Emily. “Perhaps things won’t be so
bad in the morning.”

And then--she heard the Wind Woman at the window--she heard the little,
low, whispering murmur of the June night breeze--cooing, friendly,
lovesome.

“Oh, you’re out there, are you, dearest one?” she whispered, stretching
out her arms. “Oh, I’m so glad to hear you. You’re such company, Wind
Woman. I’m not lonesome any more. And the flash came, too! I was afraid
it might never come at New Moon.”

Her soul suddenly escaped from the bondage of Aunt Elizabeth’s stuffy
feather-bed and gloomy canopy and sealed windows. She was out in the
open with the Wind Woman and the other gipsies of the night--the
fireflies, the moths, the brooks, the clouds. Far and wide she
wandered in enchanted reverie until she coasted the shore of dreams and
fell soundly asleep on the fat, hard pillow, while the Wind Woman sang
softly and luringly in the vines that clustered over New Moon.




CHAPTER VII

THE BOOK OF YESTERDAY


That first Saturday and Sunday at New Moon always stood out in Emily’s
memory as a very wonderful time, so crowded was it with new and
generally delightful impressions. If it be true that we “count time
by heart throbs” Emily lived two years in it instead of two days.
Everything was fascinating from the moment she came down the long,
polished staircase into the square hall that was filled with a soft,
rosy light coming through the red glass panes of the front door. Emily
gazed through the panes delightedly. What a strange, fascinating, red
world she beheld, with a weird red sky that looked, she thought, as if
it belonged to the Day of Judgment.

There was a certain charm about the old house which Emily felt keenly
and responded to, although she was too young to understand it. It was a
house which aforetime had had vivid brides and mothers and wives, and
the atmosphere of their loves and lives still hung around it, not yet
banished by the old-maidishness of the régime of Elizabeth and Laura.

“Why--I’m going to _love_ New Moon,” thought Emily, quite amazed at the
idea.

Aunt Laura was setting the breakfast table in the kitchen, which seemed
quite bright and jolly in the glow of morning sunshine. Even the
black hole in the ceiling had ceased to be spookish and become only
a commonplace entrance to the kitchen loft. And on the red-sandstone
doorstep Saucy Sal was sitting, preening her fur as contentedly as
if she had lived at New Moon all her life. Emily did not know it,
but Sal had already drunk deep the delight of battle with her peers
that morning and taught the barn cats their place once and for all.
Cousin Jimmy’s big yellow Tom had got a fearful drubbing, and was
minus several bits of his anatomy, while a stuck-up, black lady-cat,
who fancied herself considerably, had made up her mind that if that
grey-and-white, narrow-faced interloper from goodness knew where was
going to stay at New Moon, _she_ was not.

Emily gathered Sal up in her arms and kissed her joyously, to the
horror of Aunt Elizabeth, who was coming across the platform from the
cook-house with a plate of sizzling bacon in her hands.

“Don’t ever let me see you kissing a cat again,” she ordered.

“Oh, all right,” agreed Emily cheerfully. “I’ll only kiss her when you
don’t see me after this.”

“I don’t want any of your pertness, miss. You are not to kiss cats at
all.”

“But, Aunt Elizabeth, I didn’t kiss her on her mouth, _of course_. I
just kissed her between her ears. It’s nice--won’t you just try it for
once and see for yourself?”

“That will do, Emily. You have said quite enough.” And Aunt Elizabeth
sailed on into the kitchen majestically, leaving Emily momentarily
wretched. She felt that she had offended Aunt Elizabeth, and she hadn’t
the least notion why or how.

But the scene before her was too interesting to worry long over Aunt
Elizabeth. Delicious smells were coming from the cook-house--a little,
slant-roofed building at the corner where the big cooking-stove was
placed in summer. It was thickly overgrown with hop vines, as most of
the New Moon buildings were. To the right was the “new” orchard, very
wonderful now in blossom, but a rather commonplace spot after all,
since Cousin Jimmy cultivated it in most up-to-date fashion and had
grain growing in the wide spaces between the straight rows of trees
that looked all alike. But on the other side of the barn lane, just
behind the well, was the “old orchard,” where Cousin Jimmy said the
columbines grew and which seemed to be a delightful place where trees
had come up at their own sweet will, and grown into individual shapes
and sizes, where blue-eyed ivy twined about their roots and wild-briar
roses rioted over the grey paling fence. Straight ahead, closing the
vista between the orchards, was a little slope covered with huge white
birches, among which were the big New Moon barns, and beyond the new
orchard a little, lovable red road looped lightly up and up, over a
hill, until it seemed to touch the vivid blue of the sky.

Cousin Jimmy came down from the barns, carrying brimming pails of
milk, and Emily ran with him to the dairy behind the cook-house. Such
a delightful spot she had never seen or imagined. It was a snow-white
little building in a clump of tall balm-of-gileads. Its grey roof was
dotted over with cushions of moss like fat green-velvet mice. You went
down six sandstone steps, with ferns crowding about them, and opened a
white door with a glass panel in it, and went down three more steps.
And then you were in a clean, earthy-smelling, damp, cool place with
an earthen floor and windows screened by the delicate emerald of young
hop-vines, and broad wooden shelves all around, whereon stood wide,
shallow pans of glossy brown ware, full of milk coated over with cream
so rich that it was positively yellow.

Aunt Laura was waiting for them and she strained the milk into empty
pans and then skimmed some of the full ones. Emily thought skimming was
a lovely occupation and longed to try her hand at it. She also longed
to sit right down and write a description of that dear dairy; but
alas, there was no account book; still, she could write it in her head.
She squatted down on a little three-legged stool in a dim corner and
proceeded to do it, sitting so still that Jimmy and Laura forgot her
and went away and later had to hunt for her a quarter of an hour. This
delayed breakfast and made Aunt Elizabeth very cross. But Emily had
found just the right sentence to define the clear yet dim green light
that filled the dairy and was so happy over it that she didn’t mind
Aunt Elizabeth’s black looks a bit.

After breakfast Aunt Elizabeth informed Emily that henceforth it would
be one of her duties to drive the cows to pasture every morning.

“Jimmy has no hired man just now and it will save him a few minutes.”

“And don’t be afraid,” added Aunt Laura, “the cows know the way so well
they’ll go of themselves. You have only to follow and shut the gates.”

“I’m not afraid,” said Emily.

But she was. She knew nothing about cows; still, she was determined
that the Murrays should not suspect a Starr was scared. So, her heart
beating like a trip-hammer, she sallied valiantly forth and found that
what Aunt Laura had said was true and cows were not such ferocious
animals after all. They went gravely on ahead and she had only to
follow, through the old orchard and then through the scrub maple growth
beyond, along a twisted ferny path where the Wind Woman was purring and
peeping around the maple clumps.

Emily loitered by the pasture gate until her eager eyes had taken in
all the geography of the landscape. The old pasture ran before her in
a succession of little green bosoms right down to the famous Blair
Water--an almost perfectly round pond, with grassy, sloping, treeless
margins. Beyond it was the Blair Water valley, filled with homesteads,
and further out the great sweep of the white-capped gulf. It seemed to
Emily’s eyes a charming land of green shadows and blue waters. Down
in one corner of the pasture, walled off by an old stone dyke, was the
little private graveyard where the dead-and-gone Murrays were buried.
Emily wanted to go and explore it, but was afraid to trust herself in
the pasture.

“I’ll go as soon as I get better acquainted with the cows,” she
resolved.

Off to the right, on the crest of a steep little hill, covered with
young birches and firs, was a house that puzzled and intrigued Emily.
It was grey and weather-worn, but it didn’t look old. It had never been
finished; the roof was shingled but the sides were not, and the windows
were boarded over. Why had it never been finished? And it was meant to
be such a pretty little house--a house you could love--a house where
there would be nice chairs and cozy fires and bookcases and lovely,
fat, purry cats and unexpected corners; then and there she named it the
Disappointed House, and many an hour thereafter did she spend finishing
that house, furnishing it as it should be furnished, and inventing the
proper people and animals to live in it.

To the left of the pasture field was another house of a quite different
type--a big, old house, tangled over with vines, flat-roofed, with
mansard windows, and a general air of indifference and neglect about
it. A large, untidy lawn, overgrown with unpruned shrubs and trees,
straggled right down to the pond, where enormous willows drooped over
the water. Emily decided that she would ask Cousin Jimmy about these
houses when she got a good chance.

She felt that, before she went back, she must slip along the pasture
fence and explore a certain path which she saw entering the grove of
spruce and maple further down. She did--and found that it led straight
into Fairyland,--along the bank of a wide, lovely brook--a wild, dear,
little path with lady-ferns beckoning and blowing along it, the shyest
of elfin June-bells under the firs, and little whims of loveliness at
every curve. She breathed in the tang of fir-balsam and saw the shimmer
of gossamers high up in the boughs, and everywhere the frolic of elfin
lights and shadows. Here and there the young maple branches interlaced
as if to make a screen for dryad faces--Emily knew all about dryads,
thanks to her father--and the great sheets of moss under the trees were
meet for Titania’s couch.

“This is one of the places where dreams grow,” said Emily happily.

She wished the path might go on forever, but presently it veered away
from the brook, and when she had scrambled over a mossy, old board
fence she found herself in the “front-garden” of New Moon, where Cousin
Jimmy was pruning some spirea bushes.

“Oh, Cousin Jimmy, I’ve found the dearest little road,” said Emily
breathlessly.

“Coming up through Lofty John’s bush?”

“Isn’t it our bush?” asked Emily, rather disappointed.

“No, but it ought to be. Fifty years ago Uncle Archibald sold that jog
of land to Lofty John’s father--old Mike Sullivan. He built a little
house down near the pond and lived there till he quarrelled with Uncle
Archibald--which wasn’t long, of course. Then he moved his house across
the road--and Lofty John lives there now. Elizabeth has tried to buy
the land back from him--she’s offered him far more than it’s worth--but
Lofty John won’t sell--just for spite, seeing that he has a good farm
of his own and this piece isn’t much good to him. He only pastures a
few young cattle on it through the summer, and what was cleared is
all growing up with scrub maple. It’s a thorn in Elizabeth’s side and
likely to be as long as Lofty John nurses his spite.”

“Why is he called Lofty John?”

“Because he’s a high and lofty fellow. But never mind him. I want to
show you round my garden, Emily. It’s mine. Elizabeth bosses the farm;
but she lets me run the garden--to make up for pushing me into the
well.”

“_Did_ she do that?”

“Yes. She didn’t mean to, of course. We were just children--I was
here on a visit--and the men were putting a new hood on the well and
cleaning it. It was open--and we were playing tag around it. I made
Elizabeth mad--forget what I said--’twasn’t _hard_ to make her mad,
you understand--and she made to give me a bang on the head. I saw it
coming--and stepped back to get out of the way--and down I went, head
first. Don’t remember anything more about it. There was nothing but mud
at the bottom--but my head struck the stones at the side. I was took up
for dead--my head all cut up. Poor Elizabeth was--” Cousin Jimmy shook
his head, as if to intimate that it was impossible to describe how or
what poor Elizabeth was. “I got about after a while, though--pretty
near as good as new. Folks say I’ve never been quite right since--but
they only say that because I’m a poet, and because nothing ever worries
me. Poets are so scarce in Blair Water folks don’t understand them, and
most people worry so much, they think you’re not right if you don’t
worry.”

“Won’t you recite some of your poetry to me, Cousin Jimmy?” asked Emily
eagerly.

“When the spirit moves me I will. It’s no use to ask me when the spirit
don’t move me.”

“But how am I to know when the spirit moves you, Cousin Jimmy?”

“I’ll begin of my own accord to recite my compositions. But I’ll tell
you this--the spirit generally moves me when I’m boiling the pigs’
potatoes in the fall. Remember that and be around.”

“Why don’t you write your poetry down?”

“Paper’s too scarce at New Moon. Elizabeth has some pet economies and
writing paper of any kind is one of them.”

“But haven’t you any money of your own, Cousin Jimmy?”

“Oh, Elizabeth pays me good wages. But she puts all my money in the
bank and just doles out a few dollars to me once in a while. She says
I’m not fit to be trusted with money. When I came here to work for
her she paid me my wages at the end of the month and I started for
Shrewsbury to put it in the bank. Met a tramp on the road--a poor,
forlorn creature without a cent. I gave _him_ the money. Why not? _I_
had a good home and a steady job and clothes enough to do me for years.
I s’pose it was the foolishest thing I ever did--and the nicest. But
Elizabeth never got over it. _She’s_ managed my money ever since. But
come you now, and I’ll show you my garden before I have to go and sow
turnips.”

The garden was a beautiful place, well worthy Cousin Jimmy’s pride.
It seemed like a garden where no frost could wither or rough wind
blow--a garden remembering a hundred vanished summers. There was a high
hedge of clipped spruce all around it, spaced at intervals by tall
lombardies. The north side was closed in by a thick grove of spruce
against which a long row of peonies grew, their great red blossoms
splendid against its darkness. One big spruce grew in the center of the
garden and underneath it was a stone bench, made of flat shore stones
worn smooth by long polish of wind and wave. In the southeast corner
was an enormous clump of lilacs, trimmed into the semblance of one
large drooping-boughed tree, gloried over with purple. An old summer
house, covered with vines, filled the southwest corner. And in the
northwest corner there was a sun-dial of grey stone, placed just where
the broad red walk that was bordered with striped grass, and picked out
with pink conchs, ran off into Lofty John’s bush. Emily had never seen
a sun-dial before and hung over it enraptured.

“Your great-great grandfather, Hugh Murray, had that brought out from
the Old Country,” said Cousin Jimmy. “There isn’t as fine a one in the
Maritime Provinces. And Uncle George Murray brought those conchs from
the Indies. He was a sea-captain.”

Emily looked about her with delight. The garden was lovely and the
house quite splendid to her childish eyes. It had a big front porch
with Grecian columns. These were thought very elegant in Blair Water,
and went far to justify the Murray pride. A schoolmaster had said
they gave the house a classical air. To be sure, the classical effect
was just now rather smothered in hop vines that rioted over the whole
porch and hung in pale-green festoons above the rows of potted scarlet
geraniums that flanked the steps.

Emily’s heart swelled with pride.

“It’s a noble house,” she said.

“And what about my garden?” demanded Cousin Jimmy jealously.

“It’s fit for a queen,” said Emily, gravely and sincerely.

Cousin Jimmy nodded, well pleased, and then a strange sound crept into
his voice and an odd look into his eyes.

“There is a spell woven round this garden. The blight shall spare it
and the green worm pass it by. Drought dares not invade it and the rain
comes here gently.”

Emily took an involuntary step backward--she almost felt like running
away. But now Cousin Jimmy was himself again.

“Isn’t this grass about the sun-dial like green velvet? I’ve taken
some pains with it, I can tell you. You make yourself at home in this
garden.” Cousin Jimmy made a splendid gesture. “I confer the freedom of
it upon you. Good-luck to you, and may you find the Lost Diamond.”

“The Lost Diamond?” said Emily wonderingly. What fascinating thing was
this?

“Never hear the story? I’ll tell it to-morrow--Sunday’s lazy day at
New Moon. I must get off to my turnips now or I’ll have Elizabeth out
looking at me. She won’t say anything--she’ll just _look_. Ever seen
the real Murray look?”

“I guess I saw it when Aunt Ruth pulled me out from under the table,”
said Emily ruefully.

“No--no. That was the Ruth Dutton look--spite and malice and all
uncharitableness. I hate Ruth Dutton. She laughs at my poetry--not
that she ever hears any of it. The spirit never moves when Ruth is
around. Dunno where they got her. Elizabeth is a crank but she’s sound
as a nut, and Laura’s a saint. But Ruth’s worm-eaten. As for the
Murray look, you’ll know it when you see it. It’s as well-known as the
Murray pride. We’re a darn queer lot--but we’re the finest people ever
happened. I’ll tell you all about us to-morrow.”

Cousin Jimmy kept his promise while the aunts were away at church. It
had been decided in family conclave that Emily was not to go to church
that day.

“She has nothing suitable to wear,” said Aunt Elizabeth. “By next
Sunday we will have her white dress ready.”

Emily was disappointed that she was not to go to church. She had always
found church very interesting on the rare occasions when she got there.
It had been too far at Maywood for her father to walk but sometimes
Ellen Greene’s brother had taken her and Ellen.

“Do you think, Aunt Elizabeth,” she said wistfully, “that God would
be much offended if I wore my black dress to church? Of course it’s
cheap--I think Ellen Greene paid for it herself--but it covers me all
up.”

“Little girls who do not understand things should hold their tongues,”
said Aunt Elizabeth. “I do not choose that Blair Water people should
see my niece in such a dress as that wretched black merino. And if
Ellen Greene paid for it we must repay her. You should have told us
that before we came away from Maywood. No, you are not going to church
to-day. You can wear the black dress to school to-morrow. We can cover
it up with an apron.”

Emily resigned herself with a sigh of disappointment to staying home;
but it was very pleasant after all. Cousin Jimmy took her for a walk to
the pond, showed her the graveyard and opened the book of yesterday for
her.

“Why are all the Murrays buried here?” asked Emily. “Is it really
because they are too good to be buried with common people?”

“No--no, pussy. We don’t carry our pride as far as _that_. When old
Hugh Murray settled at New Moon there was nothing much but woods for
miles and no graveyards nearer than Charlottetown. That’s why the old
Murrays were buried here--and later on we kept it up because we wanted
to lie with our own, here on the green, green banks of the old Blair
Water.”

“That sounds like a line out of a poem, Cousin Jimmy,” said Emily.

“So it is--out of one of my poems.”

“I kind of like the idea of a ’sclusive burying-ground like this,” said
Emily decidedly, looking around her approvingly at the velvet grass
sloping down to the fairy-blue pond, the neat walks, the well-kept
graves.

Cousin Jimmy chuckled.

“And yet they say you ain’t a Murray,” he said. “Murray and Byrd and
Starr--and a dash of Shipley to boot, or Cousin Jimmy Murray is much
mistaken.”

“Shipley?”

“Yes--Hugh Murray’s wife--your great-great-grandmother--was a
Shipley--an Englishwoman. Ever hear of how the Murrays came to New
Moon?”

“No.”

“They were bound for Quebec--hadn’t any notion of coming to P. E. I.
They had a long rough voyage and water got scarce, so the captain of
the _New Moon_ put in here to get some. Mary Murray had nearly died
of sea-sickness coming out--never seemed to get her sea-legs--so the
captain, being sorry for her, told her she could go ashore with the
men and feel solid ground under her for an hour or so. Very gladly she
went and when she got to shore she said, ‘Here I stay.’ And stay she
did; nothing could budge her; old Hugh--he was young Hugh then, of
course--coaxed and stormed and raged and argued--and even cried, I’ve
been told--but Mary wouldn’t be moved. In the end he gave in and had
his belongings landed and stayed, too. So that is how the Murrays came
to P. E. Island.”

“I’m glad it happened like that,” said Emily.

“So was old Hugh in the long run. And yet it rankled, Emily--it
rankled. He never forgave his wife with a whole heart. Her grave is
over there in the corner--that one with the flat red stone. Go you and
look at what he had put on it.”

Emily ran curiously over. The big flat stone was inscribed with one of
the long, discursive epitaphs of an older day. But beneath the epitaph
was no scriptural verse or pious psalm. Clear and distinct, in spite of
age and lichen, ran the line, “Here I stay.”

“_That’s_ how he got even with her,” said Cousin Jimmy. “He was a good
husband to her--and she was a good wife and bore him a fine family--and
he never was the same after her death. But that rankled in him until it
had to come out.”

Emily gave a little shiver. Somehow, the idea of that grim old ancestor
with his undying grudge against his nearest and dearest was rather
terrifying.

“I’m glad I’m only _half_ Murray,” she said to herself. Aloud--“Father
told me it was a Murray tradition not to carry spite past the grave.”

“So ’tis now--but it took its rise from this very thing. His family
were so horrified at it, you see. It made considerable of a scandal.
Some folks twisted it round to mean that old Hugh didn’t believe in the
resurrection, and there was talk of the session taking it up, but after
a while the talk died away.”

Emily skipped over to another lichen-grown stone.

“Elizabeth Burnley--who was she, Cousin Jimmy?”

“Old William Murray’s wife. He was Hugh’s brother, and came out here
five years after Hugh did. His wife was a great beauty and had been a
belle in the Old Country. She didn’t like the P. E. Island woods. She
was homesick, Emily--scandalous homesick. For weeks after she came
here she wouldn’t take off her bonnet--just walked the floor in it,
demanding to be taken back home.”

“Didn’t she take it off when she went to bed?” asked Emily.

“Dunno if she did go to bed. Anyway, William wouldn’t take
her back home so in time she took off her bonnet and resigned
herself. Her daughter married Hugh’s son, so Elizabeth was your
great-great-grandmother.”

Emily looked down at the sunken green grave and wondered if any
homesick dreams haunted Elizabeth Burnley’s slumber of a hundred years.

“It’s dreadful to be homesick--_I_ know,” she thought sympathetically.

“Little Stephen Murray is buried over there,” said Cousin Jimmy.
“His was the first marble stone in the burying-ground. He was your
grandfather’s brother--died when he was twelve. He has,” said Cousin
Jimmy solemnly, “become a Murray tradition.”

“Why?”

“He was so beautiful and clever and good. He hadn’t a fault--so of
course he couldn’t live. They say there never was such a handsome child
in the connection. And lovable--everybody loved him. He has been dead
for ninety years--not a Murray living to-day ever saw him--and yet
we talk about him at family gatherings--he’s more real than lots of
living people. So you see, Emily, he must have been an extraordinary
child--but it ended in that--” Cousin Jimmy waved his hand towards the
grassy grave and the white, prim headstone.

“I wonder,” thought Emily, “if any one will remember _me_ ninety years
after I’m dead.”

“This old yard is nearly full,” reflected Cousin Jimmy. “There’s just
room in yonder corner for Elizabeth and Laura--and me. None for you,
Emily.”

“I don’t want to be buried here,” flashed Emily. “I think it’s splendid
to have a graveyard like this in the family--but _I_ am going to be
buried in Charlottetown graveyard with Father and Mother. But there’s
one thing worries me Cousin Jimmy, do _you_ think I’m likely to die of
consumption?”

Cousin Jimmy looked judicially down into her eyes.

“No,” he said, “no, Miss Puss. You’ve got enough life in _you_ to carry
you far. You aren’t meant for death.”

“I feel that, too,” said Emily, nodding. “And now, Cousin Jimmy, _why_
is that house over there disappointed?”

“Which one?--oh, Fred Clifford’s house. Fred Clifford began to build
that house thirty years ago. He was to be married and his lady picked
out the plan. And when the house was just as far along as you see
she jilted him, Emily--right in the face of day she jilted him.
Never another nail was driven in the house. Fred went out to British
Columbia. He’s living there yet--married and happy. But he won’t sell
that lot to any one--so I reckon he feels the sting yet.”

“I’m so sorry for that house. I _wish_ it had been finished. It _wants_
to be--even yet it _wants_ to be.”

“Well, I reckon it never will. Fred had a bit of Shipley in him, too,
you see. One of old Hugh’s girls was his grandmother. And Doctor
Burnley up there in the big grey house has more than a bit.”

“Is he a relation of ours, too, Cousin Jimmy?”

“Forty-second cousin. Way back he had a cousin of Mary Shipley’s for a
great-something. That was in the Old Country--his forebears came out
here after we did. He’s a good doctor but an odd stick--odder by far
than I am, Emily, and yet nobody ever says he’s not all there. Can you
account for that? _He_ doesn’t believe in God--and _I_ am not such a
fool as that.”

“Not in _any_ God?”

“Not in any God. He’s an infidel, Emily. And he’s bringing his little
girl up the same way, which _I_ think is a shame, Emily,” said Cousin
Jimmy confidentially.

“Doesn’t her mother teach her things?”

“Her mother is--dead,” answered Cousin Jimmy, with a little odd
hesitation. “Dead these ten years,” he added in a firmer tone. “Ilse
Burnley is a great girl--hair like daffodils and eyes like yellow
diamonds.”

“Oh, Cousin Jimmy, you promised you’d tell me about the Lost Diamond,”
cried Emily eagerly.

“To be sure--to be sure. Well, it’s there--somewhere in or about the
old summer-house, Emily. Fifty years ago Edward Murray and his wife
came here from Kingsport for a visit. A great lady she was, and wearing
silks and diamonds like a queen, though no beauty. She had a ring on
with a stone in it that cost two hundred pounds, Emily. That was a
big lot of money to be wearing on one wee woman-finger, wasn’t it? It
sparkled on her white hand as she held her dress going up the steps of
the summer house; but when she came down the steps it was gone.”

“And was it _never_ found?” asked Emily breathlessly.

“Never--and for no lack of searching. Edward Murray wanted to have the
house pulled down--but Uncle Archibald wouldn’t hear of it--because he
had built it for his bride. The two brothers quarrelled over it and
were never good friends again. Everybody in the connection has taken
a spell hunting for the diamond. Most folks think it fell out of the
summer house among the flowers or shrubs. But I know better, Emily. I
know Miriam Murray’s diamond is somewhere about that old house yet. On
moonlit nights, Emily, I’ve seen it glinting--glinting and beckoning.
But never in the same place--and when you go to it--it’s gone, and you
see it laughing at you from somewhere else.”

Again there was that eerie, indefinable something in Cousin Jimmy’s
voice or look that gave Emily a sudden crinkly feeling in her spine.
But she loved the way he talked to her, as if she were grown-up; and
she loved the beautiful land around her; and, in spite of the ache for
her father and the house in the hollow which persisted all the time and
hurt her so much at night that her pillow was wet with secret tears,
she was beginning to be a little glad again in sunset and bird song
and early white stars, in moonlit nights and singing winds. She knew
life was going to be wonderful here--wonderful and interesting, what
with out-door cook-houses and cream-girdled dairies and pond paths
and sun-dials, and Lost Diamonds, and Disappointed Houses and men who
didn’t believe in _any_ God--not even Ellen Greene’s God. Emily hoped
she would soon see Dr. Burnley. She was very curious to see what an
infidel looked like. And she had already quite made up her mind that
she would find the Lost Diamond.




CHAPTER VIII

TRIAL BY FIRE


Aunt Elizabeth drove Emily to school the next morning. Aunt Laura had
thought that, since there was only a month before vacation, it was not
worth while for Emily to “start school.” But Aunt Elizabeth did not yet
feel comfortable with a small niece skipping around New Moon, poking
into everything insatiably, and was resolved that Emily must go to
school to get her out of the way. Emily herself, always avid for new
experiences, was quite keen to go, but for all that she was seething
with rebellion as they drove along. Aunt Elizabeth had produced a
terrible gingham apron and an equally terrible gingham sunbonnet from
somewhere in the New Moon garret, and made Emily put them on. The apron
was a long sack-like garment, high in the neck, with _sleeves_. Those
sleeves were the crowning indignity. Emily had never seen any little
girl wearing an apron with sleeves. She rebelled to the point of tears
over wearing it, but Aunt Elizabeth was not going to have any nonsense.
Emily saw the Murray look then; and when she saw it she buttoned her
rebellious feelings tightly up in her soul and let Aunt Elizabeth put
the apron on her.

“It was one of your mother’s aprons when she was a little girl, Emily,”
said Aunt Laura comfortingly, and rather sentimentally.

“Then,” said Emily, uncomforted and unsentimental, “I don’t wonder she
ran away with Father when she grew up.”

Aunt Elizabeth finished buttoning the apron and gave Emily a none too
gentle push away from her.

“Put on your sunbonnet,” she ordered.

“Oh, please, Aunt Elizabeth, don’t make me wear that horrid thing.”

Aunt Elizabeth, wasting no further words, picked up the bonnet and tied
it on Emily’s head. Emily had to yield. But from the depths of the
sunbonnet issued a voice, defiant though tremulous.

“Anyway, Aunt Elizabeth, you can’t boss God,” it said.

Aunt Elizabeth was too cross to speak all the way to the schoolhouse.
She introduced Emily to Miss Brownell, and drove away. School was
already “in,” so Emily hung her sunbonnet on the porch nail and went to
the desk Miss Brownell assigned her. She had already made up her mind
that she did not like Miss Brownell and never would like her.

Miss Brownell had the reputation in Blair Water of being a fine
teacher--due mainly to the fact that she was a strict disciplinarian
and kept excellent “order.” She was a thin, middle-aged person with a
colourless face, prominent teeth, most of which she showed when she
laughed, and cold, watchful grey eyes--colder even than Aunt Ruth’s.
Emily felt as if those merciless agate eyes saw clean through her to
the core of her sensitive little soul. Emily could be fearless enough
on occasion; but in the presence of a nature which she instinctively
felt to be hostile to hers she shrank away in something that was more
repulsion than fear.

She was a target for curious glances all the morning. The Blair Water
school was large and there were at least twenty little girls of about
her own age. Emily looked back curiously at them all and thought the
way they whispered to each other behind hands and books when they
looked at her very ill-mannered. She felt suddenly unhappy and homesick
and lonesome--she wanted her father and her old home and the dear
things she loved.

“The New Moon girl is crying,” whispered a black-eyed girl across the
aisle. And then came a cruel little giggle.

“What is the matter with you, Emily?” said Miss Brownell suddenly and
accusingly.

Emily was silent. She could not tell Miss Brownell what was the matter
with her--especially when Miss Brownell used such a tone.

“When I ask one of my pupils a question, Emily, I am accustomed to
having an answer. Why are you crying?”

There was another giggle from across the aisle. Emily lifted miserable
eyes and in her extremity fell back on a phrase of her father’s.

“It is a matter that concerns only myself,” she said.

A red spot suddenly appeared in Miss Brownell’s sallow cheek. Her eyes
gleamed with cold fire.

“You will remain in during recess as a punishment for your
impertinence,” she said--but she left Emily alone the rest of the day.

Emily did not in the least mind staying in at recess, for, acutely
sensitive to her environment as she was, she realized that, for
some reason she could not fathom, the atmosphere of the school was
antagonistic. The glances cast at her were not only curious but
ill-natured. She did not want to go out to the playground with those
girls. She did not want to go to school in Blair Water. But she would
not cry any more. She sat erect and kept her eyes on her book. Suddenly
a soft, malignant hiss came across the aisle.

“Miss Pridey--Miss Pridey!”

Emily looked across at the girl. Large, steady, purplish-grey eyes
gazed into beady, twinkling, black ones--gazed unquailingly--with
something in them that cowed and compelled. The black eyes wavered and
fell, their owner covering her retreat with another giggle and toss of
her short braid of hair.

“I can master _her_,” thought Emily, with a thrill of triumph.

But there is strength in numbers and at noon hour Emily found herself
standing alone on the playground facing a crowd of unfriendly faces.
Children can be the most cruel creatures alive. They have the herd
instinct of prejudice against any outsider, and they are merciless in
its indulgence. Emily was a stranger and one of the proud Murrays--two
counts against her. And there was about her, small and ginghamed and
sunbonneted as she was, a certain reserve and dignity and fineness that
they resented. And they resented the level way she looked at them, with
that disdainful face under cloudy black hair, instead of being shy and
drooping as became an interloper on probation.

“You are a proud one,” said Black-eyes. “Oh, my, you may have buttoned
boots, but you are living on charity.”

Emily had not wanted to put on the buttoned boots. She wanted to go
barefoot as she had always done in summer. But Aunt Elizabeth had told
her that no child from New Moon had ever gone barefoot to school.

“Oh, just look at the baby apron,” laughed another girl, with a head of
chestnut curls.

Now Emily flushed. This was indeed the vulnerable point in her armour.
Delighted at her success in drawing blood the curled one tried again.

“Is that your grandmother’s sunbonnet?”

There was a chorus of giggles.

“Oh, she wears a sunbonnet to save her complexion,” said a bigger girl.
“That’s the Murray pride. The Murrays are rotten with pride, my mother
says.”

“You’re awful ugly,” said a fat, squat little miss, nearly as broad as
she was long. “Your ears look like a cat’s.”

“You needn’t be so proud,” said Black-eyes. “Your kitchen ceiling isn’t
plastered even.”

“And your Cousin Jimmy is an idiot,” said Chestnut-curls.

“He isn’t!” cried Emily. “He has more sense than any of you. You can
say what you like about me but you are not going to _insult my family_.
If you say one more word about them I’ll look you over with the evil
eye.”

Nobody understood what this threat meant, but that made it all the more
effective. It produced a brief silence. Then the baiting began again in
a different form.

“Can you sing?” asked a thin, freckled girl, who yet contrived to be
very pretty in spite of thinness and freckles.

“No,” said Emily.

“Can you dance?”

“No.”

“Can you sew?”

“No.”

“Can you cook?”

“No.”

“Can you knit lace?”

“No.”

“Can you crochet?”

“No.”

“Then what _can_ you do?” said the freckled-one in a contemptuous tone.

“I can write poetry,” said Emily, without in the least meaning to
say it. But at that instant she knew she _could_ write poetry. And
with this queer unreasonable conviction came--the flash! Right there,
surrounded by hostility and suspicion, fighting alone for her standing,
without backing or advantage, came the wonderful moment when soul
seemed to cast aside the bonds of flesh and spring upward to the
stars. The rapture and delight on Emily’s face amazed and enraged her
foes. They thought it a manifestation of Murray pride in an uncommon
accomplishment.

“You lie,” said Black-eyes bluntly.

“A Starr does not lie,” retorted Emily. The flash was gone, but its
uplift remained. She looked them all over with a cool detachment that
quelled them temporarily.

“Why don’t you like me?” she asked directly.

There was no reply. Emily looked straight at Chestnut-curls and
repeated her question. Chestnut-curls felt herself compelled to answer
it.

“Because you ain’t a bit like us,” she muttered.

“I wouldn’t want to be,” said Emily scornfully.

“Oh, my, you are one of the Chosen People,” mocked Black-eyes.

“Of course I am,” retorted Emily.

She walked away to the schoolhouse, conqueror in that battle.

But the forces against her were not so easily cowed. There was much
whispering and plotting after she had gone in, a conference with some
of the boys, and a handing over of bedizened pencils and chews of gum
for value received.

An agreeable sense of victory and the afterglow of the flash carried
Emily through the afternoon in spite of the fact that Miss Brownell
ridiculed her for her mistakes in spelling. Miss Brownell was very fond
of ridiculing her pupils. All the girls in the class giggled except
one who had not been there in the morning and was consequently at the
tail. Emily had been wondering who she was. She was as unlike the rest
of the girls as Emily herself, but in a totally different style. She
was tall, oddly dressed in an overlong dress of faded, striped print,
and barefooted. Her thick hair, cut short, fluffed out all around her
head in a bushy wave that seemed to be of brilliant spun gold; and her
glowing eyes were of a brown so light and translucent as to be almost
amber. Her mouth was large, and she had a saucy, pronounced chin.
Pretty she might not be called, but her face was so vivid and mobile
that Emily could not drag her fascinated eyes from it. And she was the
only girl in class who did not, sometime through the lesson, get a barb
of sarcasm from Miss Brownell, though she made as many mistakes as the
rest of them.

At recess one of the girls came up to Emily with a box in her hand.
Emily knew that she was Rhoda Stuart and thought her very pretty and
sweet. Rhoda had been in the crowd around her at the noon hour but she
had not said anything. She was dressed in crispy pink gingham; she had
smooth, lustrous braids of sugar-brown hair, big blue eyes, a rose-bud
mouth, doll-like features and a sweet voice. If Miss Brownell could be
said to have a favourite it was Rhoda Stuart, and she seemed generally
popular in her own set and much petted by the older girls.

“Here is a present for you,” she said sweetly.

Emily took the box unsuspectingly. Rhoda’s smile would have disarmed
any suspicion. For a moment Emily was happily anticipant as she
removed the cover. Then with a shriek she flung the box from her, and
stood pale and trembling from head to foot. There was a snake in the
box--whether dead or alive she did not know and did not care. For any
snake Emily had a horror and repulsion she could not overcome. The very
sight of one almost paralyzed her.

A chorus of giggles ran around the porch.

“Before I’d be so scared of an old dead snake!” scoffed Black-eyes.

“Can you write poetry about _that_?” giggled Chestnut-curls.

“I _hate_ you--I hate you!” cried Emily. “You are mean, hateful girls!”

“Calling names isn’t ladylike,” said the Freckled-one. “I thought a
Murray would be too grand for that.”

“If you come to school to-morrow, _Miss_ Starr,” said Black-eyes
deliberately, “we are going to take that snake and put it around your
neck.”

“Let me see you do it!” cried a clear, ringing voice. Into their midst
with a bound came the girl with amber eyes and short hair. “Just let me
_see_ you do it, Jennie Strang!”

“This isn’t any of your business, Ilse Burnley,” muttered Jennie,
sullenly.

“Oh, isn’t it? Don’t you sass me, Piggy-eyes.” Ilse walked up to the
retreating Jennie and shook a sunburned fist in her face. “If I catch
you teasing Emily Starr to-morrow with that snake again I’ll take _it_
by the tail and _you_ by _your_ tail, and slash you across the face
with it. Mind that, Piggy-eyes. Now you go and pick up that precious
snake of yours and throw it down on the ash pile.”

Jennie actually went and did it. Ilse faced the others.

“Clear out, all of you, and leave the New Moon girl alone after this,”
she said. “If I hear of any more meddling and sneaking I’ll slit your
throats, and rip out your hearts and tear your eyes out. Yes, and I’ll
cut off your ears and wear them pinned on my dress!”

Cowed by these ferocious threats, or by something in Ilse’s
personality, Emily’s persecutors drifted away. Ilse turned to Emily.

“Don’t mind them,” she said contemptuously. “They’re jealous of you,
that’s all--jealous because you live at New Moon and ride in a fringed
top-buggy and wear buttoned boots. You smack their mugs if they give
you any more of their jaw.”

Ilse vaulted the fence and tore off into the maple bush without another
glance at Emily. Only Rhoda Stuart remained.

“Emily, I’m awful sorry,” she said, rolling her big blue eyes
appealingly. “I didn’t know there was a snake in that box, cross my
heart I didn’t. The girls just told me it was a present for you. You’re
not mad at me, are you? Because I like you.”

Emily had been “mad” and hurt and outraged. But this little bit of
friendliness melted her instantly. In a moment she and Rhoda had their
arms around each other, parading across the playground.

“I’m going to ask Miss Brownell to let you sit with me,” said Rhoda. “I
used to sit with Annie Gregg but she’s moved away. You’d like to sit
with me, wouldn’t you?”

“I’d love it,” said Emily warmly. She was as happy as she had been
miserable. Here was the friend of her dreams. Already she worshipped
Rhoda.

“We _ought_ to sit together,” said Rhoda importantly. “We belong to the
two best families in Blair Water. Do you know that if my father had his
rights he would be on the throne of England?”

“England!” said Emily, too amazed to be anything but an echo.

“Yes. We are descended from the kings of Scotland,” said Rhoda. “So of
course we don’t ’sociate with everybody. My father keeps store and I’m
taking music lessons. Is your Aunt Elizabeth going to give you music
lessons?”

“I don’t know.”

“She ought to. She is very rich, isn’t she?”

“I don’t know,” said Emily again. She wished Rhoda would not ask such
questions. Emily thought it was hardly good manners. But surely a
descendant of the Stuart kings ought to know the rules of breeding, if
anybody did.

“She’s got an awful temper, hasn’t she?” asked Rhoda.

“No, she hasn’t!” cried Emily.

“Well, she nearly killed your Cousin Jimmy in one of her rages,” said
Rhoda. “That’s true--Mother told me. Why doesn’t your Aunt Laura get
married? Has she got a beau? What wages does your Aunt Elizabeth pay
your Cousin Jimmy?”

“I don’t know.”

“Well,” said Rhoda, rather disappointedly. “I suppose you haven’t
been at New Moon long enough to find things out. But it must be very
different from what you’ve been used to, I guess. Your father was as
poor as a church mouse, wasn’t he?”

“My father was a very, _very_ rich man,” said Emily deliberately.

Rhoda stared.

“I thought he hadn’t a cent.”

“Neither he had. But people can be rich without money.”

“I don’t see how. But anyhow, _you’ll_ be rich some day--your Aunt
Elizabeth will likely leave you all her money, Mother says. So I don’t
care if you _are_ living on charity--I love you and I’m going to stick
up for you. Have you got a beau, Emily?”

“No,” cried Emily, blushing violently and quite scandalized at the
idea. “Why, I’m only eleven.”

“Oh, everybody in our class has a beau. Mine is Teddy Kent. I shook
hands with him after I’d counted nine stars for nine nights without
missing a night. If you do that the first boy you shake hands with
afterwards is to be your beau. But it’s awful hard to do. It took me
all winter. Teddy wasn’t in school to-day--he’s been sick all June.
He’s the best-looking boy in Blair Water. You’ll have to have a beau,
too, Emily.”

“I won’t,” declared Emily angrily. “I don’t know a thing about beaux
and I won’t have one.”

Rhoda tossed her head.

“Oh, I s’pose you think there’s nobody good enough for you, living at
New Moon. Well, you won’t be able to play Clap-in-and-clap-out if you
haven’t a beau.”

Emily knew nothing of the mysteries of Clap-in-and-clap-out, and didn’t
care. Anyway, she wasn’t going to have a beau and she repeated this in
such decided tones that Rhoda deemed it wise to drop the subject.

Emily was rather glad when the bell rang. Miss Brownell granted Rhoda’s
request quite graciously and Emily transferred her goods and chattels
to Rhoda’s seat. Rhoda whispered a good deal during the last hour and
Emily got scolded for it but did not mind.

“I’m going to have a birthday party the first week in July, and I’m
going to invite you, if your aunts will let you come. I’m not going to
have Ilse Burnley though.”

“Don’t you like her?”

“No. She’s an awful tomboy. And then her father is an infidel. And so’s
she. She always spells ‘God’ with a little ‘g’ in her dictation. Miss
Brownell scolds her for it but she does it right along. Miss Brownell
won’t whip _her_ because she’s setting her cap for Dr. Burnley. But Ma
says she won’t get him because he hates women. _I_ don’t think it’s
proper to ’sociate with such people. Ilse is an awful wild queer girl
and has an awful temper. So has her father. She doesn’t chum with
anybody. Isn’t it ridic’lus the way she wears her hair? _You_ ought to
have a bang, Emily. They’re all the rage and you’d look well with one
because you’ve such a high forehead. It would make a real beauty of
you. My, but you have lovely hair, and your hands are just lovely. All
the Murrays have pretty hands. And you have the _sweetest_ eyes, Emily.”

Emily had never received so many compliments in her life. Rhoda laid
flattery on with a trowel. Her head was quite turned and she went home
from school determined to ask Aunt Elizabeth to cut her hair in a bang.
If it would make a beauty of her it must be compassed somehow. And she
would also ask Aunt Elizabeth if she might wear her Venetian beads to
school next day.

“The other girls may _respect_ me more then,” she thought.

She was alone from the crossroads, where she had parted company with
Rhoda, and she reviewed the events of the day with a feeling that,
after all, she had kept the Starr flag flying, except for a temporary
reverse in the matter of the snake. School was very different from
what she had expected it to be, but that was the way in life, she had
heard Ellen Greene say, and you just had to make the best of it. Rhoda
was a darling; and there was something about Ilse Burnley that one
liked; and as for the rest of the girls Emily got square with them
by pretending she saw them all being hanged in a row for frightening
her to death with a snake, and felt no more resentment towards them,
although some of the things that had been said to her rankled bitterly
in her heart for many a day. She had no father to tell them to, and no
account book to write them out in, so she could not exorcise them.

She had no speedy chance to ask for a bang, for there was company at
New Moon and her aunts were busy getting ready an elaborate supper. But
when the preserves were brought on Emily snatched the opportunity of a
lull in the older conversation.

“Aunt Elizabeth,” she said, “can I have a bang?”

Aunt Elizabeth looked her disdain.

“No,” she said, “I do not approve of bangs. Of all the silly fashions
that have come in now-a-days, bangs are the silliest.”

“Oh, Aunt Elizabeth, _do_ let me have a bang. It would make a beauty of
me,--Rhoda says so.”

“It would take a good deal more than a bang to do that, Emily. We will
not have bangs at New Moon--except on the Molly cows. _They_ are the
only creatures that should wear bangs.”

Aunt Elizabeth smiled triumphantly around the table--Aunt Elizabeth
_did_ smile sometimes when she thought she had silenced some small
person by exquisite ridicule. Emily understood that it was no use to
hope for bangs. Loveliness did not lie that way for her. It was mean of
Aunt Elizabeth--mean. She heaved a sigh of disappointment and dismissed
the idea for the present. There was something else she wanted to know.

“Why doesn’t Ilse Burnley’s father believe in God?” she asked.

“’Cause of the trick her mother played him,” said Mr. Slade, with
a chuckle. Mr. Slade was a fat, jolly-looking old man with bushy
hair and whiskers. He had already said some things Emily could not
understand and which had seemed greatly to embarrass his very lady-like
wife.

“What trick did Ilse’s mother play?” asked Emily, all agog with
interest.

Now Aunt Laura looked at Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Elizabeth looked at
Aunt Laura. Then the latter said:

“Run out and feed the chickens, Emily.”

Emily rose with dignity.

“You might just as well tell me that Ilse’s mother isn’t to be talked
about and I would obey you. I understand _perfectly_ what you mean,”
she said as she left the table.




CHAPTER IX

A SPECIAL PROVIDENCE


Emily was sure on that first day at school that she would never like
it. She must go, she knew, in order to get an education and be ready to
earn her own living; but it would always be what Ellen Greene solemnly
called “a cross.” Consequently Emily felt quite astonished when, after
going to school a few days, it dawned upon her that she was liking
it. To be sure, Miss Brownell did not improve on acquaintance; but
the other girls no longer tormented her--indeed, to her amazement,
they seemed suddenly to forget all that had happened and hailed her
as one of themselves. She was admitted to the fellowship of the
pack and, although in some occasional tiff she got a dig about baby
aprons and Murray pride, there was no more hostility, veiled or open.
Besides, Emily was quite able to give “digs” herself, as she learned
more about the girls and their weak points, and she could give them
with such merciless lucidity and irony that the others soon learned
not to provoke them. Chestnut-curls, whose name was Grace Wells,
and the Freckled-one, whose name was Carrie King, and Jennie Strang
became quite chummy with her, and Jennie sent chews of gum and tissue
thumb-papers across the aisle instead of giggles. Emily allowed them
all to enter the outer court of her temple of friendship but only
Rhoda was admitted to the inner shrine. As for Ilse Burnley, she did
not appear after that first day. Ilse, so Rhoda said, came to school
or not, just as she liked. Her father never bothered about her. Emily
always felt a certain hankering to know more of Ilse, but it did not
seem likely to be gratified.

Emily was insensibly becoming happy again. Already she felt as if
she belonged to this old cradle of her family. She thought a great
deal about the old Murrays; she liked to picture them revisiting the
glimpses of New Moon--Great-grandmother rubbing up her candlesticks and
making cheeses; Great-aunt Miriam stealing about looking for her lost
treasure; homesick Great-great-aunt Elizabeth stalking about in her
bonnet; Captain George, the dashing, bronzed sea-captain, coming home
with the spotted shells of the Indies; Stephen, the beloved of all,
smiling from its windows; her own mother dreaming of Father--they all
seemed as real to her as if she had known them in life.

She still had terrible hours when she was overwhelmed by grief for
her father and when all the splendours of New Moon could not stifle
the longing for the shabby little house in the hollow where they had
loved each other so. Then Emily fled to some secret corner and cried
her heart out, emerging with red eyes that always seemed to annoy Aunt
Elizabeth. Aunt Elizabeth had become used to having Emily at New Moon
but she had not drawn any nearer to the child. This hurt Emily always;
but Aunt Laura and Cousin Jimmy loved her and she had Saucy Sal and
Rhoda, fields creamy with clover, soft dark trees against amber skies,
and the madcap music the Wind Woman made in the firs behind the barns
when she blew straight up from the gulf; her days became vivid and
interesting, full of little pleasures and delights, like tiny, opening,
golden buds on the tree of life. If she could only have had her old
yellow account book, or some equivalent, she could have been fully
content. She missed it next to her father, and its enforced burning was
something for which she held Aunt Elizabeth responsible and for which
she felt she could never wholly forgive her. It did not seem possible
to get any substitute. As Cousin Jimmy had said, writing paper of any
kind was scarce at New Moon. Letters were seldom written, and when
they were a sheet of note-paper sufficed. Emily dared not ask Aunt
Elizabeth for any. There were times when she felt she would burst if
she couldn’t write out some of the things that came to her. She found
a certain safety valve in writing on her slate in school; but these
scribblings had to be rubbed off sooner or later--which left Emily with
a sense of loss--and there was always the danger that Miss Brownell
would see them. That, Emily felt, would be unendurable. No stranger
eyes must behold these sacred productions. Sometimes she let Rhoda read
them, though Rhoda rasped her by giggling over her finest flights.
Emily thought Rhoda as near perfection as a human being could be, but
giggling was her fault.

But there is a destiny which shapes the ends of young misses who are
born with the itch for writing tingling in their baby fingertips, and
in the fulness of time this destiny gave to Emily the desire of her
heart--gave it to her, too, on the very day when she most needed it.
That was the day, the ill-starred day, when Miss Brownell elected to
show the fifth class, by example as well as precept, how the _Bugle
Song_ should be read.

Standing on the platform Miss Brownell, who was not devoid of a
superficial, elocutionary knack, read those three wonderful verses.
Emily, who should have been doing a sum in long division, dropped her
pencil and listened entranced. She had never heard the _Bugle Song_
before--but now she heard it--and _saw_ it--the rose-red splendour
falling on those storied, snowy summits and ruined castles--the
lights that never were on land or sea streaming over the lakes--she
heard the wild echoes flying through the purple valleys and the misty
passes--the mere sound of the words seemed to make an exquisite echo
in her soul--and when Miss Brownell came to “Horns of elf-land faintly
blowing” Emily trembled with delight. She was snatched out of herself.
She forgot everything but the magic of that unequalled line--she sprang
from her seat, knocking her slate to the floor with a clatter, she
rushed up the aisle, she caught Miss Brownell’s arm.

“Oh, teacher,” she cried with passionate earnestness, “read that line
over again--oh, read that line over again!”

Miss Brownell, thus suddenly halted in her elocutionary display, looked
down into a rapt, uplifted face where great purplish-grey eyes were
shining with the radiance of a divine vision--and Miss Brownell was
angry. Angry with this breach of her strict discipline--angry with this
unseemly display of interest in a third class atom whose attention
should have been focused on long division. Miss Brownell shut her book
and shut her lips and gave Emily a resounding slap on her face.

“Go right back to your seat and mind your own business, Emily Starr,”
said Miss Brownell, her cold eyes malignant with her fury.

Emily, thus dashed to earth, moved back to her seat in a daze. Her
smitten cheek was crimson, but the wound was in her heart. One
moment ago in the seventh heaven--and now _this_--pain, humiliation,
misunderstanding! She could not bear it. What had she done to deserve
it? She had never been slapped in her life before. The degradation
and the injustice ate into her soul. She could not cry--this was “a
grief too deep for tears”--she went home from school in a suppressed
anguish of bitterness and shame and resentment--an anguish that had no
outlet, for she dared not tell her story at New Moon. Aunt Elizabeth,
she felt sure, would say that Miss Brownell had done quite right, and
even Aunt Laura, kind and sweet as she was, would not understand. She
would be grieved because Emily had misbehaved in school and had had to
be punished.

“Oh, if I could only tell Father all about it!” thought Emily.

She could not eat any supper--she did not think she would ever be able
to eat again. And oh, how she hated that unjust, horrid Miss Brownell!
She could never forgive her--never! If there were only some way in
which she could get square with Miss Brownell! Emily, sitting small and
pale and quiet at the New Moon supper table, was a seething volcano
of wounded feeling and misery and pride--ay, pride! Worse even than
the injustice was the sting of humiliation over this thing that had
happened. She, Emily Byrd Starr, on whom no hand had ever before been
ungently laid, had been slapped like a naughty baby before the whole
school. Who could endure this and live?

Then destiny stepped in and drew Aunt Laura to the sitting-room
bookcase to look in its lower compartment for a certain letter she
wanted to see. She took Emily with her to show her a curious old
snuff-box that had belonged to Hugh Murray, and in rummaging for it
lifted out a big, flat bundle of dusty paper--paper of a deep pink
colour in oddly long and narrow sheets.

“It’s time these old letter-bills were burned,” she said. “What a pile
of them! They’ve been here gathering dust for years and they are no
earthly good. Father once kept the post-office here at New Moon, you
know, Emily. The mail came only three times a week then, and each day
there was one of these long red ‘letter-bills,’ as they were called.
Mother always kept them, though when once used they were of no further
use. But I’m going to burn them right away.”

“Oh, Aunt Laura,” gasped Emily, so torn between desire and fear that
she could hardly speak. “Oh, don’t do that--give them to me--_please_
give them to me.”

“Why, child, what ever do you want of them?”

“Oh, Aunty, they have such lovely blank backs for writing on. Please,
Aunt Laura, it would be a _sin_ to burn those letter-bills.”

“You can have them, dear. Only you’d better not let Elizabeth see them.”

“I won’t--I won’t,” breathed Emily.

She gathered her precious booty into her arms and fairly ran
upstairs--and then upstairs again into the garret, where she already
had her “favourite haunt,” in which her uncomfortable habit of thinking
of things thousands of miles away could not vex Aunt Elizabeth. This
was the quiet corner of the dormer window, where shadows always moved
about, softly and swingingly, and beautiful mosaics patterned the bare
floor. From it one could see over the tree-tops right down to the Blair
Water. The walls were hung around with great bundles of soft fluffy
rolls, all ready for spinning, and hanks of untwisted yarn. Sometimes
Aunt Laura spun on the great wheel at the other end of the garret and
Emily loved the whirr of it.

In the recess of the dormer window she crouched--breathlessly she
selected a letter-bill and extracted a lead pencil from her pocket. An
old sheet of cardboard served as a desk; she began to write feverishly.

“Dear Father”--and then she poured out her tale of the day--of her
rapture and her pain--writing heedlessly and intently until the sunset
faded into dim, star-litten twilight. The chickens went unfed--Cousin
Jimmy had to go himself for the cows--Saucy Sal got no new milk--Aunt
Laura had to wash the dishes--what mattered it? Emily, in the
delightful throes of literary composition, was lost to all worldly
things.

When she had covered the backs of four letter-bills she could see to
write no more. But she had emptied out her soul and it was once more
free from evil passions. She even felt curiously indifferent to Miss
Brownell. Emily folded up her letter-bills and wrote clearly across the
packet,

                    _Mr. Douglas Starr,
                             On the Road to Heaven._

Then she stepped softly across to an old, worn-out sofa in a far corner
and knelt down, stowing away her letter and her “letter-bills” snugly
on a little shelf formed by a board nailed across it underneath.
Emily had discovered this one day when playing in the garret and had
noted it as a lovely hiding-place for secret documents. Nobody would
ever come across them there. She had writing paper enough to last for
months--there must be hundreds of those jolly old letter-bills.

“Oh,” cried Emily, dancing down the garret stairs, “I feel as if I was
made out of star-dust.”

Thereafter few evenings passed on which Emily did not steal up to the
garret and write a letter, long or short, to her father. The bitterness
died out of her grief. Writing to him seemed to bring him so near; and
she told him everything, with a certain honesty of confession that
was characteristic of her--her triumphs, her failures, her joys, her
sorrows, everything went down on the letter-bills of a Government which
had not been so economical of paper as it afterwards became. There was
fully half a yard of paper in each bill and Emily wrote a small hand
and made the most of every inch.

“I like New Moon. It’s so _stately_ and _splendid_ here,” she told her
father. “And it seems as if we must be very aristokratik when we have a
sun dyal. I can’t help feeling proud of it all. I am afraid I have too
much pride and so I ask God every night to take _most_ of it away but
not quite all. It is very easy to get a repputation for pride in Blair
Water school. If you walk straight and hold your head up you are a
proud one. Rhoda is proud, too, because her father ought to be King of
England. I wonder how Queen Victoria would feel if she knew that. It’s
very wonderful to have a friend who would be a princess if every one
had their rites. I love Rhoda with all my heart. She is so sweet and
kind. But I don’t like her giggles. And when I told her I could see the
school wallpaper small in the air she said You lie. It hurt me awfully
to have my dearest friend say that to me. And it hurt me worse when I
woke up in the night and thought about it. I had to stay awake ever so
long, too, because I was tired lying on one side and I was afraid to
turn over because Aunt Elizabeth would think I was figitting.

“I didn’t dare tell Rhoda about the Wind Woman because I suppose
that really is a kind of lie, though she seems so real to me. I hear
her now singing up on the roof around the big chimneys. I have no
Emily-in-the-glass here. The looking-glasses are all too high up in
the rooms I’ve been in. I’ve never been in the look-out. It is always
locked. It was Mother’s room and Cousin Jimmy says her father locked
it up after she ran away with you and Aunt Elizabeth keeps it locked
still out of respect to his memory, though Cousin Jimmy says Aunt
Elizabeth used to fight with her father something scandalus when he was
alive though no outsider knew of it because of the Murray pride. I feel
that way myself. When Rhoda asked me if Aunt Elizabeth burned candles
because she was old-fashioned I answered hawtily no, it was a Murray
tradishun. Cousin Jimmy has told me all the tradishuns of the Murrays.
Saucy Sal is very well and bosses the barns but still she will not have
kittens and I can’t understand it. I asked Aunt Elizabeth about it and
she said nice little girls didn’t talk about such things but I cannot
see why kittens are impropper. When Aunt Elizabeth is away Aunt Laura
and I smuggle Sal into the house but when Aunt Elizabeth comes back I
always feel gilty and wish I hadn’t. _But the next time I do it again._
I think that very strange. I never hear about dear Mike. I wrote Ellen
Greene and asked about him and she replyed and never mentioned Mike but
told me all about her roomatism. As if I cared about her roomatism.

“Rhoda is going to have a birthday party and she is going to invite
me. I am so exited. You know I never was to a party before. I think
about it a great deal and picture it out. Rhoda is not going to invite
all the girls but only a favered few. I hope Aunt Elizabeth will let
me ware my white dress and good hat. Oh, Father, I pinned that lovely
picture of the lace ball dress up on the wall of Aunt Elizabeth’s
room, just like I had it at home and Aunt Elizabeth took it down and
burned it and skolded me for making pin marks in the paper. I said Aunt
Elizabeth you should not have burned that picture. I wanted to have
it when I grow up to have a dress made like it for balls. And Aunt
Elizabeth said Do you expect to attend many balls if I may ask and I
said Yes when I am rich and famus and Aunt Elizabeth said Yes when the
moon is made of green cheese.

“I saw Dr. Burnley yesterday when he came over to buy some eggs from
Aunt Elizabeth. I was disappointed because he looks just like other
people. I thought a man who didn’t believe in God would look queer in
some way. He did not sware either and I was sorry for I have never
heard any one sware and I am very angshus to. He has big yellow eyes
like Ilse and a loud voice and Rhoda says when he gets mad you can hear
him yelling all over Blair Water. There is some mistery about Ilse’s
mother which I cannot fathum. Dr. Burnley and Ilse live alone. Rhoda
says Dr. Burnley says he will have no devils of women in that house.
That speech is wikked but striking. Old Mrs. Simms goes over and cooks
dinner and supper for them and then vamooses and they get their own
breakfast. The doctor sweeps out the house now and then and Ilse never
does anything but run wild. The doctor never smiles so Rhoda says. He
must be like King Henry the Second.

“I would like to get akwanted with Ilse. She isn’t as sweet as Rhoda
but I like her looks, too. But she doesn’t come to school much and
Rhoda says I mustn’t have any chum but her or she will cry her eyes
out. Rhoda loves me as much as I love her. We are both going to pray
that we may live together all our lives and die the same day.

“Aunt Elizabeth always puts up my school dinner for me. She won’t
give me anything but plain bread and butter but she cuts good thick
slices and the butter is thick too and never has the horrid taste Ellen
Greene’s butter used to have. And Aunt Laura slips in a cooky or an
apple turnover when Aunt Elizabeth’s back is turned. Aunt Elizabeth
says apple turnovers are not helthy for me. Why is it that the nicest
things never are helthy, Father? Ellen Greene used to say that too.

“My teacher’s name is Miss Brownell. I don’t like the cut of her jib.
(That is a naughtical frays that Cousin Jimmy uses. I know frays is
not spelled right but there is no dixonary at New Moon but that is the
sound of it.) She is too sarkastik and she likes to make you rediklus.
Then she laughs at you in a disagreable, snorting way. But I forgave
her for slapping me and I took a boquet to her to school next day to
make up. She receeved it very coldly and let it fade on her desk. In
a story she would have wepped on my neck. I don’t know whether it is
any use forgiving people or not. Yes, it is, it makes you feel more
comfortable yourself. You never had to ware baby aprons and sunbonnets
because you were a boy so you can’t understand how I feel about it.
And the aprons are made of such good stuff that they will never ware
out and it will be years before I grow out of them. But I have a white
dress for church with a black silk sash and a white legorn hat with
black bows and black kid slippers, and I feel very elegant in them.
I wish I could have a bang but Aunt Elizabeth will not hear to it.
Rhoda told me I had beautiful eyes. I wish she hadn’t. I have always
suspekted my eyes were beautiful but I was not sure. Now that I know
they are I’m afraid I’ll always be wondering if people notis it. I have
to go to bed at half past eight and I don’t like it but I sit up in bed
and look out of the window till it gets dark, so I get square with Aunt
Elizabeth that way, and I listen to the sound the sea makes. I like
it now though it always makes me feel sorrowful, but it’s a kind of a
nice sorrow. I have to sleep with Aunt Elizabeth and I don’t like that
either because if I move ever so little she says I figit but she admits
that I don’t kick. And she won’t let me put the window up. She doesn’t
like fresh air or light in the house. The parlour is dark as a toomb.
I went in one day and rolled up all the blinds and Aunt Elizabeth was
horrifyed and called me a little hussy and gave me the Murray look. You
would suppose I had committed a crime. I felt so insulted that I came
up to the garret and wrote a deskription of myself being drowned on a
letter-bill and then I felt better. Aunt Elizabeth said I was never to
go into the parlour again without permission but I don’t want to. I am
afraid of the parlour. All the walls are hung over with pictures of our
ancesters and there is not one good-looking person among them except
Grand-father Murray who looks handsome but very cross. The spare room
is upstairs and is just as gloomy as the parlour. Aunt Elizabeth only
lets distingwished people sleep there. I like the kitchen in daytime,
and the garret and the cook-house and the sitting-room and the hall
because of the lovely red front door and I love the dairy, but I don’t
like the other New Moon rooms. Oh, I forgot the cellar cubbord. I
love to go down there and look at the beautiful rows of jam and jelly
pots. Cousin Jimmy says it is a New Moon tradishun that the jam pots
must never be empty. What a lot of tradishuns New Moon has. It is a
very spashus house, and the trees are lovely. I have named the three
lombardys at the garden gate the Three Princesses and I have named
the old summer house Emily’s Bower, and the big apple tree by the old
orchard gate the Praying Tree because it holds up its long boughs
exactly as Mr. Dare holds up his arms in church where he prays.

“Aunt Elizabeth has given me the little right hand top burow drawer to
keep my things in.

“Oh, Father dear, I have made a great diskoverry. I wish I had made it
when you were alive for I think you’d have liked to know. _I can write
poetry._ Perhaps I could have written it long ago if I’d tried. But
after that first day in school I felt I was bound in honnour to try
and it is so easy. There is a little curly black-covered book in Aunt
Elizabeth’s bookcase called Thompson’s Seasons and I decided I would
write a poem on a season and the first three lines are,

    Now Autumn comes ripe with the peech and pear,
    The sportsman’s horn is heard throughout the land,
    And the poor partridge fluttering falls dead.

“Of course there are no peeches in P. E. Island and I never heard a
sportsman’s horn here either, but you don’t have to stick too close to
facts in poetry. I filled a whole letter-bill with it and then I ran
and read it to Aunt Laura. I thought she would be overjoyed to find
she had a niece who could write poetry but she took it very coolly
and said it didn’t sound much like poetry. It’s blank verse I cryed.
_Very_ blank said Aunt Elizabeth sarkastically though I hadn’t asked
_her_ opinion. But I think I will write ryming poetry after this so
that there will be no mistake about it and I intend to be a poetess
when I grow up and become famus. I hope also that I will be silph-like.
A poetess should be silph-like. Cousin Jimmy makes poetry too. He has
made over 1000 pieces but he never writes any down but carries them
in his head. I offered to give him some of my letter-bills--for he is
very kind to me--but he said he was too old to learn new habits. I
haven’t heard any of his poetry yet because the spirit hasn’t moved
him but I am very angshus to and I am sorry they don’t fatten the pigs
till the fall. I like Cousin Jimmy more and more all the time, except
when he takes his queer spells of looking and talking. Then he fritens
me but they never last long. I have read a good many of the books in
the New Moon bookcase. A history of the reformation in France, very
relijus and sad. A little fat book deskribing the months in England
and the afoursaid Thompson’s Seasons. I like to read them because they
have so many pretty words in them, but I don’t like the feel of them.
The paper is so rough and thick it makes me creepy. Travels in Spain,
very fassinating, with lovely smooth shiny paper, a missionary book
on the Paciffic Islands, pictures very interesting because of the way
the heathen chiefs arange their hair. After they became Christians
they cut it off which I think was a pity. Mrs. Hemans Poems. I am
passhunately fond of poetry, also of stories about desert islands. Rob
Roy, a novel, but I only read a little of it when Aunt Elizabeth said
I must stop because I must not read novels. Aunt Laura says to read
it on the sly. I don’t see why it wouldn’t be all right to obey Aunt
Laura but I have a queer feeling about it and I haven’t yet. A lovely
Tiger-book, full of pictures and stories of tigers that make me feel
so nice and shivery. The Royal Road, also relijus but some fun in it
so very good for Sundays. Reuben and Grace, a story but not a novel,
because Reuben and Grace are brother and sister and there is no getting
married. Little Katy and Jolly Jim, same as above but not so exciting
and traggic. Nature’s Mighty Wonders which is good and improving. Alice
in Wonderland, which is perfectly lovely, and the Memoirs of Anzonetta
B. Peters who was converted at seven and died at twelve. When anybody
asked for a question she answered with a hym verse. That is after she
was converted. Before that she spoke English. Aunt Elizabeth told me I
ought to try to be like Anzonetta. I think I might be an Alice under
more faverable circumstances but I am sure I can never be as good
as Anzonetta was and I don’t believe I want to be because she never
had any fun. She got sick as soon as she was converted and suffered
aggonies for years. Besides I am sure that if I talked hyms to people
it would exite ridicule. I tried it once. Aunt Laura asked me the other
day if I would like blue stripes better than red in my next winter’s
stockings and I ansered just as Anzonetta did when asked a similar
question, only different, about a sack,

    Jesus Thy blood and rightchusness
    My beauty are, my glorious dress.

And Aunt Laura said was I crazy and Aunt Elizabeth said I was
ireverent. So I know it wouldn’t work. Besides, Anzonetta couldn’t eat
anything for years having ulsers in her stomach and I am pretty fond of
good eating.

“Old Mr. Wales on the Derry Pond Road is dying of canser. Jennie Strang
says his wife has her morning all ready.

“I wrote a biograffy of Saucy Sal to-day and a deskripshun of the road
in Lofty John’s bush. I will pin them to this letter so you can read
them too. Good night my beloved Father.

“Yours most obedient humble servant,

                                  “_Emily B. Starr._

“P. S. I think Aunt Laura loves me. I like to be loved, Father dear.

                                        “_E. B. S._”




CHAPTER X

GROWING PAINS


There was a great deal of suppressed excitement in school during the
last week in June, the cause thereof being Rhoda Stuart’s birthday
party, which was to take place early in July. The amount of heart
burning was incredible. Who was to be invited? That was the great
question. There were some who knew they wouldn’t and some who knew
they would; but there were more who were in truly horrible suspense.
Everybody paid court to Emily because she was Rhoda’s dearest friend
and might conceivably have some voice in the selection of guests.
Jennie Strang even went as far as bluntly to offer Emily a beautiful
white box with a gorgeous picture of Queen Victoria on the cover, to
keep her pencils in, if she would procure her an invitation. Emily
refused the bribe and said grandly that she could not interfere in such
a delicate matter. Emily really did put on some airs about it. _She_
was sure of her invitation. Rhoda had told her about the party weeks
before and had talked it all over with her. It was to be a very grand
affair--a birthday cake covered with pink icing and adorned with ten
tall pink candles--ice-cream and oranges--and written invitations on
pink, gilt-edged notepaper _sent through the post-office_--this last
being an added touch of exclusiveness. Emily dreamed about that party
day and night and had her present all ready for Rhoda--a pretty hair
ribbon which Aunt Laura had brought from Shrewsbury.

On the first Sunday in July Emily found herself sitting beside Jennie
Strang in Sunday School for the opening exercises. Generally she and
Rhoda sat together, but now Rhoda was sitting three seats ahead with a
strange little girl--a very gay and gorgeous little girl, dressed in
blue silk, with a large, flower-wreathed leghorn hat on her elaborately
curled hair, white lace-work stockings on her pudgy legs and a bang
that came clean down to her eyes. Not all her fine feathers could make
a really fine bird of her, however; she was not in the least pretty and
her expression was cross and contemptuous.

“Who is the girl sitting with Rhoda?” whispered Emily.

“Oh, she’s Muriel Porter,” answered Jennie. “She’s a towny, you know.
She’s come out to spend her vacation with her aunt, Jane Beatty. I
hate her. If I was her I’d never _dream_ of wearing blue with a skin
as dark as hers. But the Porters are rich and Muriel thinks she’s a
wonder. They say Rhoda and her have been _awful thick_ since she came
out--Rhoda’s always chasing after anybody she thinks is up in the
world.”

Emily stiffened up. She was not going to listen to disparaging remarks
about her friends. Jennie felt the stiffening and changed her note.

“Anyway, I’m _glad_ I’m not invited to Rhoda’s old party. I wouldn’t
_want_ to go when Muriel Porter will be there, putting on her airs.”

“How do you know you are not invited?” wondered Emily.

“Why, the invitations went out yesterday. Didn’t you get yours?”

“No--o--o.”

“Did you get your mail?”

“Yes--Cousin Jimmy got it.”

“Well, maybe Mrs. Beecher forgot to give it to him. Likely you’ll get
it to-morrow.”

Emily agreed that it was likely. But a queer cold sensation of dismay
had invaded her being, which was not removed by the fact that after
Sunday School Rhoda strutted away with Muriel Porter without a glance
at any one else. On Monday Emily herself went to the post-office,
but there was no pink envelope for her. She cried herself to sleep
that night, but did not quite give up hope until Tuesday had passed.
Then she faced the terrible truth--that she--she, Emily Byrd Starr,
of New Moon--had not been invited to Rhoda’s party. The thing was
incredible. There _must_ be a mistake somewhere. Had Cousin Jimmy lost
the invitation on the road home? Had Rhoda’s grown-up sister who wrote
the invitations overlooked her name? Had,--Emily’s unhappy doubts
were forever resolved into bitter certainty by Jennie, who joined her
as she left the post-office. There was a malicious light in Jennie’s
beady eyes. Jennie liked Emily quite well by now, in spite of their
passage-at-arms on the day of their first meeting, but she liked to see
her pride humbled for all that.

“So you’re not invited to Rhoda’s party after all.”

“No,” admitted Emily.

It was a very bitter moment for her. The Murray pride was sorely
wrung--and, beneath the Murray pride, something else had been
grievously wounded but was not yet quite dead.

“Well, I call it dirt mean,” said Jennie, quite honestly sympathetic in
spite of her secret satisfaction. “After all the fuss she’s made over
you, too! But that’s Rhoda Stuart all over. Deceitful is no name for
_her_.”

“I don’t think she’s deceitful,” said Emily, loyal to the last ditch.
“I believe there’s some mistake about my not being invited.”

Jennie stared.

“Then you don’t know the reason? Why, Beth Beatty told me the whole
story. Muriel Porter hates you and she just up and told Rhoda that she
would not go to her party if you were invited. And Rhoda was so crazy
to have a town girl there that she promised she wouldn’t invite you.”

“Muriel Porter doesn’t know me,” gasped Emily. “How can she hate me?”

Jennie grinned impishly.

“_I_ can tell you. She’s _dead stuck_ on Fred Stuart and Fred knows it
and he teased her by praising _you_ up to her--told her you were the
sweetest girl in Blair Water and he meant to have you for _his girl_
when you were a little older. And Muriel was so mad and jealous she
made Rhoda leave you out. _I_ wouldn’t care if I was you. A Murray of
New Moon is away above such trash. As for Rhoda not being deceitful,
I can tell you she _is_. Why, she told you that she didn’t know that
snake was in the box, when it was her thought of doing it in the first
place.”

Emily was too crushed to reply. She was glad that Jennie had to
switch off down her own lane and leave her alone. She hurried home,
afraid that she could not keep the tears back until she got there.
Disappointment about the party--humiliation over the insult--all were
swallowed up in the anguish of a faith betrayed and a trust outraged.
Her love of Rhoda was quite dead now and Emily smarted to the core
of her soul with the pain of the blow that had killed it. It was a
child’s tragedy--and all the more bitter for that, since there was no
one to understand. Aunt Elizabeth told her that birthday parties were
all nonsense and that the Stuarts were not a family that the Murrays
had ever associated with. And even Aunt Laura, though she petted and
comforted, did not realize how deep and grievous the hurt had been--so
deep and grievous that Emily could not even write about it to her
father, and had no outlet for the violence of emotion that racked her
being.

The next Sunday Rhoda was alone in Sunday School, Muriel Porter having
been suddenly summoned back to town by her father’s illness; and Rhoda
looked sweetly towards Emily. But Emily sailed past her with a head
held very high and scorn on every lineament. She would _never_ have
anything to do with Rhoda Stuart again--she couldn’t. She despised
Rhoda more than ever for trying to get back with her, now that the town
girl for whom she had sacrificed her was gone. It was not for Rhoda she
mourned--it was for the friendship that had been so dear to her. Rhoda
_had_ been dear and sweet on the surface at least, and Emily had found
intense happiness in their companionship. Now it was gone and she could
never, _never_ love or trust anybody again. _There_ lay the sting.

It poisoned everything. Emily was of a nature which, even as a child,
did not readily recover from or forget such a blow. She moped about
New Moon, lost her appetite and grew thin. She hated to go to Sunday
School because she thought the other girls exulted in her humiliation
and her estrangement from Rhoda. Some slight feeling of the kind there
was, perhaps, but Emily morbidly exaggerated it. If two girls whispered
or giggled together she thought she was being discussed and laughed
at. If one of them walked home with her she thought it was out of
condescending pity because she was friendless. For a month Emily was
the most unhappy little being in Blair Water.

“I think I must have been put under a curse at birth,” she reflected
disconsolately.

Aunt Elizabeth had a more prosaic idea to account for Emily’s languor
and lack of appetite. She had come to the conclusion that Emily’s heavy
masses of hair “took from her strength” and that she would be much
stronger and better if it were cut off. With Aunt Elizabeth to decide
was to act. One morning she coolly informed Emily that her hair was to
be “shingled.”

Emily could not believe her ears.

“You don’t mean that you are going to cut off my hair, Aunt Elizabeth,”
she exclaimed.

“Yes, I mean exactly that,” said Aunt Elizabeth firmly. “You have
entirely too much hair especially for hot weather. I feel sure that is
why you have been so miserable lately. Now, I don’t want any crying.”

But Emily could not keep the tears back.

“Don’t cut it _all_ off,” she pleaded. “Just cut a good big bang. Lots
of the girls have their hair banged clean from the crown of their
heads. That would take half my hair off and the rest won’t take too
much strength.”

“There will be no bangs here,” said Aunt Elizabeth. “I’ve told you so
often enough. I’m going to shingle your hair close all over your head
for the hot weather. You’ll be thankful to me some day for it.”

Emily felt anything but thankful just then.

“It’s my one beauty,” she sobbed, “it and my lashes. I suppose you want
to cut off my lashes too.”

Aunt Elizabeth _did_ distrust those long, upcurled fringes of Emily’s,
which were an inheritance from the girlish stepmother, and too
un-Murray-like to be approved; but she had no designs against them. The
hair must go, however, and she curtly bade Emily wait there, without
any fuss, until she got the scissors.

Emily waited--quite hopelessly. She must lose her lovely hair--the
hair her father had been so proud of. It might grow again in time--if
Aunt Elizabeth let it--but that would take years, and meanwhile what a
fright she would be! Aunt Laura and Cousin Jimmy were out; she had no
one to back her up; this horrible thing must happen.

Aunt Elizabeth returned with the scissors; they clicked suggestively
as she opened them; that click, as if by magic, seemed to loosen
something--some strange formidable power in Emily’s soul. She turned
deliberately around and faced her aunt. She felt her brows drawing
together in an unaccustomed way--she felt an uprush as from unknown
depths of some irresistible surge of energy.

“Aunt Elizabeth,” she said, looking straight at the lady with the
scissors, “_my hair is not going to be cut off_. Let me hear no more of
this.”

An amazing thing happened to Aunt Elizabeth. She turned pale--she laid
the scissors down--she looked aghast for one moment at the transformed
or possessed child before her--and then for the first time in her life
Elizabeth Murray turned tail and fled--literally fled--to the kitchen.

“What is the matter, Elizabeth?” cried Laura, coming in from the
cook-house.

“I saw--Father--looking from her face,” gasped Elizabeth, trembling.
“And she said, ‘Let me hear no more of this,’--just as _he_ always said
it--his very words.”

Emily overheard her and ran to the sideboard mirror. She had had, while
she was speaking, an uncanny feeling of wearing somebody else’s face
instead of her own. It was vanishing now--but Emily caught a glimpse
of it as it left--the Murray look, she supposed. No wonder it had
frightened Aunt Elizabeth--it frightened herself--she was glad that it
had gone. She shivered--she fled to her garret retreat and cried; but
somehow, she knew that her hair would not be cut.

Nor was it; Aunt Elizabeth never referred to the matter again. But
several days passed before she meddled much with Emily.

It was a rather curious fact that from that day Emily ceased to
grieve over her lost friend. The matter had suddenly become of small
importance. It was as if it had happened so long ago that nothing, save
the mere emotionless memory of it, remained. Emily speedily regained
appetite and animation, resumed her letters to her father and found
that life tasted good again, marred only by a mysterious prescience
that Aunt Elizabeth had it in for her in regard to her defeat in the
matter of her hair and would get even sooner or later.

Aunt Elizabeth “got even” within the week. Emily was to go on an errand
to the shop. It was a broiling day and she had been allowed to go
barefooted at home; but now she must put on boots and stockings. Emily
rebelled--it was too hot--it was too dusty--she couldn’t walk that long
half-mile in buttoned boots. Aunt Elizabeth was inexorable. No Murray
must be seen barefooted away from home--and on they went. But the
minute Emily was outside the New Moon gate she deliberately sat down,
took them off, stowed them in a hole in the dyke, and pranced away
barefooted.

She did her errand and returned with an untroubled conscience. How
beautiful the world was--how softly blue was the great, round Blair
Water--how glorious that miracle of buttercups in the wet field below
Lofty John’s bush! At sight of it Emily stood stock still and composed
a verse of poetry.

    “Buttercup, flower of the yellow dye,
      I see thy cheerful face
    Greeting and nodding everywhere
      Careless of time and place.

    “In boggy field or public road
      Or cultured garden’s pale
    You sport your petals satin-soft,
      And down within the vale.”

So far, so good. But Emily wanted another verse to round the poem off
properly and the divine afflatus seemed gone. She walked dreamily home,
and by the time she reached New Moon she had got her verse and was
reciting it to herself with an agreeable sense of completion.

    “You cast your loveliness around
      Where’er you chance to be,
    And you shall always, buttercup,
      Be a flower dear to me.”

Emily felt very proud. This was her third poem and undoubtedly her
best. Nobody could say _it_ was very blank. She must hurry up to
the garret and write it on a letter-bill. But Aunt Elizabeth was
confronting her on the steps.

“Emily, where are your boots and stockings?”

Emily came back from cloudland with a disagreeable jolt. She had
forgotten all about boots and stockings.

“In the hole by the gate,” she said flatly.

“You went to the store barefooted?”

“Yes.”

“After I had told you not to?”

This seemed to Emily a superfluous question and she did not answer it.
But Aunt Elizabeth’s turn had come.




CHAPTER XI

ILSE


Emily was locked in the spare-room and told that she must stay there
until bedtime. She had pleaded against such a punishment in vain. She
had tried to give the Murray look but it seemed that--in her case at
any rate--it did not come at will.

“Oh, don’t shut me up alone there, Aunt Elizabeth,” she implored. “I
know I was naughty--but don’t put me in the spare-room.”

Aunt Elizabeth was inexorable. She knew that it was a cruel thing to
shut an over-sensitive child like Emily in that gloomy room. But she
thought she was doing her duty. She did not realize and would not have
for a moment believed that she was really wreaking her own smothered
resentment with Emily for her defeat and fright on the day of the
threatened hair-cutting. Aunt Elizabeth believed she had been stampeded
on that occasion by a chance family resemblance coming out under
stress, and she was ashamed of it. The Murray pride had smarted under
that humbling, and the smart ceased to annoy her only when she turned
the key of the spare-room on the white-faced culprit.

Emily, looking very small and lost and lonely, her eyes full of such
fear as should have no place in a child’s eyes, shrank close against
the door of the spare-room. It was better that way. She could not
imagine things behind her then. And the room was so big and dim that
a dreadful number of things could be imagined in it. Its bigness
and dimness filled her with a terror against which she could not
strive. Ever since she could remember she had had a horror of being
shut up alone in semi-darkness. She was not frightened of twilight
out-of-doors, but this shadowy, walled gloom made of the spare-room a
place of dread.

The window was hung with heavy, dark-green material, reinforced by
drawn slat-blinds. The big canopied bed, jutting out from the wall
into the middle of the floor, was high and rigid and curtained also
with dark draperies. _Anything_ might jump at her out of such a bed.
What if some great black hand should suddenly reach out of it--reach
right across the floor--and pluck at her? The walls, like those of the
parlour, were adorned with pictures of departed relatives. There _was_
such a large connection of dead Murrays. The glasses of their frames
gave out weird reflections of the spectral threads of light struggling
through the slat blinds. Worst of all, right across the room from her,
high up on the top of the black wardrobe, was a huge, stuffed white
Arctic owl, staring at her with uncanny eyes. Emily shrieked aloud
when she saw it, and then cowered down in her corner aghast at the
sound she had made in the great, silent, echoing room. She wished that
something _would_ jump out of the bed and put an end to her.

“I wonder what Aunt Elizabeth would feel like if I was found here
_dead_,” she thought, vindictively.

In spite of her fright she began to dramatize it and felt Aunt
Elizabeth’s remorse so keenly that she decided only to be unconscious
and come back to life when everybody was sufficiently scared and
penitent. But people _had_ died in this room--dozens of them. According
to Cousin Jimmy it was a New Moon tradition that when any member of the
family was near death he or she was promptly removed to the spare-room,
to die amid surroundings of proper grandeur. Emily could _see_ them
dying, in that terrible bed. She felt that she was going to scream
again, but she fought the impulse down. A Starr must not be a coward.
Oh, that owl! Suppose, when she looked away from it and then looked
back she would find that it had silently hopped down from the wardrobe
and was coming towards her. Emily dared not look at it for fear that
was just what had happened. _Didn’t_ the bed curtains stir and waver!
She felt beads of cold perspiration on her forehead.

Then something did happen. A beam of sunlight struck through a small
break in one of the slats of the blind and fell directly athwart the
picture of Grandfather Murray hanging over the mantel-piece. It was a
crayon “enlargement” copied from the old daguerreotype in the parlour
below. In that gleam of light his face seemed veritably to leap out of
the gloom at Emily with its grim frown strangely exaggerated. Emily’s
nerve gave way completely. In an ungovernable spasm of panic she rushed
madly across the room to the window, dashed the curtains aside, and
caught up the slat blind. A blessed flood of sunshine burst in. Outside
was a wholesome, friendly, human world. And, of all wonders, there,
leaning right against the window-sill was a ladder! For a moment Emily
almost believed that a miracle had been worked for her escape.

Cousin Jimmy had tripped that morning over the ladder, lying lost among
the burdocks under the balm-of-gileads behind the dairy. It was very
rotten and he decided it was time it was disposed of. He had shouldered
it up against the house so that he would be sure to see it on his
return from the hayfield.

In less time than it takes to write of it Emily had got the window up,
climbed out on the sill, and backed down the ladder. She was too intent
on escaping from that horrible room to be conscious of the shakiness of
the rotten rungs. When she reached the ground she bolted through the
balm-of-gileads and over the fence into Lofty John’s bush, nor did she
stop running till she reached the path by the brook.

Then she paused for breath, exultant. She was full of a fearful joy
with an elfin delight running through it. Sweet was the wind of freedom
that was blowing over the ferns. She had escaped from the spare-room
and its ghosts--she had got the better of mean old Aunt Elizabeth.

“I feel as if I was a little bird that had just got out of a cage,” she
told herself; and then she danced with joy of it all along her fairy
path to the very end, where she found Ilse Burnley huddled up on the
top of a fence panel, her pale-gold head making a spot of brilliance
against the dark young firs that crowded around her. Emily had not seen
her since that first day of school and again she thought she had never
seen or pretended anybody just like Ilse.

“Well, Emily of New Moon,” said Ilse, “where are you running to?”

“I’m running away,” said Emily frankly. “I was bad--at least, I was a
little bad--and Aunt Elizabeth locked me in the spare-room. I hadn’t
been bad enough for _that_--it wasn’t fair--so I got out of the window
and down the ladder.”

“You little cuss! I didn’t think you’d gimp enough for that,” said Ilse.

Emily gasped. It seemed very dreadful to be called a little cuss. But
Ilse had said it quite admiringly.

“I don’t think it was gimp,” said Emily, too honest to take a
compliment she didn’t deserve. “I was too scared to stay in that room.”

“Well, where are you going now?” asked Ilse. “You’ll have to go
somewhere--you can’t stay outdoors. There’s a thunderstorm coming up.”

So there was. Emily did not like thunderstorms. And her conscience
smote her.

“Oh,” she said, “do you suppose God is bringing up that storm to punish
me because I’ve run away?”

“No,” said Ilse scornfully. “If there is any God he wouldn’t make such
a fuss over nothing.”

“Oh, Ilse, don’t you believe there is a God?”

“I don’t know. Father says there isn’t. But in that case how did things
happen? Some days I believe there’s a God and some days I don’t. You’d
better come home with me. There’s nobody there. I was so dod-gastedly
lonesome I took to the bush.”

Ilse sprang down and held out her sunburned paw to Emily. Emily
took it and they ran together over Lofty John’s pasture to the old
Burnley house which looked like a huge grey cat basking in the warm
late sunshine, that had not yet been swallowed up by the menacing
thunderheads. Inside, it was full of furniture that must have been
quite splendid once; but the disorder was dreadful and the dust lay
thickly over everything. Nothing was in the right place apparently, and
Aunt Laura would certainly have fainted with horror if she had seen
the kitchen. But it was a good place to play. You didn’t have to be
careful not to mess things up. Ilse and Emily had a glorious game of
hide and seek all over the house until the thunder got so heavy and
the lightning so bright that Emily felt she must huddle on the sofa and
nurse her courage.

“Aren’t you ever afraid of thunder?” she asked Ilse.

“No, I ain’t afraid of anything except the devil,” said Ilse.

“I thought you didn’t believe in the devil either--Rhoda said you
didn’t.”

“Oh, there’s a devil all right, Father says. It’s only God he doesn’t
believe in. And if there _is_ a devil and no God to keep him in order,
is it any wonder I’m scared of him? Look here, Emily Byrd Starr, I
like you--heaps. I’ve always liked you. I knew you’d soon be good and
sick of that little, white-livered, lying sneak of a Rhoda Stuart. _I_
never tell lies. Father told me once he’d kill me if he ever caught me
telling a lie. I want you for _my_ chum. I’d go to school regular if I
could sit with you.”

“All right,” said Emily off-handedly. No more sentimental Rhodian vows
of eternal devotion for her. _That_ phase was over.

“And you’ll tell me things--nobody ever tells me things. And let _me_
tell _you_ things--I haven’t anybody to tell things to,” said Ilse.
“And you won’t be ashamed of me because my clothes are always queer and
because I don’t believe in God?”

“No. But if you knew Father’s God you’d believe in _Him_.”

“I wouldn’t. Besides, there’s only one God if there is any at all.”

“I don’t know,” said Emily perplexedly. “No, it can’t be like that.
Ellen Greene’s God isn’t a bit like Father’s, and neither is Aunt
Elizabeth’s. I don’t think I’d _like_ Aunt Elizabeth’s, but He is a
_dignified_ God at least, and Ellen’s isn’t. And I’m sure Aunt Laura’s
is another one still--nice and kind but not wonderful like Father’s.”

“Well never mind--I don’t like talking about God,” said Ilse
uncomfortably.

“_I_ do,” said Emily. “I think God is a very interesting subject, and
I’m going to pray for you, Ilse, that you can believe in Father’s God.”

“Don’t you dast!” shouted Ilse, who for some mysterious reason did not
like the idea. “I won’t be prayed for!”

“Don’t you ever pray yourself, Ilse?”

“Oh, now and then--when I feel lonesome at night--or when I’m in a
scrape. But I don’t want any one else to pray for me. If I catch you
doing it, Emily Starr, I’ll tear your eyes out. And don’t you go
sneaking and praying for me behind my back either.”

“All right, I won’t,” said Emily sharply, mortified at the failure of
her well-meant offer. “I’ll pray for every single soul I know, but I’ll
leave you out.”

For a moment Ilse looked as if she didn’t like this either. Then she
laughed and gave Emily a volcanic hug.

“Well, anyway, please like me. Nobody likes me, you know.”

“Your father _must_ like you, Ilse.”

“He doesn’t,” said Ilse positively. “Father doesn’t care a hoot about
me. I think there’s times when he hates the sight of me. I wish he
_did_ like me because he can be awful nice when he likes any one.
Do you know what I’m going to be when I grow up? I’m going to be an
elo-cu-tion-ist.”

“What’s that?”

“A woman who recites at concerts. I can do it dandy. What are you going
to be?”

“A poetess.”

“Golly!” said Ilse, apparently overcome. “I don’t believe _you_ can
write poetry,” she added.

“I can so, too,” cried Emily. “I’ve written three pieces--‘Autumn’
and ‘Lines to Rhoda’--only I burned _that_--and ‘An Address to a
Buttercup.’ I composed it to-day and it is my--my masterpiece.”

“Let’s hear it,” ordered Ilse.

Nothing loth, Emily proudly repeated her lines. Somehow she did not
mind letting Ilse hear them.

“Emily Byrd Starr, you _didn’t_ make that out of your own head?”

“I did.”

“Cross your heart?”

“Cross my heart.”

“Well”--Ilse drew a long breath--“I guess you _are_ a poetess all
right.”

It was a very proud moment for Emily--one of the great moments of life,
in fact. Her world had conceded her standing. But now other things
had to be thought of. The storm was over and the sun had set. It was
twilight--it would soon be dark. She must get home and back into the
spare-room before her absence was discovered. It was dreadful to think
of going back but she must do it lest a worse thing come upon her at
Aunt Elizabeth’s hands. Just now, under the inspiration of Ilse’s
personality, she was full of Dutch courage. Besides, it would soon be
her bedtime and she would be let out. She trotted home through Lofty
John’s bush, that was full of the wandering, mysterious lamps of the
fireflies, dodged cautiously through the balm-of-gileads--and stopped
short in dismay. The ladder was gone!

Emily went around to the kitchen door, feeling that she was going
straight to her doom. But for once the way of the transgressor was made
sinfully easy. Aunt Laura was alone in the kitchen.

“Emily dear, where on earth did you come from?” she exclaimed. “I was
just going up to let you out. Elizabeth said I might--she’s gone to
prayer-meeting.”

Aunt Laura did not say that she had tiptoed several times to the
spare-room door and had been racked with anxiety over the silence
behind it. Was the child unconscious from fright? Not even while the
thunderstorm was going on would relentless Elizabeth allow that door
to be opened. And here was Miss Emily walking unconcernedly in out
of the twilight after all this agony. For a moment even Aunt Laura
was annoyed. But when she heard Emily’s tale her only feeling was
thankfulness that Juliet’s child had not broken her neck on that rotten
ladder.

Emily felt that she had got off better than she deserved. She knew Aunt
Laura would keep the secret; and Aunt Laura let her give Saucy Sal a
whole cupful of strippings, and gave her a big plummy cooky and put her
to bed with kisses.

“You oughtn’t to be so good to me because I _was_ bad to-day,” Emily
said, between delicious mouthfuls. “I suppose I disgraced the Murrays
going barefoot.”

“If I were you I’d hide my boots every time I went out of the gate,”
said Aunt Laura. “But I wouldn’t forget to put them on before I came
back. What Elizabeth doesn’t know will never hurt her.”

Emily reflected over this until she had finished her cooky. Then she
said,

“That would be nice, but I don’t mean to do it any more. I guess I must
obey Aunt Elizabeth because she’s the head of the family.”

“Where do you get such notions?” said Aunt Laura.

“Out of my head. Aunt Laura, Ilse Burnley and I are going to be chums.
I like her--I’ve always felt I’d like her if I had a chance. I don’t
believe I can ever _love_ any girl again, but I _like_ her.”

“Poor Ilse!” said Aunt Laura, sighing.

“Yes, her father doesn’t like her. Isn’t it dreadful?” said Emily. “Why
doesn’t he?”

“He does--really. He only thinks he doesn’t.”

“But _why_ does he think it?”

“You are too young to understand, Emily.”

Emily hated to be told she was too young to understand. She felt that
she could understand perfectly well if only people would take the
trouble to explain things to her and not be so mysterious.

“I wish I could pray for her. It wouldn’t be fair, though, when I know
how she feels about it. But I’ve always asked God to bless all my
friends so she’ll be in _that_ and maybe some good will come of it. Is
‘golly’ a proper word to say, Aunt Laura?”

“No--no!”

“I’m sorry for that,” said Emily, seriously, “because it’s very
striking.”




CHAPTER XII

THE TANSY PATCH


Emily and Ilse had a splendid fortnight of fun before their first
fight. It was really quite a terrible fight, arising out of a simple
argument as to whether they would or would not have a parlour in the
playhouse they were building in Lofty John’s bush. Emily wanted a
parlour and Ilse didn’t. Ilse lost her temper at once, and went into
a true Burnley tantrum. She was very fluent in her rages and the
volley of abusive “dictionary words” which she hurled at Emily would
have staggered most of the Blair Water girls. But Emily was too much
at home with words to be floored so easily; she grew angry too, but
in the cool, dignified, Murray way which was more exasperating than
violence. When Ilse had to pause for breath in her diatribes, Emily,
sitting on a big stone with her knees crossed, her eyes black and her
cheeks crimson, interjected little sarcastic retorts that infuriated
Ilse still further. Ilse was crimson, too, and her eyes were pools of
scintillating, tawny fire. They were both so pretty in their fury that
it was almost a pity they couldn’t have been angry all the time.

“You needn’t suppose, you little puling, snivelling chit, that you are
going to boss _me_, just because you live at New Moon,” shrieked Ilse,
as an ultimatum, stamping her foot.

“I’m not going to boss you--I’m not going to associate with you ever
again,” retorted Emily, disdainfully.

“I’m glad to be rid of you--you proud, stuck-up, conceited, top-lofty
_biped_,” cried Ilse. “Never you speak to me again. And don’t you go
about Blair Water saying things about me, either.”

This was unbearable to a girl who _never_ “said things” about her
friends or once-friends.

“I’m not going to _say_ things about you,” said Emily deliberately. “I
am just going to _think_ them.”

This was far more aggravating than speech and Emily knew it. Ilse was
driven quite frantic by it. Who knew what unearthly things Emily might
be thinking about her any time she took the notion to? Ilse had already
discovered what a fertile invention Emily had.

“Do you suppose I care what you think, you insignificant serpent? Why,
you haven’t _any_ sense.”

“I’ve got something then that’s far better,” said Emily, with a
maddening superior smile. “Something that _you_ can _never_ have, Ilse
Burnley.”

Ilse doubled her fists as if she would like to demolish Emily by
physical force.

“If I couldn’t write better poetry than you, I’d hang myself,” she
derided.

“I’ll lend you a dime to buy a rope,” said Emily.

Ilse glared at her, vanquished.

“You go to the devil!” she said.

Emily got up and went, not to the devil, but back to New Moon. Ilse
relieved _her_ feelings by knocking the boards of their china closet
down, and kicking their “moss gardens” to pieces, and departed also.

Emily felt exceedingly badly. Here was another friendship destroyed--a
friendship, too, that had been very delightful and satisfying. Ilse
_had_ been a splendid chum--there was no doubt about that. After Emily
had cooled down she went to the dormer window and cried.

“Wretched, wretched me!” she sobbed, dramatically, but very sincerely.

Yet the bitterness of her break with Rhoda was not present. _This_
quarrel was fair and open and above-board. She had not been stabbed in
the back. But of course she and Ilse would never be chums again. You
couldn’t be chums with a person who called you a chit and a biped, and
a serpent, and told you to go to the devil. The thing was impossible.
And besides, Ilse could _never_ forgive _her_--for Emily was honest
enough to admit to herself that she had been very aggravating, too.

Yet, when Emily went to the playhouse next morning, bent on retrieving
her share of broken dishes and boards, there was Ilse, skipping around,
hard at work, with all the shelves back in place, the moss garden
re-made, and a beautiful parlour laid out and connected with the
living-room by a spruce arch.

“Hello, you. Here’s your parlour and I hope you’ll be satisfied now,”
she said gaily. “What’s kept you so long? I thought you were never
coming.”

This rather posed Emily after her tragic night, wherein she had buried
her second friendship and wept over its grave. She was not prepared for
so speedy a resurrection. As far as Ilse was concerned it seemed as if
no quarrel had ever taken place.

“Why, that was _yesterday_,” she said in amazement, when Emily, rather
distantly, referred to it. Yesterday and to-day were two entirely
different things in Ilse’s philosophy. Emily accepted it--she found she
had to. Ilse, it transpired, could no more help flying into tantrums
now and then than she could help being jolly and affectionate between
them. What amazed Emily, in whom things were bound to rankle for a
time, was the way in which Ilse appeared to forget a quarrel the
moment it was over. To be called a serpent and a crocodile one minute
and hugged and darling-ed the next was somewhat disconcerting until
time and experience took the edge off it.

“Aren’t I nice enough between times to make up for it?” demanded Ilse.
“Dot Payne never flies into tempers, but would you like _her_ for a
chum?”

“No, she’s too stupid,” admitted Emily.

“And Rhoda Stuart is never out of temper, but you got enough of _her_.
Do you think I’d ever treat you as she did?”

No, Emily had no doubt on this point. Whatever Ilse was or was not, she
was loyal and true.

And certainly Rhoda Stuart and Dot Payne compared to Ilse were “as
moonlight unto sunlight and as water unto wine”--or would have been if
Emily had as yet known anything more of her Tennyson than the _Bugle
Song_.

“You can’t have everything,” said Ilse. “I’ve got Dad’s temper and
that’s all there is to it. Wait till you see _him_ in one of his rages.”

Emily had not seen this so far. She had often been down in the
Burnley’s house but on the few occasions when Dr. Burnley had been
home he had ignored her save for a curt nod. He was a busy man, for,
whatever his shortcomings were, his skill was unquestioned and the
bounds of his practice extended far. By the sickbed he was as gentle
and sympathetic as he was brusque and sarcastic away from it. As long
as you were ill there was nothing Dr. Burnley would not do for you;
once you were well he had apparently no further use for you. He had
been absorbed all through July trying to save Teddy Kent’s life up at
the Tansy Patch. Teddy was out of danger now and able to be up, but
his improvement was not speedy enough to satisfy Dr. Burnley. One day
he held up Emily and Ilse, who were heading through the lawn to the
pond, with fishing-hooks and a can of fat, abominable worms--the latter
manipulated solely by Ilse--and ordered them to betake themselves up to
the Tansy Patch and play with Teddy Kent.

“He’s lonesome and moping. Go and cheer him up,” said the doctor.

Ilse was rather loth to go. She liked Teddy, but it seemed she did not
like his mother. Emily was secretly not averse. She had seen Teddy Kent
but once, at Sunday School the day before he was taken seriously ill,
and she had liked his looks. It had seemed that he liked hers, too, for
she caught him staring shyly at her over the intervening pews several
times. He was very handsome, Emily decided. She liked his thick,
dark-brown hair and his black-browed blue eyes, and for the first time
it occurred to her that it might be rather nice to have a boy playmate,
too. Not a “beau” of course. Emily hated the school jargon that called
a boy your “beau” if he happened to give you a pencil or an apple and
picked you out frequently for his partner in the games.

“Teddy’s nice but his mother is queer,” Ilse told her on their way to
the Tansy Patch. “She never goes out anywhere--not even to church--but
I guess it’s because of the scar on her face. They’re not Blair Water
people--they’ve only been living at the Tansy Patch since last fall.
They’re poor and proud and not many people visit them. But Teddy is
awfully nice, so if his mother gives us some black looks we needn’t
mind.”

Mrs. Kent gave them no black looks, though her reception was rather
distant. Perhaps she, too, had received some orders from the doctor.
She was a tiny creature, with enormous masses of dull, soft, silky,
fawn hair, dark, mournful eyes, and a broad scar running slantwise
across her pale face. Without the scar she must have been pretty, and
she had a voice as soft and uncertain as the wind in the tansy. Emily,
with her instinctive faculty of sizing up people she met, felt that
Mrs. Kent was not a happy woman.

The Tansy Patch was east of the Disappointed House, between the Blair
Water and the sand-dunes. Most people considered it a bare, lonely,
neglected place, but Emily thought it was fascinating. The little
clap-boarded house topped a small hill, over which tansy grew in a
hard, flaunting, aromatic luxuriance, rising steeply and abruptly
from a main road. A straggling rail fence, almost smothered in wild
rosebushes, bounded the domain, and a sagging, ill-used little gate
gave ingress from the road. Stones were let into the side of the hill
for steps up to the front door. Behind the house was a tumble-down
little barn, and a field of flowering buckwheat, creamy green, sloping
down to the Blair Water. In front was a crazy veranda around which a
brilliant band of red poppies held up their enchanted cups.

Teddy was unfeignedly glad to see them, and they had a happy afternoon
together. There was some colour in Teddy’s clear olive skin when it
ended and his dark-blue eyes were brighter. Mrs. Kent took in these
signs greedily and asked the girls to come back, with an eagerness that
was yet not cordiality. But they had found the Tansy Patch a charming
place and were glad to go again. For the rest of the vacation there was
hardly a day when they did not go up to it--preferably in the long,
smoky, delicious August evenings when the white moths sailed over the
tansy plantation and the golden twilight faded into dusk and purple
over the green slopes beyond and fireflies lighted their goblin torches
by the pond. Sometimes they played games in the tansy patch, when Teddy
and Emily somehow generally found themselves on the same side and then
no more than a match for agile, quick-witted Ilse; sometimes Teddy
took them to the barn loft and showed them his little collection of
drawings. Both girls thought them very wonderful without knowing in
the least how wonderful they really were. It seemed like magic to see
Teddy take a pencil and bit of paper and with a few quick strokes of
his slim brown fingers bring out a sketch of Ilse or Emily or Smoke or
Buttercup, that looked ready to speak--or meow.

Smoke and Buttercup were the Tansy Patch cats. Buttercup was a chubby,
yellow, delightful creature hardly out of kittenhood. Smoke was a big
Maltese and an aristocrat from the tip of his nose to the tip of his
tail. There was no doubt whatever that he belonged to the cat caste of
Vere de Vere. He had emerald eyes and a coat of plush. The only white
thing about him was an adorable dicky.

Emily thought of all the pleasant hours spent at the Tansy Patch the
pleasantest were those, when, tired with play, they all three sat
on the crazy veranda steps in the mystery and enchantment of the
borderland ’tween light and dark when the little clump of spruce behind
the barn looked like beautiful, dark, phantom trees. The clouds of the
west faded into grey and a great round yellow moon rose over the fields
to be reflected brokenly in the pond, where the Wind Woman was making
wonderful, woven lights and shadows.

Mrs. Kent never joined them, though Emily had a creepy conviction
that she was watching them stealthily from behind the kitchen blind.
Teddy and Ilse sang school ditties, and Ilse recited, and Emily told
stories; or they sat in happy silence, each anchored in some secret
port of dreams, while the cats chased each other madly over the hill
and through the tansy, tearing round and round the house like possessed
creatures. They would spring up at the children with sudden pounces and
spring as suddenly away. Their eyes gleamed like jewels, their tails
swayed like plumes. They were palpitating with nervous, stealthy life.

“Oh, isn’t it good to be alive--like this?” Emily said once. “Wouldn’t
it be dreadful if one had never lived?”

Still, existence was not wholly unclouded--Aunt Elizabeth took care of
that. Aunt Elizabeth only permitted the visits to the Tansy Patch under
protest, and because Dr. Burnley had ordered them.

“Aunt Elizabeth does not aprove of Teddy,” Emily wrote in one of her
letters to her father--which epistles were steadily mutiplying on the
old garret sofa shelf. “The first time I asked her if I might go and
play with Teddy she looked at me _severely_ and said, Who is this Teddy
person. We do not know anything about these Kents. Remember, Emily,
the Murrays do not assosiate with every one. I said I am a Starr--I am
not a Murray, you said so yourself. Dear Father I did not mean to be
impertnent but Aunt Elizabeth said I was and would not speak to me the
rest of the day. She seemed to think that was a very bad punishment
but I did not mind it much only it is rather unpleasant to have your
own family preserve a disdaneful silence towards you. But since then
she lets me go to the Tansy Patch because Dr. Burnley came and told
her to. Dr. Burnley has a _strange inflewence_ over Aunt Elizabeth. I
do not understand it. Rhoda said once that Aunt Elizabeth hoped Dr.
Burnley and Aunt Laura would make a match of it--which, you know means
get married--but that is not so. Mrs. Thomas Anderson was here one
afternoon to tea. (Mrs. Thomas Anderson is a big fat woman and her
grandmother was a Murray and there is nothing else to say about _her_.)
She asked Aunt Elizabeth if she thought Dr. Burnley would marry again
and Aunt Elizabeth said no, he would not and she did not think it right
for people to marry a second time. Mrs. Anderson said Sometimes I have
thought he would take Laura. Aunt Elizabeth just swept her a hawty
glance. There is no use in denying it, there are times when I am very
proud of Aunt Elizabeth, even if I do not like her.

“Teddy is a very nice boy, Father. I think you would aprove of him.
Should there be two p’s in aprove? He can make splendid pictures
and he is going to be a famus artist some day, and then he is going
to paint my portrate. He keeps his pictures in the barn loft because
his mother doesn’t like to see them. He can whistle just like a bird.
The Tansy Patch is a _very quante_ place--espesially at night. I love
the twilight there. We always have such fun in the twilight. The Wind
Woman makes herself small in the tansy just like a tiny, tiny fairy and
the cats are so queer and creepy and delightful then. They belong to
Mrs. Kent and Teddy is afraid to pet them much for fear she will drown
them. She drowned a kitten once because she thought he liked it better
than her. But he didn’t because Teddy is _very much attatched_ to his
mother. He washes the dishes for her and helps her in all the house
work. Ilse says the boys in school call him sissy for that but I think
it is noble and manley of him. Teddy wishes she would let him have a
dog but she wont. I have thought Aunt Elizabeth was tirannical but
Mrs. Kent is far worse in some ways. But then she loves Teddy and Aunt
Elizabeth does not love me.

“But Mrs. Kent doesn’t like Ilse or me. She never says so but we _feel_
it. She never asks us to stay to tea--and we’ve always been so polite
to her. I believe she is jellus of us because Teddy likes us. Teddy
gave me the sweetest picture of the Blair Water he had painted on a big
white cowhawk shell but he said I mustn’t let his mother know about it
because she would cry. Mrs. Kent is a very misterious person, very like
some people you read of in books. I like misterious people but not too
close. Her eyes always look hungry though she has plenty to eat. She
never goes anywhere because she has a scar on her face where she was
burned with a lamp exploding. It made my blood run cold, dear Father.
How thankful I am that Aunt Elizabeth only burns candles. Some of the
Murray tradishuns are very sensible. Mrs. Kent is very relijus--what
she calls relijus. She prays even in the middle of the day. Teddy says
that before he was born into this world he lived in another one where
there were two suns, one red and one blue. The days were red and the
nights blue. I don’t know where he got the idea but it sounds atractive
to me. And he says the brooks run honey instead of water. But what did
you do when you were thirsty, I said. Oh, we were never thirsty there.
But I think I would _like_ to be thirsty because then cold water tastes
so good. _I_ would like to live in the moon. It must be such a nice
silvery place.

“Ilse says Teddy ought to like her best because there is more fun in
her than in me but that is not true. There is just as much fun in me
when my conshence doesn’t bother me. I guess Ilse wants Teddy to like
her best but she is not a jellus girl.

“I am glad to say that Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura both aprove of my
friendship with Ilse. It is so seldom they aprove of the same thing.
I am getting used to fighting with Ilse now and don’t mind it much.
Besides I can fight pretty well myself when my blood is up. We fight
about once a week but we make up right away and Ilse says things would
be dull if there was never a row. I would like it better without rows
but you can never tell what will make Ilse mad. She never gets mad
twice over the same thing. She calls me dreadful names. Yesterday she
called me a lousy lizard and a toothless viper. But somehow I didn’t
mind it much because I knew I wasn’t lousy or toothless and she knew
it too. I don’t call names because that is unladylike but I smile and
that makes Ilse far madder than if I skowled and stamped as she does,
and that is why I do it. Aunt Laura says I must be careful not to pick
up the words Ilse uses and try to set her a good example because the
poor child has no one to look after her propperly. I wish I could use
some of her words because they are so striking. She gets them from her
father. I think my aunts are too perticular. One night when the Rev.
Mr. Dare was here to tea I used the word bull in my conversashun. I
said Ilse and I were afraid to go through Mr. James Lee’s pasture where
the old well was because he had a cross bull there. After Mr. Dare
had gone Aunt Elizabeth gave me an awful skolding and told me I was
never to use _that word_ again. But she had been talking of tigers at
tea--in connexshun with missionaries--and I can’t understand why it is
more disgraceful to talk about bulls than tigers. Of course bulls are
feroshus animals but so are tigers. But Aunt Elizabeth says I am always
disgracing them when they have company. When Mrs. Lockwood was here
from Shrewsbury last week they were talking about Mrs. Foster Beck, who
is a bride, and I said Dr. Burnley thought she was devilishly pretty.
Aunt Elizabeth said EMILY in an awful tone. She was pale with rath.
Dr. Burnley said it, I cryed, I am only kwoting. And Dr. Burnley did
say it the day I stayed to dinner with Ilse and Dr. Jameson was there
from Shrewsbury. I saw Dr. Burnley in one of his rages that afternoon
over something Mrs. Simms had done in his office. It was a groosome
sight. His big yellow eyes blazed and he tore about and kicked over a
chair and threw a mat at the wall and fired a vase out of the window
and said _terrible things_. I sat on the sofa and stared at him like
one fassinated. It was so interesting I was sorry when he cooled down
which he soon did because he is like Ilse and never stays mad long. He
never gets mad at Ilse though. Ilse says she wishes he would--it would
be better than being taken no notis of. She is as much of an orfan as
I am, poor child. Last Sunday she went to church with her old faded
blue dress on. There was a tare right in front of it. Aunt Laura wepped
when she came home and then spoke to Mrs. Simms about it because she
did not dare speak to Dr. Burnley. Mrs. Simms was cross and said it
was not her place to look after Ilses close but she said she had got
Dr. Burnley to get Ilse a nice sprigged muslin dress and Ilse had got
egg stane on it, and when Mrs. Simms skolded her for being so careless
Ilse flew into a rage and went upstairs and tore the muslin dress to
pieces, and Mrs. Simms said she wasn’t going to bother her head again
about a child like that and there was nothing for her to ware but her
old blue but Mrs. Simms didn’t know it was tore. So I sneaked Ilses
dress over to New Moon and Aunt Laura mended it neetly and hid the tare
with a pocket. Ilse said she tore up her muslin dress one of the days
she didn’t believe in God and didn’t care what she did. Ilse found
a mouse in her bed one night and she just shook it out and jumped
in. Oh, how brave. I could never be as brave as that. It is not true
that Dr. Burnley never smiles. I have seen him do it but not often.
He just smiles with his lips but not his eyes and it makes me feel
uncomfortable. Mostly he laughs in a horrid sarkastic way like _Jolly
Jim’s_ uncle.

“We had barley soup for dinner that day--very watery.

“Aunt Laura is giving me five cents a week for washing the dishes. I
can only spend one cent of it and the other four have to be put in
the toad bank in the sitting-room on the mantel. The toad is made of
brass and sits on top of the bank and you put the cents in his mouth
one at a time. He swallows them and they drop into the bank. It’s very
fassinating (I should not write fassinating again because you told me
I must not use the same word too often but I cant think of any other
that deskribes my feelings so well). The toad bank is Aunt Laura’s but
she said I could use it. I just hugged her. Of course I never hug Aunt
Elizabeth. She is too rijid and bony. She does not aprove of Aunt Laura
paying me for washing dishes. I tremble to think what she would say if
she knew Cousin Jimmy gave me a whole dollar on the sly last week.

“I wish he had not given me so much. It worrys me. It is an awful
responsibility. It will be so diffikult to spend it wisely also
without Aunt Elizabeth finding out about it. I hope I shall never
have a million dollars. I am sure it would crush me utterly. I keep
my dollar hid on the shelf with my letters and I put it in an old
envelope and wrote on it Cousin Jimmy Murray gave me this so that if I
died suddenly and Aunt Elizabeth found it she would know I came by it
honestly.

“Now that the days are getting cool Aunt Elizabeth makes me wear my
thick flannel petticoat. I hate it. It makes me so bunchy. But Aunt
Elizabeth says I must wear it because you died of consumption. I wish
close could be both graceful and helthy. I read the story of Red Riding
Hood to-day. I think the wolf was the most intresting caracter in it.
Red Riding Hood was a stupid little thing so easily fooled.

“I wrote two poems yesterday. One was short and entitelled Lines
Adressed to a blue-eyed-grass flower gathered in the Old Orchard. Here
it is.

    Sweet little flower thy modest face
    Is ever lifted tords the sky
    And a reflexshun of its face
    Is caught within thine own blue eye.
    The meadow queens are tall and fair
    The columbines are lovely too
    But the poor talent I possess
    Shall laurel thee my flower of blue.

“The other poem was long and I wrote it on a letter-bill. It is called
The Monark of the Forest. The Monark is the big birch in Lofty John’s
bush. I love that bush so much it hurts. Do you understand that kind
of hurting. Ilse likes it too and we play there most of the time when
we are not at the Tansy Patch. We have three paths in it. We call them
the To-day Road, the Yesterday Road and the To-morrow Road. The To-day
Road is by the brook and we call it that because it is lovely now. The
Yesterday Road is out in the stumps where Lofty John cut some trees
down and we call it that because it used to be lovely. The To-morrow
Road is just a tiny path in the maple clearing and we call it that
because it is going to be lovely some day, when the maples grow bigger.
But oh Father dear I haven’t forgotten the dear old trees down home.
I always think of them after I go to bed. But I am happy here. It
isn’t wrong to be happy, is it Father. Aunt Elizabeth says I got over
being homesick very quick but I am often homesick _inside_. I have got
akwanted with Lofty John. Ilse is a great friend of his and often goes
there to watch him working in his carpenter shop. He says he has made
enough ladders to get to heaven without the priest but that is just his
joke. He is really a very devowt Catholic and goes to the chapel at
White Cross every Sunday. I go with Ilse though perhaps I ought not to
when he is an enemy of my family. He is of stately baring and refined
manners--very sivil to me but I don’t always like him. When I ask him
a serius question he always winks over my head when he ansers. That
is insulting. Of course I never ask any questions on relijus subjects
but Ilse does. She likes him but she says he would burn us all at the
stake if he had the power. She asked him right out if he wouldn’t
and he winked at me and said Oh, we wouldn’t burn nice pretty little
Protestants like you. We would only burn the old ugly ones. That was a
frivellus reply. Mrs. Lofty John is a nice woman and not at all proud.
She looks just like a little rosy rinkled apple.

“On rainy days we play at Ilse’s. We can slide down the bannisters and
do what we like. Nobody cares only when the doctor is home we have to
be quiet because he cant bear any noise in the house except what he
makes himself. The roof is flat and we can get out on it through a door
in the garret ceiling. It is very exiting to be up on the roof of a
house. We had a yelling contest there the other night to see which
could yell the loudest. To my surprise I found I could. You never can
tell what you can do till you try. But too many people heard us and
Aunt Elizabeth was very angry. She asked me what made me do such a
thing. That is an okward question because often I cant tell what makes
me do things. Sometimes I do them just to find out what I feel like
doing them. And sometimes I do them because I want to have some exiting
things to tell my grandchildren. Is it impropper to talk about haveing
grandchildren. I have discovered that it is impropper to talk about
haveing children. One evening when people were here Aunt Laura said to
me quite kindly What are you thinking so ernestly about, Emily, and I
said I am picking names for my children. I mean to have ten. And after
the company had gone Aunt Elizabeth said to Aunt Laura _icilly_ I think
it will be better in the future Laura if you do _not_ ask that child
what she is thinking of. If Aunt Laura doesnt I shall be sorry because
when I have an intresting thought I like to tell it.

“School begins again next week. Ilse is going to ask Miss Brownell if
I can sit with her. I intend to act as if Rhoda was not there at all.
Teddy is going too. Dr. Burnley says he is well enough to go though his
mother doesnt like the idea. Teddy says she never likes to have him go
to school but she is glad that he hates Miss Brownell. Aunt Laura says
the right way to end a letter to a dear friend is yours affeckshunately.

“So I am yours very affeckshunately.

                                “_Emily Byrd Starr._

“P. S. Because _you_ are my _very dearest friend still_, Father. Ilse
says she loves me best of anything in the world and her red leather
boots that Mrs. Simms gave her next.”




CHAPTER XIII

A DAUGHTER OF EVE


New Moon was noted for its apples and on that first autumn of Emily’s
life there both the “old” and the “new” orchards bore a bumper crop.
In the new were the titled and pedigreed apples; and in the old the
seedlings, unknown to catalogues, that yet had a flavour wildly sweet
and all their own. There was no taboo on any apple and Emily was free
to eat all she wanted of each and every kind,--the only prohibition
being that she must not take any to bed with her. Aunt Elizabeth, very
properly, did not want her bed messed up with apple seeds; and Aunt
Laura had a horror of any one eating apples in the dark lest they might
eat an apple worm into the bargain. Emily, therefore, should have been
able fully to satisfy her appetite for apples at home; but there is
a certain odd kink in human nature by reason of which the flavour of
the apples belonging to somebody else is always vastly superior to our
own--as the crafty serpent of Eden very well knew. Emily, like most
people, possessed this kink, and consequently thought that nowhere were
there such delicious apples as those belonging to Lofty John. He was in
the habit of keeping a long row of apples on one of the beams in his
workshop and it was understood that she and Ilse might help themselves
freely whenever they visited that charming, dusty, shaving-carpeted
spot. Three varieties of Lofty John’s apples were their especial
favourites--the “scabby apples,” that looked as if they had leprosy but
were of unsurpassed deliciousness under their queerly blotched skins;
the “little red apples,” scarcely bigger than a crab, deep crimson all
over and glossy as satin, that had such a sweet, nutty flavour; and
the big green “sweet apples” that children usually thought the best of
all. Emily considered that day wasted whose low descending sun had not
beheld her munching one of Lofty John’s big green sweets.

In the back of her mind Emily knew quite well that she should not be
going to Lofty John’s at all. To be sure, she had never been forbidden
to go--simply because it had never occurred to her aunts that an inmate
of New Moon could so forget the beloved old family feud between the
houses of Murray and Sullivan belonging to two generations back. It was
an inheritance that any proper Murray would live up to as a matter of
course. But when Emily was off with that wild little Ishmaelite of an
Ilse, traditions lost their power under the allurement of Lofty John’s
“reds” and “scabs.”

She wandered rather lonesomely into his workshop one September evening
at twilight. She had been alone since she came from school; her aunts
and Cousin Jimmy had gone to Shrewsbury, promising to be back by
sunset. Ilse was away also, her father, prodded thereto by Mrs. Simms,
having taken her to Charlottetown to get her a winter coat. Emily liked
being alone very well at first. She felt quite important over being
in charge of New Moon. She ate the supper Aunt Laura had left on the
cook-house dresser for her and she went into the dairy and skimmed
six lovely big pans of milk. She had no business at all to do this
but she had always hankered to do it and this was too good a chance
to be missed. She did it beautifully and nobody ever knew--each aunt
supposing the other had done it--and so she was never scolded for it.
This does not point any particular moral, of course; in a proper yarn
Emily should either have been found out and punished for disobedience
or been driven by an uneasy conscience to confess; but I am sorry--or
ought to be--to have to state that Emily’s conscience never worried
her about the matter at all. Still, she was doomed to suffer enough
that night from an entirely different cause, to balance all her little
peccadillos.

By the time the cream was skimmed and poured into the big stone crock
and well stirred--Emily didn’t forget _that_, either--it was after
sunset and still nobody had come home. Emily didn’t like the idea of
going alone into the big, dusky, echoing house; so she hied her to
Lofty John’s shop, which she found unoccupied, though the plane halted
midway on a board indicated that Lofty John had been working there
quite recently and would probably return. Emily sat down on a round
section of a huge log and looked around to see what she could get to
eat. There was a row of “reds” and “scabs” clean across the side of the
shop but no “sweet” among them; and Emily felt that what she needed
just then was a “sweet” and nothing else.

Then she spied one--a huge one--the biggest “sweet” Emily had ever
seen, all by itself on one of the steps of the stair leading up to the
loft. She climbed up, possessed herself of it and ate it out of hand.
She was gnawing happily at the core when Lofty John came in. He nodded
to her with a seemingly careless glance around.

“Just been in to get my supper,” he said. “The wife’s away so I had to
get it myself.”

He fell to planing in silence. Emily sat on the stairs, counting
the seeds of the big “sweet”--you told your fortunes by the
seeds--listening to the Wind Woman whistling elfishly through a
knot hole in the loft, and composing a “Deskripshun of Lofty John’s
Carpenter Shop By Lantern Light,” to be written later on a letter-bill.
She was lost in a mental hunt for an accurate phrase to picture the
absurd elongated shadow of Lofty John’s nose on the opposite wall when
Lofty John whirled about, so suddenly that the shadow of his nose shot
upward like a huge spear to the ceiling, and demanded in a startled
voice,

“What’s become av that big sweet apple that was on that stair?”

“Why--I--I et it,” stammered Emily.

Lofty John dropped his plane, threw up his hands, and looked at Emily
with a horrified face.

“The saints preserve us, child! Ye never et that apple--don’t tell me
ye’ve gone and et _that_ apple!”

“Yes, I did,” said Emily uncomfortably. “I didn’t think it was any
harm--I--”

“Harm! Listen to her, will you? That apple was poisoned for the rats!
They’ve been plaguing me life out here and I had me mind made up to
finish their fun. And now you’ve et the apple--it would kill a dozen av
ye in a brace of shakes.”

Lofty John saw a white face and a gingham apron flash through the
workshop and out into the dark. Emily’s first wild impulse was to
get home at once--before she dropped dead. She tore across the field
through the bush and the garden and dashed into the house. It was still
silent and dark--nobody was home yet. Emily gave a bitter little shriek
of despair--when they came they would find her stiff and cold, black in
the face likely, everything in this dear world ended for her forever,
all because she had eaten an apple which she thought she was perfectly
welcome to eat. It wasn’t fair--she didn’t want to die.

But she must. She only hoped desperately that some one would come
before she was dead. It would be so terrible to die there all alone in
that great, big, empty New Moon. She dared not try to go anywhere for
help. It was too dark now and she would likely drop dead on the way. To
die out there--alone--in the dark--oh, that would be too dreadful. It
did not occur to her that anything could be done for her; she thought
if you once swallowed poison that was the end of you.

With hands shaking in panic she got a candle lighted. It wasn’t quite
so bad then--you _could_ face things in the light. And Emily, pale,
terrified, alone, was already deciding that this must be faced bravely.
She must not shame the Starrs and the Murrays. She clenched her cold
hands and tried to stop trembling. How long would it be before she
died, she wondered. Lofty John had said the apple would kill her in a
“brace of shakes.” What did that mean? How long was a brace of shakes?
Would it hurt her to die? She had a vague idea that poison did hurt you
awfully. Oh; and just a little while ago she had been so happy! She had
thought she was going to live for years and write great poems and be
famous like Mrs. Hemans. She had had a fight with Ilse the night before
and hadn’t made it up yet--never could make it up now. And Ilse would
feel so terribly. She must write her a note and forgive her. Was there
time for that much? Oh, how cold her hands were! Perhaps that meant
she was dying already. She had heard or read that your hands turned
cold when you were dying. She wondered if her face was turning black.
She grasped her candle and hurried up the stairs to the spare-room.
There was a looking-glass there--the only one in the house hung low
enough for her to see her reflection if she tipped the bottom of it
back. Ordinarily Emily would have been frightened to death at the mere
thought of going into that spare-room by dim, flickering candlelight.
But the one great terror had swallowed up all lesser ones. She looked
at her reflection, amid the sleek, black flow of her hair, in the
upward-striking light on the dark background of the shadowy room. Oh,
she was pale as the dead already. Yes, that was a dying face--there
could be no doubt of it.

Something rose up in Emily and took possession of her--some inheritance
from the good old stock behind her. She ceased to tremble--she accepted
her fate--with bitter regret, but calmly.

“I don’t want to die but since I have to I’ll die as becomes a Murray,”
she said. She had read a similar sentence in a book and it came pat
to the moment. And now she must hurry. That letter to Ilse must be
written. Emily went to Aunt Elizabeth’s room first, to assure herself
that her right-hand top bureau drawer was quite tidy; then she flitted
up the garret stairs to her dormer corner. The great place was full of
lurking, pouncing shadows that crowded about the little island of faint
candlelight, but they had no terrors for Emily now.

“And to think I was feeling so bad to-day because my petticoat was
bunchy,” she thought, as she got one of her dear letter-bills--the last
she would ever write on. There was no need to write to Father--she
would see him soon--but Ilse must have her letter--dear, loving, jolly,
hot-tempered Ilse, who, just the day before had shrieked insulting
epithets after her and who would be haunted by remorse all her life for
it.

“Dearest Ilse,” wrote Emily, her hand shaking a little but her lips
firmly set. “I am going to die. I have been poisoned by an apple Lofty
John had put for rats. I will never see you again, but I am writing
this to tell you I love you and you are not to feel bad because you
called me a skunk and a bloodthirsty mink yesterday. I forgive you, so
do not worry over it. And I am sorry I told you that you were beneath
contemt because I didn’t mean a word of it. I leave you all my share of
the broken dishes in our playhouse and please tell Teddy good-bye for
me. He will never be able to teach me how to put worms on a fish-hook
now. I promised him I would learn because I did not want him to think
I was a coward but I am glad I did not for I know what the worm feels
like now. I do not feel sick yet but I dont know what the simptoms of
poisoning are and Lofty John said there was enough to kill a dozen of
me so I cant have long to live. If Aunt Elizabeth is willing you can
have my necklace of Venetian beads. It is the only valuble possession
I have. Don’t let anybody do anything to Lofty John because he did
not mean to poison me and it was all my own fault for being so
greedy. Perhaps people will think he did it on purpose because I am a
Protestant but I feel sure he did not and please tell him not to be
hawnted by remorse. I think I feel a pain in my stomach now so I guess
that the end draws ni. Fare well and remember her who died so young.

                         “Your own devoted,
                                          “_Emily_.”

As Emily folded up her letter-bill she heard the sound of wheels in the
yard below. A moment later Elizabeth and Laura Murray were confronted
in the kitchen by a tragic-faced little creature, grasping a guttering
candle in one hand and a red letter-bill in the other.

“Emily, what is the matter?” cried Aunt Laura.

“I’m dying,” said Emily solemnly. “I et an apple Lofty John had
poisoned for rats. I have only a few minutes to live, Aunt Laura.”

Laura Murray dropped down on the black bench with her hand at her
heart. Elizabeth turned as pale as Emily herself.

“Emily, is this some play-acting of yours?” she demanded sternly.

“No,” cried Emily, quite indignantly. “It’s the truth. Do you suppose
a dying person would be play-acting? And oh, Aunt Elizabeth, please
will you give this letter to Ilse--and please forgive me for being
naughty--though I wasn’t always naughty when you thought I was--and
don’t let any one see me after I’m dead if I turn black--especially
Rhoda Stuart.”

By this time Aunt Elizabeth was herself again.

“How long ago is it since you ate that apple, Emily?”

“About an hour.”

“If you’d eaten a poisoned apple an hour ago you’d be dead or sick by
now--”

“Oh,” cried Emily transformed in a second. A wild, sweet hope sprang
up in her heart--was there a chance for her after all? Then she added
despairingly, “But I felt another pain in my stomach just as I came
downstairs.”

“Laura,” said Aunt Elizabeth, “take this child out to the cook-house
and give her a good dose of mustard and water at once. It will do no
harm and _may_ do some good, if there’s anything in this yarn of hers.
I’m going down to the doctor’s--he may be back--but I’ll see Lofty John
on the way.”

Aunt Elizabeth went out--and Aunt Elizabeth went out very quickly--if
it had been any one else it might have been said she ran. As for
Emily--well, Aunt Laura gave her that emetic in short order and two
minutes later Emily had no doubt at all that she was dying then and
there--and the sooner the better. When Aunt Elizabeth returned Emily
was lying on the sofa in the kitchen, as white as the pillow under her
head, and as limp as a faded lily.

“Wasn’t the doctor home?” cried Aunt Laura desperately.

“I don’t know--there’s no need of the doctor. I didn’t think there was
from the first. It was just one of Lofty John’s jokes. He thought he’d
give Emily a fright--just for fun--_his_ idea of fun. March you off to
bed, Miss Emily. You deserve all you’ve got for going over there to
Lofty John’s at all and I don’t pity you a particle. I haven’t had such
a turn for years.”

“I _did_ have a pain in my stomach,” wailed Emily, in whom fright and
mustard-and-water combined had temporarily extinguished all spirit.

“Any one who eats apples from dawn to dark must expect a few pains in
her stomach. You won’t have any more to-night, I reckon--the mustard
will remedy that. Take your candle and go.”

“Well,” said Emily, getting unsteadily to her feet, “I _hate_ that
dod-gasted Lofty John.”

“Emily!” said both aunts together.

“He _deserves_ it,” said Emily vindictively.

“Oh, Emily--that dreadful word you used!” Aunt Laura seemed curiously
upset about something.

“Why, what’s the matter with dod-gasted?” said Emily, quite mystified.
“Cousin Jimmy uses it often, when things vex him. He used it to-day--he
said that dod-gasted heifer had broken out of the graveyard pasture
again.”

“Emily,” said Aunt Elizabeth, with the air of one impaling herself on
the easiest horn of a dilemma, “your Cousin Jimmy is a man--and men
sometimes use expressions, in the heat of anger, that are not proper
for little girls.”

“But what _is_ the matter with dod-gasted?” persisted Emily. “It isn’t
a swear word, is it? And if it isn’t, why can’t I use it?”

“It isn’t a--a ladylike word,” said Aunt Laura.

“Well, then, I won’t use it any more,” said Emily resignedly, “but
Lofty John _is_ dod-gasted.”

Aunt Laura laughed so much after Emily had gone upstairs that Aunt
Elizabeth told her a woman of her age should have more sense.

“Elizabeth, you _know_ it was funny,” protested Laura.

Emily being safely out of sight, Elizabeth permitted herself a somewhat
grim smile.

“I told Lofty John a few plain truths--he’ll not go telling children
they’re poisoned again in a hurry. I left him fairly dancing with rage.”

Worn out, Emily fell asleep as soon as she was in bed; but an hour
later she awakened. Aunt Elizabeth had not yet come to bed so the blind
was still up and Emily saw a dear, friendly star winking down at her.
Far away the sea moaned alluringly. Oh, it was nice just to be alone
and to be alive. Life tasted good to her again--“tasted like more,” as
Cousin Jimmy said. She could have a chance to write more letter-bills,
and poetry--Emily already saw a yard of verses entitled “Thoughts of
One Doomed to Sudden Death”--and play with Ilse and Teddy--scour the
barns with Saucy Sal, watch Aunt Laura skim cream in the dairy and
help cousin Jimmy garden,--read books in Emily’s Bower and trot along
the To-day Road--but _not_ visit Lofty John’s workshop. She determined
that she would never have anything to do with Lofty John again after
his diabolical cruelty. She felt so indignant with him for frightening
her--after they had been such good friends, too--that she could not go
to sleep until she had composed an account of her death by poison, of
Lofty John being tried for her murder and condemned to death, and of
his being hanged on a gibbet as lofty as himself, Emily being present
at the dreadful scene, in spite of the fact that she was dead by his
act. When she had finally cut him down and buried him with obloquy--the
tears streaming down her face out of sympathy for Mrs. Lofty John--she
forgave him. Very likely he was not dod-gasted after all.

She wrote it all down on a letter-bill in the garret the next day.




CHAPTER XIV

FANCY FED


In October Cousin Jimmy began to boil the pigs’ potatoes--unromantic
name for a most romantic occupation--or so it appeared to Emily, whose
love of the beautiful and picturesque was satisfied as it had never yet
been on those long, cool, starry twilights of the waning year at New
Moon.

There was a clump of spruce-trees in a corner of the old orchard,
and under them an immense iron pot was hung over a circle of large
stones--a pot so big that an ox could have been comfortably stewed in
it. Emily thought it must have come down from the days of fairy tales
and been some giant’s porridge pot; but Cousin Jimmy told her that it
was only a hundred years old and old Hugh Murray had had it sent out
from England.

“We’ve used it ever since to boil the potatoes for the New Moon pigs,”
he said. “Blair Water folks think it old-fashioned; they’ve all got
boiler-houses now, with built-in boilers; but as long as Elizabeth’s
boss at New Moon we’ll use this.”

Emily was sure no built-in boiler could have the charm of the big pot.
She helped Cousin Jimmy fill it full of potatoes after she came from
school; then, when supper was over, Cousin Jimmy lighted the fire
under it and puttered about it all the evening. Sometimes he poked
the fire--Emily loved that part of the performance--sending glorious
streams of rosy sparks upward into the darkness; sometimes he stirred
the potatoes with a long pole, looking, with his queer, forked grey
beard and belted “jumper,” just like some old gnome or troll of
northland story mixing the contents of a magical caldron; and sometimes
he sat beside Emily on the grey granite boulder near the pot and
recited his poetry for her. Emily liked this best of all, for Cousin
Jimmy’s poetry was surprisingly good--at least in spots--and Cousin
Jimmy had “fit audience though few” in this slender little maiden with
her pale eager face and rapt eyes.

They were an odd couple and they were perfectly happy together. Blair
Water people thought Cousin Jimmy a failure and a mental weakling.
But he dwelt in an ideal world of which none of them knew anything.
He had recited his poems a hundred times thus, as he boiled the pigs’
potatoes; the ghosts of a score of autumns haunted the clump of spruces
for him. He was an odd, ridiculous figure enough, bent and wrinkled and
unkempt, gesticulating awkwardly as he recited. But it was his hour;
he was no longer “simple Jimmy Murray” but a prince in his own realm.
For a little while he was strong and young and splendid and beautiful,
accredited master of song to a listening, enraptured world. None of his
prosperous, sensible Blair Water neighbours ever lived through such
an hour. He would not have exchanged places with one of them. Emily,
listening to him, felt vaguely that if it had not been for that unlucky
push into the New Moon well, this queer little man beside her might
have stood in the presence of kings.

But Elizabeth _had_ pushed him into the New Moon well and as a
consequence he boiled pigs’ potatoes and recited to Emily--Emily, who
wrote poetry too, and loved these evenings so much that she could not
sleep after she went to bed until she had composed a minute description
of them. The flash came almost every evening over something or
other. The Wind Woman swooped or purred in the tossing boughs above
them--Emily had never been so near to seeing her; the sharp air was
full of the pleasant tang of the burning spruce cones Cousin Jimmy
shovelled under the pot; Emily’s furry kitten, Mike II, frisked and
scampered about like a small, charming demon of the night; the fire
glowed with beautiful redness and allure through the gloom; there were
nice whispery sounds everywhere; the “great big dark” lay spread around
them full of mysteries that daylight never revealed; and over all a
purple sky powdered with stars.

Ilse and Teddy came, too, on some evenings. Emily always knew when
Teddy was coming, for when he reached the old orchard he whistled his
“call”--the one he used just for her--a funny, dear little call, like
three clear bird notes, the first just medium pitch, the second higher,
the third dropping away into lowness and sweetness long-drawn-out--like
the echoes in the _Bugle Song_ that went clearer and further in their
dying. That call always had an odd effect on Emily; it seemed to her
that it fairly drew the heart out of her body--and she _had_ to follow
it. She thought Teddy could have whistled her clear across the world
with those three magic notes. Whenever she heard it she ran quickly
through the orchard and told Teddy whether Cousin Jimmy wanted him or
not, because it was only on certain nights that Cousin Jimmy wanted
anybody but her. He would never recite his poetry to Ilse or Teddy;
but he told them fairy stories, and tales about the old dead-and-gone
Murrays in the pond graveyard that were as queer, sometimes, as the
fairy stories; and Ilse would recite too, doing better there than
she ever did anywhere else; and sometimes Teddy lay sprawled out on
the ground beside the big pot and drew pictures by the light of the
fire--pictures of Cousin Jimmy stirring the potatoes--pictures of
Ilse and Emily dancing hand in hand around it like two small witches,
pictures of Mike’s cunning, little, whiskered face peering around the
old boulder, pictures of weird, vague faces crowding in the darkness
outside their enchanted circle. They had very wonderful evenings there,
those four children.

“Oh, don’t you like the world at night, Ilse?” Emily once said
rapturously.

Ilse glanced happily around her--poor little neglected Ilse, who found
in Emily’s companionship what she had hungered for all her short life
and who was, even now, being led by love into something of her rightful
heritage.

“Yes,” she said. “And I always believe there _is_ a God when I’m here
like this.”

Then the potatoes were done--and Cousin Jimmy gave each of them one
before he mixed in the bran; they broke them in pieces on plates of
birch-bark, sprinkled them with salt which Emily had cached in a small
box under the roots of the biggest spruce, and ate them with gusto. No
banquet of gods was ever as delicious as those potatoes. Then finally
came Aunt Laura’s kind, silvery voice calling through the frosty dark;
Ilse and Teddy scampered homewards; and Emily captured Mike II and shut
him up safely for the night in the New Moon dog-house which had held
no dog for years, but was still carefully preserved and whitewashed
every spring. Emily’s heart would have broken if anything had happened
to Mike II.

“Old Kelly,” the tin pedlar, had given him to her. Old Kelly had come
round through Blair Water every fortnight from May to November for
thirty years, perched on the seat of a bright red pedlar’s wagon and
behind a dusty, ambling, red pony of that peculiar gait and appearance
pertaining to the ponies of country pedlars--a certain placid,
unhasting leanness as of a nag that has encountered troubles of his own
and has lived them down by sheer patience and staying power. From the
bright red wagon proceeded a certain metallic rumbling and clinking
as it bowled along, and two huge nests of tin pans on its flat,
rope-encircled roof flashed back the sunlight so dazzlingly that Old
Kelly seemed the beaming sun of a little planetary system all his own.
A new broom, sticking up aggressively at each of the four corners gave
the wagon a resemblance to a triumphal chariot. Emily hankered secretly
for a ride in Old Kelly’s wagon. She thought it must be very delightful.

Old Kelly and she were great friends. She liked his red, clean-shaven
face under his plug hat, his nice, twinkly, blue eyes, his brush of
upstanding, sandy hair, and his comical pursed-up mouth, the shape of
which was partly due to nature and partly to much whistling. He always
had a little three-cornered paper bag of “lemon drops” for her, or a
candy stick of many colours, which he smuggled into her pocket when
Aunt Elizabeth wasn’t looking. And he never forgot to tell her that
he supposed she’d soon be thinking of getting married--for Old Kelly
thought that the surest way to please a female creature of any age was
to tease her about getting married.

One day, instead of candy, he produced a plump grey kitten from the
back drawer of his wagon and told her it was for her. Emily received
the gift rapturously, but after Old Kelly had rattled and clattered
away Aunt Elizabeth told her they did not want any more cats at New
Moon.

“Oh, please let me keep it, Aunt Elizabeth,” Emily begged. “It won’t
be a bit of bother to you. _I_ have had experience in bringing up
cats. And I’m so lonesome for a kitten. Saucy Sal is getting so wild
running with the barn cats that I can’t ’sociate with her like I used
to do--and she never was nice to cuddle. _Please_, Aunt Elizabeth.”

Aunt Elizabeth would not and did not please. She was in a very bad
humour that day, anyhow,--nobody knew just why. In such a mood she
was entirely unreasonable. She would not listen to anybody--Laura and
Cousin Jimmy had to hold their tongues, and Cousin Jimmy was bidden to
take the grey kitten down to the Blair Water and drown it. Emily burst
into tears over this cruel command, and this aggravated Aunt Elizabeth
still further. She was so cross that Cousin Jimmy dared not smuggle the
kitten up to the barn as he had at first planned to do.

“Take that beast down to the pond and throw it in and come back
and tell me you’ve done it,” said Elizabeth angrily. “I mean to be
obeyed--New Moon is not going to be made a dumping-ground for Old Jock
Kelly’s superfluous cats.”

Cousin Jimmy did as he was told and Emily would not eat any dinner.
After dinner she stole mournfully away through the old orchard down
the pasture to the pond. Just why she went she could not have told,
but she felt that go she must. When she reached the bank of the little
creek where Lofty John’s brook ran into Blair Water, she heard piteous
shrieks; and there, marooned on a tiny islet of sere marsh grass in the
creek, was an unhappy little beast, its soaking fur plastered against
its sides, shivering and trembling in the wind of the sharp autumnal
day. The old oat-bag in which Cousin Jimmy had imprisoned it was
floating out into the pond.

Emily did not stop to think, or look for a board, or count the
consequences. She plunged in the creek up to her knees, she waded out
to the clump of grass and caught the kitten up. She was so hot with
indignation that she did not feel the cold of the water or the chill
of the wind as she ran back to New Moon. A suffering or tortured
animal always filled her with such a surge of sympathy that it lifted
her clean out of herself. She burst into the cook-house where Aunt
Elizabeth was frying doughnuts.

“Aunt Elizabeth,” she cried, “the kitten wasn’t drowned after all--and
I _am_ going to keep it.”

“You’re not,” said Aunt Elizabeth.

Emily looked her aunt in the face. Again she felt that odd sensation
that had come when Aunt Elizabeth brought the scissors to cut her hair.

“Aunt Elizabeth, this poor little kitten is cold and starving, and
oh, so miserable. It has been suffering for hours. It shall _not_ be
drowned again.”

Archibald Murray’s look was on her face and Archibald Murray’s tone
was in her voice. This happened only when the deeps of her being were
stirred by some peculiarly poignant emotion. Just now she was in an
agony of pity and anger.

When Elizabeth Murray saw her father looking at her out of Emily’s
little white face, she surrendered without a struggle, rage at herself
as she might afterwards for her weakness. It was her one vulnerable
point. The thing might not have been so uncanny if Emily had resembled
the Murrays. But to see the Murray look suddenly superimposed like a
mask over alien features, was such a shock to her nerves that she could
not stand up against it. A ghost from the grave could not have cowed
her more speedily.

She turned her back on Emily in silence but Emily knew that she had
won her second victory. The grey kitten stayed at New Moon and waxed
fat and lovable, and Aunt Elizabeth never took the slightest notice
of its existence, save to sweep it out of the house when Emily was not
about. But it was weeks before Emily was really forgiven and she felt
uncomfortable enough over it. Aunt Elizabeth could be a not ungenerous
conqueror but she was very disagreeable in defeat. It was really just
as well that Emily could not summon the Murray look at will.




CHAPTER XV

VARIOUS TRAGEDIES


Emily, obedient to Aunt Elizabeth’s command, had eliminated the word
“bull” from her vocabulary. But to ignore the existence of bulls was
not to do away with them--and specifically with Mr. James Lee’s English
bull, who inhabited the big windy pasture west of Blair Water and
who bore a dreadful reputation. He was certainly an awesome looking
creature and Emily sometimes had fearful dreams of being chased by him
and being unable to move. And one sharp November day these dreams came
true.

There was a certain well at the far end of the pasture concerning
which Emily felt a curiosity, because Cousin Jimmy had told her a
dreadful tale about it. The well had been dug sixty years ago by two
brothers who lived in a little house which was built down near the
shore. It was a very deep well, which was considered a curious thing
in that low-lying land near pond and sea; the brothers had gone ninety
feet before they found a spring. Then the sides of the well had been
stoned up--but the work never went further. Thomas and Silas Lee had
quarrelled over some trivial difference of opinion as to what kind of
a hood should be put over it; and in the heat of his anger Silas had
struck Thomas on the head with his hammer and killed him.

The well-house was never built. Silas Lee was sent to prison for
manslaughter and died there. The farm passed to another brother--Mr.
James Lee’s father--who moved the house to the other end of it and
planked the well over. Cousin Jimmy added that Tom Lee’s ghost was
supposed to haunt the scene of his tragic death but he couldn’t vouch
for that, though he had written a poem on it. A very eerie poem it was,
too, and made Emily’s blood run cold with a fearful joy when he recited
it to her one misty night by the big potato pot. Ever since she had
wanted to see the old well.

Her chance came one Saturday when she was prowling alone in the old
graveyard. Beyond it lay the Lee pasture and there was apparently not a
sign of a bull in or about it. Emily decided to pay a visit to the old
well and went skimming down the field against the sweep of the north
wind racing across the gulf. The Wind Woman was a giantess that day and
a mighty swirl she was stirring up along the shore; but as Emily drew
near the big sand-dunes they made a little harbour of calmness around
the old well.

Emily coolly lifted up one of the planks, knelt on the others and
peered down. Fortunately the planks were strong and comparatively
new--otherwise the small maiden of New Moon might have explored the
well more thoroughly than she desired to do. As it was, she could see
little of it; huge ferns grew thickly out of the crevices among the
stones of its sides and reached across it, shutting out the view of
its gloomy depths. Rather disappointed, Emily replaced the plank and
started homeward. She had not gone ten steps before she stopped. Mr.
James Lee’s bull was coming straight towards her and was less than
twenty yards away.

The shore fence was not far behind Emily, and she might possibly have
reached it in time had she run. But she was incapable of running; as
she wrote that night in her letter to her father she was “parralised”
with terror and could no more move than she could in her dreams of this
very occurrence. It is quite conceivable that a dreadful thing might
have happened then and there had not a certain boy been sitting on the
shore fence. He had been sitting there unnoticed all the time Emily had
been peering into the well; now he sprang down.

Emily saw, or sensed, a sturdy body dashing past her. The owner thereof
ran to within ten feet of the bull, hurled a stone squarely into the
monster’s hairy face, then sped off at right angles towards the side
fence. The bull, thus insulted, turned with a menacing rumble and
lumbered off after this intruder.

“Run now!” screamed the boy over his shoulder to Emily.

Emily did not run. Terrified as she was, there was something in her
that would not let her run until she saw whether her gallant rescuer
made good his escape. He reached his fence in the nick of time. Then
and not till then Emily ran too, and scrambled over the shore fence
just as the bull started back across the pasture, evidently determined
to catch somebody. Trembling, she made her way through the spiky grass
of the sand-hills and met the boy at the corner. They stood and looked
at each other for a moment.

The boy was a stranger to Emily. He had a cheery, impudent, clean-cut
face, with keen, grey eyes and plenty of tawny curls. He wore as few
clothes as decency permitted and had only the pretence of a hat. Emily
liked him; there was nothing of Teddy’s subtle charm in him but he had
a certain forceful attraction of his own and he had just saved her from
a terrible death.

“Thank you,” said Emily shyly, looking up at him with great grey eyes
that looked blue under her long lashes. It was a very effective look
which lost nothing of effectiveness from being wholly unconscious.
Nobody had as yet told Emily how very winsome that shy, sudden,
up-glance of hers was.

“Isn’t he a rip-snorter?” said the boy easily. He thrust his hands into
his ragged pockets and stared at Emily so fixedly that she dropped her
eyes in confusion--thereby doing further damage with those demure lids
and silken fringes.

“He’s dreadful,” she said with a shudder. “And I was so scared.”

“Were you now? And me thinking you were full of grit to be standing
there like that looking at him cool as a cucumber. What’s it like to be
afraid?”

“Weren’t _you_ ever afraid?” asked Emily.

“No--don’t know what it’s like,” said the boy carelessly, and a bit
boastfully. “What’s your name?”

“Emily Byrd Starr.”

“Live round here?”

“I live at New Moon.”

“Where Simple Jimmy Murray lives?”

“He _isn’t_ simple,” cried Emily indignantly.

“Oh, all right. I don’t know him. But I’m going to. I’m going to hire
with him for chore boy for the winter.”

“I didn’t know,” said Emily, surprised. “Are you really?”

“Yep. I didn’t know it myself till just this minute. He was asking Aunt
Tom about me last week but I didn’t mean to hire out then. Now I guess
I will. Want to know my name?”

“Of course.”

“Perry Miller. I live with my old beast of an Aunt Tom down at
Stovepipe Town. Dad was a sea-captain and I uster sail with him when he
was alive--sailed everywhere. Go to school?”

“Yes.”

“I don’t--never did. Aunt Tom lives so far away. Anyhow, I didn’t
think I’d like it. Guess I’ll go now, though.”

“Can’t you read?” asked Emily wonderingly.

“Yes--some--and figger. Dad learned me some when he was alive. I hain’t
bothered with it since--I’d ruther be down round the harbour. Great
fun there. But if I make up my mind to go to school I’ll learn like
thunder. I s’pose you’re awful clever.”

“No--not very. Father said I was a genius, but Aunt Elizabeth says I’m
just queer.”

“What’s a genius?”

“I’m not sure. Sometimes it’s a person who writes poetry. _I_ write
poetry.”

Perry stared at her.

“Golly. I’ll write poetry too, then.”

“I don’t believe _you_ could write poetry,” said Emily--a little
disdainfully, it must be admitted. “Teddy can’t--and he’s _very_
clever.”

“Who’s Teddy?”

“A friend of mine.” There was just a trace of stiffness in Emily’s
voice.

“Then,” said Perry, folding his arms across his breast and scowling,
“I’m going to punch this friend of yours’ head for him.”

“You’re not,” cried Emily. She was very indignant and quite forgot for
the moment that Perry had rescued her from the bull. She tossed her own
head and started homeward. Perry turned too.

“May as well go up and see Jimmy Murray about hiring ’fore I go home,”
he said. “Don’t be mad, now. If you don’t want anybody’s head punched I
won’t punch it. Only you’ve gotter like me, too.”

“Why, of course I’ll like you,” said Emily, as if there could be no
question about it. She smiled her slow, blossoming smile at Perry and
thereby reduced him to hopeless bondage.

Two days later Perry Miller was installed as chore boy at New Moon and
in a fortnight’s time Emily felt as if he must have been there always.

“Aunt Elizabeth didn’t want Cousin Jimmy to hire him,” she wrote to
her father, “because he was one of the boys who did a dreadful thing
one night last fall. They changed all the horses that were tied to
the fence one Sunday night when preaching was going on and when folks
came out the confushun was awful. Aunt Elizabeth said it wouldn’t be
safe to have him round the place. But Cousin Jimmy said it was awful
hard to get a chore boy and that we ode Perry something for saving my
life from the bull. So Aunt Elizabeth gave in and lets him sit at the
table with us but he has to stay in the kitchen in the evenings. The
rest of us are in the sitting-room, but I am allowed to go out and
help Perry with his lessons. He can only have one candle and the light
is very dim. It keeps us snuffing it all the time. It is great fun to
snuff candles. Perry is head of his class in school already. He is
only in the third book all-though he is nearly twelve. Miss Brownell
said something sarkastik to him the first day in school and he just
threw back his head and laughed loud and long. Miss Brownell gave him a
whipping for it but she has never been sarkastik to him again. She does
not like to be laughed at I can see. Perry isn’t afraid of anything. I
thought he might not go to school any more when she whipped him but he
says a little thing like that isn’t going to keep him from getting an
educashun since he has made up his mind to it. He is very determined.

“Aunt Elizabeth is determined too. But she says Perry is stubborn. I am
teaching Perry grammar. He says he wants to learn to speak properly. I
told him he should not call his Aunt Tom an old beast but he said he
had to because she wasn’t a young beast. He says the place he lives
in is called Stovepipe Town because the houses have no chimneys, only
pipes sticking out of the roof, but he would live in a manshun some
day. Aunt Elizabeth says I ought not to be so friendly with a hired
boy. But he is a nice boy though his manners are crood. Aunt Laura
says they are crood. I don’t know what it means but I guess it means
he always says what he thinks right out and eats beans with his knife.
I like Perry but in a different way from Teddy. Isn’t it funny, dear
Father, how many kinds of ways of liking there are? I don’t think Ilse
likes him. She makes fun of his ignerance and turns up her nose at him
because his close are patched though her own close are queer enough.
Teddy doesnt like him much and he drew such a funny picture of Perry
hanging by his heels from a gallos. The face looked like Perrys and
still it didn’t. Cousin Jimmy said it was a carrycachure and laughed
at it but I dared not show it to Perry for fear he would punch Teddys
head. I showed it to Ilse and she got mad and tore it in two. I cant
imagine why.

“Perry says he can recite as well as Ilse and could draw pictures too
if he put his mind to it. I can see he doesnt like to think anybody can
do anything he cant. But he cant see the wallpaper in the air like I
can though he tries until I fear he will strane his eyes. He can make
better speeches than any of us. He says he used to mean to be a sailer
like his father but now he thinks he will be a lawyer when he grows
up and go to parlament. Teddy is going to be an artist if his mother
will let him, and Ilse is going to be a concert reciter--there is
another name but I don’t know how it is spelled--and I am going to be a
poetess. I think we are a tallented crowd. Perhaps that is a vane thing
to say, dear Father.

“A very terrible thing happened the day before yesterday. On Saturday
morning we were at family prayers, all kneeling quite solemn around the
kitchen. I just looked at Perry once and he made such a funny face at
me that I laughed right out loud before I could help it. (_That_ was
not the terrible thing.) Aunt Elizabeth was _very_ angry. I would not
tell that it was Perry made me laugh because I was afraid he might be
sent away if I did. So Aunt Elizabeth said I was to be punished and
I was not let go to Jennie Strangs party in the afternoon. (It was a
dreadful disappointment but _it_ was not the terrible thing either.)
Perry was away with Cousin Jimmy all day and when he came home at night
he said to me, very feerce, Who has been making you cry. I said I had
been crying--a little but not much--because I was not let go to the
party because I had laughed at prayers. And Perry marched right up to
Aunt Elizabeth and told her it was all his fault that I laughed. Aunt
Elizabeth said I should not have laughed anyhow, but Aunt Laura was
_greevously_ upset and said my punishment had been far too severe; and
she said that she would let me ware her pearl ring to school Monday to
make up for it. I was enraptured for it is a lovely ring and no other
girl has one. As soon as roll call was over Monday morning I put up my
hand to ask Miss Brownell a question but really to show off my ring.
That was wikked pride and I was punished. At recess Cora Lee, one of
the big girls in the sixth class came and asked me to let her ware the
ring for a while. I didnt want to but she said if I didnt she would get
all the girls in my class to send me to coventry (which is a dreadful
thing, dear Father, and makes you feel like an outcast). So I let her
and she kept it on till the afternoon recess and then she came and
told me she had lost it in the brook. (This was the terrible thing).
Oh, Father dear, I was nearly wild. I dared not go home and face Aunt
Laura. I had promised her I would be so careful of the ring. I thought
I might earn money to get her another ring but when I figgered it out
on my slate I knew I would have to wash dishes for twenty years to do
it. I wepped in my despare. Perry saw me and after school he marched up
to Cora Lee and said You fork over that ring or I’ll tell Miss Brownell
about it. And Cora Lee forked it over, very meek and said I was going
to give it to her anyhow. I was just playing a joke and Perry said,
Dont you play any more jokes on Emily or I’ll joke you. It is very
comforting to have such a champeen! I tremble to think what it would
have been like if I had had to go home and tell Aunt Laura I had lost
her ring. But it was crewel of Cora Lee to tell me she had lost it when
she had not and harrow up my mind so. I could not be so crewel to an
orfan girl.

“When I got home I looked in the glass to see if my hair had turned
white. I am told that sometimes hapens. But it hadnt.

“Perry knows more geograffy than any of us because he has been nearly
everywhere in the world with his father. He tells me such fassinating
stories after his lessons are done. He talks till the candle is burned
to the last inch and then he uses that to go to bed with up the black
hole into the kitchen loft because Aunt Elizabeth will not let him have
more than one candle a night.

“Ilse and I had a fight yesterday about which we’d rather be Joan of
Arc or Frances Willard. We didn’t begin it as a fight but just as an
argewment but it ended that way. _I_ would rather be Frances Willard
because she is alive.

“We had the first snow yesterday. I made a poem on it. This is it.

    Along the snow the sunbeams glide
    Earth is a peerless, gleaming bride,
    Dripping with dimonds, clad in traling white,
    No bride was ever half so fair and bright.

“I read it to Perry and he said he could make poetry just as good and
he said right off,

    Mike has made a long row
    Of tracks across the snow.

Now isnt that as good as yours. I didnt think it was because you could
say it just as well in prose. But when you talk of peerless gleaming
brides in prose it sounds funny. Mike _did_ make a row of little tracks
right across the barn field and they looked so pretty, but not so
pretty as the mice tracks in some flour Cousin Jimmy spilled on the
granary floor. They are the dearest little things. They _look_ like
poetry.

“I am sorry winter has come because Ilse and I cant play in our house
in Lofty Johns bush any more till spring or outside at the Tansy Patch.
Sometimes we play indoors at the Tansy Patch but Mrs. Kent makes us
feel queer. She sits and watches us all the time. So we dont go only
when Teddy coaxes very hard. And the pigs have been killed, poor
things, so Cousin Jimmy doesnt boil for them any more. But there is
one consolashun I do not have to ware a sunbonnet to school now. Aunt
Laura made me such a pretty red hood with ribbons on it at which Aunt
Elizabeth looked skornfully saying it was extravagant. I like school
here better every day but I cant like Miss Brownell. She isnt fair.
She told us she would give the one who wrote the best composishun a
pink ribbon to wear from Friday night to Monday. I wrote The Brooks
Story about the brook in Lofty John’s bush--all its advenshures and
thoughts--and Miss Brownell said I must have copyed it and Rhoda Stuart
got the ribbon. Aunt Elizabeth said You waste enough time writing trash
I think you might have won that ribbon. She was mortifyed (I think)
because I had disgraced New Moon by not getting it but I did not tell
her what had happened. Teddy says a _good sport_ never whines over
losing. I want to be a good sport. Rhoda is so hateful to me now. She
says she is surprised that a New Moon girl should have a hired boy for
a bow. That is very silly because Perry is not my bow. Perry told her
she had more gab than sense. That was not polite but it is true. One
day in class Rhoda said the moon was situated east of Canada. Perry
laughed right out and Miss Brownell made him stay in at recess but she
never said anything to Rhoda for saying such a ridiklus thing. But the
meanest thing Rhoda said was that she had forgiven me for the way I
had used her. That made my blood boil when I hadnt done anything to be
forgiven for. The idea.

“We have begun to eat the big beef ham that hung in the southwest
corner of the kitchen.

“The other Wednesday night Perry and I helped Cousin Jimmy pick a road
through the turnips in the first cellar. We have to go through it to
the second cellar because the outside hatch is banked up now. It was
great fun. We had a candle stuck up in a hole in the wall and it made
such lovely shadows and we could eat all the apples we wanted from the
big barrel in the corner and the spirit moved Cousin Jimmy to recite
some of his poetry as he threw the turnips.

“I am reading The Alhambra. It belongs to our book case. Aunt Elizabeth
does not like to say it isnt fit for me to read because it was one of
her fathers books, but I dont believe she aproves because she knits
very furiusly and looks black at me over her glasses. Teddy lent me
Hans Andersons stories. I love them--only I always think of a different
end for the Ice Maiden and save Rudy.

“They say Mrs. John Killegrew has swallowed her wedding-ring. I wonder
what she did that for.

“Cousin Jimmy says there is to be an eklips of the sun in December. I
hope it wont interfear with Chrismas.

“My hands are chapped. Aunt Laura rubs mutton tallow on them every
night when I go to bed. It is hard to write poetry with chapped hands.
I wonder if Mrs. Hemans ever had chapped hands. It does not mention
anything like that in her biograffy.

“Jimmy Ball has to be a minister when he grows up. His mother told
Aunt Laura that she consekrated him to it in his cradle. I wonder how
she did it.

“We have brekfast by candlelight now and I like it.

“Ilse was up here Sunday afternoon and we went up in the garret and
talked about God, because that is propper on Sundays. We have to be
very careful what we do on Sundays. It is a traddishun of New Moon to
keep Sundays very holy. Grandfather Murray was very strikt. Cousin
Jimmy told me a story about him. They always cut the wood for Sunday
on Saturday night, but one time they forgot and there was no wood on
Sunday to cook the dinner, so Grandfather Murray said you must not cut
wood on Sundays, boys, but just break a little with the back of the
axe. Ilse is very curious about God although she doesnt believe in Him
most of the time and doesnt like to talk about Him but still wants to
find out about Him. She says she thinks she might like Him if she knew
Him. She spells his name with a Capital G now because it is best to be
on the safe side. _I_ think God is just like my flash, only _it_ lasts
only a second and He lasts always. We talked so long we got hungry and
I went down to the sitting-room cubbord and got two donuts. I forgot
Aunt Elizabeth had told me I could not have donuts between meals. It
was not stealing it was just forgetting. But Ilse got mad at the last
and said I was a she jakobite (whatever that is) and a thief and that
no Christian would steal donuts from her poor old aunt. So I went and
confessed to Aunt Elizabeth and she said I was not to have a donut at
supper. It was hard to see the others eating them. I thought Perry
et his very quick but after supper he bekoned me out doors and gave
me half his donut which he had kept for me. He had rapped it in his
hangkerchief which was not very clean but I et it because I did not
want to hurt his feelings.

“Aunt Laura says Ilse has a nice smile. I wonder if I have a nice
smile. I looked at the glass in Ilse’s room and smiled but it did not
seem to me very nice.

“Now the nights have got cold Aunt Elizabeth always puts a gin jar full
of hot water in the bed. I like to put my toes against it. That is all
we use the gin jar for nowadays. But Grandfather Murray used to keep
real gin in it.

“Now that the snow has come Cousin Jimmy cant work in his garden any
more and he is very lonesome. I think the garden is just as pretty in
winter as in summer. There are such pretty dimples and baby hills where
the snow has covered up the flower beds. And in the evenings it is all
pink and rosy at sunset and by moonlight it is like dreamland. I like
to look out of the sitting-room window at it and watch the rabbits
candles floting in the air above it and wonder what all the little
roots and seeds are thinking of down under the snow. And it gives me a
lovely creepy feeling to look at it through the red glass in the front
door.

“There is a beautiful fringe of isikles along the cook-house roof. But
there will be much more beautiful things in heaven. I was reading about
Anzonetta to-day and it made me feel relijus. Good night, my dearest of
fathers.

                                           “_Emily._

“P. S. That doesnt mean that I have any other Father. It is just a way
of saying _very very_ dear.

                                        “_E. B. S._”




CHAPTER XVI

CHECK FOR MISS BROWNELL


Emily and Ilse were sitting out on the side bench of Blair Water school
writing poetry on their slates--at least, Emily was writing poetry and
Ilse was reading it as she wrote and occasionally suggesting a rhyme
when Emily was momentarily stuck for one. It may as well be admitted
here and now that they had no business whatever to be doing this. They
should have been “doing sums,” as Miss Brownell supposed they were.
But Emily never did sums when she took it into her black head to write
poetry, and Ilse hated arithmetic on general principles. Miss Brownell
was hearing the geography class at the other side of the room, the
pleasant sunshine was showering in over them through the big window,
and everything seemed propitious for a flight with the muses. Emily
began to write a poem about the view from the school window.

It was quite a long time since she had been allowed to sit out on the
side bench. This was a boon reserved for those pupils who had found
favour in Miss Brownell’s cold eyes--and Emily had never been one of
those. But this afternoon Ilse had asked for both herself and Emily,
and Miss Brownell had let both go, not being able to think of any
valid reason for permitting Ilse and refusing Emily--as she would have
liked to do, for she had one of those petty natures which never forget
or forgive any offence. Emily, on her first day of school, had, so
Miss Brownell believed, been guilty of impertinence and defiance--and
successful defiance at that. This rankled in Miss Brownell’s mind
still and Emily felt its venom in a score of subtle ways. She never
received any commendation--she was a target for Miss Brownell’s sarcasm
continually--and the small favours that other girls received never came
her way. So this opportunity to sit on the side bench was a pleasing
novelty.

There were points about sitting on the side bench. You could see all
over the school without turning your head--and Miss Brownell could not
sneak up behind you and look over your shoulder to see what you were up
to; but in Emily’s eyes the finest thing about it was that you could
look right down into the “school bush,” and watch the old spruces where
the Wind Woman played, the long grey-green trails of moss hanging
from the branches, like banners of Elfland, the little red squirrels
running along the fence, and the wonderful white aisles of snow where
splashes of sunlight fell like pools of golden wine; and there was one
little opening in the trees through which you could see right over
the Blair Water valley to the sand-hills and the gulf beyond. To-day
the sand-hills were softly rounded and gleaming white under the snow,
but beyond them the gulf was darkly, deeply blue with dazzling white
masses of ice like baby icebergs, floating about in it. Just to look
at it thrilled Emily with a delight that was unutterable but which
she yet must try to utter. She began her poem. Fractions were utterly
forgotten--what had numerators and denominators to do with those
curving bosoms of white snow--that heavenly blue--those crossed dark
fir tips against the pearly skies--those ethereal woodland aisles of
pearl and gold? Emily was lost to her world--so lost that she did not
know the geography class had scattered to their respective seats and
that Miss Brownell, catching sight of Emily’s entranced gaze sky-wards
as she searched for a rhyme, was stepping softly towards her. Ilse was
drawing a picture on her slate and did not see her or she would have
warned Emily. The latter suddenly felt her slate drawn out of her hand
and heard Miss Brownell saying:

“I suppose you have finished those sums, Emily?”

Emily had not finished even one sum--she had only covered her slate
with verses--verses that Miss Brownell must not see--_must not_ see!
Emily sprang to her feet and clutched wildly after her slate. But Miss
Brownell, with a smile of malicious enjoyment on her thin lips, held it
beyond her reach.

“What is this? It does not look--exactly--like fractions. ‘Lines on the
View--v-e-w--from the Window of Blair Water School.’ Really, children,
we seem to have a budding poet among us.”

The words were harmless enough, but--oh, the hateful sneer that ran
through the tone--the contempt, the mockery that was in it! It seared
Emily’s soul like a whiplash. Nothing was more terrible to her than
the thought of having her beloved “poems” read by stranger eyes--cold,
unsympathetic, derisive, stranger eyes.

“Please--please, Miss Brownell,” she stammered miserably, “don’t read
it--I’ll rub it off--I’ll do my sums right away. Only please don’t read
it. It--it isn’t anything.”

Miss Brownell laughed cruelly.

“You are too modest, Emily. It is a whole slateful of--_poetry_--think
of that, children--_poetry_. We have a pupil in this school who can
write--_poetry_. And she does not want us to read this--_poetry_. I am
afraid Emily is selfish. I am sure we should all enjoy this--_poetry_.”

Emily cringed every time Miss Brownell said “_poetry_,” with that
jeering emphasis and that hateful pause before it. Many of the children
giggled, partly because they enjoyed seeing a “Murray of New Moon”
grilled, partly because they realized that Miss Brownell expected them
to giggle. Rhoda Stuart giggled louder than any one else; but Jennie
Strang, who had tormented Emily on her first day at school, refused to
giggle and scowled blackly at Miss Brownell instead.

Miss Brownell held up the slate and read Emily’s poem aloud, in a
sing-song nasal voice, with absurd intonations and gestures that made
it seem a very ridiculous thing. The lines Emily had thought the finest
seemed the most ridiculous. The other pupils laughed more than ever and
Emily felt that the bitterness of the moment could never go out of her
heart. The little fancies that had been so beautiful when they came to
her as she wrote were shattered and bruised now, like torn and mangled
butterflies--“vistas in some fairy dream,” chanted Miss Brownell,
shutting her eyes and wagging her head from side to side. The giggles
became shouts of laughter.

“Oh,” thought Emily, clenching her hands, “I wish--I wish the bears
that ate the naughty children in the Bible would come and eat _you_.”

There were no nice, retributive bears in the school bush, however, and
Miss Brownell read the whole “poem” through. She was enjoying herself
hugely. To ridicule a pupil always gave her pleasure and when that
pupil was Emily of New Moon, in whose heart and soul she had always
sensed something fundamentally different from her own, the pleasure was
exquisite.

When she reached the end she handed the slate back to the
crimson-cheeked Emily.

“Take your--_poetry_, Emily,” she said.

Emily snatched the slate. No slate “rag” was handy but Emily gave
the palm of her hand a fierce lick and one side of the slate was
wiped off. Another lick--and the rest of the poem went. It had been
disgraced--degraded--it must be blotted out of existence. To the end of
her life Emily never forgot the pain and humiliation of that experience.

Miss Brownell laughed again.

“What a pity to obliterate such--_poetry_, Emily,” she said. “Suppose
you do those sums now. They are not--_poetry_, but I am in this
school to teach arithmetic and I am not here to teach the art of
writing--_poetry_. Go to your own seat. Yes, Rhoda?”

For Rhoda Stuart was holding up her hand and snapping her fingers.

“Please, Miss Brownell,” she said, with distinct triumph in her tones,
“Emily Starr has a whole bunch of poetry in her desk. She was reading
it to Ilse Burnley this morning while you thought they were learning
history.”

Perry Miller turned around and a delightful missile, compounded of
chewed paper and known as a “spit pill,” flew across the room and
struck Rhoda squarely in the face. But Miss Brownell was already at
Emily’s desk, having reached it one jump before Emily herself.

“Don’t touch them--you have no _right_!” gasped Emily frantically.

But Miss Brownell had the “bunch of poetry” in her hands. She turned
and walked up to the platform. Emily followed. Those poems were very
dear to her. She had composed them during the various stormy recesses
when it had been impossible to play out of doors and written them down
on disreputable scraps of paper borrowed from her mates. She had meant
to take them home that very evening and copy them on letter-bills. And
now this horrible woman was going to read them to the whole jeering,
giggling school.

But Miss Brownell realized that the time was too short for that.
She had to content herself with reading over the titles, with some
appropriate comments.

Meanwhile Perry Miller was relieving his feelings by bombarding Rhoda
Stuart with spit pills, so craftily timed that Rhoda had no idea from
what quarter of the room they were coming and so could not “tell” on
any one. They greatly interfered with her enjoyment of Emily’s scrape,
however. As for Teddy Kent, who did not wage war with spit pills but
preferred subtler methods of revenge, he was busy drawing something on
a sheet of paper. Rhoda found the sheet on her desk the next morning;
on it was depicted a small, scrawny monkey, hanging by its tail from
a branch; and the face of the monkey was as the face of Rhoda Stuart.
Whereat Rhoda Stuart waxed wroth, but for the sake of her own vanity
tore the sketch to tatters and kept silence regarding it. She did not
know that Teddy had made a similar sketch, with Miss Brownell figuring
as a vampirish-looking bat, and thrust it into Emily’s hand as they
left school.

“‘The Lost Dimond--a Romantic Tale,’” read Miss Brownell. “‘Lines on
a Birch Tree’--looks to me more like lines on a very dirty piece of
paper, Emily--‘Lines Written on a Sundial in our Garden’--ditto--‘Lines
to my Favourite Cat’--another romantic _tail_, I presume--‘Ode to
Ilse’--‘Thy neck is of a wondrous pearly sheen’--hardly that, I should
say. Ilse’s neck is very sunburned--‘A Deskripshun of Our Parlour,’
‘The Violets Spell’--I hope the violet _spells_ better than you do,
Emily--‘The Disappointed House’--

    “‘Lilies lifted up white cups
    For the bees to _dr--r--i--i--nk_.’”

“I didn’t write it that way!” cried tortured Emily.

“‘Lines to a Piece of Brokade in Aunt Laura’s Burow Drawer,’ ‘Farewell
on Leaving Home,’ ‘Lines to a Spruce Tree’--‘It keeps off heat and sun
and glare, Tis a goodly tree I ween’--are you quite sure that you know
what ‘ween’ means, Emily?--‘Poem on Mr. Tom Bennet’s Field’--‘Poem on
the Vew from Aunt Elizabeth’s Window’--you are strong on ‘v-e-w-s,’
Emily--‘Epitaff on a Drowned Kitten,’ ‘Meditashuns at the tomb of my
great great grandmother’--poor lady--‘To my Northern Birds’--‘Lines
composed on the bank of Blair Water gazing at the stars’--h’m--h’m--

    “‘Crusted with uncounted gems,
    Those stars so distant, cold and true,’

Don’t try to pass those lines off as your own, Emily. You couldn’t have
written them.”

“I did--I did!” Emily was white with sense of outrage. “And I’ve
written lots far better.”

Miss Brownell suddenly crumpled the ragged little papers up in her hand.

“We have wasted enough time over this trash,” she said. “Go to your
seat, Emily.”

She moved towards the stove. For a moment Emily did not realize
her purpose. Then, as Miss Brownell opened the stove door, Emily
understood and bounded forward. She caught at the papers and tore them
from Miss Brownell’s hand before the latter could tighten her grasp.

“You _shall not_ burn them--you shall not have them,” gasped Emily. She
crammed the poems into the pocket of her “baby apron” and faced Miss
Brownell in a kind of calm rage. The Murray look was on her face--and
although Miss Brownell was not so violently affected by it as Aunt
Elizabeth had been, it nevertheless gave her an unpleasant sensation,
as of having roused forces with which she dared not tamper further.
This tormented child looked quite capable of flying at her, tooth and
claw.

“Give me those papers, Emily,”--but she said it rather uncertainly.

“I will not,” said Emily stormily. “They are mine. You have no right to
them. I wrote them at recesses--I didn’t break any rules. You”--Emily
looked defiantly into Miss Brownell’s cold eyes--“You are an unjust,
tyrannical _person_.”

Miss Brownell turned to her desk.

“I am coming up to New Moon to-night to tell your Aunt Elizabeth of
this,” she said.

Emily was at first too much excited over saving her precious poetry to
pay much heed to this threat. But as her excitement ebbed cold dread
flowed in. She knew she had an unpleasant time ahead of her. But at all
events they should not get her poems--not one of them, no matter what
they did to _her_. As soon as she got home from school she flew to the
garret and secreted them on the shelf of the old sofa.

She wanted terribly to cry but she would not. Miss Brownell was coming
and Miss Brownell should _not_ see her with red eyes. But her heart
burned within her. Some sacred temple of her being had been desecrated
and shamed. And more was yet to come, she felt wretchedly sure. Aunt
Elizabeth was certain to side with Miss Brownell. Emily shrank from the
impending ordeal with all the dread of a sensitive, fine strung nature
facing humiliation. She would not have been afraid of justice; but she
knew at the bar of Aunt Elizabeth and Miss Brownell she would not have
justice.

“And I can’t write Father about it,” she thought, her little breast
heaving. The shame of it all was too deep and intimate to be written
out, and so she could find no relief for her pain.

They did not have supper at New Moon in winter time until Cousin Jimmy
had finished his chores and was ready to stay in for the night. So
Emily was left undisturbed in the garret.

From the dormer window she looked down on a dreamland scene that would
ordinarily have delighted her. There was a red sunset behind the white,
distant hills, shining through the dark trees like a great fire; there
was a delicate blue tracery of bare branch shadows all over the crusted
garden; there was a pale, ethereal alpenglow all over the southeastern
sky; and presently there was a little, lovely new moon in the silvery
arch over Lofty John’s bush. But Emily found no pleasure in any of them.

Presently she saw Miss Brownell coming up the lane, under the white
arms of the birches, with her mannish stride.

“If my father was alive,” said Emily, looking down at her, “you would
go away from this place with a flea in your ear.”

The minutes passed, each seeming very long to Emily. At last Aunt Laura
came up.

“Your Aunt Elizabeth wants you to come down to the kitchen, Emily.”

Aunt Laura’s voice was kind and sad. Emily fought down a sob. She hated
to have Aunt Laura think she had been naughty, but she could not trust
herself to explain. Aunt Laura would sympathize and sympathy would
break her down. She went silently down the two long flights of stairs
before Aunt Laura and out to the kitchen.

The supper table was set and the candles were lighted. The big
black-raftered kitchen looked spookish and weird, as it always did
by candlelight. Aunt Elizabeth sat rigidly by the table and her face
was very hard. Miss Brownell sat in the rocking-chair, her pale eyes
glittering with triumphant malice. There seemed something baleful and
poisonous in her very glance. Also, her nose was very red--which did
not add to her charm.

Cousin Jimmy, in his grey jumper, was perched on the edge of the
wood-box, whistling at the ceiling, and looking more gnome-like than
ever. Perry was nowhere to be seen. Emily was sorry for this. The
presence of Perry, who was on her side, would have been a great moral
support.

“I am sorry to say, Emily, that I have been hearing some very bad
things about your behaviour in school to-day,” said Aunt Elizabeth.

“No, I don’t think you are sorry,” said Emily, gravely.

Now that the crisis had come she found herself able to confront it
coolly--nay, more, to take a curious interest in it under all her
secret fear and shame, as if some part of her had detached itself from
the rest and was interestedly absorbing impressions and analyzing
motives and describing settings. She felt that when she wrote about
this scene later on she must not forget to describe the odd shadows the
candle under Aunt Elizabeth’s nose cast upward on her face, producing a
rather skeletonic effect. As for Miss Brownell, could _she_ ever have
been a baby--a dimpled, fat, laughing baby? The thing was unbelievable.

“Don’t speak impertinently to _me_,” said Aunt Elizabeth.

“You see,” said Miss Brownell, significantly.

“I don’t mean to be impertinent, but you are _not_ sorry,” persisted
Emily. “You are angry because you think I have disgraced New Moon, but
you are a little glad that you have got some one to agree with you that
I’m bad.”

“What a _grateful_ child,” said Miss Brownell--flashing her eyes up at
the ceiling--where they encountered a surprising sight. Perry Miller’s
head--and no more of him--was stuck down out of the “black hole” and
on Perry Miller’s upside-down face was a most disrespectful and impish
grimace. Face and head disappeared in a flash, leaving Miss Brownell
staring foolishly at the ceiling.

“You have been behaving disgracefully in school,” said Aunt Elizabeth,
who had not seen this by-play. “I am ashamed of you.”

“It was not as bad as that, Aunt Elizabeth,” said Emily steadily. “You
see it was this way--”

“I don’t want to hear anything more about it,” said Aunt Elizabeth.

“But you must,” cried Emily. “It isn’t fair to listen only to _her_
side. I was a little bad--but not so bad as she says--”

“Not another word! I have heard the whole story,” said Aunt Elizabeth
grimly.

“You heard a pack of lies,” said Perry, suddenly sticking his head down
through the black hole again.

Everybody jumped--even Aunt Elizabeth, who at once became angrier than
ever because she _had_ jumped.

“Perry Miller, come down out of that loft instantly!” she commanded.

“Can’t,” said Perry laconically.

“At once, I say!”

“Can’t,” repeated Perry, winking audaciously at Miss Brownell.

“Perry Miller, come down! I _will_ be obeyed. I am mistress here
_yet_.”

“Oh, all right,” said Perry cheerfully. “If I must.”

He swung himself down until his toes touched the ladder. Aunt Laura
gave a little shriek. Everybody else seemed to be stricken dumb.

“I’ve just got my wet duds off,” Perry was saying cheerfully, waving
his legs about to get a foothold on the ladder while he hung to the
sides of the black hole with his elbows. “Fell into the brook when I
was watering the cows. Was going to put on dry ones--but just as you
say--”

“Jimmy,” implored poor Elizabeth Murray, surrendering at discretion.
_She_ could not cope with the situation.

“Perry, get back into that loft and get your clothes on this minute!”
ordered Cousin Jimmy.

The bare legs shot up and disappeared. There was a chuckle as mirthful
and malicious as an owl’s beyond the black hole. Aunt Elizabeth gave a
convulsive gasp of relief and turned to Emily. She was determined to
regain ascendancy and Emily must be thoroughly humbled.

“Emily, kneel down here before Miss Brownell and ask her pardon for
your conduct to-day,” she said.

Into Emily’s pale cheek came a scarlet protest. She could not do
this--she would ask pardon of Miss Brownell but not on her knees. To
kneel to this cruel woman who had hurt her so--she could not--would not
do it. Her whole nature rose up in protest against such a humiliation.

“Kneel down,” repeated Aunt Elizabeth.

Miss Brownell looked pleased and expectant. It would be very satisfying
to see this child who had defied her kneeling before her as a penitent.
Never again, Miss Brownell felt, would Emily be able to look levelly
at her with those dauntless eyes that bespoke a soul untamable and
free, no matter what punishment might be inflicted upon body or mind.
The memory of this moment would always be with Emily--she could never
forget that she had knelt in abasement. Emily felt this as clearly as
Miss Brownell did and remained stubbornly on her feet.

“Aunt Elizabeth, _please_ let me tell my side of the story,” she
pleaded.

“I have heard all I wish to hear of the matter. You will do as I say,
Emily, or you will be outcast in this house until you do. No one will
talk to you--play with you--eat with you--have anything to do with you
until you have obeyed me.”

Emily shuddered. _That_ was a punishment she could not face. To be cut
off from her world--she knew it would bring her to terms before long.
She might as well yield at once--but, oh, the bitterness, the shame of
it!

“A human being should not kneel to any one but God,” said Cousin Jimmy,
unexpectedly, still staring at the ceiling.

A sudden strange change came over Elizabeth Murray’s proud, angry face.
She stood very still, looking at Cousin Jimmy--stood so long that Miss
Brownell made a motion of petulant impatience.

“Emily,” said Aunt Elizabeth in a different tone, “I was wrong--I shall
not ask you to kneel. But you must apologize to your teacher--and I
shall punish you later on.”

Emily put her hands behind her and looked straight into Miss Brownell’s
eyes again.

“I am sorry for anything I did to-day that was wrong,” she said, “and I
ask your pardon for it.”

Miss Brownell got on her feet. She felt herself cheated of a legitimate
triumph. Whatever Emily’s punishment would be she would not have the
satisfaction of seeing it. She could have shaken “simple Jimmy Murray”
with a right good will. But it would hardly do to show all she felt.
Elizabeth Murray was not a trustee but she was the heaviest ratepayer
in New Moon and had great influence with the School Board.

“I shall excuse your conduct if you behave yourself in future, Emily,”
she said coldly. “_I_ feel that I have only done my duty in putting the
matter before your aunt. No, thank you, Miss Murray, I cannot stay to
supper--I want to get home before it is too dark.”

“God speed all travellers,” said Perry cheerfully, climbing down his
ladder--this time with his clothes on.

Aunt Elizabeth ignored him--she was not going to have a scene with a
hired boy before Miss Brownell. The latter switched herself out and
Aunt Elizabeth looked at Emily.

“You will eat your supper alone to-night, Emily, in the pantry--you
will have bread and milk only. And you will not speak one word to
anyone until to-morrow morning.”

“But you won’t forbid me to think?” said Emily anxiously.

Aunt Elizabeth made no reply but sat haughtily down at the supper
table. Emily went into the pantry and ate her bread and milk, with the
odour of the delicious sausages the others were eating for savour.
Emily liked sausages, and New Moon sausages were the last word in
sausages. Elizabeth Burnley had brought the recipe out from the Old
Country and its secret was carefully guarded. And Emily was hungry. But
she had escaped the unbearable, and things might be worse. It suddenly
occurred to her that she would write an epic poem in imitation of _The
Lay Of The Last Minstrel_. Cousin Jimmy had read _The Lay_ to her last
Saturday. She would begin the first canto right off. When Laura Murray
came into the pantry, Emily, her bread and milk only half eaten, was
leaning her elbows on the dresser, gazing into space, with faintly
moving lips and the light that never was on land or sea in her young
eyes. Even the aroma of sausages was forgotten--was she not drinking
from a fount of Castaly?

“Emily,” said Aunt Laura, shutting the door, and looking very lovingly
upon Emily out of her kind blue eyes, “you can talk to _me_ all
you want to. I don’t like Miss Brownell and I don’t think you were
altogether in the wrong--although of course you shouldn’t be writing
poetry when you have sums to do. And there are some ginger cookies in
that box.”

“I don’t want to talk to any one, dear Aunt Laura--I’m too happy,” said
Emily dreamily. “I’m composing an epic--it is to be called _The White
Lady_, and I’ve got twenty lines of it made already--and two of them
are thrilling. The heroine wants to go into a convent and her father
warns her that if she does she will never be able to

    Come back to the life you gave
    With all its pleasures to the grave.

Oh, Aunt Laura, when I composed those lines the flash came to me. And
ginger cookies are nothing to me any more.”

Aunt Laura smiled again.

“Not just now perhaps, dear. But when the moment of inspiration has
passed it will do no harm to remember that the cookies in the box have
not been counted and that they are as much mine as Elizabeth’s.”




CHAPTER XVII

LIVING EPISTLES


“DEAR FATHER:

“O, I have such an exiting thing to tell you. I have been the heroin of
an adventure. One day last week Ilse asked me if I would go and stay
all night with her because her father was away and wouldn’t be home
till very late and Ilse said she wasn’t fritened but very lonesome. So
I asked Aunt Elizabeth if I could. I hardly dared hope, dear Father,
that she would let me, for she doesn’t aprove of little girls being
away from home at night but to my surprise she said I could go very
kindly. And then I heard her say in the pantry to Aunt Laura It is
a shame the way the doctor leaves that poor child so much alone at
nights. It is _wikked_ of him. And Aunt Laura said The poor man is
warped. You know he was not a bit like that before his wife--and then
just as it was getting intresting Aunt Elizabeth gave Aunt Laura a
nudge and said s-s-s-h, little pitchers have big ears. I knew she meant
me though my ears are not big, only pointed. I do wish I could find out
what Ilse’s mother did. It worrys me after I go to bed. I lie awake for
ever so long thinking about it. Ilse has no idea. Once she asked her
father and he told her (in a _voice of thunder_) never to mention _that
woman_ to him again. And there is something else that worrys me too. I
keep thinking of Silas Lee who killed his brother at the old well. How
dreadful the poor man must have felt. And what is it to be warped.

“I went over to Ilses and we played in the garret. I like playing there
because we dont have to be careful and tidy like we do in our garret.
Ilses garret is very untidy and cant have been dusted for years. The
rag room is worse than the rest. It is boarded off at one end of
the garret and it is full of old close and bags of rags and broken
furniture. I dont like the smell of it. The kitchen chimney goes up
through it and things hang round it (or did). For all this is in the
past now, dear Father.

“When we got tired playing we sat down on an old chest and talked. This
is splendid in daytime I said but it must be awful queer at night.
Mice, said Ilse,--and spiders and gosts. I dont believe in gosts I
said skornfully. There isnt any such thing. (But maybe there is for
all that, dear Father.) I believe this garret is hawnted, said Ilse.
They say garrets always are. Nonsense I said. You know dear Father it
would not do for a New Moon person to believe in gosts. But I felt
very queer. Its easy to talk said Ilse beginning to be mad (though I
wasnt trying to run down her garret) but you wouldnt stay here alone at
night. I wouldnt mind it a bit I said. Then I dare you to do it said
Ilse. I dare you to come up here at bedtime and sleep here all night.
Then I saw I was in an awful skrape Father dear. It is a foolish thing
to bost. I knew not what to do. It was dreadful to think of sleeping
alone in that garret but if I didnt Ilse would always cast it up to
me whenever we fought and worse than that she would tell Teddy and he
would think me a coward. So I said proudly Ill do it Ilse Burnley and
Im not afraid to either. (But oh I was--inside.) The mice will run over
you said Ilse. O I wouldnt be you for the world. It was mean of Ilse
to make things worse than they were. But I could feel she admired me
too and that helped me a great deal. We dragged an old feather bed out
of the rag room and Ilse gave me a pillow and half her close. It was
dark by this time and Ilse wouldnt go up into the garret again. So I
said my prayers very carefully and then I took a lamp and started up.
I am so used to candles now that the lamp made me nervus. Ilse said I
looked scared to death. My knees shook dear Father but for the honnor
of the Starrs (and the Murrays too) I went on. I had undressed in Ilses
room, so I got right into bed and blew out the lamp. But I couldnt go
to sleep for a long time. The moonlight made the garret look weerd. I
dont know exactly what weerd means but I feel the garret was it. The
bags and old close hanging from the beams looked like creatures. I
thought I need not be fritened. The angels are here. But then I felt
as if I would be as much fritened of angels as of anything else. And
I could hear rats and mice scrambling over things. I thought What if a
rat was to run over me, and then I thought that next day I would write
out a descripshon of the garret by moonlight and my feelings. At last I
heard the doctor driving in and then I heard him knocking round in the
kitchen and I felt better and before very long I went to sleep and I
dreamed a dreadful dream. I dreamed the door of the rag room opened and
a big newspaper came out and chased me all around the garret. And then
it went on fire and I could smell the smoke plain as plain and it was
just on me when I skreamed and woke up. I was sitting right up in bed
and the newspaper was gone but I could smell smoke still. I looked at
the rag room door and smoke was coming out under it and I saw firelight
through the cracks of the boards. I just yelled at the top of my voice
and tore down to Ilses room and she rushed across the hall and woke her
father. He said dam but he got right up and then all three of us kept
running up and down the garret stairs with pails of water and we made
an awful mess but we got the fire out. It was just the bags of wool
that had been hanging close to the chimney that had caught fire. When
all was over the doctor wiped the persperation from his manly brow and
said That was a close call. A few minutes later would have been too
late. I put on a fire when I came in to make a cup of tea and I suppose
those bags must have caught fire from a spark. I see theres a hole
here where the plaster has tumbled out. I must have this whole place
cleaned out. How in the world did you come to diskover the fire, Emily.
I was sleeping in the garret I said. Sleeping in the garret said the
doctor, what in--what the--_what_ were you doing there. Ilse dared me I
said. She said Id be too scared to stay there and I said I wouldnt. I
fell asleep and woke up and smelled smoke. You little devil, said the
doctor. I suppose it was a dreadful thing to be called a devil but
the doctor looked at me so admiringly that I felt as if he was paying
me a compelment. He has queer ways of talking. Ilse says the only time
he ever said a kind thing to her was once when she had a sore throat
he called her “a poor little animal” and looked as if he was sorry for
her. I feel sure Ilse feels dreadfully bad because her father doesnt
like her though she pretends she does not care. But oh dear Father
there is more to tell. Yesterday the Shrewsbury _Weekly Times_ came
and in the Blair Notes it told all about the fire at the doctors and
said it had been fortunately diskovered in time by Miss Emily Starr. I
cant tell you what I felt like when I saw my name in the paper. I felt
_famus_. And I never was called Miss in ernest before.

“Last Saturday Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura went to Shrewsbury for
the day and left Cousin Jimmy and me to keep house. We had such fun
and Cousin Jimmy let me skim all the milk pans. But after dinner
unexpekted company came and there was no cake in the house. That was
a dreadful thing. It never happened before in the annels of New Moon.
Aunt Elizabeth had toothache all day yesterday and Aunt Laura was away
at Priest Pond visiting Great Aunt Nancy, so no cake was made. I prayed
about it and then I went to work and made a cake by Aunt Laura’s receet
and it turned out all right. Cousin Jimmy helped me set the table and
get supper, and I poured the tea and never slopped any over in the
saucers. You would have been proud of me Father. Mrs. Lewis took a
second piece of cake and said I would know Elizabeth Murrays cake if
I found it in central Africa. I said not a word for the honnor of the
family. But I felt very proud. I had saved the Murrays from disgrace.
When Aunt Elizabeth came home and heard the tale she looked grim and
tasted a piece that was left and then she said Well, you have got
_some_ Murray in you anyway. That is the first time Aunt Elizabeth has
ever praised me. She had three teeth out so they will not ache any
more. I am glad for her sake. Before I went to bed I got the cook book
and picked out all the things Id like to make. Queen Pudding, Sea-foam
Sauce, Blackeyed Susans, Pigs In Blankets. They sound just lovely.

“I can see such beautiful fluffy white clouds over Lofty Johns bush.
I wish I could sore up and drop right into them. I cant believe they
would be wet and messy like Teddy says. Teddy cut my initials and his
together on the Monark of The Forest but somebody has cut them out. I
don’t know whether it was Perry or Ilse.

“Miss Brownell hardly ever gives me good deportment marks now and
Aunt Elizabeth is much displeased on Friday nights but Aunt Laura
understands. I wrote an account of the afternoon when Miss Brownell
made fun of my poems and put it in an old envelope and wrote Aunt
Elizabeths name on it and put it among my papers. If I die of
consumption Aunt Elizabeth will find it and know the rites of it and
mourn that she was so unjust to me. But I don’t think I will die
because Im getting much fatter and Ilse told me she heard her father
tell Aunt Laura I would be handsome if I had more color. Is it wrong to
want to be handsome, dearest Father. Aunt Elizabeth says it is and when
I said to her Wouldn’t _you_ like to be handsome, Aunt Elizabeth, she
seemed anoyed about something.

“Miss Brownell has had a spite at Perry ever since that evening and
treats him very mean but he is meek and says he wont kick up any fuss
in school because he wants to learn and get ahead. He keeps saying his
rymes are as good as mine and I know they are not and it exassperates
me. If I do not pay attention all the time in school Miss Brownell says
I suppose you are composing--poetry Emily and then everybody laughs.
No not everybody. I must not exagerate. Teddy and Perry and Ilse and
Jennie never laugh. It is funny that I like Jennie so well now and I
hated her so that first day in school. Her eyes are not piggy after
all. They are small but they are jolly and twinkly. She is quite poplar
in school. I do hate Frank Barker. He took my new reader and wrote in a
big sprawly way all over the front page

    Steal not this book for fear of shame
    For on it is the owners name
    And when you die the Lord will say
    Where is that book you stole away
    And when you say you do not know
    The Lord will say go down below.

“That is not a refined poem and besides it is not the rite way to speak
about God. I tore out the leaf and burned it and Aunt Elizabeth was
angry and even when I explained why her rath was not apeased. Ilse says
she is going to call God Alla after this. I think it is a nicer name
myself. It is so soft and doesn’t sound so stern. But I fear its not
relijus enough.

                                            “MAY 20.

“Yesterday was my birthday dear Father. It will soon be a year since I
came to New Moon. I feel as if I had always lived here. I have grown
two inches. Cousin Jimmy measured me by a mark on the dairy door. My
birthday was very nice. Aunt Laura made a lovely cake and gave me a
beautiful new white pettycoat with an embroidered flounce. She had run
a blue ribbon through it but Aunt Elizabeth made her pull it out. And
Aunt Laura also gave me that piece of pink satin brokade in her burow
drawer. I have longed for it ever since I saw it but never hoped to
possess it. Ilse asked me what I meant to do with it but I dont mean
to do anything with it. Only keep it up here in the garret with my
treasures and look at it, because it is beautiful. Aunt Elizabeth gave
me a dixonary. That was a useful present. I feel I ought to like it.
You will soon notice an improovement in my spelling, I hope. The only
trouble is when I am writing something interesting I get so exited
it is just awful to have to stop and hunt up a word to see how it is
spelled. I looked up ween in it and Miss Brownell was right. I did not
know what it really meant. It rymed so well with sheen and I thought it
meant to behold or see but it means to think. Cousin Jimmy gave me a
big thick blank book. I am so proud of it. It will be so nice to write
pieces in. But I will still use the letter-bills to write to you, dear
Father, because I can fold each one up by itself and adress it like a
real letter. Teddy gave me a picture of myself. He painted it in water
colors and called it The Smiling Girl. I look as if I was listening
to something that made me very happy. Ilse says it flatters me. It
does make me better looking than I am but not any better looking than
I would be if I could have a bang. Teddy says he is going to paint a
real big picture of me when he grows up. Perry walked all the way to
Shrewsbury to get me a necklace of pearl beads and lost it. He had no
more money so he went home to Stovepipe Town and got a young hen from
his Aunt Tom and gave me that. He is a very persistent boy. I am to
have all the eggs the hen lays to sell the pedler for myself. Ilse gave
me a box of candy. I am only going to eat one piece a day to make it
last a long time. I wanted Ilse to eat some but she said she wouldnt
because it would be mean to help eat a present you had given and I
insisted and then we fought over it and Ilse said I was a caterwawling
quadruped (which was ridiklus) and didn’t know enough to come in when
it rained. And I said I knew enough to have some manners at least. Ilse
got so mad she went home but she cooled off soon and came back for
supper.

“It is raining tonight and it sounds like fairies feet dancing over
the garret roof. If it had not rained Teddy was going to come down and
help me look for the Lost Dimond. Wouldnt it be splendid if we could
find it.

“Cousin Jimmy is fixing up the garden. He lets me help him and I have a
little flower bed of my own. I always run out first thing every morning
to see how much the things have grown since yesterday. Spring is such
a happyfying time isnt it, Father. The little Blue People are all out
round the summer house. That is what Cousin Jimmy calls the violets and
I think it is lovely. He has names like that for all the flowers. The
roses are the Queens and the June lilies are the Snow Ladies and the
tulips are the Gay Folk and the daffodils are the Golden Ones and the
China Asters are My Pink Friends.

“Mike II is here with me, sitting on the window-sill. Mike is a smee
cat. Smee is not in the dictionary. It is a word I invented myself. I
could not think of any English word which just describes Mike II so I
made this up. It means sleek and glossy and soft and fluffy all in one
and something else besides that I cant express.

“Aunt Laura is teaching me to sew. She says I must learn to make a hem
on muslin that can’t be seen (tradishun). I hope she will teach me how
to make point lace some day. All the Murrays of New Moon have been
noted for making point lace (I mean all the women Murrays). None of the
girls in school can make point lace. Aunt Laura says she will make me
a point lace hangkerchief when I get married. All the New Moon brides
had point lace hangkerchiefs except my mother who ran away. But you
didnt mind her not having one did you Father. Aunt Laura talks a good
bit about my mother to me but not when Aunt Elizabeth is around. Aunt
Elizabeth never mentions her name. Aunt Laura wants to show me Mothers
room but she has never been able to find the key yet because Aunt
Elizabeth keeps it hid. Aunt Laura says Aunt Elizabeth loved my mother
very much. You would think she would love her daughter some wouldnt
you. But she doesnt. She is just bringing me up as a duty.

                                            “JUNE 1.

“DEAR FATHER:

“This has been a very important day. I wrote my first letter, I
mean the first letter that was really to go in the mail. It was to
Great-Aunt Nancy who lives at Priest Pond and is very old. She wrote
Aunt Elizabeth and said I might write now and then to a poor old woman.
My heart was touched and I wanted to. Aunt Elizabeth said We might as
well let her. And she said to me You must be careful to write a nice
letter and I will read it over when it is written. If you make a good
impression on Aunt Nancy she may do something for you. I wrote the
letter very carefully but it didn’t sound a bit like me when it was
finished. I couldn’t write a good letter when I knew Aunt Elizabeth was
going to read it. I felt paralized.

                                            “JUNE 7.

“Dear Father, my letter did not make a good impression on Great-Aunt
Nancy. She did not answer it but she wrote Aunt Elizabeth that I must
be a very stupid child to write such a stupid letter. I feel insulted
because I am not stupid. Perry says he feels like going to Priest Pond
and knocking the daylights out of Great-Aunt Nancy. I told him he must
not talk like that about my family, and anyhow I dont see how knocking
the daylights out of Great-Aunt Nancy would make her change her opinion
about me being stupid. (I wonder what daylights are and how you knock
them out of people.)

“I have three cantos of _The White Lady_ finished. I have the heroin
imured in a convent and I dont know how to get her out because I
am not a Catholic. I suppose it would have been better if I had
a Protestant heroin but there were no Protestants in the days of
shivalry. I might have asked Lofty John last year but this year I cant
because Ive never spoken to him since he played that horrid joke on
me about the apple. When I meet him on the road I look straight ahead
just as lofty as he does. I have called my pig after him to get square.
Cousin Jimmy has given me a little pig for my own. When it is sold I
am to have the money. I mean to give some for missionaries and put the
rest in the bank to go to my educashun. And I thought if I ever had
a pig I would call it Uncle Wallace. But now it does not seem to me
propper to call pigs after your uncles even if you dont like them.

“Teddy and Perry and Ilse and I play we are living in the days of
shivalry and Ilse and I are distressed damsels reskued by galant
knites. Teddy made a splendid suit of armor out of old barrel staves
and then Perry made a better one out of old tin boilers hammered flat
with a broken saucepan for a helmit. Sometimes we play at the Tansy
Patch. I have a queer feeling that Teddys mother hates me this summer.
Last summer she just didnt like me. Smoke and Buttercup are not there
now. They disappeared misteriously in the winter. Teddy says he feels
sure his mother poisoned them because she thought he was getting too
fond of them. Teddy is teaching me to whistle but Aunt Laura says it
is unladylike. So many jolly things seem to be unladylike. Sometimes I
almost wish my aunts were infidels like Dr. Burnly. _He_ never bothers
whether Ilse is unladylike or not. But no, it would not be good manners
to be an infidel. It would not be a New Moon tradishun.

“Today I taught Perry that he must not eat with his knife. He wants
to learn all the _rules of etiket_. And I am helping him learn a
recitation for school examination day. I wanted Ilse to do it but she
was mad because he asked me first and she wouldnt. But she should
because she is a far better reciter than I am. I am too nervus.

                                           “JUNE 14.

“Dear Father, we have composition in school now and I learned today
that you put in things like this “ ” when you write anything anybody
has said. I didnt know that before. I must go over all my letters to
you and put them in. And after a question you must put a mark like this
? and when a letter is left out a postroffe which is a comma up in
the air. Miss Brownell is sarkastic but she _does_ teach you things.
I am putting that down because I want to be fair even if I do hate
her. And she is interesting although she is not nice. I have written
a descripshun of her on a letter-bill. I like writing about people I
don’t like better than about those I do like. Aunt Laura is nicer to
live with than Aunt Elizabeth, but Aunt Elizabeth is nicer to write
about. I can deskribe _her_ fawlts but I feel wikked and ungrateful if
I say anything that is not compelmentary about dear Aunt Laura. Aunt
Elizabeth has locked your books away and says I’m not to have them till
I’m grown up. Just as if I wouldn’t be careful of them, dear Father.
She says I wouldn’t because she found that when I was reading one of
them I put a tiny pencil dot under every beautiful word. It didn’t hurt
the book a bit, dear Father. Some of the words were dingles, pearled,
musk, dappled, intervales, glen, bosky, piping, shimmer, crisp,
beechen, ivory. I think those are all lovely words, Father.

“Aunt Laura lets me read her copy of A Pilgrims Progress on Sundays. I
call the big hill in the road to White Cross the Delectable Mountain
because it is such a beautiful one.

“Teddy lent me 3 books of poetry. One of them was Tennyson and I have
learned The Bugle Song off by heart so I will always have it. One was
Mrs. Browning. She is lovely. I would like to meet her. I suppose I
will when I die but that may be a long time away. The other was just
one poem called Sohrab and Rustum. After I went to bed I cried over
it. Aunt Elizabeth said “what are you sniffling about?” I wasn’t
sniffling--I was weeping sore. She made me tell her and then she said
“You must be crazy.” But I couldn’t go to sleep until I had thought out
a different end for it--a happy one.

                                           “JUNE 25.

“DEAR FATHER:

“There has been a dark shadow over this day. I dropped my cent in
church. It made a dreadful noise. I felt as if everybody looked at me.
Aunt Elizabeth was much annoyed. Perry dropped his too soon after. He
told me after church he did it on purpose because he thought it would
make me feel better but it didn’t because I was afraid the people
would think it was me dropping mine again. Boys do such queer things.
I hope the minister did not hear because I am beginning to like him. I
never liked him much before last Tuesday. His family are all boys and
I suppose he doesn’t understand little girls very well. Then he called
at New Moon. Aunt Laura and Aunt Elizabeth were both away and I was in
the kitchen alone. Mr. Dare came in and sat down on Saucy Sal who was
asleep in the rocking-chair. He was comfortable but Saucy Sal wasn’t.
He didn’t sit on her stomach. If he had I suppose he would have killed
her. He just sat on her legs and tail. Sal yowled but Mr. Dare is a
little deaf and didn’t hear her and I was too shy to tell him. But
Cousin Jimmy came in just as he was asking me if I knew my catechism
and said “Catechism, is it? Lawful heart, man, listen to that poor
dum beast. Get up if you’re a Christian.” So Mr. Dare got up and said,
“Dear me, this is very remarkable. I thought I felt something moving.”

“I thought I would write this to you, dear Father, because it struck me
as humerus.

“When Mr. Dare finished asking me questions I thought it was my turn
and I would ask him some about some things I’ve wanted to know for
years. I asked him if he thought God was very perticular about every
little thing I did and if he thought my cats would go to heaven. He
said he hoped I never did wrong things and that animals had no souls.
And I asked him why we shouldn’t put new wine in old bottles. Aunt
Elizabeth does with her dandelion wine and the old bottles do just as
well as new ones. He explained quite kindly that the Bible bottles were
made of skins and got rotten when they were old. It made it quite clear
to me. Then I told him I was worried because I knew I ought to love God
better than anything but there were things I loved better than God. He
said “What things?” and I said flowers and stars and the Wind Woman
and the Three Princesses and things like that. And he smiled and said
“But they are just a part of God, Emily--every beautiful thing is.” And
all at once I liked him ever so much and didn’t feel shy with him any
more. He preeched a sermon on heaven last Sunday. It seemed like a dull
place. I think it must be more exiting than that. I wonder what I will
do when I go to heaven since I cant sing. I wonder if they will let me
write poetry. But I think church is interesting. Aunt Elizabeth and
Aunt Laura always read their Bibles before the servis begins but I like
to stare around and see everybody and wonder what they are thinking of.
It’s so nice to hear the silk dresses swishing up the isles. Bustles
are very fashunable now but Aunt Elizabeth will not wear them. I think
Aunt Elizabeth _would_ look funny with a bustle. Aunt Laura wears a
very little one.

                       “Your lovingest daughter,
                                  “_Emily B. Starr_.

“P. S. Dear Father, it is lovely to write to you. But O, I never get an
answer back.

                                        “_E. B. S._”




CHAPTER XVIII

FATHER CASSIDY


Consternation reigned at New Moon. Everybody was desperately unhappy.
Aunt Laura cried. Aunt Elizabeth was so cantankerous that there was no
living with her. Cousin Jimmy went about as one distracted and Emily
gave up worrying about Ilse’s mother and Silas Lee’s remorseful ghost
after she went to bed, and worried over this new trouble. For it had
all originated in her disregard of New Moon tradition in making calls
on Lofty John, and Aunt Elizabeth did not mince matters in telling her
so. If she, Emily Byrd Starr, had never gone to Lofty John’s she would
never have eaten the Big Sweet apple, and if she had never eaten the
Big Sweet apple Lofty John would not have played a joke on her and if
he had not played a joke on her Aunt Elizabeth would never have gone
and said bitter, Murray-like things to him; and if Aunt Elizabeth
had never said bitter Murray-like things to him Lofty John would not
have become offended and revengeful; and if Lofty John had not become
offended and revengeful he would never have taken it into his lofty
head to cut down the beautiful grove to the north of New Moon.

For this was exactly where this house-that-Jack-built progression had
landed them all. Lofty John had announced publicly in the Blair Water
blacksmith shop that he was going to cut down the bush as soon as
harvest was over--every last tree and sapling was to be laid low. The
news was promptly carried to New Moon and upset the inhabitants thereof
as they had not been upset for years. In their eyes it was nothing
short of a catastrophe.

Elizabeth and Laura could hardly bring themselves to believe it. The
thing was incredible. That big, thick, protecting bush of spruce and
hardwood had _always_ been there; it belonged to New Moon _morally_;
even Lofty John Sullivan would not _dare_ to cut it down. But Lofty
John had an uncomfortable reputation for doing what he said he would
do; that was a part of his loftiness; and if he did--if he did--

“New Moon will be ruined,” wailed poor Aunt Laura. “It will look
_dreadful_--_all_ its beauty will go--and we will be left open to
the north wind and the sea storms--we have always been so warm and
sheltered here. And Jimmy’s garden will be ruined too.”

“This is what comes of bringing Emily here,” said Aunt Elizabeth.

It was a cruel thing to say, even when all allowances were made,--cruel
and unjust, since her own sharp tongue and Murray sarcasm had had quite
as much to do with it as Emily. But she said it and it pierced Emily to
the heart with a pang that left a scar for years. Poor Emily did not
feel as if she needed any additional anguish. She was already feeling
so wretched that she could not eat or sleep. Elizabeth Murray, angry
and unhappy as she was, slept soundly at nights; but beside her in the
darkness, afraid to move or turn, lay a slender little creature whose
tears, stealing silently down her cheeks, could not ease her breaking
heart. For Emily thought her heart _was_ breaking; she couldn’t go on
living and suffering like this. Nobody could.

Emily had lived long enough at New Moon for it to get pretty thoroughly
into her blood. Perhaps it had even been born there. At any rate,
when she came to it she fitted into its atmosphere as a hand into a
glove. She loved it as well as if she had lived there all her short
life--loved every stick and stone and tree and blade of grass about
it--every nail in the old kitchen floor, every cushion of green moss
on the dairy roof, every pink and white columbine that grew in the
old orchard, every “tradition” of its history. To think of its beauty
being in a large measure reft from it was agony to her. And to think
of Cousin Jimmy’s garden being ruined! Emily loved that garden almost
as much as he did; why, it was the pride of Cousin Jimmy’s life that
he could grow there plants and shrubs that would winter nowhere else
in P. E. Island; if the northern shelter were removed they would die.
And to think of that beautiful bush itself being cut down--the Today
Road and the Yesterday Road and the Tomorrow Road being swept out of
existence--the stately Monarch of the Forest discrowned--the little
playhouse where she and Ilse had such glorious hours destroyed--the
whole lovely, ferny, intimate place torn out of her life at one fell
swoop.

Oh, Lofty John had chosen and timed his vengeance well!

When would the blow fall? Every morning Emily listened miserably as
she stood on the sandstone doorstep of the kitchen, for the sound of
axe blows on the clear September air. Every evening when she returned
from school she dreaded to see that the work of destruction had
begun. She pined and fretted. There were times when it seemed to her
she couldn’t bear her life any longer. Every day Aunt Elizabeth said
something imputing the whole blame to her and the child grew morbidly
sensitive about it. Almost she wished Lofty John would begin and be
done with it. If Emily had ever heard the classic story of Damocles
she would have heartily sympathized with him. If she had had any hope
that it would do any good she would have swallowed Murray pride and
Starr pride and every other kind of pride and gone on her knees to
Lofty John to entreat him to hold his revengeful hand. But she believed
it would not. Lofty John had left no doubt in anybody’s mind as to
his bitter determination in the matter. There was much talk about it
in Blair Water and some were very well pleased at this blow to New
Moon pride and prestige, and some held that it was low and unclean
behaviour on Lofty John’s part, and all agreed that this was what
they had prophesied all along as bound to happen some day when the
old Murray-Sullivan feud of three generations should have come to its
inevitable head. The only surprising thing was that Lofty John hadn’t
done it long ago. He had always hated Elizabeth Murray since their
schooldays, when her tongue had not spared him.

One day by the banks of Blair Water Emily sat down and wept. She had
been sent to trim the dead blossoms off the rosebushes on Grandmother
Murray’s grave; having finished her task she had not the heart to go
back to the house where Aunt Elizabeth was making everybody miserable
because she was herself so unhappy. Perry had reported that Lofty John
had stated the day before at the blacksmith’s that he was going to
begin cutting down the big bush on Monday morning.

“I _can’t_ bear it,” sobbed Emily to the rosebushes.

A few late roses nodded at her; the Wind Woman combed and waved and
stirred the long green grasses on the graves where proud Murrays, men
and women, slept calmly, unstirred by old feuds and passions; the
September sunlight shone beyond on old harvest fields mellowly bright
and serene, and very softly against its green, shrub-hung bank, purred
and lapped the blue Blair Water.

“I don’t see why God doesn’t _stop_ Lofty John,” said Emily
passionately. Surely the New Moon Murrays had a right to expect that
much from Providence.

Teddy came whistling down the pasture, the notes of his tune blowing
across the Blair Water like elfin drops of sound, vaulted the graveyard
fence and perched his lean, graceful body irreverently on the “Here I
stay” of Great-Grandmother Murray’s flat tombstone.

“What’s the matter?” he said.

“Everything’s the matter,” said Emily, a little crossly. Teddy had no
business to be looking so cheerful. She was used to more sympathy from
Teddy and it aggravated her not to find it. “Don’t you know Lofty John
is going to begin cutting down the bush Monday?”

Teddy nodded.

“Yep. Ilse told me. But look here, Emily, I’ve thought of something.
Lofty John wouldn’t dare cut down that bush if the priest told him not
to, would he?”

“Why?”

“Because the Catholics have to do just what their priests tell them to,
haven’t they?”

“I don’t know--I don’t know anything about them. _We_ are
Presbyterians.”

Emily gave her head a little toss. Mrs. Kent was known to be an
“English Church” woman and though Teddy went to the Presbyterian Sunday
School, that fact gave him scanty standing among bred-in-the-bone
Presbyterian circles.

“If your Aunt Elizabeth went to Father Cassidy at White Cross and asked
him to stop Lofty John, maybe he’d do it,” persisted Teddy.

“Aunt Elizabeth would never do that,” said Emily positively. “I’m sure
of it. She’s too proud.”

“Not even to save the bush?”

“Not even for that.”

“Then I guess nothing can be done,” said Teddy rather crest-fallen.
“Look here--see what I’ve made. This is a picture of Lofty John in
purgatory, with three little devils sticking red-hot pitch forks
into him. I copied some of it out of one of mother’s books--Dante’s
Infernal, I think it was--but I put Lofty John in place of the man in
the book. You can have it.”

“I don’t want it.” Emily uncoiled her legs and got up. She was past the
stage when inflicting imaginary torments on Lofty John could comfort
her. She had already slain him in several agonizing ways during her
night vigils. But an idea had come to her--a daring, breathless idea.
“I must go home now, Teddy--it’s supper time.”

Teddy pocketed his despised sketch--which was really a wonderful bit
of work if either of them had had the sense to know it; the expression
of anguish in Lofty John’s face as a merry little devil touched him
up with a pitchfork would have been the despair of many a trained
artist. He went home wishing he could help Emily; it was all wrong
that a creature like Emily--with soft purple-gray eyes and a smile
that made you think of all sorts of wonderful things you couldn’t put
into words--should be unhappy. Teddy felt so worried about it that he
added a few more devils to his sketch of Lofty John in purgatory and
lengthened the prongs of their pitchforks quite considerably.

Emily went home with a determined twist to her mouth. She ate as much
supper as she could--which wasn’t much, for Aunt Elizabeth’s face would
have destroyed her appetite if she had had any--and then sneaked out
of the house by the front door. Cousin Jimmy was working in his garden
but he did not call her. Cousin Jimmy was always very sorrowful now.
Emily stood a moment on the Grecian porch and looked at Lofty John’s
bush--green-bosomed, waving, all lovely. Would it be a desecrated waste
of stumps by Monday night? Goaded by the thought Emily cast fear and
hesitation to the winds and started briskly off down the lane. When she
reached the gate she turned to the left on the long red road of mystery
that ran up the Delectable Mountain. She had never been on that road
before; it ran straight to White Cross; Emily was going to the parish
house there to interview Father Cassidy. It was two miles to White
Cross and Emily walked it all too soon--not because it was a beautiful
road of wind and wild fern, haunted by little rabbits--but because she
dreaded what awaited her at the end. She had been trying to think what
she should say--how she should say it; but her invention failed her.
She had no acquaintance with Catholic priests, and couldn’t imagine
how you should talk to them at all. They were even more mysterious and
unknowable than ministers. Suppose Father Cassidy should be dreadfully
angry at her daring to come there and ask a favour. Perhaps it _was_ a
dreadful thing to do from every point of view. And very likely it would
do no good. Very likely Father Cassidy would refuse to interfere with
Lofty John, who was a good Catholic, while she was, in his opinion,
a heretic. But for any chance, even the faintest, of averting the
calamity impending over New Moon, Emily would have faced the entire
Sacred College. Horribly frightened, miserably nervous as she was, the
idea of turning back never occurred to her. She was only sorry that
she hadn’t put on her Venetian beads. They might have impressed Father
Cassidy.

Although Emily had never been to White Cross she knew the parish house
when she saw it--a fine, tree-embowered residence near the big white
chapel with the flashing gilt cross on its spire and the four gilt
angels, one on each of the little spires at the corners. Emily thought
them very beautiful as they gleamed in the light of the lowering sun,
and wished they could have some on the plain white church at Blair
Water. She couldn’t understand why Catholics should have all the
angels. But there was not time to puzzle over this, for the door was
opening and the trim little maid was looking a question.

“Is--Father Cassidy--at--home?” asked Emily, rather jerkily.

“Yes.”

“Can--I--see--him?”

“Come in,” said the little maid. Evidently there was no difficulty
about seeing Father Cassidy--no mysterious ceremonies such as Emily
had half expected, even if she were allowed to see him at all. She was
shown into a book-lined room and left there, while the maid went to
call Father Cassidy, who, she said, was working in the garden. _That_
sounded quite natural and encouraging. If Father Cassidy worked in a
garden, he could not be so very terrible.

Emily looked about her curiously. She was in a very pretty room--with
cosy chairs, and pictures and flowers. Nothing alarming or uncanny
about it--except a huge black cat who was sitting on the top of one of
the bookcases. It was really an enormous creature. Emily adored cats
and had always felt at home with any of them. But she had never seen
such a cat as this. What with its size and its insolent, gold-hued
eyes, set like living jewels in its black velvet face, it did not seem
to belong to the same species as nice, cuddly, respectable kittens at
all. Mr. Dare would never have had such a beast about his manse. All
Emily’s dread of Father Cassidy returned.

And then in came Father Cassidy, with the friendliest smile in the
world. Emily took him in with her level glance as was her habit--or
gift--and never again in the world was she the least bit afraid of
Father Cassidy. He was big and broad-shouldered, with brown eyes and
brown hair; and his very face was so deeply tanned from his inveterate
habit of going about bareheaded in merciless sunshine, that it was
brown, too. Emily thought he looked just like a big nut--a big, brown,
wholesome nut.

Father Cassidy looked at her as he shook hands; Emily had one of her
visitations of beauty just then. Excitement had brought a wildrose
hue to her face, the sunlight brought out the watered-silk gloss of
her black hair; her eyes were softly dark and limpid; but it was at
her ears Father Cassidy suddenly bent to look. Emily had a moment of
agonized wonder if they were clean.

“She’s got pointed ears,” said Father Cassidy, in a thrilling whisper.
“Pointed ears! I _knew_ she came straight from fairyland the minute
I saw her. Sit down, Elf--if elves do sit--sit down and give me the
latest news av Titania’s court.”

Emily’s foot was now on her native heath. Father Cassidy talked her
language, and he talked it in such a mellow, throaty voice, slurring
his “ofs” ever so softly as became a proper Irishman. But she shook
her head a little sadly. With the burden of her errand on her soul she
could not play the part of ambassadress from Elfland.

“I’m only Emily Starr of New Moon,” she said; and then gasped
hurriedly, because there must be no deception--no sailing under false
colours, “and I’m a Protestant.”

“And a very nice little Protestant you are,” said Father Cassidy. “But
for sure I’m a bit disappointed. I’m used to Protestants--the woods
hereabouts being full av them--but it’s a hundred years since the last
elf called on me.”

Emily stared. Surely Father Cassidy wasn’t a hundred years old. He
didn’t look more than fifty. Perhaps, though, Catholic priests did live
longer than other people. She didn’t know exactly what to say so she
said, a bit lamely,

“I see you have a cat.”

“Wrong.” Father Cassidy shook his head and groaned dismally. “A cat has
me.”

Emily gave up trying to understand Father Cassidy. He was nice but
ununderstandable. She let it go at that. And she must get on with her
errand.

“You are a kind of minister, aren’t you?” she asked timidly. She
didn’t know whether Father Cassidy would like being called a minister.

“Kind av,” he agreed amiably. “And you see ministers and priests can’t
do their own swearing. They have to keep cats to do it for them. I
never knew any cat that could sware as genteelly and effectively as the
B’y.”

“Is that what you call him?” asked Emily, looking at the black cat in
some awe. It seemed hardly safe to discuss him right before his face.

“That’s what he calls himself. My mother doesn’t like him because he
steals the cream. Now, _I_ don’t mind his doing that; no, it’s his way
av licking his jaws after it that I can’t stand. Oh, B’y, we’ve a fairy
calling on us. Be excited for once, I implore you--there’s a duck av a
cat.”

The B’y refused to be excited. He winked an insolent eye at Emily.

“Have you any idea what goes on in the head av a cat, elf?”

What queer questions Father Cassidy asked. Yet Emily thought she would
like his questions if she were not so worried. Suddenly Father Cassidy
leaned across the table and said,

“Now, just what’s bothering you?”

“I’m so unhappy,” said Emily piteously.

“So are lots av other people. Everybody is unhappy by spells. But
creatures who have pointed ears shouldn’t be unhappy. It’s only mortals
who should be that.”

“Oh, please--please--” Emily wondered what she should call him. Would
it offend him if a Protestant called him “Father”? But she had to risk
it--“please, Father Cassidy, I’m in such trouble and I’ve come to ask a
_great favour_ of you.”

Emily told him the whole tale from beginning to end--the old
Murray-Sullivan feud, her erstwhile friendship with Lofty John, the
Big Sweet apple, the unhappy consequence, and Lofty John’s threatened
revenge. The B’y and Father Cassidy listened with equal gravity until
she had finished. Then the B’y winked at her, but Father Cassidy put
his long brown fingers together.

“Humph,” he said.

(“That’s the first time,” reflected Emily, “that I’ve ever heard anyone
outside of a book say ‘Humph.’”)

“Humph,” said Father Cassidy again. “And you want me to put a stop to
this nefarious deed?”

“If you can,” said Emily. “Oh, it would be so splendid if you could.
Will you--will you?”

Father Cassidy fitted his fingers still more carefully together.

“I’m afraid I can hardly invoke the power av the keys to prevent Lofty
John from disposing as he wishes av his own lawful property, you know,
elf.”

Emily didn’t understand the allusion to the keys but she did understand
that Father Cassidy was declining to bring the lever of the Church to
bear on Lofty John. There was no hope, then. She could not keep the
tears of disappointment out of her eyes.

“Oh, come now, darling, don’t cry,” implored Father Cassidy. “Elves
never cry--they can’t. It would break my heart to discover you weren’t
av the Green Folk. You may call yourself av New Moon and av any
religion you like, but the fact remains that you belong to the Golden
Age and the old gods. That’s why I must save your precious bit av
greenwood for you.”

Emily stared.

“I think it can be done,” Father Cassidy went on. “I think if I go
to Lofty John and have a heart-to-heart talk with him I can make him
see reason. Lofty John and I are very good friends. He’s a reasonable
creature, if you know how to take him--which means to flatter his
vanity judiciously. I’ll put it to him, not as priest to parishoner,
but as man to man, that no decent Irishman carries on a feud with
women and that no sensible person is going to destroy for nothing but
a grudge those fine old trees that have taken half a century to grow
and can never be replaced. Why, the man who cuts down such a tree except
when it is really necessary should be hanged as high as Haman on a
gallows made from the wood av it.”

(Emily thought she would write that last sentence of Father Cassidy’s
down in Cousin Jimmy’s blank book when she got home.)

“But I won’t say _that_ to Lofty John,” concluded Father Cassidy. “Yes,
Emily av New Moon, I think we can consider it a settled thing that your
bush will not be cut down.”

Suddenly Emily felt very happy. Somehow she had entire confidence in
Father Cassidy. She was sure he would twist Lofty John around his
little finger.

“Oh, I can never thank you enough!” she said earnestly.

“That’s true, so don’t waste breath trying. And now tell me things. Are
there any more av you? And how long have you been yourself?”

“I’m twelve years old--I haven’t any brothers or sisters. And I _think_
I’d better be going home.”

“Not till you’ve had a bite av lunch.”

“Oh, thank you, I’ve had my supper.”

“Two hours ago and a two-mile walk since. Don’t tell me. I’m sorry I
haven’t any nectar and ambrosia on hand--such food as elves eat--and
not even a saucer av moonshine--but my mother makes the best plum
cake av any woman in P. E. Island. And we keep a cream cow. Wait here
a bit. Don’t be afraid av the B’y. He eats tender little Protestants
sometimes, but he never meddles with leprechauns.”

When Father Cassidy came back his mother came with him, carrying a
tray. Emily had expected to see her big and brown too, but she was the
tiniest woman imaginable, with snow-white, silky hair, mild blue eyes,
and pink cheeks.

“Isn’t she the sweetest thing in the way av mothers?” asked Father
Cassidy. “I keep her to look at. Av course--” Father Cassidy dropped
his voice to a pig’s whisper--“there’s something odd about her. I’ve
known that woman to stop right in the middle av housecleaning, and go
off and spend an afternoon in the woods. Like yourself, I’m thinking
she has some truck with fairies.”

Mrs. Cassidy smiled, kissed Emily, said she must go out and finish her
preserving, and trotted off.

“Now you sit right down here, Elf, and be human for ten minutes and
we’ll have a friendly snack.”

Emily _was_ hungry--a nice comfortable feeling she hadn’t experienced
for a fortnight. Mrs. Cassidy’s plum cake was all her reverend son
claimed, and the cream cow seemed to be no myth.

“What do you think av me now?” asked Father Cassidy suddenly, finding
Emily’s eyes fixed on him speculatively.

Emily blushed. She had been wondering if she dared ask another favour
of Father Cassidy.

“I think you are awfully good,” she said.

“I _am_ awfully good,” agreed Father Cassidy. “I’m so good that I’ll do
what you want me to do--for I feel there’s something else you want me
to do.”

“I’m in a scrape and I’ve been in it all summer. You see”--Emily was
very sober--“I am a poetess.”

“Holy Mike! That _is_ serious. I don’t know if I can do much for you.
How long have you been that way?”

“Are you making fun of me?” asked Emily gravely.

Father Cassidy swallowed something besides plum cake.

“The saints forbid! It’s only that I’m rather overcome. To be after
entertaining a lady av New Moon--and an elf--and a poetess all in one
is a bit too much for a humble praste like meself. Have another slice
av cake and tell me all about it.”

“It’s like this--I’m writing an epic.”

Father Cassidy suddenly leaned over and gave Emily’s wrist a little
pinch.

“I just wanted to see if you were real,” he explained. “Yes--yes,
you’re writing an epic--go on. I think I’ve got my second wind now.”

“I began it last spring. I called it _The White Lady_ first but now
I’ve changed it to _The Child of the Sea_. Don’t you think that’s a
better title?”

“Much better.”

“I’ve got three cantos done, and I can’t get any further because
there’s something I don’t know and can’t find out. I’ve been so worried
about it.”

“What is it?”

“My epic,” said Emily, diligently devouring plum cake, “is about a very
beautiful high-born girl who was stolen away from her real parents when
she was a baby and brought up in a woodcutter’s hut.”

“One av of the seven original plots in the world,” murmured Father
Cassidy.

“What?”

“Nothing. Just a bad habit av thinking aloud. Go on.”

“She had a lover of high degree but his family did not want him to
marry her because she was only a woodcutter’s daughter--”

“Another of the seven plots--excuse me.”

“--so they sent him away to the Holy land on a crusade and word came
back that he was killed and then Editha--her name was Editha--went into
a convent--”

Emily paused for a bite of plum cake and Father Cassidy took up the
strain.

“And now her lover comes back very much alive, though covered with
Paynim scars, and the secret av her birth is discovered through the
dying confession av the old nurse and the birthmark on her arm.”

“How did you know?” gasped Emily in amazement.

“Oh, I guessed it--I’m a good guesser. But where’s your bother in all
this?”

“I don’t know how to get her out of the convent,” confessed Emily. “I
thought perhaps you would know how it could be done.”

Again Father Cassidy fitted his fingers.

“Let us see, now. It’s no light matter you’ve undertaken, young lady.
How stands the case? _Editha_ has taken the veil, not because she has
a religious vocation but because she imagines her heart is broken. The
Catholic Church does not release its nuns from their vows because they
happen to think they’ve made a little mistake av that sort. No, no,--we
must have a better reason. Is this Editha the sole child av her real
parents?”

“Yes.”

“Oh, then the way is clear. If she had had any brothers or sisters you
would have had to kill them off, which is a messy thing to do. Well,
then, she is the sole daughter and heiress av a noble family who have
for years been at deadly feud with another noble family--the family av
the lover. Do you know what a feud is?”

“Of course,” said Emily disdainfully. “And I’ve got all that in the
poem already.”

“So much the better. This feud has rent the kingdom in twain and can
only be healed by an alliance between Capulet and Montague.”

“Those aren’t their names.”

“No matter. This, then, is a national affair, with far-reaching issues,
therefore an appeal to the Supreme Pontiff is quite in order. What you
want,” Father Cassidy nodded solemnly, “is a dispensation from Rome.”

“Dispensation is a hard word to work into a poem,” said Emily.

“Undoubtedly. But young ladies who _will_ write epic poems and who
_will_ lay the scenes thereof amid times and manners av hundreds av
years ago, and _will_ choose heroines av a religion quite unknown to
them, _must_ expect to run up against a few snags.”

“Oh, I think I’ll be able to work it in,” said Emily cheerfully. “And
I’m so much obliged to you. You don’t know what a relief it is to my
mind. I’ll finish the poem right up now in a few weeks. I haven’t done
a thing at it all summer. But then of course I’ve been busy. Ilse
Burnley and I have been making a new language.”

“Making a--new--excuse me. _Did_ you say _language_?”

“Yes.”

“What’s the matter with English? Isn’t it good enough for you, you
incomprehensible little being?”

“Oh, yes. _That_ isn’t why we’re making a new one. You see in the
spring, Cousin Jimmy got a lot of French boys to help plant the
potatoes. I had to help too, and Ilse came to keep me company. And it
was so annoying to hear those boys talking French when we couldn’t
understand a word of it. They did it just to make us mad. Such
jabbering! So Ilse and I just made up our minds we’d invent a new
language that _they_ couldn’t understand. We’re getting on fine and
when the potato picking time comes we’ll be able to talk to each other
and those boys won’t be able to understand a word we’re saying. Oh, it
will be great fun!”

“I haven’t a doubt. But two girls who will go to all the trouble av
inventing a new language just to get square with some poor little
French boys--you’re beyond me,” said Father Cassidy, helplessly.
“Goodness knows what you’ll be doing when you grow up. You’ll be Red
Revolutionists. I tremble for Canada.”

“Oh, it isn’t a trouble--it’s fun. And all the girls in school are just
wild because they hear us talking in it and can’t make it out. We can
talk secrets right before them.”

“Human nature being what it is, I can see where the fun comes in all
right. Let’s hear a sample av your language.”

“Nat millan O ste dolman bote ta Shrewsbury fernas ta poo litanos,”
said Emily glibly. “That means, ‘Next summer I am going to Shrewsbury
woods to pick strawberries.’ I yelled that across the playground to
Ilse the other day at recess and oh, how everybody stared.”

“Staring, is it? I should say so. My own poor old eyes are all but
dropping out av me head. Let’s hear a bit more av it.”

“Mo tral li dead seb ad li mo trene. Mo bertral seb mo bertrene das
sten dead e ting setra. _That_ means ‘My father is dead and so is my
mother. My grandfather and grandmother have been dead a long time.’ We
haven’t invented a word for ‘dead’ yet. I think I will soon be able to
write my poems in our language and then Aunt Elizabeth will not be able
to read them if she finds them.”

“Have you written any other poetry besides your epic?”

“Oh, yes--but just short pieces--dozens of them.”

“H’m. Would you be so kind as to let me hear one av them?”

Emily was greatly flattered. And she did not mind letting Father
Cassidy hear her precious stuff.

“I’ll recite my last poem,” she said, clearing her throat importantly.
“It’s called _Evening Dreams_.”

Father Cassidy listened attentively. After the first verse a change
came over his big brown face, and he began patting his fingertips
together. When Emily finished she hung down her lashes and waited
tremblingly. What if Father Cassidy said it was no good? No, he
wouldn’t be so impolite--but if he bantered her as he had done about
her epic--she would know what _that_ meant.

Father Cassidy did not speak all at once. The prolonged suspense was
terrible to Emily. She was afraid he could not praise and did not want
to hurt her feelings by dispraise. All at once her “Evening Dreams”
seemed trash and she wondered how she could ever have been silly enough
to repeat it to Father Cassidy.

Of course, it _was_ trash. Father Cassidy knew that well enough.
All the same, for a child like this--and rhyme and rhythm were
flawless--and there was one line--just one line--“the light of faintly
golden stars”--for the sake of that line Father Cassidy suddenly said,

“Keep on,--keep on writing poetry.”

“You mean?”--Emily was breathless.

“I mean you’ll be able to do something by and by. Something--I don’t
know how much--but keep on--keep on.”

Emily was so happy she wanted to cry. It was the first word of
commendation she had ever received except from her father--and a father
might have too high an opinion of one. _This_ was different. To the end
of her struggle for recognition Emily never forgot Father Cassidy’s
“Keep on” and the tone in which he said it.

“Aunt Elizabeth scolds me for writing poetry,” she said wistfully. “She
says people will think I’m as simple as Cousin Jimmy.”

“The path of genius never did run smooth. But have another piece av
cake--do, just to show there’s something human about you.”

“Ve, merry ti. O del re dolman cosey aman ri sen ritter. _That_ means,
‘No, thank you. I must be going home before it gets dark.’”

“I’ll drive you home.”

“Oh, no, no. It’s very kind of you”--the English language was quite
good enough for Emily now. “But I’d rather _walk_. It’s--it’s--such
good exercise.”

“Meaning,” said Father Cassidy with a twinkle in his eye, “that we
must keep it from the old lady. Good-bye, and may you always see a
happy face in your looking-glass!”

Emily was too happy to be tired on the way home. There seemed to be a
bubble of joy in her heart--a shimmering, prismatic bubble. When she
came to the top of the big hill and looked across to New Moon, her eyes
were satisfied and loving. How beautiful it was, lying embowered in the
twilight of the old trees; the tips of the loftiest spruces came out in
purple silhouette against the northwestern sky of rose and amber; down
behind it the Blair Water dreamed in silver; the Wind Woman had folded
her misty bat-wings in a valley of sunset and stillness lay over the
world like a blessing. Emily felt sure everything would be all right.
Father Cassidy would manage it in some way.

And he had told her to “keep on.”




CHAPTER XIX

FRIENDS AGAIN


Emily listened very anxiously on Monday morning, but “no sound of axe,
no ponderous hammer rang” in Lofty John’s bush. That evening on her way
home from school, Lofty John himself overtook her in his buggy and for
the first time since the night of the apple stopped and accosted her.

“Will ye take a lift, Miss Emily av New Moon?” he said affably.

Emily climbed in, feeling a little bit foolish. But Lofty John looked
quite friendly as he clucked to his horse.

“So you’ve clean wiled the heart out av Father Cassidy’s body,” he
said. “‘The sweetest scrap av a girl I’ve iver seen,’ says he to me.
Sure an’ ye might lave the poor prastes alone.”

Emily looked at Lofty John out of the corner of her eye. He did not
seem angry.

“Ye’ve put _me_ in a nice tight fix av it,” he went on. “I’m as proud
as any New Moon Murray av ye all and your Aunt Elizabeth said a number
av things that got under my skin. I’ve many an old score to settle with
her. So I thought I’d get square by cutting av the bush down. And you
had to go and quare me wid me praste bekase av it and now I make no
doubt I’ll not be after daring to cut a stick av kindling to warm me
shivering carcase without asking lave av the Pope.”

“Oh, Mr. Sullivan, are you going to leave the bush alone?” said Emily
breathlessly.

“It all rests with yourself, Miss Emily av New Moon. Ye can’t be after
expecting a Lofty John to be too humble. I didn’t come by the name
bekase av me makeness.”

“What do you want me to do?”

“First, then, I’m wanting you to let bygones be bygones in that matter
av the apple. And be token av the same come over and talk to me now
and then as ye did last summer. Sure now, and I’ve missed ye--ye and
that spit-fire av an Ilse who’s never come aither bekase she thinks I
mistrated you.”

“I’ll come of course,” said Emily doubtfully, “if only Aunt Elizabeth
will let me.”

“Tell her if she don’t the bush’ll be cut down--ivery last stick av it.
That’ll fetch her. And there’s wan more thing. Ye must ask me rale make
and polite to do ye the favour av not cutting down the bush. If ye do
it pretty enough sure niver a tree will I touch. But if ye don’t down
they go, praste or no praste,” concluded Lofty John.

Emily summoned all her wiles to her aid. She clasped her hands, she
looked up through her lashes at Lofty John, she smiled as slowly
and seductively as she knew how--and Emily had considerable native
knowledge of that sort. “Please, Mr. Lofty John,” she coaxed, “won’t
you leave me the dear bush I love?”

Lofty John swept off his crumpled old felt hat. “To be sure an’ I will.
A proper Irishman always does what a lady asks him. Sure an’ it’s been
the ruin av us. We’re at the mercy av the petticoats. If ye’d come
and said that to me afore ye’d have had no need av your walk to White
Cross. But mind ye keep the rest av the bargin. The reds are ripe and
the scabs soon will be--and all the rats have gone to glory.”

Emily flew into the New Moon kitchen like a slim whirlwind.

“Aunt Elizabeth, Lofty John isn’t going to cut down the bush--he told
me he wouldn’t--but I have to go and see him sometimes--if you don’t
object.”

“I suppose it wouldn’t make much difference to you if I did,” said
Aunt Elizabeth. But her voice was not so sharp as usual. She would not
confess how much Emily’s announcement relieved her; but it mellowed her
attitude considerably. “There’s a letter here for you. I want to know
what it means.”

Emily took the letter. It was the first time she had ever received a
real letter through the mail and she tingled with the delight of it.
It was addressed in a heavy black hand to “Miss Emily Starr, New Moon,
Blair Water.” But--

“You opened it!” she cried indignantly.

“Of course I did. You are not going to receive letters I am not to see,
Miss. What I want to know is--how comes Father Cassidy to be writing to
you--and writing such nonsense?”

“I went to see him Saturday,” confessed Emily, realizing that the cat
was out of the bag. “And I asked him if he couldn’t prevent Lofty John
from cutting down the bush.”

“Emily--Byrd--Starr!”

“I _told_ him I was a Protestant,” cried Emily. “He understands all
about it. And he was just like anybody else. I like him _better_ than
Mr. Dare.”

Aunt Elizabeth did not say much more. There did not seem to be much she
_could_ say. Besides the bush wasn’t going to be cut down. The bringer
of good news is forgiven much. She contented herself with glaring at
Emily--who was too happy and excited to mind glares. She carried her
letter off to the garret dormer and gloated over the stamp and the
superscription a bit before she took out the enclosure.

“Dear Pearl of Emilys,” wrote Father Cassidy. “I’ve seen our lofty
friend and I feel sure your green outpost of fairyland will be saved
for your moonlit revels. I know you _do_ dance there by light o’ moon
when mortals are snoring. I think you’ll have to go through the form
of asking Mr. Sullivan to spare those trees, but you’ll find him quite
reasonable. It’s all in the knowing how and the time of the moon.
How goes the epic and the language? I hope you’ll have no trouble in
freeing the _Child of The Sea_ from her vows. Continue to be the friend
of all good elves, and of

                          “Your admiring friend,
                                   “_James Cassidy_.

“P. S. The B’y sends respects. What word have you for ‘cat’ in your
language? Sure and you can’t get anything cattier than ‘cat’ can you,
now?”

       *       *       *       *       *

Lofty John spread the story of Emily’s appeal to Father Cassidy far
and wide, enjoying it as a good joke on himself. Rhoda Stuart said she
always knew Emily Starr was a bold thing and Miss Brownell said she
would be surprised at _nothing_ Emily Starr would do, and Dr. Burnley
called her a Little Devil more admiringly than ever, and Perry said she
had pluck and Teddy took credit for suggesting it, and Aunt Elizabeth
endured, and Aunt Laura thought it might have been worse. But Cousin
Jimmy made Emily feel very happy.

“It would have spoiled the garden and broken my heart, Emily,” he told
her. “You’re a little darling girl to have prevented it.”

One day a month later, when Aunt Elizabeth had taken Emily to
Shrewsbury to fit her out with a winter coat, they met Father Cassidy
in a store. Aunt Elizabeth bowed with great stateliness, but Emily put
out a slender paw.

“What about the dispensation from Rome?” whispered Father Cassidy.

One Emily was quite horrified lest Aunt Elizabeth should overhear
and think she was having sly dealings with the Pope, such as no
good Presbyterian half-Murray of New Moon should have. The other
Emily thrilled to her toes with the dramatic delight of a secret
understanding of mystery and intrigue. She nodded gravely, her eyes
eloquent with satisfaction.

“I got it without any trouble,” she whispered back.

“Fine,” said Father Cassidy. “I wish you good luck, and I wish it hard.
Good-bye.”

“Farewell,” said Emily, thinking it a word more in keeping with dark
secrets than good-bye. She tasted the flavour of that half-stolen
interview all the way home, and felt quite as if she were living in an
epic herself. She did not see Father Cassidy again for years--he was
soon afterwards removed to another parish; but she always thought of
him as a very agreeable and understanding person.




CHAPTER XX

BY AERIAL POST


“DEAREST FATHER:

“My heart is very sore to night. Mike died this morning. Cousin Jimmy
says he must have been poisoned. Oh, Father dear, I felt so bad. He
was such a lovely cat. I cried and cried and cried. Aunt Elizabeth was
disgusted. She said, “You did not make half so much fuss when your
father died.” What a crewel speech. Aunt Laura was nicer but when she
said, “Don’t cry dear. I will get you another kitten,” I saw she didn’t
understand either. I don’t want another kitten. If I had _millions_ of
kittens they wouldn’t make up for Mike.

“Ilse and I buried him in Lofty John’s bush. I am so thankful the
ground wasn’t frozen yet. Aunt Laura gave me a shoe box for a coffin,
and some pink tissue paper to wrap his poor little body in. And we put
a stone over the grave and I said “Blessed are the dead who die in the
Lord.” When I told Aunt Laura about it she was horrified and said, “Oh,
Emily, that was a dreadful thing. You should not have said that over a
cat.” And Cousin Jimmy said, “Don’t you think, Laura, that an innocent
little dum creature has a share in God? Emily loved him and all love is
part of God.” And Aunt Laura said, “Maybe you are right, Jimmy. But I
am thankful Elizabeth did not hear her.”

“Cousin Jimmy may not be all there, but what is there is very nice.

“But oh, Father, I am so lonesome for Mike tonight. Last night he was
here playing with me, so cunning and pretty and _smee_, and now he is
cold and dead in Lofty John’s bush.

                                       “DECEMBER 18.

“DEAR FATHER:

“I am here in the garret. The Wind Woman is very sorry about something
tonight. She is sying so sadly around the window. And yet the first
time I heard her tonight the flash came--I felt as if I had just seen
something that happened long, long ago--something so lovely that it
hurt me.

“Cousin Jimmy says there will be a snow storm tonight. I am glad. I
like to hear a storm at night. It’s so cozy to snuggle down among
the blankets and feel it can’t get at you. Only when I snuggle Aunt
Elizabeth says I skwirm. The idea of any one not knowing the difference
between snuggling and skwirming.

“I am glad we will have snow for Christmas. The Murray dinner is to
be at New Moon this year. It is our turn. Last year it was at Uncle
Oliver’s but Cousin Jimmy had grippe and couldn’t go so I stayed home
with him. I will be right in the thick of it this year and it exites
me. I will write you all about it after it is over, dearest.

“I want to tell you something, Father. I am ashamed of it, but I think
I’ll feel better if I tell you all about it. Last Saturday Ella Lee had
a birthday party and I was invited. Aunt Elizabeth let me put on my new
blue cashmere dress. It is a very pretty dress. Aunt Elizabeth wanted
to get a dark brown but Aunt Laura insisted on blue. I looked at myself
in my glass and I remembered that Ilse had told me her father told her
I would be handsome if I had more colour. So I pinched my cheeks to
make them red. I looked ever so much nicer but it didn’t last. Then
I took an old red velvet flower that had once been in Aunt Laura’s
bonnet and wet it and then rubbed the red on my cheeks. I went to the
party and the girls all _looked_ at me but nobody said anything, only
Rhoda Stuart giggled and giggled. I meant to come home and wash the
red off before Aunt Elizabeth saw me. But she took a notion to call
for me on her way home from the store. She did not say anything there
but when we got home she said, “What have you been doing to your face,
Emily?” I told her and I expected an awful scolding, but all she said
was, “Don’t you know that you have made yourself _cheap_?” I did know
it, too. I had felt that all along although I couldn’t think of the
right word for it before. “I will never do such a thing again, Aunt
Elizabeth,” I said. “You’d better not,” she said. “Go and wash your
face this instant.” I did and I was not half so pretty but I felt ever
so much better. Strange to relate, dear Father, I heard Aunt Elizabeth
laughing about it in the pantry to Aunt Laura afterwards. You never can
tell what will make Aunt Elizabeth laugh. I am sure it was ever so much
funnier when Saucy Sal followed me to prayer meeting last Wednesday
night, but Aunt Elizabeth never laughed a bit then. I don’t often go to
prayer meeting but Aunt Laura couldn’t go that night so Aunt Elizabeth
took me because she doesn’t like to go alone. I didn’t know Sal was
following us till just as we got to the church I saw her. I shooed her
away but after we went in I suppose Sal sneaked in when someone opened
the door and got upstairs into the galery. And just as soon as Mr.
Dare began to pray Sal began to yowl. It sounded awful up in that big
empty galery. I felt so gilty and miserable. I did not need to paint
my face. It was just burning red and Aunt Elizabeth’s eyes glittered
feendishly. Mr. Dare prayed a long time. He is deaf, so he did not hear
Sal any more than when he sat on her. But everyone else did and the
boys giggled. After the prayer Mr. Morris went up to the galery and
chased Sal out. We could hear her skrambling over the seats and Mr.
Morris after her. I was wild for fear he’d hurt her. I ment to spank
her myself with a shingle next day but I did not want her to be kicked.
After a long time he got her out of the galery and she tore down the
stairs and into the church, up one isle and down the other two or
three times as fast as she could go and Mr. Morris after her with a
broom. It is awfully funny to think of it now but I did not think it so
funny at the time I was so ashamed and so afraid Sal would be hurt.

“Mr. Morris chased her out at last. When he sat down I made a face
at him behind my hymn book. Coming home Aunt Elizabeth said, “I hope
you have disgraced us enough tonight, Emily Starr. I shall never take
you to prayer meeting again.” I am sorry I disgraced the Murrays but
I don’t see how I was to blame and anyway I don’t like prayer meeting
because it is dull.

“But it wasn’t dull that night, dear Father.

“Do you notice how my spelling is improved? I have thought of such a
good plan. I write my letter first and then I look up all the words I’m
not sure of and correct them. Sometimes though I think a word is all
right when it isn’t.

“Ilse and I have given up our language. We fought over the verbs. Ilse
didn’t want to have any tenses for the verbs. She just wanted to have
a different word altogether for every tense. I said if I was going to
make a language it was going to be a proper one and Ilse got mad and
said she had enough bother with grammer in English and I could go and
make my old language by myself. But that is no fun so I let it go too.
I was sorry because it was very interesting and it was such fun to
puzzle the other girls in school. We weren’t able to get square with
the French boys after all for Ilse had sore throat all through potato
picking time and couldn’t come over. It seems to me that life is full
of disappointments.

“We had examinations in school this week. I did pretty well in all
except arithmetic. Miss Brownell explained something about the
questions but I was busy composing a story in my mind and did not
hear her so I got poor marks. The story is called _Madge MacPherson’s
Secret_. I am going to buy four sheets of foolscap with my egg money
and sew them into a book and write the story in it. I can do what I
like with my egg money. I think maybe I’ll write novels when I grow up
as well as poetry. But Aunt Elizabeth won’t let me read any novels so
how can I find out how to write them? Another thing that worries me, if
I do grow up and write a wonderful poem, perhaps people won’t see how
wonderful it is.

“Cousin Jimmy says that a man in Priest Pond says the end of the world
is coming soon. I hope it won’t come till I’ve seen everything in it.

“Poor Elder MacKay has the mumps.

“I was over sleeping with Ilse the other night because her father was
away. Ilse says her prayers now and she said she’d bet me anything she
could pray longer than me. I said she couldn’t and I prayed ever so
long about everything I could think of and when I couldn’t think of
anything more I thought at first I’d begin over again. Then I thought,
“No, that would not be honerable. A Starr must be honerable.” So I got
up and said “You win” and Ilse never answered. I went around the bed
and there she was asleep on her knees. When I woke her up she said we’d
have to call the bet off because she could have gone on praying for
ever so long if she hadn’t fell asleep.

“After we got into bed I told her a lot of things I wished afterwards I
hadn’t. Secrets.

“The other day in history class Miss Brownell read that Sir Walter
Raleigh had to lie in the Tower for fourteen years. Perry said
“Wouldn’t they let him get up sometimes?” Then Miss Brownell punished
him for impertinence, but Perry was in earnest. Ilse was mad at Miss
Brownell for whipping Perry and mad at Perry for asking such a fool
question as if he didn’t know anything. But Perry says he is going to
write a history book some day that won’t have such puzzling things in
it.

“I am finishing the Disappointed House in my mind. I’m furnishing
the rooms like flowers. I’ll have a rose room all pink and a lily
room all white and silver and a pansy room, blue and gold. I wish
the Disappointed House could have a Christmas. It never has any
Christmasses.

“Oh, Father, I’ve just thought of something nice. When I grow up and
write a great novel and make lots of money, I will buy the Disappointed
House and finish it. Then it won’t be Disappointed any more.

“Ilse’s Sunday School teacher, Miss Willeson, gave her a Bible for
learning 200 verses. But when she took it home her father laid it on
the floor and kicked it out in the yard. Mrs. Simms says a judgment
will come on him but nothing has happened yet. The poor man is warped.
That is why he did such a wicked thing.

“Aunt Laura took me to old Mrs. Mason’s funeral last Wednesday. I like
funerals. They are so dramatic.

“My pig died last week. It was a _great finanshul loss_ to me. Aunt
Elizabeth says Cousin Jimmy fed it too well. I suppose I should not
have called it after Lofty John.

“We have maps to draw in school now. Rhoda Stuart always gets the most
marks. Miss Brownell doesn’t know that Rhoda just puts the map up
against a window pane and the paper over it and copies it off. I like
drawing maps. Norway and Sweden look like a tiger with mountains for
stripes and Ireland looks like a little dog with its back turned on
England, and its paws held up against its breast, and Africa looks like
a big pork ham. Australia is a lovely map to draw.

“Ilse is getting on real well in school now. She says she isn’t going
to have me beating her. She can learn like the dickins, as Perry says,
when she tries, and she has won the silver metal for Queen’s County.
The W.C.T.U. in Charlottetown gave it for the best reciter. They had
the contest in Shrewsbury and Aunt Laura took Ilse because Dr. Burnley
wouldn’t and Ilse won it. Aunt Laura told Dr. Burnley when he was here
one day that he ought to give Ilse a good education. He said “I’m not
going to waste money educating any she-thing.” And he looked black as
a thunder cloud. Oh, I wish Dr. Burnley would love Ilse. I’m so glad
_you_ loved _me_, Father.

                                           “DEC. 22.

“Dear Father: We had our school examination today. It was a great
occasion. Almost everybody was there except Dr. Burnley and Aunt
Elizabeth. All the girls wore their best dresses but me. I knew Ilse
had nothing to wear but her shabby old last winter’s plaid that is
too short for her, so to keep her from feeling bad, I put on my old
brown dress, too. Aunt Elizabeth did not want to let me do it at first
because New Moon Murrays should be well dressed but when I explained
about Ilse she looked at Aunt Laura and then said I might.

“Rhoda Stuart made fun of Ilse and me but I heaped coals of fire on
her head. (That is what is called a figure of speech.) She got stuck
in her recitation. She had left the book home and nobody else knew the
piece but me. At first I looked at her triumphantly. But then a queer
feeling came into me and I thought “What would I feel like if I was
stuck before a big crowd of people like this? And besides the honour of
the school is at stake,” so I whispered it to her because I was quite
close. She got through the rest all right. The strange thing is, dear
Father, that now I don’t feel any more as if I hated her. I feel quite
kindly to her and it is much nicer. It is uncomfortable to hate people.

                                           “DEC. 28.

“DEAR FATHER:

“Christmas is over. It was pretty nice. I never saw so many good things
cooked all at once. Uncle Wallace and Aunt Eva and Uncle Oliver and
Aunt Addie and Aunt Ruth were here. Uncle Oliver didn’t bring any of
his children and I was much disappointed. We had Dr. Burnley and Ilse
too. Everyone was dressed up. Aunt Elizabeth wore her black satin dress
with a pointed lace collar and cap. She looked quite handsome and I was
proud of her. You like your relations to look well even if you don’t
like _them_. Aunt Laura wore her brown silk and Aunt Ruth had on a
grey dress. Aunt Eva was _very_ elegant. Her dress had a train. But it
smelled of moth balls.

“I had on my blue cashmere and wore my hair tied with blue ribbons, and
Aunt Laura let me wear mother’s blue silk sash with the pink daisies
on it that she had when she was a little girl at New Moon. Aunt Ruth
sniffed when she saw me. She said, “You have grown a good deal, Em’ly.
I hope you are a better girl.”

“But she _didn’t_ hope it (really). I saw that quite plain. Then she
told me my bootlace was untyed.

“She looks better,” said Uncle Oliver. “I wouldn’t wonder if she grew
up into a strong, healthy girl after all.”

“Aunt Eva sighed and shook her head. Uncle Wallace didn’t say anything
but shook hands with me. His hand was as cold as a fish. When we went
out to the sitting room for dinner I stepped on Aunt Eva’s train and
I could hear some stitches rip somewhere. Aunt Eva pushed me away and
Aunt Ruth said, “What a very awkward child you are, Emily.” I stepped
behind Aunt Ruth and stuck out my tongue at her. Uncle Oliver makes a
noise eating his soup. We had all the good silver spoons out. Cousin
Jimmy carved the turkeys and he gave me two slices of the breast
because he knows I like the white meat best. Aunt Ruth said “When I was
a little girl the wing was good enough for me,” and Cousin Jimmy put
_another_ white slice on my plate. Aunt Ruth didn’t say anything more
then till the carving was done, and then she said, “I saw your school
teacher in Shrewsbury last Saturday, Em’ly, and she did not give me a
very good account of you. If you were _my_ daughter I would expect a
different report.”

“I am very glad I am not your daughter,” I said in my mind. I didn’t
say it out loud of course but Aunt Ruth said, “Please do not look so
sulky when I speak to you, Em’ly.” And Uncle Wallace said, “It is a
pity she has such an unattractive expression.”

“_You_ are conceited and domineering and stingy,” I said, still in my
mind. “I heard Dr. Burnley say you were.”

“I see there is an ink-stain on her finger,” said Aunt Ruth. (I had
been writing a poem before dinner.)

“And then a most surprising thing happened. Relations are always
surprising you. Aunt Elizabeth spoke up and said, “_I do wish, Ruth,
that you and Wallace would leave that child alone._” I could hardly
believe my ears. Aunt Ruth looked annoyed but she _did_ leave me alone
after that and only sniffed when Cousin Jimmy slipped a bit more white
meat on my plate.

“After that the dinner was nice. And when they got as far as the
pudding they all began to talk and it was splendid to listen to. They
told stories and jokes about the Murrays. Even Uncle Wallace laughed
and Aunt Ruth told some things about Great-Aunt Nancy. They were
sarcastic but they were interesting. Aunt Elizabeth opened Grandfather
Murray’s desk and took out an old poem that had been written to Aunt
Nancy _by a lover_ when she was young and Uncle Oliver read it.
Great-Aunt Nancy must have been very beautiful. I wonder if anyone will
ever write a poem to me. If I could have a bang somebody might. I said,
“Was Great Aunt Nancy really as pretty as that?” and Uncle Oliver said,
“They say she was 70 years ago” and Uncle Wallace said, “She hangs on
well--she’ll see the century mark yet,” and Uncle Oliver said, “Oh,
she’s got so in the habit of living she’ll never die.”

“Dr. Burnley told a story I didn’t understand. Uncle Wallace hawhawed
right out and Uncle Oliver put his napkin up to his face. Aunt Addie
and Aunt Eva looked at each other sidewise and then at their plates
and smiled a little bit. Aunt Ruth seemed offended and Aunt Elizabeth
looked _coldly_ at Dr. Burnley and said, “I think you forget that
there are children present.” Dr. Burnley said, “I beg your pardon,
Elizabeth,” _very_ politely. He can speak with a _grand air_ when he
likes. He is very handsome when he is dressed up and shaved. Ilse says
she is proud of him even if he hates her.

“After dinner was over the presents were given. That is a Murray
tradishun. We never have stockings or trees but a big bran pie is
passed all around with the presents buried in it and ribbons hanging
out with names on them. It was fun. My relations all gave me useful
presents except Aunt Laura. She gave me a bottle of perfume. I love
it. I love nice smells. Aunt Elizabeth does not approve of perfumes.
She gave me a new apron but I am thankful to say not a baby one. Aunt
Ruth gave me a New Testament and said “Em’ly, I hope you will read a
portion of that every day until you have read it through,” and I said,
“Why, Aunt Ruth, I’ve read the whole New Testament a dozen times (and
so I have) I _love_ Revelations.” (And I _do_. When I read the verse
“and the twelve gates were twelve pearls” I just _saw_ them and the
flash came.) “The Bible is not to be read as a story book,” Aunt Ruth
said coldly. Uncle Wallace and Aunt Eva gave me a pair of black mits
and Uncle Oliver and Aunt Addie gave me a whole dollar in nice new
silver dimes and Cousin Jimmy gave me a hair ribbon. Perry had left a
silk bookmark for me. He had to go home to spend Christmas day with his
Aunt Tom at Stovepipe Town but I saved a lot of nuts and raisins for
him. I gave him and Teddy handkerchiefs (Teddy’s was a _little_ the
nicest) and I gave Ilse a hair ribbon. I bought them myself out of my
egg money. (I will not have any more egg money for a long time because
my hen has stopped laying.) Everybody was happy and once Uncle Wallace
smiled right at me. I did not think him so ugly when he smiled.

“After dinner Ilse and I played games in the kitchen and Cousin Jimmy
helped us make taffy. We had a big supper but nobody could eat much
because they had had such a dinner. Aunt Eva’s head ached and Aunt Ruth
said she didn’t see why Elizabeth made the sausages so rich. But the
rest were good humored and Aunt Laura kept things pleasant. She is good
at making things pleasant. And after it was all over Uncle Wallace said
(this is another Murray tradishun) “Let us think for a few moments of
those who have gone before.” I liked the way he said it--very solemnly
and kind. It was one of the times when I am glad the blood of the
Murrays flows in my vains. And I thought of _you_, darling Father, and
Mother and poor little Mike and Great-great-Grandmother Murray, and of
my old account book that Aunt Elizabeth burned, because it seemed just
like a person to me. And then we all joined hands and sung “For Auld
Lang Syne” before they went home. I didn’t feel like a stranger among
the Murrays any more. Aunt Laura and I stood out on the porch to watch
them go. Aunt Laura put her arm around me and said, “Your mother and I
used to stand like this long ago, Emily, to watch the Christmas guests
go away.” The snow creaked and the bells rang back through the trees
and the frost on the pighouse roof sparkled in the moonlight. And it
was all so lovely (the bells and the frost and the big shining white
night) that _the flash_ came and that was best of all.”




CHAPTER XXI

“ROMANTIC BUT NOT COMFORTABLE”


A certain thing happened at New Moon because Teddy Kent paid Ilse
Burnley a compliment one day and Emily Starr didn’t altogether like it.
Empires have been overturned for the same reason.

Teddy was skating on Blair Water and taking Ilse and Emily out in
turns for “slides.” Neither Ilse nor Emily had skates. Nobody was
sufficiently interested in Ilse to buy skates for her, and as for
Emily, Aunt Elizabeth did not approve of girls skating. New Moon girls
had never skated. Aunt Laura had a revolutionary idea that skating
would be good exercise for Emily and would, moreover, prevent her
from wearing out the soles of her boots sliding. But neither of these
arguments was sufficient to convince Aunt Elizabeth, in spite of the
thrifty streak that came to her from the Burnleys. The latter, however,
caused her to issue an edict that Emily was not to “slide.” Emily took
this very hardly. She moped about in a woe-begone fashion and she wrote
to her father, “I _hate_ Aunt Elizabeth. She is so unjust. She never
plays fair.” But one day Dr. Burnley stuck his head in at the door of
the New Moon kitchen and said gruffly, “What’s this I hear about you
not letting Emily slide, Elizabeth?”

“She wears out the soles of her boots,” said Elizabeth.

“Boots be--” the doctor remembered that ladies were present just in
time. “Let the creature slide all she wants to. She ought to be in
the open air all the time. She ought”--the doctor stared at Elizabeth
ferociously--“she ought to sleep out of doors.”

Elizabeth trembled lest the doctor should go on to insist on this
unheard-of proceeding. She knew he had absurd ideas about the proper
treatment of consumptives and those who might become such. She was glad
to appease him by letting Emily stay out-of-doors in daytime and do
what seemed good to her, if only he would say no more about staying out
all night too.

“He is much more concerned about Emily than he is about his own child,”
she said bitterly to Laura.

“Ilse is too healthy,” said Aunt Laura with a smile. “If she were a
delicate child Allan might forgive her for--for being her mother’s
daughter.”

“S--s--h,” said Aunt Elizabeth. But she “s--s--s--h’d” too late. Emily,
coming into the kitchen, had heard Aunt Laura and puzzled over what she
had said all day in school. Why had Ilse to be forgiven for being her
mother’s daughter? Everybody was her mother’s daughter, wasn’t she?
Wherein did the crime consist? Emily worried over it so much that she
was inattentive to her lessons and Miss Brownell raked her fore and aft
with sarcasm.

It is time we got back to Blair Water where Teddy was just bringing
Emily in from a glorious spin clear round the great circle of ice.
Ilse was waiting for her turn, on the bank. Her golden cloud of hair
aureoled her face and fell in a shimmering wave over her forehead
under the faded, little red tam she wore. Ilse’s clothes were always
faded. The stinging kiss of the wind had crimsoned her cheeks and her
eyes were glowing like amber pools with fire in their hearts. Teddy’s
artistic perception saw her beauty and rejoiced in it.

“Isn’t Ilse handsome?” he said.

Emily was not jealous. It never hurt her to hear Ilse praised. But
somehow she did not like this. Teddy was looking at Ilse altogether
_too_ admiringly. It was all, Emily believed, due to that shimmering
fringe on Ilse’s white brows.

“If _I_ had a bang Teddy might think me handsome too,” she thought
resentfully. “Of course, black hair isn’t as pretty as gold. But my
forehead is too high--everybody says so. And I _did_ look nice in
Teddy’s picture because he drew some curls over it.”

The matter rankled. Emily thought of it as she went home over the sheen
of the crusted snow-field slanting to the light of the winter sunset,
and she could not eat her supper because she did not have a bang. All
her long hidden yearning for a bang seemed to come to a head at once.
She knew there was no use in coaxing Aunt Elizabeth for one. But when
she was getting ready for bed that night she stood on a chair so that
she could see little Emily-in-the-glass, then lifted the curling ends
of her long braid and laid them over her forehead. The effect, in
Emily’s eyes at least, was very alluring. She suddenly thought--what if
she cut a bang herself? It would take only a minute. And once done what
could Aunt Elizabeth do? She would be very angry and doubtless inflict
some kind of punishment. But the bang would be there--at least until it
grew out long.

Emily, her lips set, went for the scissors. She unbraided her hair and
parted the front tresses. Snip--snip--went the scissors. Glistening
locks fell at her feet. In a minute Emily had her long-desired bang.
Straight across her brows fell the lustrous, softly curving fringe. It
changed the whole character of her face. It made it arch, provocative,
elusive. For one brief moment Emily gazed at her reflection in triumph.

And then--sheer terror seized her. Oh, what had she done? How angry
Aunt Elizabeth would be! Conscience suddenly awoke and added its pang
also. She had been wicked. It was wicked to cut a bang when Aunt
Elizabeth had forbidden it. Aunt Elizabeth had given her a home at New
Moon--hadn’t Rhoda Stuart that very day in school twitted her again
with “living on charity”? And she was repaying her by disobedience and
ingratitude. A Starr should not have done that. In a panic of fear
and remorse Emily snatched the scissors and cut the bang off--cut it
close against the hair line. Worse and worse! Emily beheld the result
in dismay. Any one could see that a bang _had_ been cut, so Aunt
Elizabeth’s anger was still to face. And she had made a terrible fright
of herself. Emily burst into tears, snatched up the fallen locks and
crammed them into the waste-basket, blew out her candle and sprang into
bed, just as Aunt Elizabeth came in.

Emily burrowed face downward in the pillows, and pretended to be
asleep. She was afraid Aunt Elizabeth would ask her some question and
insist on her looking up while she answered it. That was a Murray
tradition--you looked people in the face when you spoke to them. But
Aunt Elizabeth undressed in silence and came to bed. The room was in
darkness--thick darkness. Emily sighed and turned over. There was a
hot gin-jar in the bed, she knew, and her feet were cold. But she did
not think she ought to have the privilege of the gin-jar. She was too
wicked--too ungrateful.

“_Do_ stop squirming,” said Aunt Elizabeth.

Emily squirmed no more--physically at least. Mentally she continued to
squirm. She could not sleep. Her feet or her conscience--or both--kept
her awake. And fear, also. She dreaded the morning. Aunt Elizabeth
would see then what had happened. If it were only over--if the
revelation were only over. Emily forgot and squirmed.

“What makes you so restless tonight?” demanded Aunt Elizabeth, in high
displeasure. “Are you taking a cold?”

“No, ma’am.”

“Then go to sleep. I can’t bear such wriggling. One might as well have
an eel in bed--O--W!”

Aunt Elizabeth, in squirming a bit herself, had put her own foot
against Emily’s icy ones.

“Goodness, child, your feet are like snow. Here, put them on the
gin-jar.”

Aunt Elizabeth pushed the gin-jar over against Emily’s feet. How lovely
and warm and comforting it was!

Emily worked her toes against it like a cat. But she suddenly knew she
could not wait for morning.

“Aunt Elizabeth, I’ve got something to confess.”

Aunt Elizabeth was tired and sleepy and did not want confessions just
then. In no very gracious tone she said,

“What have you been doing?”

“I--I cut a bang, Aunt Elizabeth.”

“A bang?”

Aunt Elizabeth sat up in bed.

“But I cut it off again,” cried Emily hurriedly. “Right off--close to
my head.”

Aunt Elizabeth got out of bed, lit a candle, and looked Emily over.

“Well you _have_ made a sight of yourself,” she said grimly. “I never
saw any one as ugly as you are this minute. And you have behaved in a
most underhanded fashion.”

This was one of the times Emily felt compelled to agree with Aunt
Elizabeth.

“I’m sorry,” she said, lifting pleading eyes.

“You will eat your supper in the pantry for a week,” said Aunt
Elizabeth. “And you will not go to Uncle Oliver’s next week when I go.
I had promised to take you. But I shall take no one who looks as you do
anywhere with me.”

This was hard. Emily had looked forward to that visit to Uncle
Oliver’s. But on the whole she was relieved. The worst was over and her
feet were getting warm. But there was one thing yet. She might as well
unburden her heart completely while she was at it.

“There’s another thing I feel I ought to tell you.”

Aunt Elizabeth got into bed again with a grunt. Emily took it for
permission.

“Aunt Elizabeth, you remember that book I found in Dr. Burnley’s
bookcase and brought home and asked you if I could read it? It was
called ‘The History of Henry Esmond.’ You looked at it and said you had
no objections to my reading history. So I read it. But, Aunt Elizabeth,
it wasn’t history--it was a novel. And I _knew it when I brought it
home_.”

“You know that I have forbidden you to read novels, Emily Starr. They
are wicked books and have ruined many souls.”

“It was very dull,” pleaded Emily, as if dullness and wickedness were
quite incompatible. “And it made me feel unhappy. Everybody seemed
to be in love with the wrong person. I have made up my mind, Aunt
Elizabeth, that I will never fall in love. It makes too much trouble.”

“Don’t talk of things you can’t understand, and that are not fit for
children to think about. This is the result of reading novels. I shall
tell Dr. Burnley to lock his bookcase up.”

“Oh, don’t do that, Aunt Elizabeth,” exclaimed Emily. “There are no
more novels in it. But I’m reading such an interesting book over there.
It tells about everything that’s inside of you. I’ve got as far along
as the liver and its diseases. The pictures are so interesting. Please
let me finish it.”

This was worse than novels. Aunt Elizabeth was truly horrified. Things
that were inside of you were not to be read about.

“Have you no shame, Emily Starr? If you have not I am ashamed for you.
Little girls do not read books like that.”

“But, Aunt Elizabeth, why not? I _have_ a liver, haven’t I--and heart
and lungs--and stomach--and--”

“That will do, Emily. Not another word.”

Emily went to sleep unhappily. She wished she had never said a word
about ‘Esmond.’ And she knew she would never have a chance to finish
that other fascinating book. Nor had she. Dr. Burnley’s bookcase was
locked thereafter and the doctor gruffly ordered her and Ilse to keep
out of his office. He was in a very bad humour about it for he had
words with Elizabeth Murray over the matter.

Emily was not allowed to forget her bang. She was twitted and teased
in school about it and Aunt Elizabeth looked at it whenever she looked
at Emily and the contempt in her eyes burned Emily like a flame.
Nevertheless, as the mistreated hair grew out and began to curl in
soft little ringlets, Emily found consolation. The bang was tacitly
permitted, and she felt that her looks were greatly improved thereby.
Of course, as soon as it grew long enough she knew Aunt Elizabeth would
make her brush it back. But for the time being she took comfort in her
added beauty.

The bang was just about at its best when the letter came from
Great-Aunt Nancy.

It was written to Aunt Laura--Great-Aunt Nancy and Aunt Elizabeth were
not over-fond of each other--and in it Great-Aunt Nancy said, “If you
have a photograph of that child Emily send it along. I don’t want to
see _her_; she’s stupid--I know she’s stupid. But I want to see what
Juliet’s child looks like. Also the child of that fascinating young
man, Douglas Starr. He _was_ fascinating. What fools you all were
to make such a fuss about Juliet running away with him. If you and
Elizabeth had _both_ run away with somebody in your running days it
would have been better for you.”

This letter was not shown to Emily. Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura had
a long secret consultation and then Emily was told that she was to be
taken to Shrewsbury to have her picture taken for Aunt Nancy. Emily
was much excited over this. She was dressed in her blue cashmere and
Aunt Laura put a point lace collar on it and hung her Venetian beads
over it. And new buttoned boots were got for the occasion.

“I’m so glad this has happened while I still have my bang,” thought
Emily happily.

But in the photographer’s dressing-room, Aunt Elizabeth grimly
proceeded to brush back her bang and pin it with hairpins.

“Oh, please, Aunt Elizabeth, let me have it down,” Emily begged. “Just
for the picture. After this I’ll brush it back.”

Aunt Elizabeth was inexorable. The bang was brushed back and the
photograph taken. When Aunt Elizabeth saw the finished result she was
satisfied.

“She looks sulky; but she is neat; and there is a resemblance to the
Murrays I never noticed before,” she told Aunt Laura. “That will please
Aunt Nancy. She is very clannish under all her oddness.”

Emily would have liked to throw every one of the photographs in the
fire. She hated them. They made her look hideous. Her face seemed to
be _all_ forehead. If they sent Aunt Nancy that Aunt Nancy would think
her stupider than ever. When Aunt Elizabeth did the photograph up in
cardboard and told Emily to take it to the office Emily already knew
what she meant to do. She went straight to the garret and took out of
her box the water-colour Teddy had made of her. It was just the same
size as the photograph. Emily removed the latter from its wrappings,
spurning it aside with her foot.

“That isn’t _me_,” she said. “I looked sulky because I felt sulky about
the bang. But I hardly ever look sulky, so it isn’t fair.”

She wrapped Teddy’s sketch up in the cardboard and then sat down and
wrote a letter.

“DEAR GREAT-AUNT NANCY:

“Aunt Elizabeth had my picture taken to send you but I don’t like it
because it makes me look too ugly and I am putting another picture in
instead. An _artist friend_ made it for me. It is just like me when I’m
smiling and have a bang. I am only _lending_ it to you, not _giving_
it, because I valew it very highly.

                     “Your obedient grand niece,
                                  “EMILY BYRD STARR.

“P. S. I am not so stupid as you think.

                                           “E. B. S.
“P. S. No. 2. I am not stupid _at all_.”

Emily put her letter in with the picture--thereby unconsciously
cheating the post-office--and slipped out of the house to mail it.
Once it was safely in the post-office she drew a breath of relief. She
found the walk home very enjoyable. It was a bland day in early April
and spring was looking at you round the corners. The Wind Woman was
laughing and whistling over the wet sweet fields; freebooting crows
held conferences in the tree tops; little pools of sunshine lay in the
mossy hollows; the sea was a blaze of sapphire beyond the golden dunes;
the maples in Lofty John’s bush were talking about red buds. Everything
Emily had ever read of dream and myth and legend seemed a part of the
charm of that bush. She was filled to her finger-tips with a rapture of
living.

“Oh, I smell spring!” she cried as she danced along the brook path.

Then she began to compose a poem on it. Everybody who has ever lived in
the world and could string two rhymes together has written a poem on
spring. It is the most be-rhymed subject in the world--and always will
be, because it is poetry incarnate itself. You can never be a real
poet if you haven’t made at least one poem about spring.

Emily was wondering whether she would have elves dancing on the
brookside by moonlight, or pixies sleeping in a bed of ferns in her
poem, when something confronted her at a bend in the path which was
neither elf nor pixy, but seemed odd and weird enough to belong to some
of the tribes of Little People. Was it a witch? Or an elderly fay of
evil intentions--the bad fairy of all christening tales?

“I’m the b’y’s Aunt Tom,” said the appearance, seeing that Emily was
too amazed to do anything but stand and stare.

“Oh!” Emily gasped in relief. She was no longer frightened. But what a
_very_ peculiar looking lady Perry’s Aunt Tom was. Old--so old that it
seemed quite impossible that she could ever have been young; a bright
red hood over crone-like, fluttering grey locks; a little face seamed
by a thousand fine, criss-cross wrinkles; a long nose with a knob on
the end of it; little twinkling, eager, grey eyes under bristly brows;
a ragged man’s coat covering her from neck to feet; a basket in one
hand and a black knobby stick in the other.

“Staring wasn’t thought good breeding in my time,” said Aunt Tom.

“Oh!” said Emily again. “Excuse me-- How do you do!” she added, with a
vague grasp after her manners.

“Polite--and not too proud,” said Aunt Tom, peering curiously at her.
“I’ve been up to the big house with a pair of socks for the b’y but
’twas yourself I wanted to see.”

“Me?” said Emily blankly.

“Yis. The b’y has been talking a bit of you and a plan kem into my
head. Thinks I to myself it’s no bad notion. But I’ll make sure before
I waste my bit o’ money. Emily Byrd Starr is your name and Murray is
your nature. If I give the b’y an eddication will ye marry him when ye
grow up?”

“Me!” said Emily again. It seemed to be all she could say. Was she
dreaming? She _must_ be.

“Yis--you. You’re half Murray and it’ll be a great step up f’r the b’y.
He’s smart and he’ll be a rich man some day and boss the country. But
divil a cent will I spend on him unless you promise.”

“Aunt Elizabeth wouldn’t let me,” cried Emily, too frightened of this
odd old body to refuse on her own account.

“If you’ve got any Murray in you you’ll do your own choosing,” said
Aunt Tom, thrusting her face so close to Emily’s that her bushy
eyebrows tickled Emily’s nose. “Say you’ll marry the b’y and to college
he goes.”

Emily seemed to be rendered speechless. She could think of nothing to
say--oh, if she could _only_ wake up! She could not even run.

“Say it!” insisted Aunt Tom, thumping her stick sharply on a stone in
the path.

Emily was so horrified that she might have said something--anything--to
escape. But at this moment Perry bounded out of the spruce copse, his
face white with rage, and seized his Aunt Tom most disrespectfully by
the shoulder.

“You go home!” he said furiously.

“Now, b’y dear,” quavered Aunt Tom deprecatingly. “I was only trying to
do you a good turn. I was asking her to marry ye after a bit an--”

“I’ll do my own asking!” Perry was angrier than ever. “You’ve likely
spoiled everything. Go home--go home, I say!”

Aunt Tom hobbled off muttering, “Then I’ll know better than to waste me
bit o’ money. No Murray, no money, me b’y.”

When she had disappeared down the brook path Perry turned to Emily.
From white he had gone very red.

“Don’t mind her--she’s cracked,” he said. “Of course, when I grow up I
mean to ask you to marry me but--”

“I couldn’t--Aunt Elizabeth--”

“Oh, she will then. I’m going to be premier of Canada some day.”

“But I wouldn’t want--I’m sure I wouldn’t--”

“You will when you grow up. Ilse is better looking of course, and I
don’t know why I like you best but I do.”

“Don’t you ever talk to me like this again!” commanded Emily, beginning
to recover her dignity.

“Oh, I won’t--not till we grow up. I’m as ashamed of it as you are,”
said Perry with a sheepish grin. “Only I had to say something after
Aunt Tom butted in like that. I ain’t to blame for it so don’t you hold
it against me. But just you remember that I’m going to ask you some
day. And I believe Teddy Kent is too.”

Emily was walking haughtily away but she turned at this to say coolly
over her shoulder,

“If he does I’ll marry him.”

“If you do I’ll knock his head off,” shouted Perry in a prompt rage.

But Emily walked steadily on home and went to the garret to think
things over.

“It has been romantic but not comfortable,” was her conclusion. And
that particular poem on spring was never finished.




CHAPTER XXII

WYTHER GRANGE


No reply or acknowledgement came from Great-Aunt Nancy Priest regarding
Emily’s picture. Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura, knowing Great-Aunt
Nancy’s ways tolerably well, were not surprised at this, but Emily
felt rather worried over it. Perhaps Great-Aunt Nancy did not approve
of what she had done; or perhaps she still thought her too stupid to
bother with.

Emily did not like to lie under the imputation of stupidity. She wrote
a scathing epistle to Great-Aunt Nancy on a letter-bill in which she
did not mince her opinions as to that ancient lady’s knowledge of the
rules of epistolary etiquette; the letter was folded up and stowed away
on the little shelf under the sofa but it served its purpose in blowing
off steam and Emily had ceased to think about the matter when a letter
came from Great-Aunt Nancy in July.

Elizabeth and Laura talked the matter over in the cook-house, forgetful
or ignorant of the fact that Emily was sitting on the kitchen doorstep
just outside. Emily was imagining herself attending a drawing-room of
Queen Victoria. Robed in white, with ostrich plumes, veil, and court
train, she had just bent to kiss the Queen’s hand when Aunt Elizabeth’s
voice shattered her dream as a pebble thrown into a pool scatters the
fairy reflection.

“What is your opinion, Laura,” Aunt Elizabeth was saying, “of letting
Emily visit Aunt Nancy?”

Emily pricked up her ears. What was in the wind now?

“From her letter she seems very anxious to have the child,” said Laura.

Elizabeth sniffed.

“A whim--a whim. You know what her whims are. Likely by the time Emily
got there she’d be quite over it and have no use for her.”

“Yes, but on the other hand if we don’t let her go she will be
dreadfully offended and never forgive us--or Emily. Emily should have
her chance.”

“I don’t know that her chance is worth much. If Aunt Nancy really has
any money beyond her annuity--and that’s what neither you nor I nor any
living soul knows, unless it’s Caroline--she’ll likely leave it all to
some of the Priests--Leslie Priest’s a favourite of hers, I understand.
Aunt Nancy always liked her husband’s family better than her own, even
though she’s always slurring at them. Still--she _might_ take a fancy
to Emily--they’re both so odd they might suit each other--but you know
the way she talks--she and that abominable old Caroline.”

“Emily is too young to understand,” said Aunt Laura.

“I understand more than you think,” cried Emily indignantly.

Aunt Elizabeth jerked open the cook-house door.

“Emily Starr, haven’t you learned by this time not to listen?”

“I wasn’t listening. I thought you knew I was sitting here--I can’t
help my ears _hearing_. Why didn’t you _whisper_? When you whisper I
know you’re talking secrets and I don’t try to hear them. Am I going to
Great-Aunt Nancy’s for a visit?”

“We haven’t decided,” said Aunt Elizabeth coldly, and that was all the
satisfaction Emily got for a week. She hardly knew herself whether she
wanted to go or not. Aunt Elizabeth had begun making cheese--New Moon
was noted for its cheeses--and Emily found the whole process absorbing,
from the time the rennet was put in the warm new milk till the white
curds were packed away in the hoop and put under the press in the old
orchard, with the big, round, grey “cheese” stone to weight it down as
it had weighed down New Moon cheeses for a hundred years. And then she
and Ilse and Teddy and Perry were absorbed heart and soul in “playing
out” the “Midsummer Night’s Dream” in Lofty John’s bush and it was
very fascinating. When they entered Lofty John’s bush they went out of
the realm of daylight and things known into the realm of twilight and
mystery and enchantment. Teddy had painted wonderful scenery on old
boards and pieces of sails, which Perry had got at the Harbor. Ilse
had fashioned delightful fairy wings from tissue paper and tinsel, and
Perry had made an ass’s head for _Bottom_ out of an old calf-skin that
was very realistic. Emily had toiled happily for many weeks copying
out the different parts and adapting them to circumstances. She had
“cut” the play after a fashion that would have harrowed Shakespeare’s
soul but after all the result was quite pretty and coherent. It did not
worry them that four small actors had to take six times as many parts.
Emily was _Titania_ and _Hermia_ and a job lot of fairies besides, Ilse
was _Hippolyta_ and _Helena_, plus some more fairies, and the boys were
anything that the dialogue required. Aunt Elizabeth knew nothing of it
all; she would promptly have put a stop to the whole thing, for she
thought play-acting exceedingly wicked; but Aunt Laura was privy to the
plot, and Cousin Jimmy and Lofty John had already attended a moonlight
rehearsal.

To go away and leave all this, even for a time, would be a hard wrench,
but on the other hand Emily had a burning curiosity to see Great-Aunt
Nancy and Wyther Grange, her quaint, old house at Priest Pond with
the famous stone dogs on the gateposts. On the whole, she thought she
would like to go; and when she saw Aunt Laura doing up her starched
white petticoats and Aunt Elizabeth grimly dusting off a small, black,
nail-studded trunk in the garret she knew, before she was told, that
the visit to Priest Pond was going to come off; so she took out the
letter she had written to Aunt Nancy and added an apologetic postscript.

Ilse chose to be disgruntled because Emily was going for a visit. In
reality Ilse felt appalled at the lonely prospect of a month or more
without her inseparable chum. No more jolly evenings of play-acting in
Lofty John’s bush, no more pungent quarrels. Besides, Ilse herself had
never been anywhere for a visit in her whole life and she felt sore
over this fact.

“_I_ wouldn’t go to Wyther Grange for anything,” said Ilse. “It’s
haunted.”

“’Tisn’t.”

“Yes! It’s haunted by a ghost you can _feel_ and _hear_ but never
_see_. Oh, I wouldn’t be _you_ for the world! Your Great-Aunt Nancy is
an _awful crank_ and the old woman who lives with her is a _witch_.
She’ll put a spell on you. You’ll pine away and die.”

“I won’t--she isn’t!”

“_Is!_ Why, she makes the stone dogs on the gateposts howl every night
if any one comes near the place. They go, ‘_Wo-or-oo-oo_.’”

Ilse was not a born elocutionist for nothing. Her “wo-or-oo-oo” was
extremely gruesome. But it was daylight, and Emily was as brave as a
lion in daylight.

“You’re jealous,” she said, and walked off.

“I’m not, you blithering centipede,” Ilse yelled after her. “Putting
on airs because your aunt has stone dogs on her gateposts! Why, I know
a woman in Shrewsbury who has dogs on her posts that are ten times
stonier than your aunt’s!”

But next morning Ilse was over to bid Emily good-bye and entreat her
to write every week. Emily was going to drive to Priest Pond with Old
Kelly. Aunt Elizabeth was to have driven her but Aunt Elizabeth was not
feeling well that day and Aunt Laura could not leave her. Cousin Jimmy
had to work at the hay. It looked as if she could not go, and this was
rather serious, for Aunt Nancy had been told to expect her that day
and Aunt Nancy did not like to be disappointed. If Emily did not turn
up at Priest Pond on the day set Great-Aunt Nancy was quite capable of
shutting the door in her face when she did appear and telling her to go
back home. Nothing less than this conviction would have induced Aunt
Elizabeth to fall in with Old Kelly’s suggestion that Emily should ride
to Priest Pond with him. His home was on the other side of it and he
was going straight there.

Emily was quite delighted. She liked Old Kelly and thought that a drive
on his fine red wagon would be quite an adventure. Her little black
box was hoisted to the roof and tied there and they went clinking and
glittering down the New Moon lane in fine style. The tins in the bowels
of the wagon behind them rumbled like a young earthquake.

“Get up, my nag, get up,” said Old Kelly. “Sure, an’ I always like to
drive the pretty gurrls. An’ when is the wedding to be?”

“Whose wedding?”

“The slyness av her! Your own, av coorse.”

“I have no intention of being married--immediately,” said Emily, in a
very good imitation of Aunt Elizabeth’s tone and manner.

“Sure, and ye’re a chip av the ould block. Miss Elizabeth herself
couldn’t have said it better. Get up, my nag, get up.”

“I only meant,” said Emily, fearing that she had insulted Old Kelly,
“that I am too young to be married.”

“The younger the better--the less mischief ye’ll be after working with
them come-hither eyes. Get up, my nag, get up. The baste is tired. So
we’ll let him go at his own swate will. Here’s a bag av swaties for ye.
Ould Kelley always trates the ladies. Come now, tell me all about him.”

“About who?”--but Emily knew quite well.

“Your beau, av coorse.”

“I haven’t _any_ beau. Mr. Kelly, I wish you wouldn’t talk to me about
such things.”

“Sure, and I won’t if ’tis a sore subject. Don’t ye be minding if ye
haven’t got one--there’ll be scads av them after a while. And if the
right one doesn’t know what’s good for him, just ye come to Ould Kelly
and get some toad ointment.”

Toad ointment! It sounded horrible. Emily shivered. But she would
rather talk about toad ointment than beaux.

“What is that for?”

“It’s a love charm,” said Old Kelly mysteriously. “Put a li’l smootch
on his eyelids and he’s yourn for life with never a squint at any other
gurrl.”

“It doesn’t _sound_ very nice,” said Emily. “How do you make it?”

“You bile four toads alive till they’re good and soft and then mash--”

“Oh, stop, stop!” implored Emily, putting her hands to her ears. “I
don’t want to hear any more--you couldn’t be so cruel!”

“Cruel is it? You were after eating lobsters this day that were biled
alive--”

“I don’t believe it. I don’t. If it’s true I’ll never, never eat one
again. Oh, Mr. Kelly, I thought you were a nice kind man--but those
poor toads!”

“Gurrl dear, it was only me joke. An’ you won’t be nading toad ointment
to win your lad’s love. Wait you now--I’ve something in the till behind
me for a prisent for you.”

Old Kelly fished out a box which he put into Emily’s lap. She found a
dainty little hairbrush in it.

“Look at the back av it,” said Old Kelly. “You’ll see something
handsome--all the love charm ye’ll ever nade.”

Emily turned it over. Her own face looked back at her from a little
inset mirror surrounded by a scroll of painted roses.

“Oh, Mr. Kelly--how pretty--I mean the roses and the glass,” she
cried. “Is it really for me? Oh, thank you, thank you! Now, I can have
Emily-in-the-glass whenever I want her. Why, I can carry her round with
me. And you were really only in fun about the toads!”

“Av coorse. Get up, my nag, get up. An’ so ye’re going to visit the
ould lady over at Praste Pond? Ever been there?”

“No.”

“It’s full of Prastes. Ye can’t throw a stone but ye hit one. And hit
one--hit all. They’re as proud and lofty as the Murrays themselves.
The only wan I know is Adam Praste--the others hold too high. He’s
the black shape and quite sociable. But if ye want to see how the
world looked on the morning after the flood go into his barnyard on
a rainy day. Look a-here, gurrl dear”--Old Kelly lowered his voice
mysteriously--“don’t ye ever marry a Praste.”

“Why not?” asked Emily, who had never thought of marrying a Priest but
was immediately curious as to why she shouldn’t.

“They’re ill to marry--ill to live with. The wives die young. The ould
lady of the Grange fought her man out and buried him but she had the
Murray luck. I wouldn’t trust it too far. The only dacent Praste among
them is the wan they call Jarback Praste and he’s too ould for you.”

“Why do they call him Jarback?”

“Wan av his shoulders is a l’il bit higher than the other. He’s got a
bit of money and doesn’t be after having to work. A book worrum, I’m
belaving. Have ye got a bit av cold iron about you?”

“No; why?”

“Ye should have. Old Caroline Praste at the Grange is a witch if ever
there was one.”

“Why, that’s what Ilse said. But there are no such thing as witches
really, Mr. Kelly.”

“Maybe that’s thrue but it’s better to be on the safe side. Here, put
this horseshoe-nail in your pocket and don’t cross her if ye can help
it. Ye don’t mind if I have a bit av a smoke, do ye?”

Emily did not mind at all. It left her free to follow her own thoughts,
which were more agreeable than Old Kelly’s talk of toads and witches.
The road from Blair Water to Priest Pond was a very lovely one,
winding along the gulf shore, crossing fir fringed rivers and inlets,
and coming ever and anon on one of the ponds for which that part of
the north shore was noted--Blair Water, Derry Pond, Long Pond, Three
Ponds where three blue lakelets were strung together like three great
sapphires held by a silver thread; and then Priest Pond, the largest
of all, almost as round as Blair Water. As they drove down towards it
Emily drank the scene in with avid eyes--as soon as possible she must
write a description of it; she had packed the Jimmy blank book in her
box for just such purposes.

The air seemed to be filled with opal dust over the great pond and the
bowery summer homesteads around it. A western sky of smoky red was
arched over the big Malvern Bay beyond. Little grey sails were drifting
along by the fir-fringed shores. A sequestered side road, fringed
thickly with young maples and birches, led down to Wyther Grange. How
damp and cool the air was in the hollows! And how the ferns did smell!
Emily was sorry when they reached Wyther Grange and climbed in between
the gateposts whereon the big stone dogs sat very stonily, looking grim
enough in the twilight.

The wide hall door was open and a flood of light streamed out over the
lawn. A little old woman was standing in it. Old Kelly seemed suddenly
in something of a hurry. He swung Emily and her box to the ground,
shook hands hastily and whispered, “Don’t lose that bit av a nail.
Good-bye. I wish ye a cool head and a warm heart,” and was off before
the little old woman could reach them.

“So this is Emily of New Moon!” Emily heard a rather shrill, cracked
voice saying. She felt a thin, claw-like hand grasp hers and draw her
towards the door. There were no witches, Emily knew,--but she thrust
her hand into her pocket and touched the horseshoe-nail.




CHAPTER XXIII

DEALS WITH GHOSTS


“Your aunt is in the back parlor,” said Caroline Priest. “Come this
way. Are you tired?”

“No,” said Emily, following Caroline and taking her in thoroughly.
If Caroline were a witch she was a very small one. She was really no
taller than Emily herself. She wore a black silk dress and a little
string cap of black net edged with black ruching on her yellowish
white hair. Her face was more wrinkled than Emily had ever supposed a
face could be and she had the peculiar grey-green eyes which, as Emily
afterwards discovered, “ran” in the Priest clan.

“You may be a witch,” thought Emily, “but I think I can manage _you_.”

They went through the spacious hall, catching glimpses on either side
of large, dim, splendid rooms, then through the kitchen end out of it
into an odd little back hall. It was long and narrow and dark. On one
side was a row of four, square, small-paned windows, on the other were
cupboards, reaching from floor to ceiling, with doors of black shining
wood. Emily felt like one of the heroines in Gothic romance, wandering
at midnight through a subterranean dungeon, with some unholy guide. She
had read “The Mysteries of Udolpho” and “The Romance of the Forest”
before the taboo had fallen on Dr. Burnley’s bookcase. She shivered. It
was awful but interesting.

At the end of the hall a flight of four steps led up to a door. Beside
the steps was an immense black grandfather’s clock reaching almost to
the ceiling.

“We shut little girls up in that when they’re bad,” whispered
Caroline, nodding at Emily, as she opened the door that led into the
back parlour.

“I’ll take good care you won’t shut _me_ up in it,” thought Emily.

The back parlour was a pretty, quaint old room where a table was laid
for supper. Caroline led Emily through it and knocked at another door,
using a quaint old brass knocker that was fashioned like a chessy-cat,
with such an irresistible grin that you wanted to grin, too, when you
saw it. Somebody said, “Come in,” and they went down another four
steps--was there ever such a funny house?--into a bedroom. And here at
last was Great-Aunt Nancy Priest, sitting in her arm-chair, with her
black stick leaning against her knee, and her tiny white hands, still
pretty, and sparkling with fine rings, lying on her purple silk apron.

Emily felt a distinct shock of disappointment. After hearing that poem
in which Nancy Murray’s beauty of nut-brown hair and starry brown eyes
and cheek of satin rose had been be-rhymed she had somehow expected
Great-Aunt Nancy, in spite of her ninety years, to be beautiful still.
But Aunt Nancy was white-haired and yellow-skinned and wrinkled and
shrunken, though her brown eyes were still bright and shrewd. Somehow,
she looked like an old fairy--an impish, tolerant old fairy, who might
turn suddenly malevolent if you rubbed her the wrong way--only fairies
never wore long, gold-tasselled earrings that almost touched their
shoulders, or white lace caps with purple pansies in them.

“So this is Juliet’s girl!” she said, giving Emily one of her sparkling
hands. “Don’t look so startled, child. I’m not going to kiss you. I
never held with inflicting kisses on defenseless creatures simply
because they were so unlucky as to be my relatives. Now, who does she
look like, Caroline?”

Emily made a mental grimace. Now for another ordeal of comparisons,
wherein dead-and-gone noses and eyes and foreheads would be dragged
out and fitted on her. She was thoroughly tired of having her looks
talked over in every gathering of the clans.

“Not much like the Murrays,” said Caroline, peering so closely into
her face that Emily involuntarily drew back. “Not so handsome as the
Murrays.”

“Nor the Starrs either. Her father was a handsome man--so handsome that
I’d have run away with him myself if I’d been fifty years younger.
There’s nothing of Juliet in her that I can see. Juliet was pretty.
You are not as good-looking as that picture made you out but I didn’t
expect you would be. Pictures and epitaphs are never to be trusted.
Where’s your bang gone, Emily?”

“Aunt Elizabeth combed it back.”

“Well, you comb it down again while you’re in my house. There’s
something of your Grandfather Murray about your eye-brows. Your
grandfather was a handsome man--and a darned bad-tempered one--almost
as bad-tempered as the Priests,--hey, Caroline?”

“If you please, Great-Aunt Nancy,” said Emily deliberately, “I don’t
like to be told I look like other people. I look just like myself.”

Aunt Nancy chuckled.

“Spunk, I see. Good. I never cared for meek youngsters. So you’re not
stupid, eh?”

“No, I’m not.”

Great-Aunt Nancy grinned this time. Her false teeth looked uncannily
white and young in her old, brown face.

“Good. If you’ve brains it’s better than beauty--brains last, beauty
doesn’t. Me, for example. Caroline here, now, never had either brains
nor beauty, had you, Caroline? Come, let’s go to supper. Thank
goodness, my stomach has stood by me if my good looks haven’t.”

Great-Aunt Nancy hobbled, by the aid of her stick, up the steps and
over to the table. She sat at one end, Caroline at the other, Emily
between, feeling rather uncomfortable. But the ruling passion was still
strong in her and she was already composing a description of them for
the blank book.

“I wonder if anybody will be sorry when you die,” she thought, looking
intently at Caroline’s wizened old face.

“Come now, tell me,” said Aunt Nancy. “If you’re not stupid, why did
you write me such a stupid letter that first time. Lord, but it was
stupid! I read it over to Caroline to punish her whenever she is
naughty.”

“I couldn’t write any other kind of a letter because Aunt Elizabeth
said she was going to read it.”

“Trust Elizabeth for that. Well, you can write what you like here--and
say what you like--and do what you like. Nobody will interfere with you
or try to bring you up. I asked you for a visit, not for discipline.
Thought likely you’d have enough of that at New Moon. You can have
the run of the house and pick a beau to your liking from the Priest
boys--not that the young fry are what they were in my time.”

“I don’t want a beau,” retorted Emily. She felt rather disgusted. Old
Kelly had ranted about beaux half the way over and here was Aunt Nancy
beginning on the same unnecessary subject.

“Don’t you tell me,” said Aunt Nancy, laughing till her gold tassels
shook. “There never was a Murray of New Moon that didn’t like a beau.
When I was your age I had half a dozen. All the little boys in Blair
Water were fighting about me. Caroline here now never had a beau in her
life, had you, Caroline?”

“Never wanted one,” snapped Caroline.

“Eighty and twelve say the same thing and both lie,” said Aunt Nancy.
“What’s the use of being hypocrites among ourselves? I don’t say it
isn’t well enough when men are about. Caroline, do you notice what
a pretty hand Emily has? As pretty as mine when I was young. And an
elbow like a cat’s. Cousin Susan Murray had an elbow like that. It’s
odd--she has more Murray points than Starr points and yet she looks
like the Starrs and not like the Murrays. What odd sums in addition we
all are--the answer is never what you’d expect. Caroline, what a pity
Jarback isn’t home. He’d like Emily--I have a feeling he’d like Emily.
Jarback’s the only Priest that’ll ever go to heaven, Emily. Let’s have
a look at your ankles, puss.”

Emily rather unwillingly put out her foot. Aunt Nancy nodded her
satisfaction.

“Mary Shipley’s ankle. Only one in a generation has it. I had it. The
Murray ankles are thick. Even your mother’s ankles were thick. Look at
that instep, Caroline. Emily, you’re not a beauty but if you learn to
use your eyes and hands and feet properly you’ll pass for one. The men
are easily fooled and if the women say you’re not ’twill be held for
jealousy.”

Emily decided that this was a good opportunity to find out something
that had puzzled her.

“Old Mr. Kelly said I had come-hither eyes, Aunt Nancy. Have I? And
_what_ are come-hither eyes?”

“Jock Kelly’s an old ass. You haven’t come-hither eyes--it wouldn’t
be a Murray tradish.” Aunt Nancy laughed. “The Murrays have
keep-your-distance eyes--and so have you--though your lashes contradict
them a bit. But sometimes eyes like that--combined with certain
other points--are quite as effective as come-hither eyes. Men go by
contraries oftener than not--if you tell them to keep off they’ll come
on. My own Nathaniel now--the only way to get him to do anything was to
coax him to do the opposite. Remember, Caroline? Have another cooky,
Emily?”

“I haven’t had one yet,” said Emily, rather resentfully.

Those cookies looked very tempting and she had been wishing they might
be passed. She didn’t know why Aunt Nancy and Caroline both laughed.
Caroline’s laugh was unpleasant--a dry, rusty sort of laugh--“no juice
in it,” Emily decided. She thought she would write in her description
that Caroline had a “thin, rattling laugh.”

“What do you think of us?” demanded Aunt Nancy. “Come now, what _do_
you think of us?”

Emily was dreadfully embarrassed. She had just been thinking of writing
that Aunt Nancy looked “withered and shrivelled;” but one couldn’t say
that--one _couldn’t_.

“Tell the truth and shame the devil,” said Aunt Nancy.

“That isn’t a fair question,” cried Emily.

“You think,” said Aunt Nancy, grinning, “that I’m a hideous old hag
and that Caroline isn’t quite human. She isn’t. She never was--but you
should have seen _me_ seventy years ago. I was handsomest of all the
handsome Murrays. The men were mad about me. When I married Nat Priest
his three brothers could have cut his throat. One cut his own. Oh, I
played havoc in my time. All I regret is I can’t live it over. ’Twas
a grand life while it lasted. I queened it over them. The women hated
me, of course--all but Caroline here. You worshipped me, didn’t you,
Caroline? And you worship me yet, don’t you, Caroline? Caroline, I
_wish_ you didn’t have a wart on your nose.”

“I wish you had one on your tongue,” said Caroline waspishly.

Emily was beginning to feel tired and bewildered. It was
interesting--and Aunt Nancy was kind enough in her queer way; but at
home Ilse and Perry and Teddy would be foregathering in Lofty John’s
bush for their evening revel, and Saucy Sal would be sitting on the
dairy steps, waiting for Cousin Jimmy to give her the froth. Emily
suddenly realized that she was as homesick for New Moon as she had been
for Maywood her first night at New Moon.

“The child’s tired,” said Aunt Nancy. “Take her to bed, Caroline. Put
her in the Pink Room.”

Emily followed Caroline through the back hall, through the kitchen,
through the front hall, up the stairs, down a long hall, through a long
side hall. Where on earth was she being taken? Finally they reached a
large room. Caroline set down the lamp, and asked Emily if she had a
nightgown.

“Of course I have. Do you suppose Aunt Elizabeth would have let me come
without one?”

Emily was quite indignant.

“Nancy says you can sleep as long as you like in the morning,” said
Caroline. “Good-night. Nancy and I sleep in the old wing, of course,
and the rest of us sleep well in our graves.”

With this cryptic remark Caroline trotted out and shut the door.

Emily sat down on an embroidered ottoman and looked about her. The
window curtains were of faded pink brocade and the walls were hung
with pink paper decorated with diamonds of rose chains. It made a very
pretty fairy paper, as Emily found by cocking her eyes at it. There was
a green carpet on the floor, so lavishly splashed with big pink roses
that Emily was almost afraid to walk on it. She decided that the room
was a very splendid one.

“But I have to sleep here alone, so I must say my prayers very
carefully,” she reflected.

She undressed rather hastily, blew out the light and got into bed. She
covered herself up to her chin and lay there, staring at the high,
white ceiling. She had grown so used to Aunt Elizabeth’s curtained
bed that she felt curiously unsheltered in this low, modern one. But
at least the window was wide open--evidently Aunt Nancy did not share
Aunt Elizabeth’s horror of night air. Through it Emily could see summer
fields lying in the magic of a rising yellow moon. But the room was
big and ghostly. She felt horribly far away from everybody. She was
lonesome--homesick. She thought of Old Kelly and his toad ointment.
Perhaps he _did_ boil the toads alive after all. This hideous thought
tormented her. It was _awful_ to think of toads--or anything--being
boiled alive. She had never slept alone before. Suddenly she was
frightened. How the window rattled. It sounded terribly as if
somebody--or _something_--were trying to get in. She thought of Ilse’s
ghost--a ghost you couldn’t _see_ but could _hear_ and _feel_ was
something especially spooky in the way of ghosts--she thought of the
stone dogs that went “Wo--or--oo--oo” at midnight. A dog _did_ begin to
howl somewhere. Emily felt a cold perspiration on her brow. _What_ had
Caroline meant about the rest of them sleeping well in their graves?
The floor creaked. Wasn’t there somebody--or _something_--tiptoeing
round outside the door? Didn’t something move in the corner? There were
mysterious sounds in the long hall.

“I _won’t_ be scared,” said Emily. “I _won’t_ think of those things,
and tomorrow I’ll write down all about how I feel now.”

And then--she _did_ hear something--right behind the wall at the head
of her bed. There was no mistake about it. It was not imagination. She
heard distinctly strange uncanny rustles--as if stiff silk dresses
were rubbing against each other--as if fluttering wings fanned the
air--and there were soft, low, muffled sounds like tiny children’s
cries or moans. They lasted--they kept on. Now and then they would die
away--then start up again.

Emily cowered under the bedclothes, cold with real terror. Before, her
fright had been only on the surface--she had _known_ there was nothing
to fear, even while she feared. Something in her braced her to endure.
But _this_ was no mistake--no imagination. The rustles and flutterings
and cries and moans were all too real. Wyther Grange suddenly became
a dreadful, uncanny place. Ilse was right--it _was_ haunted. And she
was all alone here, with miles of rooms and halls between her and any
human being. It was cruel of Aunt Nancy to put her in a haunted room.
Aunt Nancy must have known it was haunted--cruel old Aunt Nancy with
her ghoulish pride in men who had killed themselves for her. Oh, if
she were back in dear New Moon, with Aunt Elizabeth beside her. Aunt
Elizabeth was not an ideal bedfellow but she was flesh-and-blood. And
if the windows were hermetically sealed they kept out spooks as well as
night air.

“Perhaps it won’t be so bad if I say my prayers over again,” thought
Emily.

But even this didn’t help much.

To the end of her life Emily never forgot that first horrible night at
Wyther Grange. She was so tired that sometimes she dozed fitfully off
only to be awakened in a few minutes in panic horror, by the rustling
and muffled moans behind her bed. Every ghost and groan, every tortured
spirit and bleeding nun of the books she had read came into her mind.

“Aunt Elizabeth was right--novels aren’t fit to read,” she thought.
“Oh, I will die here--of fright--I know I will. I know I’m a coward--I
can’t be brave.”

When morning came the room was bright with sunshine and free from
mysterious sounds. Emily got up, dressed and found her way to the old
wing. She was pale, with black-ringed eyes, but resolute.

“Well, and how did you sleep?” asked Aunt Nancy graciously.

Emily ignored the question.

“I want to go home today,” she said.

Aunt Nancy stared.

“Home? Nonsense! Are you such a homesick baby as that?”

“I’m not homesick--not _very_--but I must go home.”

“You can’t--there’s no one here to take you. You don’t expect Caroline
can drive you to Blair Water, do you?”

“Then I will walk.”

Aunt Nancy thumped her stick angrily on the floor.

“You will stay right here until I’m ready for you to go, Miss Puss. I
never tolerate any whims but my own. Caroline knows that, don’t you,
Caroline? Sit down to your breakfast--and eat--_eat_.”

Aunt Nancy glared at Emily.

“I won’t stay here,” said Emily. “I won’t stay another night in that
horrible haunted room. It was cruel of you to put me there. If--” Emily
gave Aunt Nancy glare for glare--“if I was Salome I’d ask for _your_
head on a charger.”

“Hoity-toity! What nonsense is this about a haunted room? We’ve no
ghosts at Wyther Grange. Have we, Caroline? We don’t consider them
hygienic.”

“You have something _dreadful_ in that room--it rustled and moaned and
cried all night long right in the wall behind my bed. I won’t stay--I
won’t--.”

Emily’s tears came in spite of her efforts to repress them. She was so
unstrung nervously that she couldn’t help crying. It lacked but little
of hysterics with her already.

Aunt Nancy looked at Caroline and Caroline looked back at Aunt Nancy.

“We should have told her, Caroline. It’s all our fault. I clean
forgot--it’s so long since any one slept in the Pink Room. No wonder
she was frightened. Emily, you poor child, it was a shame. It would
serve me right to have my head on a charger, you vindictive scrap. We
should have told you.”

“Told me--what?”

“About the swallows in the chimney. That was what you heard. The big
central chimney goes right up through the walls behind your bed. It is
never used now since the fireplaces were built in. The swallows nest
there--hundreds of them. They do make an uncanny noise--fluttering and
quarrelling as they do.”

Emily felt foolish and ashamed--much more ashamed than she needed to
feel, for her experience had really been a very trying one, and older
folks than she had been woefully frightened o’ nights in the Pink
Room at Wyther Grange. Nancy Priest _had_ put people into that room
sometimes expressly to scare them. But to do her justice she really had
forgotten in Emily’s case and was sorry.

Emily said no more about going home; Caroline and Aunt Nancy were both
very kind to her that day; she had a good nap in the afternoon; and
when the second night came she went straight to the Pink Room and slept
soundly the night through. The rustles and cries were as distinct as
ever but swallows and spectres were two entirely different things.

“After all, I think I’ll like Wyther Grange,” said Emily.




CHAPTER XXIV

A DIFFERENT KIND OF HAPPINESS


                                         “JULY 20th.

“DEAR FATHER:

“I have been a fortnight at Wyther Grange and I have not written to you
once. But I thought of you every day. I had to write to Aunt Laura and
Ilse and Teddy and Cousin Jimmy and Perry and between times I am having
such fun. The first night I was here I did not think I was going to be
happy. But I am--only it’s a different kind from New Moon happiness.

“Aunt Nancy and Caroline are very good to me and let me do exactly as
I like. This is very agreeable. They are very sarcastic to each other.
But I think they are a good bit like Ilse and me--they fight quite
frequently but love each other very hard between times. I am sure
Caroline isn’t a witch but I would like to know what she thinks of
when she is all alone by herself. Aunt Nancy is not pretty any longer
but she is very _aristocratic looking_. She doesn’t walk much because
of her roomatism, so she sits mostly in her back parlor and reads and
knits lace or plays cards with Caroline. I talk to her a great deal
because she says it amuses her and I have told her a great many things
but I have never told her that I write poetry. If I did I know she
would make me recite it to her and I feel she is not the right person
to recite your poetry to. And I do not talk about you or Mother to
her, though she tries to make me. I told her all about Lofty John and
his bush and going to Father Cassidy. She chuckled over that and said
she always liked to talk to the Catholic Priests because they were the
only men in the world a woman could talk to for more than ten minutes
without other women saying she was throwing herself at their heads.

“Aunt Nancy says a great many things like that. She and Caroline talk
a great deal to each other about things that happened in the Priest
and Murray families. I like to sit and listen. They don’t stop just as
things are getting interesting the way Aunt Elizabeth and Aunt Laura
do. A good many things I don’t understand but I will remember them and
will find out about them sometime. I have written descriptions of Aunt
Nancy and Caroline in my Jimmy-book. I keep the book hid behind the
wardrobe in my room because I found Caroline rummidging in my trunk
one day. I must not call Aunt Nancy Great-Aunt. She says it makes her
feel like Methoosaleh. She tells me all about the men who were in love
with her. It seems to me they all behaved pretty much the same. I don’t
think that was exciting but she says it was. She tells me about all
the parties and dances they used to have here long ago. Wyther Grange
is bigger than New Moon and the furniture is much handsomer but it is
harder to feel acquainted with it.

“There are many interesting things in this house. I love to look at
them. There is a Jakobite glass on a stand in the parlor. It was a
glass _an old ansester_ of the Priests had long ago in Scotland and
it has a thistle and a rose on it and they used it to drink Prince
Charlie’s health with and for _no other purpose_. It is a very
_valewable airloom_ and Aunt Nancy prizes it highly. And she has a
pickled snake in a big glass jar in the china cabinet. It is hideous
but fascinating. I shiver when I see it but yet I go to look at it
every day. Something seems to drag me to it. Aunt Nancy has a bureau
in her room with _glass knobs_ and a vase shaped like a green fish
sitting up on end and a Chinese draggon with a curly tail, and a case
of sweet little stuffed humming birds and a sand-glass for boiling eggs
by and a framed wreath made out of the hair of all the dead Priests
and lots of old dagerrotipes. But the thing I like the best of all is
a great silvery shining ball hanging from the lamp in the parlour. It
reflects everything like a little fairy world. Aunt Nancy calls it a
gazing-ball, and says that when she is dead I am to have it. I wish
she hadn’t said that because I want the ball so much that I can’t help
wondering when she will die and that makes me feel wicked. I am to
have the chessy-cat door knocker and her gold earrings, too. These are
Murray airlooms. Aunt Nancy says the Priest airlooms must go to the
Priests. I will like the chessy-cat but I don’t want the earrings. I’d
rather not have people notice my ears.

“I have to sleep alone. I feel frightened but I think if I could get
over being frightened I’d like it. I don’t mind the swallows now. It’s
just being alone so far away from any one. But it is lovely to be able
to stretch out your legs just as you like and not have anybody scold
you for skwirming. And when I wake up in the night and think of a
splendid line of poetry (because the things that you think of like that
always seem the best) I can get right out of bed and write it right
down in my Jimmy-book. I couldn’t do that at home and then by morning
I’d likely forget it. I thought of such a nice line last night. “Lilies
lifted pearly chaluses (a chalus is a kind of cup only more poetical)
where bees were drowned in sweetness” and I felt happy because I was
sure they were two better lines than any I had composed yet.

“I am allowed to go into the kitchen and help Caroline cook. Caroline
is a good cook but sometimes she makes a mistake and this vexes Aunt
Nancy because she likes nice things to eat. The other day Caroline
made the barley soup far too thick and when Aunt Nancy looked at her
plate she said “Lord, is this a dinner or a poltis?” Caroline said
“It is good enough for a Priest and what is good enough for a Priest
is good enough for a Murray,” and Aunt Nancy said “Woman, the Priests
eat of the crumbs that fall from the Murrays’ tables,” and Caroline
was so mad she cried. And Aunt Nancy said to me “Emily, never marry a
Priest”--just like Old Kelly, when I have no notion of marrying one of
them. I don’t like any of them I’ve seen very much but they seem to me
a good deal like other people. Jim is the best of them but impident.

“I like the Wyther Grange breakfasts better than the New Moon
breakfasts. We have toast and bacon and marmalade--nicer than porridge.

“Sunday is more amusing here than at New Moon but not so holy. Nice
for a change. Aunt Nancy can’t go to church or knit lace so she and
Caroline play cards all day but she says I must never do it--that
she is just a bad example. I love to look at Aunt Nancy’s big parlor
Bible because there are so many interesting things in it--pieces of
dresses and hair and poetry and old tintipes and accounts of deaths
and weddings. I found a piece about my own birth and it gave me a queer
feeling.

“In the afternoon some of the Priests come to see Aunt Nancy and stay
to supper. Leslie Priest always comes. He is Aunt Nancy’s faverite
neffew, so Jim says. I think that is because he pays her compliments.
But I saw him wink at Isaac Priest once when he paid her one. I don’t
like him. He treats me as if I was a meer child. Aunt Nancy says
terrible things to them all but they just laugh. When they go away Aunt
Nancy makes fun of them to Caroline. Caroline doesn’t like it, because
she is a Priest and so she and Aunt Nancy always quarrel Sunday evening
and don’t speak again till Monday morning.

“I can read all the books in Aunt Nancy’s bookcase except the row on
the top shelf. I wonder why I can’t read them. Aunt Nancy said they
were French novels but I just peeped into one and it was English. I
wonder if Aunt Nancy tells lies.

“The place I love best is down at bay shore. Some parts of the shore
are very steep and there are such nice, woodsy, _unexpected_ places
all along it. I wander there and compose poetry. I miss Ilse and Teddy
and Perry and Saucy Sal a great deal. I had a letter from Ilse today.
She wrote me that they couldn’t do anything more about the Midsummer
Night’s Dream till I got back. It is nice to feel so necessary.

“Aunt Nancy doesn’t like Aunt Elizabeth. She called her a “tyrant” one
day and then she said “Jimmy Murray was a very clever boy. Elizabeth
Murray killed his intellect in her temper--and nothing was done to her.
If she had killed his body she would have been a murderess. The other
was worse, if you ask me.” I do not like Aunt Elizabeth at times myself
but I felt, dear Father, that I must stand up for _my family_ and I
said “I do not want to hear such things said of my Aunt Elizabeth.”

“And I just gave Aunt Nancy a _look_. She said “Well, Saucebox, my
brother Archibald will never be dead as long as you’re alive. If you
don’t want to hear things don’t hang around when Caroline and I are
talking. I notice there are plenty of things you like to hear.”

“This was sarcasm, dear Father, but still I feel Aunt Nancy likes me
but perhaps she will not like me very long. Jim Priest says she is
fikkle and never liked anyone, even her husband, very long. But after
she has been sarcastic to me she always tells Caroline to give me a
piece of pie so I don’t mind the sarcasm. She lets me have real tea,
too. I like it. At New Moon Aunt Elizabeth won’t give me anything but
cambric tea because it is best for my health. Aunt Nancy says the way
to be healthy is to eat just what you want and never think about your
stomach. But then she was never threttened with consumption. She says I
needn’t be a bit frightened of dying of consumption because I have too
much ginger in me. That is a comforting thought. The only time I don’t
like Aunt Nancy is when she begins talking about the different parts of
me and the effect they will have on the men. It makes me feel so silly.

“I will write you oftener after this, dear Father. I feel I have been
neglecting you.

“P. S. I am afraid there are some mistakes in spelling in this letter.
I forgot to bring my dictionary with me.

                                           “JULY 22.

“Oh, dear Father, I am in a dreadful scrape. I don’t know what I am to
do. Oh, Father, I have broken Aunt Nancy’s Jakobite glass. It seems to
me like a dreadful dream.

“I went into the parlor today to look at the pickled snake and just as
I was turning away my sleeve caught the Jakobite glass and over it went
on the harth and _shivered into fragments_. At first I rushed out and
left them there but afterwards I went back and carefully gathered them
up and hid them in a box behind the sofa. Aunt Nancy never goes into
the parlor now and Caroline not very often and perhaps they may not
miss the glass until I go home. But it _haunts_ me. I keep thinking of
it all the time and I cannot enjoy anything. I know Aunt Nancy will be
furious and never forgive me if she finds out. I could not sleep all
night for worrying about it. Jim Priest came down to play with me today
but he said there was no fun in me and went home. The Priests mostly
say what they think. Of course there was no fun in me. How could there
be? I wonder if it would do any good to pray about it. I don’t feel as
if it would be right to pray because I am deceiving Aunt Nancy.

                                           “JULY 24.

“Dear Father, this is a very strange world. Nothing ever turns out
just like what you expect. Last night I couldn’t sleep again. I was
so worried. I thought I was a coward, and doing an underhanded thing
and not living up to my tradishuns. At last it got so bad I couldn’t
stand it. I can bear it when other people have a bad opinion of me but
it hurts too much when I have a bad opinion of myself. So I got out of
bed and went right back through all those halls to the back parlor.
Aunt Nancy was still there all alone playing Solitare. She said what
on earth was I out of bed for at such an hour. I just said, short and
quick to get the worst over, “I broke your Jakobite glass yesterday
and hid the pieces behind the sofa.” Then I waited for the _storm to
burst_. Aunt Nancy said “What a blessing. I’ve often wanted to smash it
but never had the courage. All the Priest clan are waiting for me to
die to get that glass and quarrel over it and I’m tickled to think none
of them can have it now and yet can’t pick a fuss with me over smashing
it. Get off to bed and get your beauty sleep.” I said “And aren’t you
mad at all, Aunt Nancy?” “If it had been a Murray airloom I’d have
torn up the turf” Aunt Nancy said. “But I don’t care a hoot about the
Priest things.”

“So I went back to bed, dear Father, and felt very releeved, but not so
heroyik.

“I had a letter from Ilse today. She says Saucy Sal has had kittens at
last. I feel that I ought to be home to see about them. Likely Aunt
Elizabeth will have them all drowned before I get back. I had a letter
from Teddy too, not much of a letter but all filled with dear little
pictures of Ilse and Perry and the Tansy Patch and Lofty John’s bush.
They made me feel homesick.

                                           “JULY 28.

“Oh, Father dear, I have found out all about the mistery of Ilse’s
mother. It is so terrible I can’t write it down even to you. I cannot
believe it but Aunt Nancy says it is true. I did not think there could
be such terrible things in the world. No, I can’t believe it and I
won’t believe it no matter who says it is true. I _know_ Ilse’s mother
_couldn’t_ have done anything like that. There must have been a fearful
mistake somewhere. I am so unhappy and feel as if I could never be
happy any more. Last night I wept on my pillow, like the heroins in
Aunt Nancy’s books do.”




CHAPTER XXV

“SHE COULDN’T HAVE DONE IT”


Great-Aunt Nancy and Caroline Priest were wont to colour their grey
days with the remembered crimsons of old, long-past delights and
merry-makings, but they went further than this and talked over any
number of old family histories before Emily with a total disregard of
her youth. Loves, births, deaths, scandals, tragedies--anything that
came into their old heads. Nor did they spare details. Aunt Nancy
revelled in details. She forgot nothing, and sins and weaknesses that
death had covered and time shown mercy to were ruthlessly dragged out
and dissected by this ghoulish old lady.

Emily was not quite certain whether she really liked it or not. It
_was_ fascinating--it fed some dramatic hunger in her--but it made her
feel unhappy somehow, as if something very ugly were concealed in the
darkness of the pit they opened before her innocent eyes. As Aunt Laura
had said, her youth protected her to some extent, but it could not save
her from a dreadful understanding of the pitiful story of Ilse’s mother
on the afternoon when it seemed good to Aunt Nancy to resurrect that
tale of anguish and shame.

Emily was curled up on the sofa in the back parlour, reading _The
Scottish Chiefs_ because it was a breathlessly hot July afternoon--too
hot to haunt the bay shore. Emily was feeling very happy. The Wind
Woman was ruffling over the big maple grove behind the Grange, turning
the leaves until every tree seemed to be covered with strange, pale,
silvery blossoms; fragrances drifted in from the garden; the world was
lovely; she had had a letter from Aunt Laura saying that one of Saucy
Sal’s kittens had been saved for her. Emily had felt when Mike II died
that she would never want another cat. But now she found she did.
Everything suited her very well; she was so happy that she should have
sacrificed her dearest possession to the jealous gods if she had known
anything about the old pagan belief.

Aunt Nancy was tired of playing solitaire. She pushed the cards away
and took up her knitting.

“Emily,” she said, “has your Aunt Laura any notion of marrying Dr.
Burnley?”

Emily, recalled thus abruptly from the field of Bannockburn, looked
bored. Blair Water gossip had often asked or hinted this question; and
now it met her in Priest Pond.

“No, I’m sure she hasn’t,” she said. “Why, Aunt Nancy, Dr. Burnley
_hates_ women.”

Aunt Nancy chuckled.

“Thought perhaps he’d got over that. It’s eleven years now since his
wife ran away. Few men hold to one idea for anything like eleven years.
But Allan Burnley always was stubborn in anything--love or hate. He
still loves his wife--and that is why he hates her memory and all other
women.”

“I never heard the rights of that story,” said Caroline. “Who was his
wife?”

“Beatrice Mitchell--one of the Shrewsbury Mitchells. She was only
eighteen when Allan married her. He was thirty-five. Emily, never you
be fool enough to marry a man much older than yourself.”

Emily said nothing. _The Scottish Chiefs_ was forgotten. Her
finger-tips were growing cold as they always did in excitement, her
eyes turning black. She felt that she was on the verge of solving the
mystery that had so long worried and puzzled her. She was desperately
afraid that Aunt Nancy would branch off to something else.

“I’ve heard she was a great beauty,” said Caroline.

Aunt Nancy sniffed.

“Depends on your taste in style. Oh, she was pretty--one of your
golden-haired dolls. She had a little birthmark over her left
eyebrow--just like a tiny red heart--I never could see anything but
that mark when I looked at her. But her flatterers told her it was a
beauty spot--‘the Ace of Hearts’ they called her. Allan was mad about
her. She had been a flirt before her marriage. But I _will_ say--for
justice among women is a rare thing, Caroline--_you_, for instance, are
an unjust old hag--that she didn’t flirt after marrying--openly, at
least. She was a sly puss--always laughing and singing and dancing--no
wife for Allan Burnley if you ask me. And he could have had Laura
Murray. But between a fool and a sensible woman did a man ever
hesitate? The fool wins every time, Caroline. That’s why _you_ never
got a husband. You were too sensible. I got mine by pretending to be a
fool. Emily, you remember that. You have brains--hide them. Your ankles
will do more for you than your brains ever will.”

“Never mind Emily’s ankles,” said Caroline, keen on a scandal hunt. “Go
on about the Burnleys.”

“Well, there was a cousin of hers--Leo Mitchell from Shrewsbury. You
remember the Mitchells, don’t you, Caroline? This Leo was a handsome
fellow--a sea-captain. He had been in love with Beatrice, so gossip
ran. Some said Beatrice wanted him but that her people made her marry
Allan Burnley because he was the better match. Who knows? Gossip lies
nine times and tells a half truth the tenth. She pretended to be in
love with Allan anyhow, and he believed it. When Leo came home from a
voyage and found Beatrice married he took it coolly enough. But he was
always over at Blair Water. Beatrice had plenty of excuses. Leo was her
cousin--they had been brought up together--they were like brother and
sister--she was so lonesome in Blair Water after living in a town--he
had no home except with a brother. Allan took it all down--he was so
infatuated with her she could have made him believe anything. She and
Leo were always together there when Allan was away seeing his patients.
Then came the night Leo’s vessel--_The Lady of Winds_--was to sail from
Blair Harbour for South America. He went--and my lady Beatrice went
with him.”

A queer little strangled sound came from Emily’s corner. If Aunt Nancy
or Caroline had looked at her they would have seen that the child was
white as the dead, with wide, horror-filled eyes. But they did not
look. They knitted and gossiped on, enjoying themselves hugely.

“How did the doctor take it?” asked Caroline.

“Take it--take it--nobody knows. Everybody knows what kind of a man
he’s been ever since, though. He came home that night at dusk. The baby
was asleep in its crib and the servant girl was watching it. She told
Allan that Mrs. Burnley had gone to the harbour with her cousin for a
good-bye walk and would be back at ten. Allan waited for her easily
enough--he never doubted her--but she didn’t come back. She had never
intended to come back. In the morning _The Lady of Winds_ was gone--had
sailed out of the harbour at dark the night before. Beatrice had gone
on board with him--that was all anybody knew. Allan Burnley _said_
nothing, beyond forbidding her name ever to be mentioned in his hearing
again. But _The Lady of Winds_ was lost with all on board off Hatteras
and that was the end of that elopement, and the end of Beatrice with
her beauty and her laughter and her Ace of Hearts.”

“But not the end of the shame and wretchedness she brought to her
home,” said Caroline shrewishly. “I’d tar and feather such a woman.”

“Nonsense--if a man can’t look after his wife--if he blinds his own
eyes-- Mercy on us, child, what is the matter?”

For Emily was standing up, holding out her hands as if pushing some
loathly thing from her.

“I don’t believe it,” she cried, in a high, unnatural voice. “I don’t
believe Ilse’s mother did _that_. She didn’t--she couldn’t have--not
Ilse’s _mother_.”

“Catch her, Caroline!” cried Aunt Nancy.

But Emily, though the back parlour had whirled about her for a second,
had recovered herself.

“Don’t touch me!” she cried passionately. “Don’t touch me!
You--you--you _liked_ hearing that story!”

She rushed out of the room. Aunt Nancy looked ashamed for a moment. For
the first time it occurred to her that her scandal-loving old tongue
had done a black thing. Then she shrugged her shoulders.

“She can’t go through life in cotton wool. Might as well learn spades
are spades now as ever. I would have thought she’d have heard it all
long ago if Blair Water gossip is what it used to be. If she goes home
and tells this I’ll have the indignant virgins of New Moon coming down
on me in holy horror as a corrupter of youth. Caroline, don’t you ask
me to tell you any more family horrors before my niece, you scandalous
old woman. At your age! I’m surprised at you!”

Aunt Nancy and Caroline returned to their knitting and their spicy
reminiscences, and upstairs in the Pink Room Emily lay face downwards
on her bed and cried for hours. It was so horrible--Ilse’s mother
had run away and left her little baby. To Emily that was the awful
thing--the strange, cruel, heartless thing that Ilse’s mother had done.
She could not bring herself to believe it--there was some mistake
somewhere--there _was_.

“Perhaps she was kidnapped,” said Emily, trying desperately to explain
it. “She just went on board to look around--and he weighed anchor and
carried her off. She _couldn’t_ have gone away of her own accord and
left her dear little baby.”

The story haunted Emily in good earnest. She could think of nothing
else for days. It took possession of her and worried and gnawed at her
with an almost physical pain. She dreaded going back to New Moon and
meeting Ilse with this consciousness of a dark secret which she must
hide from her. Ilse knew nothing. She had asked Ilse once where her
mother was buried and Ilse had said, “Oh, I don’t know. At Shrewsbury,
I guess--that’s where all the Mitchells are buried.”

Emily wrung her slim hands together. She was as sensitive to ugliness
and pain as she was to beauty and pleasure, and this thing was both
hideous and agonizing. Yet she could not keep from thinking about it,
day and night. Life at Wyther Grange suddenly went stale. Aunt Nancy
and Caroline all at once gave up talking family history, even harmless
history, before her. And as it was painful repression for them, they
did not encourage her hanging round. Emily began to feel that they
were glad when she was out of hearing, so she kept away and spent
most of her days wandering on the bay shore. She could not compose
any poetry--she could not write in her Jimmy-book--she could not even
write to her father. Something seemed to hang between her and her old
delights. There was a drop of poison in every cup. Even the filmy
shadows on the great bay, the charm of its fir-hung cliffs and its
little purple islets that looked like outposts of fairyland, could not
bring to her the old “fine, careless rapture.” She was afraid she could
never be happy again--so intense had been her reaction to her first
revelation of the world’s sin and sorrow. And under it all, persisted
the same incredulity--Ilse’s mother _couldn’t_ have done it--and the
same helpless longing to prove she couldn’t have done it. But how could
it be proved? It couldn’t. She had solved one “mystery” but she had
stumbled into a darker one--the reason why Beatrice Burnley had never
come back on that summer twilight of long ago. For, all the evidence of
facts to the contrary notwithstanding, Emily persisted in her secret
belief that whatever the reason _was_, it was _not_ that she had gone
away in _The Lady of Winds_ when that doomed ship sailed out into the
starlit wonder of the gulf beyond Blair Harbour.




CHAPTER XXVI

ON THE BAY SHORE


“I wonder,” thought Emily, “how much longer I have to live.”

She had prowled that evening further down the bay shore than she had
ever gone before. It was a warm, windy evening; the air was resinous
and sweet; the bay a misty turquoise. That part of the shore whereon
she found herself seemed as lonely and virgin as if no human foot had
ever trodden it, save for a tiny, tricksy path, slender as red thread
and bordered by great, green, velvety sheets of moss, that wound in
and out of the big firs and scrub spruces. The banks grew steeper and
rockier as she went on and finally the little path vanished altogether
in a plot of bracken. Emily was just turning to go back when she caught
sight of a magnificent spray of farewell summer, growing far out on the
edge of the bank. She must get it--she had never seen farewell-summers
of so dark and rich a purple. She stepped out to reach them--the
treacherous mossy soil gave way under her feet and slid down the steep
slope. Emily made a frantic attempt to scramble back but the harder she
tried, the faster went the landslide, carrying her with it. In a moment
it would pass the slope and go over the brink of the rocks, straight
to the boulder-strewn shore thirty feet below. Emily had one dreadful
moment of terror and despair; and then she found that the clump of
mossy earth which had broken away had held on a narrow ledge of rock,
half hanging over it; and she was lying on the clump. It seemed to her
that the slightest movement on her part would send it over, straight to
the cruel boulders underneath.

She lay very still, trying to think--trying not to be afraid. She was
far, far away from any house--nobody could hear her if she screamed.
And she did not even dare to scream lest the motion of her body
dislodge the fragment on which she lay. How long could she lie there
motionless? Night was coming on. Aunt Nancy would grow anxious when
the dark fell and would send Caroline to look for her. But Caroline
would never find her here. Nobody would ever think of looking here for
her, so far away from the Grange, in the spruce barrens of the Lower
Bay. To lie there alone all night--to fancy the earth was slipping
over--waiting for help that would never come--Emily could hardly
restrain a shudder that might have been ruinous.

She had faced death once before, or thought she had, on the night when
Lofty John had told her she had eaten a poisoned apple--but this was
even harder. To die here, all alone, far away from home! They might
never know what had become of her--never find her. The crows or the
gulls would pick her eyes out. She dramatized the thing so vividly that
she almost screamed with the horror of it. She would just disappear
from the world as Ilse’s mother had disappeared.

_What had become of Ilse’s mother?_ Even in her own desperate plight
Emily asked herself that question. And she would never see dear New
Moon again and Teddy and the dairy and the Tansy Patch and Lofty
John’s bush and the mossy old sundial and her precious little heap of
manuscripts on the sofa shelf in the garret.

“I must be very brave and patient,” she thought. “My only chance is to
lie still. And I can pray in my mind--I’m sure God can hear thoughts as
well as words. It is nice to think He can hear me if nobody else can.
O God--Father’s God--please work a miracle and save my life, because I
don’t think I’m fit to die yet. Excuse my not being on my knees--You
can see I can’t move. And if I die please don’t let Aunt Elizabeth find
my letter-bills ever. Please let Aunt Laura find them. And please don’t
let Caroline move out the wardrobe when she house-cleans because then
she would find my Jimmy-book and read what I wrote about her. Please
forgive all my sins, especially not being grateful enough and cutting a
bang, and please don’t let Father be very far away. Amen.”

Then, characteristically she thought of a postscript. “And oh, _please_
let somebody find out that Ilse’s mother didn’t do _that_.”

She lay very still. The light on the water began to turn warm gold and
rose. A great pine on a bluff in front of her overflowed in a crest of
dark boughs against the amber splendour behind it--a part of the beauty
of the beautiful world that was slipping away from her. The chill of
the evening gulf breeze began to creep over her. Once a bit of earth
broke off at her side and went down--Emily heard the thud of the little
pebbles in it on the boulders below. The portion upon which one of her
legs lay was quite loose and pendent also. She knew it might break off,
too, at any moment. It would be very dreadful to be there when it got
dark. She could see the big spray of farewell-summer that had lured her
to her doom, waving unplucked above her, wonderfully purple and lovely.

Then, beside it, she saw a man’s face looking down at her!

She heard him say, “My God!” softly to himself. She saw that he was
slight and that one shoulder was a trifle higher than the other. This
must be Dean Priest--Jarback Priest. Emily dared not call to him. She
lay still and her great, grey-purple eyes said, “Save me.”

“How can I help you?” said Dean Priest hoarsely, as if to himself. “I
cannot reach you--and it looks as if the slightest touch or jar would
send that broken earth over the brink. I must go for a rope--and to
leave you here alone--like this. Can you wait, child?”

“Yes,” breathed Emily. She smiled at him to encourage him--the little
soft smile that began at the corners of her mouth and spread over her
face. Dean Priest never forgot that smile--and the steadfast child-eyes
looking out through it from the little face that seemed so perilously
near the brink.

“I’ll be as quick as I can,” he said. “I can’t go very fast--I’m a bit
lame, you see. But don’t be frightened--I’ll save you. I’ll leave my
dog to keep you company. Here, Tweed.”

He whistled--a great, tawny-gold dog came in sight.

“Sit right there, Tweed, till I come back. Don’t stir a paw--don’t wag
a tail--talk to her only with your eyes.”

Tweed sat down obediently and Dean Priest disappeared.

Emily lay there and dramatized the whole incident for her Jimmy-book.
She was a little frightened still, but not too frightened to see
herself writing it all out the next day. It would be quite a thrilling
bit.

She liked to know the big dog was there. She was not so learned in
lore of dogs as in lore of cats. But he looked very human and trusty
watching her with great kindly eyes. A grey kitten was an adorable
thing--but a grey kitten would not have sat there and encouraged her.
“I believe,” thought Emily, “that a dog is better than a cat when
you’re in trouble.”

It was half an hour before Dean Priest returned.

“Thank God you haven’t gone over,” he muttered. “I hadn’t to go as far
as I feared--I found a rope in an empty boat up-shore and took it. And
now--if I drop the rope down to you, are you strong enough to hold it
while the earth goes and then hang on while I pull you up?”

“I’ll try,” said Emily.

Dean Priest knotted a loop at the end and slid it down to her. Then he
wound the rope around the trunk of a heavy fir.

“Now,” he said.

Emily said inwardly, “Dear God, _please_--” and caught the swaying
loop. The next moment the full weight of her body swung from it, for at
her first movement the broken soil beneath her slipped down--slipped
over. Dean Priest sickened and shivered. Could she cling to the rope
while he drew her up?

Then he saw she had got a little knee-hold on the narrow shelf.
Carefully he drew on the rope. Emily, full of pluck, helped him by
digging her toes into the crumbling bank. In a moment she was within
his reach. He grasped her arms and pulled her up beside him into
safety. As he lifted her past the farewell-summer Emily reached out her
hand and broke off the spray.

“I’ve got it, anyhow,” she said jubilantly. Then she remembered her
manners. “I’m much obliged to you. You saved my life. And--and--I think
I’ll sit down a moment. My legs feel funny and trembly.”

Emily sat down, all at once more shaky than she had been through all
the danger. Dean Priest leaned against the gnarled old fir. He seemed
“trembly” too. He wiped his forehead with his handkerchief. Emily
looked curiously at him. She had learned a good deal about him from
Aunt Nancy’s casual remarks--not always good-natured remarks, for
Aunt Nancy did not wholly like him, it seemed. She always called him
“Jarback” rather contemptuously, while Caroline scrupulously called him
Dean. Emily knew he had been to college, that he was thirty-six years
old--which to Emily seemed a venerable age--and well-off; that he had a
malformed shoulder and limped slightly; that he cared for nothing save
books nor ever had; that he lived with an older brother and travelled
a great deal; and that the whole Priest clan stood somewhat in awe of
his ironic tongue. Aunt Nancy had called him a “cynic.” Emily did not
know what a cynic was but it sounded interesting. She looked him over
carefully and saw that he had delicate, pale features and tawny-brown
hair. His lips were thin and sensitive, with a whimsical curve. She
liked his mouth. Had she been older she would have known why--because
it connoted strength and tenderness and humour.

In spite of his twisted shoulder there was about him a certain aloof
dignity of presence which was characteristic of many of the Priests and
which was often mistaken for pride. The green Priest eyes, that were
peering and uncanny in Caroline’s face and impudent in Jim Priest’s,
were remarkably dreamy and attractive in his.

“Well, do you think me handsome?” he said, sitting down on another
stone and smiling at her. His voice was beautiful--musical and
caressing.

Emily blushed. She knew staring was not etiquette, and she did not
think him at all handsome, so she was very thankful that he did not
press his question, but asked another.

“Do you know who your knightly rescuer is?”

“I think you must be Jar--Mr. Dean Priest.” Emily flushed again with
vexation. She had come so near to making another terrible hole in her
manners.

“Yes, Jarback Priest. You needn’t mind the nickname. I’ve heard
it often enough. It’s a Priest idea of humour.” He laughed rather
unpleasantly. “The reason for it is obvious enough, isn’t it? I never
got anything else at school. How came you to slide over that cliff?”

“I wanted this,” said Emily, waving her farewell-summer.

“And you have it! Do you always get what you go after, even with death
slipping a thin wedge between? I think you’re born lucky. I see the
signs. If that big aster lured you into danger it saved you as well,
for it was through stepping over to investigate it that I saw you. Its
size and colour caught my eye. Otherwise I should have gone on and
you--what would have become of you? Whom do you belong to that you are
let risk your life on these dangerous banks? What is your name--if you
have a name! I begin to doubt you--I see you have pointed ears. Have I
been tricked into meddling with fairies, and will I discover presently
that twenty years have passed and that I am an old man long since
lost to the living world with nothing but the skeleton of my dog for
company?”

“I am Emily Byrd Starr of New Moon,” said Emily, rather coldly. She was
beginning to be sensitive about her ears. Father Cassidy had remarked
on them--and now Jarback Priest. Was there really something uncanny
about them?

And yet there was a flavour about the said Jarback that she
liked--liked decidedly. Emily never was long in doubt about any one
she met. In a few minutes she always knew whether she liked, disliked,
or was indifferent to them. She had a queer feeling that she had known
Jarback Priest for years--perhaps because it had seemed so long when
she was lying on that crumbling earth waiting for him to return. He
was not handsome but she liked that lean, clever face of his with its
magnetic green eyes.

“So you’re the young lady visitor at the Grange!” said Dean Priest,
in some astonishment. “Then my dear Aunt Nancy should look after you
better--my _very_ dear Aunt Nancy.”

“You don’t like Aunt Nancy, I see,” said Emily coolly.

“What is the use of liking a lady who won’t like me? You have probably
discovered by this time that my Lady Aunt detests me.”

“Oh, I don’t think it’s as bad as that,” said Emily. “She must have
some good opinions about you--she says you’re the only Priest who will
ever go to heaven.”

“She doesn’t mean that as a compliment, whatever you in your innocence
believe it to be. And you are Douglas Starr’s daughter? I knew your
father. We were boys together at Queen’s Academy--we drifted apart
after we left it--he went into journalism, I to McGill. But he was the
only friend I had at school--the only boy who would bother himself
about Jarback Priest, who was lame and hunchbacked and couldn’t play
football or hockey. Emily Byrd Starr--Starr should be your first name.
You look like a star--you have a radiant sort of personality shining
through you--your proper habitat should be the evening sky just after
sunset--or the morning sky just before sunrise. Yes. You’d be more at
home in the morning sky. I think I shall call you Star.”

“Do you mean that you think me pretty?” asked Emily directly.

“Why, it hadn’t occurred to me to wonder whether you were pretty or
not. Do you think a star should be pretty?”

Emily reflected.

“No,” she said finally, “the word doesn’t suit a star.”

“I perceive you are an artist in words. Of course it doesn’t. Stars are
prismatic--palpitating--elusive. It is not often we find one made flesh
and blood. I think I’ll wait for you.”

“Oh, I’m ready to go now,” said Emily, standing up.

“H’m. That wasn’t what I meant. Never mind. Come along, Star--if you
don’t mind walking a bit slowly. I’ll take you back from the wilderness
at least--I don’t know that I’ll venture to Wyther Grange to-night.
I don’t want Aunt Nancy to take the edge off _you_. And so you don’t
think me handsome?”

“I didn’t say so,” cried Emily.

“Not in words. But I can read your thoughts, Star--it won’t ever do
to think anything you don’t want me to know. The gods gave me that
gift--when they kept back everything else I wanted. You don’t think me
handsome but you think me nice. Do you think you are pretty yourself?”

“A little--since Aunt Nancy lets me wear my bang,” said Emily frankly.

Jarback Priest made a grimace.

“Don’t call it by such a name. It’s a worse name even than bustle.
Bangs and bustles--they hurt me. I like that black wave breaking on
your white brows--but don’t call it a bang--ever again.”

“It _is_ a very ugly word. I never use it in my poetry, of course.”

Whereby Dean Priest discovered that Emily wrote poetry. He also
discovered pretty nearly everything else about her in that charming
walk back to Priest Pond in the fir-scented dusk, with Tweed walking
between them, his nose touching his master’s hand softly every now and
then, while the robins in the trees above them whistled blithely in the
afterlight.

With nine out of ten people Emily was secretive and reserved, but Dean
Priest was sealed of her tribe and she divined it instantly. He had a
right to the inner sanctuary and she yielded it unquestioningly. She
talked to him freely.

Besides, she felt _alive_ again--she felt the wonderful thrill of
living again, after that dreadful space when she had seemed to
hang between life and death. She felt, as she wrote to her father
afterwards, “as if a little bird was singing in my heart.” And oh, how
good the green sod felt under her feet!

She told him all about herself and her doings and beings. Only one
thing she did not tell him--her worry over Ilse’s mother. _That_ she
could not speak of to any one. Aunt Nancy need not have been frightened
that she would carry tales to New Moon.

“I wrote a whole poem yesterday when it rained and I couldn’t get out,”
she said. “It began,

    I sit by the western window
    That looks on Malvern Bay--”

“Am I not to hear the whole of it?” asked Dean, who knew perfectly well
that Emily was hoping that he would ask it.

Emily delightedly repeated the whole poem. When she came to the two
lines she liked best in it,

    Perhaps in those wooded islands
      That gem the proud bay’s breast--

she looked up sidewise at him to see if he admired them. But he was
walking with eyes cast down and an absent expression on his face. She
felt a little disappointed.

“H’m,” he said when she had finished. “You’re twelve, didn’t you say?
When you’re ten years older I shouldn’t wonder--but let’s not think of
it.”

“Father Cassidy told me to keep on,” cried Emily.

“There was no need of it. You _would_ keep on anyhow--you have the itch
for writing born in you. It’s quite incurable. What are you going to do
with it?”

“I think I shall be either a great poetess or a distinguished
novelist,” said Emily reflectively.

“Having only to choose,” remarked Dean dryly. “Better be a novelist--I
hear it pays better.”

“What worries me about writing novels,” confided Emily, “is the love
talk in them. I’m sure I’ll never be able to write it. I’ve tried,” she
concluded candidly, “and I can’t think of _anything_ to say.”

“Don’t worry about that. _I’ll_ teach you some day,” said Dean.

“Will you--will you really?” Emily was very eager. “I’ll be so obliged
if you will. I _think_ I could manage _everything_ else very nicely.”

“It’s a bargain then--don’t forget it. And don’t go looking for another
teacher, mind. What do you find to do at the Grange besides writing
poetry? Are you never lonesome with only those two old survivals?”

“No. I enjoy my own company,” said Emily gravely.

“You would. Stars are said to dwell apart, anyhow, sufficient unto
themselves--ensphered in their own light. Do you really like Aunt
Nancy?”

“Yes, indeed. She is very kind to me. She doesn’t make me wear
sunbonnets and she lets me go barefooted in the forenoons. But I have
to wear my buttoned boots in the afternoons, and I hate buttoned boots.”

“Naturally. You should be shod with sandals of moonshine and wear a
scarf of sea-mist with a few fireflies caught in it over your hair.
Star, you don’t look like your father, but you suggest him in several
ways. Do you look like your mother? I never saw her.”

All at once Emily smiled demurely. A real sense of humour was born in
her at that moment. Never again was she to feel quite so unmixedly
tragic over anything.

“No,” she said, “it’s only my eyelashes and smile that are like
Mother’s. But I’ve got Father’s forehead, and Grandma Starr’s hair
and eyes, and Great-Uncle George’s nose, and Aunt Nancy’s hands, and
Cousin Susan’s elbows, and Great-great-Grandmother Murray’s ankles, and
Grandfather Murray’s eyebrows.”

Dean Priest laughed.

“A rag-bag--as we all are,” he said. “But your soul is your own, and
fire-new, I’ll swear to that.”

“Oh, I’m so glad I like you,” said Emily impulsively. “It would be
_hateful_ to think any one I didn’t like had saved my life. I don’t
mind _your_ saving it a bit.”

“That’s good. Because you see your life belongs to me henceforth. Since
I saved it it’s mine. Never forget that.”

Emily felt an odd sensation of rebellion. She didn’t fancy the idea
of her life belonging to anybody but herself--not even to anybody she
liked as much as she liked Dean Priest. Dean, watching her, saw it and
smiled his whimsical smile that always seemed to have so much more in
it than mere smiling.

“That doesn’t quite suit you? Ah, you see one pays a penalty when one
reaches out for something beyond the ordinary. One pays for it in
bondage of some kind or other. Take your wonderful aster home and keep
it as long as you can. It has cost you your freedom.”

He was laughing--he was only joking, of course--yet Emily felt as if a
cobweb fetter had been flung round her. Yielding to a sudden impulse
she flung the big aster on the ground and set her foot on it.

Dean Priest looked on amusedly. His strange eyes were very kindly as he
met hers.

“You rare thing--you vivid thing--you starry thing! We are going to be
good friends--we _are_ good friends. I’m coming up to Wyther Grange
to-morrow to see those descriptions you’ve written of Caroline and
my venerable Aunt in your Jimmy-book. I feel sure they’re delicious.
Here’s your path--don’t go roaming again so far from civilization.
Good-night, my Star of the Morning.”

He stood at the crossroad and watched her out of sight.

“What a child!” he muttered. “I’ll never forget her eyes as she lay
there on the edge of death--the dauntless little soul--and I’ve never
seen a creature who seemed so full of sheer joy in existence. She is
Douglas Starr’s child--_he_ never called me Jarback.”

He stooped and picked up the broken aster. Emily’s heel had met it
squarely and it was badly crushed. But he put it away that night
between the leaves of an old volume of _Jane Eyre_, where he had marked
a verse--

    All glorious rose upon my sight
    That child of shower and gleam.




CHAPTER XXVII

THE VOW OF EMILY


In Dean Priest Emily found, for the first time since her father had
died, a companion who could fully sympathize. She was always at her
best with him, with a delightful feeling of being understood. To love
is easy and therefore common--but to _understand_--how rare it is!
They roamed wonderlands of fancy together in the magic August days
that followed upon Emily’s adventure on the bay shore, talked together
of exquisite, immortal things, and were at home with “nature’s old
felicities” of which Wordsworth so happily speaks.

Emily showed him all the poetry and “descriptions” in her “Jimmy-book”
and he read them gravely, and, exactly as Father had done, made little
criticisms that did not hurt her because she knew they were just. As
for Dean Priest, a certain secret well-spring of fancy that had long
seemed dry bubbled up in him sparklingly again.

“You make me believe in fairies, whether I will or no,” he told her,
“and that means youth. As long as you believe in fairies you can’t grow
old.”

“But I can’t believe in fairies myself,” protested Emily sorrowfully.
“I wish I could.”

“But _you_ are a fairy yourself--or you wouldn’t be able to find
fairyland. You can’t buy a ticket there, you know. Either the fairies
themselves give you your passport at your christening--or they don’t.
That is all there is to it.”

“Isn’t ‘Fairyland’ the _loveliest_ word?” said Emily dreamily.

“Because it means everything the human heart desires,” said Dean.

When he talked to her Emily felt as if she were looking into some
enchanted mirror where her own dreams and secret hopes were reflected
back to her with added charm. If Dean Priest were a cynic he showed no
cynicism to Emily. But in her company he was not a cynic; he had shed
his years and became a boy again with a boy’s untainted visions. She
loved him for the world he opened to her view.

There was such fun in him, too,--such sly, surprising fun. He told her
jokes--he made her laugh. He told her strange old tales of forgotten
gods who were very beautiful--of court festivals and the bridals of
kings. He seemed to have the history of the whole world at his fingers’
ends. He described things to her in unforgettable phrases as they
walked by the bay shore or sat in the overgrown, shadowy old garden
of Wyther Grange. When he spoke of Athens as “the City of the Violet
Crown” Emily realized afresh what magic is made when the right words
are wedded; and she loved to think of Rome as “the City of the Seven
Hills.” Dean had been in Rome and Athens--and almost everywhere else.

“I didn’t know any one ever talked as you do except in books,” she told
him.

Dean laughed--with a little note of bitterness that was so often
present in his laughter--though less often with Emily than with other
people. It was really his laughter that had won Dean his reputation for
cynicism. People so often felt that he was laughing _at_ them instead
of _with_ them.

“I’ve had only books for companions most of my life,” he said. “Is it
any wonder I talk like them?”

“I’m sure I’ll like studying history after this,” said Emily; “except
Canadian History. I’ll never like _it_--it’s so dull. Not just at the
first, when we belonged to France and there was plenty of fighting, but
after that it’s nothing but politics.”

“The happiest countries, like the happiest women, have no history,”
said Dean.

“I hope _I’ll_ have a history,” cried Emily. “I want a _thrilling_
career.”

“We all do, foolish one. Do you know what makes history? Pain--and
shame--and rebellion--and bloodshed and heartache. Star, ask yourself
how many hearts ached--and broke--to make those crimson and purple
pages in history that you find so enthralling. I told you the story of
Leonidas and his Spartans the other day. They had mothers, sisters and
sweethearts. If they could have fought a bloodless battle at the polls
wouldn’t it have been better--if not so dramatic.”

“I--can’t--_feel_--that way,” said Emily confusedly. She was not old
enough to think or say, as she would say ten years later, “The heroes
of Thermopylæ have been an inspiration to humanity for centuries. What
squabble around a ballot-box will ever be that?”

“And, like all female creatures, you form your opinions by your
feelings. Well, hope for your thrilling career--but remember that if
there is to be drama in your life _somebody_ must pay the piper in the
coin of suffering. If not you--then some one else.”

“Oh, no, I wouldn’t like _that_.”

“Then be content with fewer thrills. What about your tumble over the
bank down there? That came near being a tragedy. What if I hadn’t found
you?”

“But you _did_ find me,” cried Emily. “I like near escapes--after
they’re over,” she added. “If everybody had always been happy there’d
be nothing to read about.”

Tweed made a third in their rambles and Emily grew very fond of him,
without losing any of her loyalty to the pussy folk.

“I like cats with one part of my mind and dogs with another part,” she
said.

“I like cats but I never keep one,” Dean said. “They’re too
exacting--they ask too much. Dogs want only love but cats demand
worship. They have never got over the Bubastis habit of godship.”

Emily understood this--he had told her all about old Egypt and the
goddess Pasht--but she did not quite agree with him.

“Kittens don’t want to be worshipped,” she said. “They just want to be
cuddled.”

“By their priestesses--yes. If you had been born on the banks of the
Nile five thousand years ago, Emily, you would have been a priestess of
Pasht--an adorable, slim, brown creature with a fillet of gold around
your black hair and bands of silver on those ankles Aunt Nancy admires,
with dozens of sacred little godlings frisking around you under the
palms of the temple courts.”

“Oh,” gasped Emily rapturously, “that gave me _the flash_. And,” she
added wonderingly, “just for a moment it made me _homesick_, too. Why?”

“Why? Because I haven’t a doubt you _were_ just such a priestess in
a former incarnation and my words reminded your soul of it. Do you
believe in the doctrine of the transmigration of souls, Star? But of
course not--brought up by the true-blue Calvinists of New Moon.”

“What does it mean?” asked Emily, and when Dean explained it to her she
thought it a very delightful belief but was quite sure Aunt Elizabeth
would not approve of it.

“So I won’t believe it--yet,” she said gravely.

Then it all came to an end quite suddenly. It had been taken for
granted by all concerned that Emily was to stay at Wyther Grange until
the end of August. But in mid-August Aunt Nancy said suddenly to her
one day,

“Go home, Emily. I’m tired of you. I like you very well--you’re not
stupid and you’re passably pretty and you’ve behaved exceedingly
well--tell Elizabeth you do the Murrays credit--but I’m tired of you.
Go home.”

Emily’s feelings were mixed. It hurt her to be told Aunt Nancy was
tired of her--it would hurt any one. It rankled in her for several days
until she thought of a sharp answer she might have made Aunt Nancy and
wrote it down in her Jimmy-book. She felt quite as relieved then as if
she had really said it.

And she was sorry to leave Wyther Grange; she had grown to love the
old beautiful house, with its flavour of hidden secrets--a flavour
that was wholly a trick of its architecture, for there had never been
anything in it but the simple tale of births and deaths and marriages
and everyday living that most houses have. She was sorry to leave the
bay shore and the quaint garden and the gazing-ball and the chessy-cat
and the Pink Room bed of freedom; and most of all she was sorry to
leave Dean Priest. But on the other hand it was delightful to think
of going back to New Moon and all the loved ones there--Teddy and his
dear whistle, Ilse and her stimulating comradeship, Perry with his
determined reaching up for higher things, Saucy Sal and the new kitten
that must be needing proper training now, and the fairy world of the
_Midsummer Night’s Dream_. Cousin Jimmy’s garden would be in its prime
of splendour, the August apples would be ripe. Suddenly, Emily was very
ready to go. She packed her little black box jubilantly and found it an
excellent chance to work in neatly a certain line from a poem Dean had
recently read to her which had captured her fancy.

“‘Good-bye, proud world, I’m going home,’” she declaimed feelingly,
standing at the top of the long, dark, shining staircase and
apostrophizing the row of grim Priest photographs hanging on the wall.

But she was much annoyed over one thing. Aunt Nancy would not give her
back the picture Teddy had painted.

“I’m going to keep it,” Aunt Nancy said, grinning and shaking her gold
tassels. “Some day that picture will be worth something as the early
effort of a famous artist.”

“I only lent it to you--I told you I only lent it to you,” said Emily
indignantly.

“I’m an unscrupulous old demon,” said Aunt Nancy coolly. “That is
what the Priests all call me behind my back. Don’t they, Caroline?
May as well have the game as the name. I happen to have a fancy for
that picture, that’s all. I’m going to frame it and hang it here in my
parlour. But I’ll leave it to you in my will--that and the chessy-cat
and the gazing-ball and my gold earrings. Nothing else--I’m not going
to leave you a cent of my money--never count on that.”

“I don’t want it,” said Emily loftily. “I’m going to earn heaps of
money for myself. But it isn’t fair of you to keep my picture. It was
given to me.”

“I never was fair,” said Aunt Nancy. “Was I, Caroline?”

“No,” said Caroline shrewishly.

“You see. Now don’t make a fuss, Emily. You’ve been a very good child
but I feel that I’ve done my duty by you for this year. Go back to New
Moon and when Elizabeth won’t let you do things tell her _I_ always let
you. I don’t know if it will do any good but try it. Elizabeth, like
every one else related to me, is always wondering what I’m going to do
with my money.”

Cousin Jimmy came over for Emily. How glad she was to see his kind face
with its gentle, elfish eyes and forked beard again! But she felt very
badly when she turned to Dean.

“If you like I’ll kiss you good-bye,” she said chokily.

Emily did not like kissing people. She did not really want to kiss
Dean but she liked him so much she thought she ought to extend all the
courtesies to him.

Dean looked down smiling into her face, so young, so pure, so softly
curved.

“No, I don’t want you to kiss me--yet. And our first kiss mustn’t have
the flavour of good-bye. It would be a bad omen. Star O’ Morning, I’m
sorry you’re going. But I’ll see you again before long. My oldest
sister lives in Blair Water, you know, and I feel a sudden access of
brotherly affection towards her. I seem to see myself visiting her very
often henceforth. In the meantime remember you have promised to write
me every week. And I’ll write you.”

“Nice fat letters,” coaxed Emily. “I love fat letters.”

“Fat! They’ll be positively corpulent, Star. Now, I’m not even going to
_say_ good-bye. Let’s make a pact, Star. We’ll never _say_ good-bye to
each other. We’ll just smile and go.”

Emily made a gallant effort--smiled--and went. Aunt Nancy and Caroline
returned to the back parlour and their cribbage. Dean Priest whistled
for Tweed and went to the bay shore. He was so lonely that he laughed
at himself.

Emily and Cousin Jimmy had so much to talk of that the drive home
seemed very short.

New Moon was white in the evening sunshine which also lay with
exceeding mellowness on the grey old barns. The Three Princesses,
shooting up against the silvery sky, were as remote and princessly as
ever. The old gulf was singing away down over the fields.

Aunt Laura came running out to meet them, her lovely blue eyes shining
with pleasure. Aunt Elizabeth was in the cook-house preparing supper
and only shook hands with Emily, but looked a trifle less grim and
stately than usual, and she had made Emily’s favourite cream-puffs for
supper. Perry was hanging about, barefooted and sunburned, to tell
her all the gossip of kittens and calves and little pigs and the new
foal. Ilse came swooping over, and Emily discovered she had forgotten
how vivid Ilse was--how brilliant her amber eyes, how golden her mane
of spun-silk hair, looking more golden than ever under the bright
blue silk tam Mrs. Simms had bought her in Shrewsbury. As an article
of dress, that loud tam made Laura Murray’s eyes and sensibilities
ache, but its colour certainly did set off Ilse’s wonderful hair. She
engulfed Emily in a rapturous embrace and quarrelled bitterly with her
ten minutes later over the fact that Emily refused to give her Saucy
Sal’s sole surviving kitten.

“I ought to have it, you doddering hyena,” stormed Ilse. “It’s as much
mine as yours, pig! Our old barn cat is its father.”

“Such talk is not decent,” said Aunt Elizabeth, pale with horror. “And
if you two children are going to quarrel over that kitten I’ll have it
drowned--remember that.”

Ilse was finally appeased by Emily’s offering to let her name the
kitten and have a half interest in it. Ilse named it Daffodil. Emily
did not think this suitable, since, from the fact of Cousin Jimmy
referring to it as Little Tommy, she suspected it was of the sterner
sex. But rather than again provoke Aunt Elizabeth’s wrath by discussing
tabooed subjects, she agreed.

“I can call it Daff,” she thought. “That sounds more _masculine_.”

The kitten was a delicate bit of striped greyness that reminded Emily
of her dear lost Mikes. And it smelled so nice--of warmth and clean
furriness, with whiffs of the clover hay where Saucy Sal had made her
mother-nest.

After supper she heard Teddy’s whistle in the old orchard--the same
enchanting call. Emily flew out to greet him--after all, there was
nobody just like Teddy in the world. They had an ecstatic scamper up to
the Tansy Patch to see a new puppy that Dr. Burnley had given Teddy.
Mrs. Kent did not seem very glad to see Emily--she was colder and more
remote than ever, and she sat and watched the two children playing with
the chubby little pup with a smouldering fire in her dark eyes that
made Emily vaguely uncomfortable whenever she happened to glance up and
encounter it. Never before had she sensed Mrs. Kent’s dislike for her
so keenly as that night.

“Why doesn’t your mother like me?” she asked Teddy bluntly, when they
carried little Leo to the barn for the night.

“Because _I_ do,” said Teddy briefly. “She doesn’t like _anything_ I
like. I’m afraid she’ll poison Leo very soon. I--I wish she wasn’t
so fond of me,” he burst out, in the beginning of a revolt against
this abnormal jealousy of love, which he felt rather than understood
to be a fetter that was becoming galling. “She says she won’t let me
take up Latin and Algebra this year--you know Miss Brownell said I
might--because I’m not to go to college. She says she can’t bear to
part from me--ever. I don’t care about the Latin and stuff--but I want
to learn to be an artist--I want to go away some day to the schools
where they teach that. She won’t let me--she hates my pictures now
because she thinks I like them better than her. I _don’t_--I love
Mother--she’s awful sweet and good to me every other way. But she
thinks I do--and she’s burned some of them. I know she has. They’re
missing from the barn wall and I can’t find them anywhere. If she does
anything to Leo--I’ll--I’ll _hate_ her.”

“Tell her that,” said Emily coolly, with some of the Murray shrewdness
coming uppermost in her. “She doesn’t know that _you_ know she poisoned
Smoke and Buttercup. Tell her you do know it and that if she does
anything to Leo you won’t love her any more. She’ll be so frightened
of your _not_ loving her that she won’t meddle with Leo--I _know_.
Tell her gently--don’t hurt her feelings--but _tell_ her. It will,”
concluded Emily, with a killing imitation of Aunt Elizabeth delivering
an ultimatum, “be better for all concerned.”

“I believe I will,” said Teddy, much impressed. “I _can’t_ have Leo
disappear like my cats did--he’s the only dog I’ve ever had and I’ve
always wanted a dog. Oh, Emily, I’m glad you’re back!”

It was very nice to be told this--especially by Teddy. Emily went home
to New Moon happily. In the old kitchen the candles were lighted and
their flames were dancing in the winds of the August night blowing
through door and window.

“I suppose you’ll not like candles very well, Emily, after being used
to lamps at Wyther Grange,” said Aunt Laura with a little sigh. It was
one of the bitter, small things in Laura Murray’s life that Elizabeth’s
tyranny extended to candles.

Emily looked around her thoughtfully. One candle sputtered and bobbed
at her as if greeting her. One, with a long wick, glowed and smouldered
like a sulky little demon. One had a tiny flame--a sly, meditative
candle. One swayed with a queer fiery grace in the draught from the
door. One burned with a steady upright flame like a faithful soul.

“I--don’t know--Aunt Laura,” she answered slowly. “You can
be--friends--with candles. I believe I like the candles best after all.”

Aunt Elizabeth, coming in from the cook-house, heard her. Something
like pleasure gleamed in her gulf-blue eyes.

“You have some sense in you,” she said.

“That’s the second compliment she has paid me,” thought Emily.

“I think Emily has grown taller since she went to Wyther Grange,” Aunt
Laura said, looking at her rather wistfully.

Aunt Elizabeth, snuffing the candles, glanced sharply over her glasses.

“I can’t see it,” she said. “Her dress is just the same length on her.”

“I’m sure she has,” persisted Laura.

Cousin Jimmy, to settle the dispute, measured Emily by the sitting-room
door. She just touched the former mark.

“You see,” said Aunt Elizabeth triumphantly, liking to be right even in
this small matter.

“She looks--different,” said Laura with a sigh.

Laura, after all, was right. Emily _had_ grown, taller and older, in
soul, if not in body. It was this change which Laura felt, as close
and tender affection swiftly feels. The Emily who returned from Wyther
Grange was not the Emily who had gone there. She was no longer wholly
the child. Aunt Nancy’s family histories over which she had pondered,
her enduring anguish over the story of Ilse’s mother, that terrible
hour when she had lain cheek by jowl with death on the cliffs of the
bay shore, her association with Dean Priest, all had combined to mature
her intelligence and her emotions. When she went to the garret next
morning and pulled out her precious little bundle of manuscripts to
read them lovingly over she was amazed and rather grieved to find that
they were not half so good as she had believed they were. Some of them
were positively silly, she thought; she was ashamed of them--so ashamed
that she smuggled them down to the cook-house stove and burned them,
much to Aunt Elizabeth’s annoyance when she came to prepare dinner and
found the fire-box all choked up with charred paper.

Emily no longer wondered that Miss Brownell had made fun of
them--though this did not mellow her bitterness of remembrance in
regard to that lady in any degree. The rest she put back on the sofa
shelf, including “The Child of the Sea,” which still impressed her as
fairly good, though not just the wonderful composition she had once
deemed it. She felt that many passages could be re-written to their
advantage. Then she immediately began writing a new poem, “On Returning
Home After Weeks’ Absence.” As everything and everybody connected with
New Moon had to be mentioned in this poem it promised to be quite long
and to furnish agreeable occupation for spare minutes in many weeks to
come. It was very good to be home again.

“There is no place just like dear New Moon,” thought Emily.

One thing that marked her return--one of those little household
“epochs” that make a keener impression on the memory and imagination
than perhaps their real importance warrants--was the fact that she was
given a room of her own. Aunt Elizabeth had found her unshared slumber
too sweet a thing to be again surrendered. She decided that she could
not put up any longer with a squirming bedfellow who asked unearthly
questions at any hour of the night she took it into her head to do so.

So, after a long conference with Laura, it was settled that Emily was
to have her mother’s room--the “lookout” as it was called, though
it was not really a lookout. But it occupied the place in New Moon,
looking over the front door to the garden, that the real lookouts did
in other Blair Water houses, so it went by that name. It had been
prepared for Emily’s occupancy in her absence and when bedtime came on
the first evening of her return Aunt Elizabeth curtly told her that
henceforth she was to have her mother’s room.

“All to myself?” exclaimed Emily.

“Yes. We will expect you to take care of it yourself and keep it very
tidy.”

“It has never been slept in since the night before your mother--went
away,” said Aunt Laura, with a queer sound in her voice--a sound of
which Aunt Elizabeth disapproved.

“Your mother,” she said, looking coldly at Emily over the flame of the
candle--an attitude that gave a rather gruesome effect to her acquiline
features--“_ran_ away--flouted her family and broke her father’s heart.
She was a silly, ungrateful, disobedient girl. I hope _you_ will never
disgrace your family by such conduct.”

“Oh, Aunt Elizabeth,” said Emily breathlessly, “when you hold the
candle down like that it makes your face look just like a corpse! Oh,
it’s so interesting.”

Aunt Elizabeth turned and led the way upstairs in grim silence. There
was no use in wasting perfectly good admonitions on a child like this.

Left alone in her lookout, lighted dimly by the one small candle, Emily
gazed about her with keen and thrilling interest. She could not get
into bed until she had explored every bit of it. The room was very
old-fashioned, like all the New Moon rooms. The walls were papered with
a design of slender gilt diamonds enclosing golden stars and hung with
worked woollen mottoes and pictures that had been “supplements” in the
girlhood of her aunts. One of them, hanging over the head of the bed,
represented two guardian angels. In its day this had been much admired
but Emily looked at it with distaste.

“I don’t like feather wings on angels,” she said decidedly. “Angels
should have rainbowy wings.”

On the floor was a pretty homespun carpet and round braided rugs. There
was a high black bedstead with carved posts, a fat feather-bed, and an
Irish chain quilt, but, as Emily was glad to see, no curtains. A little
table, with funny claw-feet and brass-knobbed drawers, stood by the
window, which was curtained with muslin frills; one of the window-panes
contorted the landscape funnily, making a hill where no hill was. Emily
liked this--she couldn’t have told why, but it was really because
it gave the pane an individuality of its own. An oval mirror in a
tarnished gilt frame hung above the table; Emily was delighted to
find she could see herself in it--“all but my boots”--without craning
or tipping it. “And it doesn’t twist my face or turn my complexion
green,” she thought happily. Two high-backed, black chairs with
horsehair seats, a little washstand with a blue basin and pitcher, and
a faded ottoman with woollen roses cross-stitched on it, completed the
furnishing. On the little mantel were vases full of dried and coloured
grasses and a fascinating pot-bellied bottle filled with West Indian
shells. On either side were lovable little cupboards with leaded-glass
doors like those in the sitting-room. Underneath was a small fireplace.

“I wonder if Aunt Elizabeth will ever let me have a little fire here,”
thought Emily.

The room was full of that indefinable charm found in all rooms where
the pieces of furniture, whether old or new, are well acquainted with
each other and the walls and floors are on good terms. Emily felt it
all over her as she flitted about examining everything. This was her
room--she loved it already--she felt perfectly at home.

“I belong here,” she breathed happily.

She felt deliciously _near_ to her mother--as if Juliet Starr had
suddenly become real to her. It thrilled her to think that her mother
had probably crocheted the lace cover on the round pincushion on the
table. And that fat, black jar of pot-pourri on the mantel--her mother
must have compounded it. When Emily lifted the lid a faint spicy odour
floated out. The souls of all the roses that had bloomed through many
olden summers at New Moon seemed to be prisoned there in a sort of
flower purgatory. Something in the haunting, mystical, elusive odour
gave Emily _the flash_--and her room had received its consecration.

There was a picture of her mother hanging over the mantel--a large
daguerreotype taken when she was a little girl. Emily looked at it
lovingly. She had the picture of her mother which her father had left,
taken after their marriage. But when Aunt Elizabeth had brought that
from Maywood to New Moon she had hung it in the parlour where Emily
seldom saw it. This picture, in her bedroom, of the golden-haired,
rose-cheeked girl, was all her own. She could look at it--talk to it at
will.

“Oh, Mother,” she said, “what did you think of when you were a little
girl here like me? I wish I could have known you _then_. And to think
nobody has ever slept here since that last night you did before you
ran away with Father. Aunt Elizabeth says you were wicked to do it but
_I_ don’t think you were. It wasn’t as if you were running away with
a _stranger_. Anyway, I’m glad you _did_, because if you hadn’t there
wouldn’t have been any _me_.”

Emily, very glad that there was an Emily, opened her lookout window as
high as it would go, got into bed and drifted off to sleep, feeling a
happiness that was so deep as to be almost pain as she listened to the
sonorous sweep of the night wind among the great trees in Lofty John’s
bush. When she wrote to her father a few days later she began the
letter “Dear Father and Mother.”

“And I’ll always write the letter to _you_ as well as Father after
this, Mother. I’m sorry I left you out so long. But you didn’t seem
_real_ till that night I came home. I made the bed beautifully next
morning--Aunt Elizabeth didn’t find a bit of fault with it--and I
dusted _everything_--and when I went out I knelt down and kissed the
doorstep. I didn’t think Aunt Elizabeth saw me but she did and said had
I gone crazy. Why does Aunt Elizabeth think any one is crazy who does
something she never does? I said ‘No, it’s only because I love my room
so much’ and she sniffed and said ‘You’d better love your God.’ But so
I do, dear Father--and Mother--and I love Him better than ever since
I have my dear room. I can see all over the garden from it and into
Lofty John’s bush and one little bit of the Blair Water through the gap
in the trees where the Yesterday Road runs. I like to go to bed early
now. I love to lie all alone in my own room and make poetry and think
out descriptions of things while I look through the open window at the
stars and the nice, big, kind, quiet trees in Lofty John’s bush.

“Oh, Father dear and Mother, we are going to have a new teacher. Miss
Brownell is not coming back. She is going to be married and Ilse says
that when her father heard it he said ‘God help the man.’ And the new
teacher is a Mr. Carpenter. Ilse saw him when he came to see her father
about the school--because Dr. Burnley is a trustee this year--and she
says he has bushy grey hair and whiskers. He is married, too, and is
going to live in that little old house down in the hollow below the
school. It seems so funny to think of a teacher having a wife and
whiskers.

“I am glad to be home. But I miss Dean and the gazing-ball. Aunt
Elizabeth looked very cross when she saw my bang but didn’t say
anything. Aunt Laura says just to keep quiet and go on wearing it.
But I don’t feel comfortable going against Aunt Elizabeth so I have
combed it all back except a _little_ fringe. I don’t feel _quite_
comfortable about it even yet, but I have to put up with being a little
uncomfortable for the sake of my looks. Aunt Laura says bustles are
going out of style so I’ll never be able to have one but I don’t care
because I think they’re ugly. Rhoda Stuart will be cross because she
was just longing to be old enough to wear a bustle. I hope I’ll be able
to have a gin-jar all to myself when the weather gets cold. There is a
row of gin-jars on the high shelf in the cook-house.

“Teddy and I had the nicest _adventure_ yesterday evening. We are going
to keep it a secret from everybody--partly because it was so nice, and
partly because we think we’d get a fearful scolding for one thing we
did.

“We went up to the Disappointed House, and we found one of the boards
on the windows loose. So we pried it off and crawled in and went all
over the house. It is lathed but not plastered, and the shavings are
lying all over the floors just as the carpenters left them years
ago. It seemed more disappointed than ever. I just felt like crying.
There was a dear little fireplace in one room so we went to work and
kindled a fire in it with shavings and pieces of boards (this is the
thing we would be scolded for, likely) and then sat before it on an
old carpenter’s bench and talked. We decided that when we grew up we
would buy the Disappointed House and live here together. Teddy said he
supposed we’d have to get married, but I thought maybe we could find
a way to manage without going to all that bother. Teddy will paint
pictures and I will write poetry and we will have toast and bacon and
marmalade _every morning_ for breakfast--just like Wyther Grange--but
_never_ porridge. And we’ll always have lots of nice things to eat in
the pantry and I’ll make lots of jam and Teddy is always going to help
me wash the dishes and we’ll hang the gazing-ball from the middle of
the ceiling in the fireplace room--because likely Aunt Nancy will be
dead by then.

“When the fire burned out we jammed the board into place in the window
and came away. Every now and then to-day Teddy would say to me “Toast
and bacon and marmalade” in the _most mysterious_ tones and Ilse and
Perry are wild because they can’t find out what he means.

“Cousin Jimmy has got Jimmy Joe Belle to help with the harvest. Jimmy
Joe Belle comes from over Derry Pond way. There are a great many French
there and when a French girl marries they call her mostly by her
husband’s first name instead of Mrs. like the English do. If a girl
named Mary marries a man named Leon she will always be called Mary Leon
after that. But in Jimmy Joe Belle’s case, it is the other way and he
is called by his wife’s name. I asked Cousin Jimmy why, and he said it
was because Jimmy Joe was a poor stick of a creature and Belle wore
the britches. But still I don’t understand. Jimmy Joe wears britches
himself--that means trousers--and why should he be called Jimmy Joe
Belle instead of her being called Belle Jimmy Joe just because she
wears them too! I won’t rest till I find out.

“Cousin Jimmy’s garden is splendid now. The tiger lilies are out. I am
trying to love them because nobody seems to like them at all but deep
down in my heart I know I love the late roses best. You just can’t help
loving the roses best.

“Ilse and I hunted all over the old orchard to-day for a four-leaved
clover and couldn’t find one. Then I found one in a clump of clover
by the dairy steps to-night when I was straining the milk and never
thinking of clovers. Cousin Jimmy says that is the way luck always
comes, and it is no use to look for it.

“It is lovely to be with Ilse again. We have only fought twice since I
came home. I am going to try not to fight with Ilse any more because
I don’t think it is dignified, although quite interesting. But it is
hard not to because even when I keep quiet and don’t say a word Ilse
thinks that’s a way of fighting and gets madder and says worse things
than ever. Aunt Elizabeth says it always takes two to make a quarrel
but she doesn’t know Ilse as I do. Ilse called me a sneaking albatross
to-day. I wonder how many animals are left to call me. She never
repeats the same one twice. I wish she wouldn’t clapper-claw Perry so
much. (Clapper-claw is a word I learned from Aunt Nancy. Very striking,
I think.) It seems as if she couldn’t bear him. He dared Teddy to jump
from the henhouse roof across to the pighouse roof. Teddy wouldn’t. He
said he would try it if it had to be done or would do anybody any good
but he wasn’t going to do it just to show off. Perry did it and landed
safe. If he hadn’t he might have broken his neck. Then he bragged about
it and said Teddy was afraid and Ilse turned red as a beet and told
him to shut up or she would bite his snout off. She can’t bear to have
anything said against Teddy, but I guess he can take care of himself.

“Ilse can’t study for the Entrance either. Her father won’t let her.
But she says she doesn’t care. She says she’s going to run away when
she gets a little older and study for the stage. That sounds wicked,
but interesting.

“I felt very queer and guilty when I saw Ilse first, because I knew
about her mother. I don’t know why I felt guilty because I had nothing
to do with it. The feeling is wearing away a little now but I am so
unhappy by spells over it. I wish I could either forget it altogether
or find out the rights of it. Because I am sure nobody knows them.

“I had a letter from Dean to-day. He writes lovely letters--just as
if I was grown up. He sent me a little poem he had cut out of a paper
called _The Fringed Gentian_. He said it made him think of me. It is
all lovely but I like the last verse best of all. This is it:

    Then whisper, blossom, in thy sleep
    How I may upward climb
    The Alpine Path, so hard, so steep,
    That leads to heights sublime.
    How I may reach that far-off goal
    Of true and honored fame
    And write upon its shining scroll
    A woman’s humble name.

“When I read that _the flash_ came, and I took a sheet of paper--I
forgot to tell you Cousin Jimmy gave me a little box of paper and
envelopes--_on the sly_--and I wrote on it:

    I, Emily Byrd Starr, do solemnly vow this day that I will climb
    the Alpine Path and write my name on the scroll of fame.

“Then I put it in the envelope and sealed it up and wrote on it _The
Vow of Emily Byrd Starr, aged 12 years and 3 months_, and put it away
on the sofa shelf in the garret.

“I am writing a murder story now and I am trying to feel how a man
would feel who was a murderer. It is creepy, but thrilling. I almost
feel as if I _had_ murdered somebody.

        “Good night, dear Father and Mother.
                       “Your lovingest daughter,
                                           “_Emily_.

“P. S. I have been wondering how I’ll sign my name when I grow up and
print my pieces. I don’t know which would be best--Emily Byrd Starr in
full or Emily B. Starr, or E. B. Starr, or E. Byrd Starr. Sometimes
I think I’ll have a _nom-de-plume_--that is, another name you pick
for yourself. It’s in my dictionary among the “French phrases” at the
back. If I did that then I could hear people talking of my pieces right
before me, never suspecting, and say just what they really thought of
them. That would be interesting but perhaps not always comfortable. I
think I’ll be,

                                  “_E. Byrd Starr_.”




CHAPTER XXVIII

A WEAVER OF DREAMS


It took Emily several weeks to make up her mind whether she liked Mr.
Carpenter or not. She knew she did not _dis_like him, not even though
his first greeting, shot at her on the opening day of school in a gruff
voice, accompanied by a startling lift of his spiky grey brows was, “So
you’re the girl that writes poetry, eh? Better stick to your needle and
duster. Too many fools in the world trying to write poetry and failing.
I tried it myself once. Got better sense now.”

“You don’t keep your nails clean,” thought Emily.

But he upset every kind of school tradition so speedily and thoroughly
that Ilse, who gloried in upsetting things and hated routine, was the
only scholar that liked him from the start. Some never liked him--the
Rhoda Stuart type for example--but most of them came to it after they
got used to never being used to anything. And Emily finally decided
that she liked him tremendously.

Mr. Carpenter was somewhere between forty and fifty--a tall man, with
an upstanding shock of bushy grey hair, bristling grey moustache and
eyebrows, a truculent beard, bright blue eyes out of which all his
wild life had not yet burned the fire, and a long, lean, greyish
face, deeply lined. He lived in a little two-roomed house below the
school with a shy mouse of a wife. He never talked of his past or
offered any explanation of the fact that at his age he had no better
profession than teaching a district school for a pittance of salary,
but the truth leaked out after a while; for Prince Edward Island is a
small province and everybody in it knows something about everybody
else. So eventually Blair Water people, and even the school children,
understood that Mr. Carpenter had been a brilliant student in his youth
and had had his eye on the ministry. But at college he had got in with
a “fast set”--Blair Water people nodded heads slowly and whispered
the dreadful phrase portentously--and the fast set had ruined him. He
“took to drink” and went to the dogs generally. And the upshot of it
all was that Francis Carpenter, who had led his class in his first and
second years at McGill, and for whom his teachers had predicted a great
career, was a country school-teacher at forty-five with no prospect of
ever being anything else. Perhaps he was resigned to it--perhaps not.
Nobody ever knew, not even the brown mouse of a wife. Nobody in Blair
Water cared--he was a good teacher, and that was all that mattered.
Even if he did go on occasional “sprees” he always took Saturday for
them and was sober enough by Monday. Sober, and especially dignified,
wearing a rusty black frock coat which he never put on any other day
of the week. He did not invite pity and he did not pose as a tragedy.
But sometimes, when Emily looked at his face, bent over the arithmetic
problems of Blair Water School, she felt horribly sorry for him without
in the least understanding why.

He had an explosive temper which generally burst into flame at least
once a day, and then he would storm about wildly for a few minutes,
tugging at his beard, imploring heaven to grant him patience,
abusing everybody in general and the luckless object of his wrath in
particular. But these tempers never lasted long. In a few minutes Mr.
Carpenter would be smiling as graciously as a sun bursting through a
storm-cloud on the very pupil he had been rating. Nobody seemed to
cherish any grudge because of his scoldings. He never said any of the
biting things Miss Brownell was wont to say, which rankled and festered
for weeks; his hail of words fell alike on just and unjust and rolled
off harmlessly.

He could take a joke on himself in perfect good nature. “Do you hear
me? Do you hear me, sirrah?” he bellowed to Perry Miller one day. “Of
course I hear you,” retorted Perry coolly, “they could hear you in
Charlottetown.” Mr. Carpenter stared for a moment, then broke into a
great, jolly laugh.

His methods of teaching were so different from Miss Brownell’s that
the Blair Water pupils at first felt as if he had stood them on their
heads. Miss Brownell had been a martinet for order. Mr. Carpenter
never tried to keep order apparently. But somehow he kept the children
so busy that they had no time to do mischief. He taught history
tempestuously for a month, making his pupils play the different
characters and enact the incidents. He never bothered any one to
learn dates--but the dates stuck in the memory just the same. If, as
Mary Queen of Scots, you were beheaded by the school axe, kneeling
blindfolded at the doorstep, with Perry Miller, wearing a mask made out
of a piece of Aunt Laura’s old black silk, for executioner, wondering
what would happen if he brought the axe down _too_ hard, you did not
forget the year it happened; and if you fought the battle of Waterloo
all over the school playground, and heard Teddy Kent shouting, “Up,
Guards and at ’em!” as he led the last furious charge you remembered
1815 without half trying to.

Next month history would be thrust aside altogether and geography
would take its place, when school and playground were mapped out into
countries and you dressed up as the animals inhabiting them or traded
in various commodities over their rivers and cities. When Rhoda Stuart
had cheated you in a bargain in hides, you remembered that she had
bought the cargo from the Argentine Republic, and when Perry Miller
would not drink any water for a whole hot summer day because he was
crossing the Arabian Desert with a caravan of camels and could not
find an oasis, and then drank so much that he took terrible cramps and
Aunt Laura had to be up all night with him--you did not forget where
the said desert was. The trustees were quite scandalized over some of
the goings on and felt sure that the children were having too good a
time to be really learning anything.

If you wanted to learn Latin and French you had to do it by talking
your exercises, not writing them, and on Friday afternoons all lessons
were put aside and Mr. Carpenter made the children recite poems, make
speeches and declaim passages from Shakespeare and the Bible. This was
the day Ilse loved. Mr. Carpenter pounced on her gift like a starving
dog on a bone and drilled her without mercy. They had endless fights
and Ilse stamped her foot and called him names while the other pupils
wondered why she was not punished for it but at last had to give in
and do as he willed. Ilse went to school regularly--something she had
never done before. Mr. Carpenter had told her that if she were absent
for a day without good excuse she could take no part in the Friday
“exercises” and this would have killed her.

One day Mr. Carpenter had picked up Teddy’s slate and found a sketch
of himself on it, in one of his favourite if not exactly beautiful
attitudes. Teddy had labelled it “The Black Death”--half of the pupils
of the school having died that day of the Great Plague, and having
been carried out on stretchers to the Potter’s Field by the terrified
survivors.

Teddy expected a roar of denunciation, for the day before Garrett
Marshall had been ground into figurative pulp on being discovered with
the picture of a harmless cow on his slate--at least, Garrett said he
meant it for a cow. But now this amazing Mr. Carpenter only drew his
beetling brows together, looked earnestly at Teddy’s slate, put it down
on the desk, looked at Teddy, and said,

“I don’t know anything about drawing--I can’t help you, but, by gad, I
think hereafter you’d better give up those extra arithmetic problems in
the afternoon and draw pictures.”

Whereupon Garrett Marshall went home and told his father that “old
Carpenter” wasn’t fair and “made favourites” over Teddy Kent.

Mr. Carpenter went up to the Tansy Patch that evening and saw the
sketches in Teddy’s old barn-loft studio. Then he went into the house
and talked to Mrs. Kent. What he said and what she said nobody ever
knew. But Mr. Carpenter went away looking grim, as if he had met an
unexpected match. He took great pains with Teddy’s general school work
after that and procured from somewhere certain elementary text books on
drawing which he gave him, telling him not to take them home--a caution
Teddy did not require. He knew quite well that if he did they would
disappear as mysteriously as his cats had done. He had taken Emily’s
advice and told his mother he would not love _her_ if anything happened
to Leo, and Leo flourished and waxed fat and doggy. But Teddy was too
gentle at heart and too fond of his mother to make such a threat more
than once. He knew she had cried all that night after Mr. Carpenter had
been there, and prayed on her knees in her little bedroom most of the
next day, and looked at him with bitter, haunting eyes for a week. He
wished she were more like other fellows’ mothers but they loved each
other very much and had dear hours together in the little grey house on
the tansy hill. It was only when other people were about that Mrs. Kent
was queer and jealous.

“She’s always lovely when we’re alone,” Teddy had told Emily.

As for the other boys, Perry Miller was the only one Mr. Carpenter
bothered much with in the way of speeches--and he was as merciless
with him as with Ilse. Perry worked hard to please him and practiced
his speeches in barn and field--and even by nights in the kitchen
loft--until Aunt Elizabeth put a stop to _that_. Emily could not
understand why Mr. Carpenter would smile amiably and say, “Very good”
when Neddy Gray rattled off a speech glibly, without any expression
whatever, and then rage at Perry and denounce him as a dunce and a
nincompoop, by gad, because he had failed to give just the proper
emphasis on a certain word, or had timed his gesture a fraction of a
second too soon.

Neither could she understand why he made red pencil corrections
all over her compositions and rated her for split infinitives and
too lavish adjectives and strode up and down the aisle and hurled
objurgations at her because she didn’t know “a good place to stop when
she saw it, by gad,” and then told Rhoda Stuart and Nan Lee that their
compositions were very pretty and gave them back without so much as
a mark on them. Yet, in spite of it all, she liked him more and more
as time went on and autumn passed and winter came with its beautiful
bare-limbed trees, and soft pearl-grey skies that were slashed with
rifts of gold in the afternoons, and cleared to a jewelled pageantry of
stars over the wide white hills and valleys around New Moon.

Emily shot up so that winter that Aunt Laura had to let down the tucks
in her dresses. Aunt Ruth, who had come for a week’s visit, said she
was outgrowing her strength--consumptive children always did.

“I am _not_ consumptive,” Emily said. “The Starrs are tall,” she added,
with a touch of subtle malice hardly to be looked for in near-thirteen.

Aunt Ruth, who was sensitive in regard to her dumpiness, sniffed.

“It would be well if _that_ were the only thing in which you resemble
them,” she said. “How are you getting on in school?”

“Very well. I am the smartest scholar in my class,” answered Emily
composedly.

“You conceited child!” said Aunt Ruth.

“I’m _not_ conceited.” Emily looked scornful indignation. “Mr.
Carpenter said it and _he_ doesn’t flatter. Besides, I can’t help
seeing it myself.”

“Well, it is to be hoped you have some brains, because you haven’t
much in the way of looks,” said Aunt Ruth. “You’ve no complexion to
speak of--and that inky hair around your white face is startling. I see
you’re going to be a plain girl.”

“You wouldn’t say that to a grown-up person’s face,” said Emily with a
deliberate gravity which always exasperated Aunt Ruth because she could
not understand it in a child. “I don’t think it would hurt you to be as
polite to me as you are to other people.”

“I’m telling you your faults so you may correct them,” said Aunt Ruth
frigidly.

“It _isn’t_ my fault that my face is pale and my hair black,” protested
Emily. “I can’t correct that.”

“If you were a different girl,” said Aunt Ruth, “I would--”

“But I don’t _want_ to be a different girl,” said Emily decidedly. She
had no intention of lowering the Starr flag to Aunt Ruth. “I wouldn’t
want to be anybody but myself even if I am plain. Besides,” she added
impressively as she turned to go out of the room, “though I may not
be very good-looking now, when I go to heaven I believe I’ll be very
beautiful.”

“Some people think Emily quite pretty,” said Aunt Laura, but she did
not say it until Emily was out of hearing. She was Murray enough for
that.

“I don’t know where they see it,” said Aunt Ruth. “She’s vain and
pert and says things to be thought smart. You heard her just now. But
the thing I dislike most in her is that she is un-childlike--and deep
as the sea. Yes, she is, Laura--deep as the sea. You’ll find it out
to your cost one day if you disregard my warning. She’s capable of
anything. Sly is no word for it. You and Elizabeth don’t keep a tight
enough rein over her.”

“I’ve done my best,” said Elizabeth stiffly. She herself did think
she had been much too lenient with Emily--Laura and Jimmy were two to
one--but it nettled her to have Ruth say so.

Uncle Wallace also had an attack of worrying over Emily that winter.

He looked at her one day when he was at New Moon and remarked that she
was getting to be a big girl.

“How old are you, Emily?” He asked her that every time he came to New
Moon.

“Thirteen in May.”

“H’m. What are you going to do with her, Elizabeth?”

“I don’t know what you mean,” said Aunt Elizabeth coldly--or as
coldly as is possible to speak when one is pouring melted tallow into
candle-moulds.

“Why, she’ll soon be grown up. She can’t expect you to provide for her
indefinitely”--

“I don’t,” Emily whispered resentfully under her breath.

“--and it’s time we decided what is best to be done for her.”

“The Murray women have never had to work out for a living,” said Aunt
Elizabeth, as if that disposed of the matter.

“Emily is only half Murray,” said Wallace. “Besides, times are
changing. You and Laura will not live forever, Elizabeth, and when you
are gone New Moon goes to Oliver’s Andrew. In my opinion Emily should
be fitted to support herself if necessary.”

Emily did not like Uncle Wallace but she was very grateful to him at
that moment. Whatever his motives were he was proposing the very thing
she secretly yearned for.

“I would suggest,” said Uncle Wallace, “that she be sent to Queen’s
Academy to get a teacher’s license. Teaching is a genteel, lady-like
occupation. _I_ will do my share in providing for the expense of it.”

A blind person might have seen that Uncle Wallace thought this very
splendid of himself.

“If you do,” thought Emily, “I’ll pay every cent back to you as soon as
I’m able to earn it.”

But Aunt Elizabeth was adamant.

“I do not believe in girls going out into the world,” she said. “I
don’t mean Emily to go to Queen’s. I told Mr. Carpenter so when he
came to see me about her taking up the Entrance work. He was very
rude--school-teachers knew their place better in my father’s time. But
I made him understand, I think. I’m rather surprised at _you_, Wallace.
You did not send your own daughter out to work.”

“_My_ daughter had parents to provide for her,” retorted Uncle Wallace
pompously. “Emily is an orphan. I imagined from what I had heard about
her that she would prefer earning her own living to living on charity.”

“So I would,” cried out Emily. “So I would, Uncle Wallace. Oh, Aunt
Elizabeth, please let me study for the Entrance. Please! I’ll pay you
back every cent you spend on it--I will indeed. I pledge you my word of
honour.”

“It does not happen to be a question of money,” said Aunt Elizabeth
in her stateliest manner. “I undertook to provide for you, Emily, and
I will do it. When you are older I may send you to the High School in
Shrewbury for a couple of years. I am not decrying education. But you
are not going to be a slave to the public--no Murray girl ever was
_that_.”

Emily realising the uselessness of pleading, went out in the same
bitter disappointment she had felt after Mr. Carpenter’s visit. Then
Aunt Elizabeth looked at Wallace.

“Have you forgotten what came of sending Juliet to Queen’s?” she asked
significantly.

If Emily was not allowed to take up the Entrance classes, Perry
had no one to say him nay and he went at them with the same dogged
determination he showed in all other matters. Perry’s status at New
Moon had changed subtly and steadily. Aunt Elizabeth had ceased to
refer scornfully to him as “a hired boy.” Even she recognised that
though he was still indubitably a hired boy he was not going to remain
one, and she no longer objected to Laura’s patching up his ragged bits
of clothing, or to Emily’s helping him with his lessons in the kitchen
after supper, nor did she growl when Cousin Jimmy began to pay him a
certain small wage--though older boys than Perry were still glad to put
in the winter months choring for board and lodging in some comfortable
home. If a future premier was in the making at New Moon Aunt Elizabeth
wanted to have some small share in the making. It was credible and
commendable that a boy should have ambitions. A girl was an entirely
different matter. A girl’s place was at home.

Emily helped Perry work out algebra problems and heard his lessons in
French and Latin. She picked up more thus than Aunt Elizabeth would
have approved and more still when the Entrance pupils talked those
languages in school. It was quite an easy matter for a girl who had
once upon a time invented a language of her own. When George Bates,
by way of showing off, asked her one day in French--_his_ French, of
which Mr. Carpenter had once said doubtfully that perhaps God might
understand it--“Have you the ink of my grandmother and the shoebrush of
my cousin and the umbrella of my aunt’s husband in your desk?” Emily
retorted quite as glibly and _quite_ as Frenchily, “No, but I have the
pen of your father and the cheese of the innkeeper and the towel of
your uncle’s maidservant in my basket.”

To console herself for her disappointment in regard to the Entrance
class Emily wrote more poetry than ever. It was especially delightful
to write poetry on a winter evening when the storm winds howled without
and heaped the garden and orchard with big ghostly drifts, starred
over with rabbits’ candles. She also wrote several stories--desperate
love affairs wherein she struggled heroically against the difficulties
of affectionate dialogue; tales of bandits and pirates--Emily liked
these because there was no necessity for bandits and pirates to
converse lovingly; tragedies of earls and countesses whose conversation
she dearly loved to pepper with scraps of French; and a dozen other
subjects she didn’t know anything about. She also meditated beginning a
novel but decided it would be too hard to get enough paper for it. The
letter-bills were all done now and the Jimmy-books were not big enough,
though a new one always appeared mysteriously in her school basket when
the old one was almost full. Cousin Jimmy seemed to have an uncanny
prescience of the proper time--that was part of his Jimmyness.

Then one night, as she lay in her lookout bed and watched a full moon
gleaming lustrously from a cloudless sky across the valley, she had a
sudden dazzling idea.

She would send her latest poem to the Charlottetown _Enterprise_.

The _Enterprise_ had a Poet’s Corner where “original” verses were
frequently printed. Privately Emily thought her own were quite as
good--as probably they were, for most of the _Enterprise_ “poems” were
sad trash.

Emily was so excited over the idea that she could not sleep for the
greater part of the night--and didn’t want to. It was glorious to lie
there, thrilling in the darkness, and picture the whole thing out. She
saw her verses in print signed E. Byrd Starr--she saw Aunt Laura’s
eyes shining with pride--she saw Mr. Carpenter pointing them out to
strangers--“the work of a pupil of mine, by gad”--she saw all her
schoolmates envying her or admiring, according to type--she saw herself
with one foot at least firmly planted on the ladder of fame--one hill
at least of the Alpine Path crested, with a new and glorious prospect
opening therefrom.

Morning came. Emily went to school, so absent-minded because of her
secret that she did badly in everything and was raged at by Mr.
Carpenter. But it all slipped off her like the proverbial water off a
duck’s back. Her body was in Blair Water school but her spirit was in
kingdoms empyreal.

As soon as school was out she betook herself to the garret with half a
sheet of blue-lined notepaper. Very painstakingly she copied down the
poem, being especially careful to dot every _i_ and cross every _t_.
She wrote it on both sides of the paper, being in blissful ignorance
of any taboo thereon. Then she read it aloud delightedly, not omitting
the title _Evening Dreams_. There was one line in it she tasted two or
three times:

    The haunting elfin music of the air.

“I think that line is _very_ good,” said Emily. “I wonder now how I
happened to think of it.”

She mailed her poem the next day and lived in a delicious mystic
rapture until the following Saturday. When the _Enterprise_ came she
opened it with tremulous eagerness and ice-cold fingers, and turned to
the Poet’s Corner. Now for her great moment!

There was not a sign of an Evening Dream about it!

Emily threw down the _Enterprise_ and fled to the garret dormer where,
face downward on the old haircloth sofa, she wept out her bitterness
of disappointment. She drained the draught of failure to the very
dregs. It was horribly real and tragic to her. She felt exactly as if
she had been slapped in the face. She was crushed in the very dust of
humiliation and was sure she could never rise again.

How thankful she was that she hadn’t told Teddy anything about it--she
had been so strongly tempted to, and only refrained because she didn’t
want to spoil the dramatic surprise of the moment when she would show
him the verses with her name signed to them. She _had_ told Perry,
and Perry was furious when he saw her tear-stained face later on in
the dairy, as they strained the milk together. Ordinarily Emily loved
this, but to-night the savour had gone out of the world. Even the
milky splendour of the still, mild winter evening and the purple bloom
over the hillside woods that presaged a thaw could not give her the
accustomed soul-thrill.

“I’m going to Charlottetown if I have to walk and I’ll bust that
_Enterprise_ editor’s head,” said Perry, with the expression which,
thirty years later, warned the members of his party to scatter for
cover.

“That wouldn’t be any use,” said Emily drearily. “He didn’t think it
good enough to print--that is what hurts me so, Perry--he didn’t think
it any good. Busting his head wouldn’t change _that_.”

It took her a week to recover from the blow. Then she wrote a story
in which the editor of the _Enterprise_ played the part of a dark and
desperate villain who found lodging eventually behind prison bars.
This got the venom out of her system and she forgot all about him in
the delight of writing a poem addressed to “Sweet Lady April.” But
I question if she ever really forgave him--even when she discovered
eventually that you must _not_ write on both sides of the paper--even
when she read over _Evening Dreams_ a year later and wondered how she
could ever have thought it any good.

This sort of thing was happening frequently now. Every time she read
her little hoard of manuscripts over she found some of which the fairy
gold had unaccountably turned to withered leaves, fit only for the
burning. Emily burned them,--but it hurt her a little. Outgrowing
things we love is never a pleasant process.




CHAPTER XXIX

SACRILEGE


There had been several clashes between Aunt Elizabeth and Emily that
winter and spring. Generally Aunt Elizabeth came out victorious; there
was that in her that would not be denied the satisfaction of having
her own way even in trifling matters. But once in a while she came up
against that curious streak of granite in Emily’s composition which was
unyielding and unbendable and unbreakable. Mary Murray, of a hundred
years agone, had been, so family chronicle ran, a gentle and submissive
creature generally; but she had that same streak in her, as her “Here I
Stay” abundantly testified. When Aunt Elizabeth tried conclusions with
that element in Emily she always got the worst of it. Yet she did not
learn wisdom therefrom but pursued her policy of repression all the
more rigorously; for it occasionally came home to her, as Laura let
down tucks, that Emily was on the verge of beginning to grow up and
that various breakers and reefs loomed ahead, ominously magnified in
the mist of unseen years. Emily must not be allowed to get out of hand
now, lest later on she make shipwreck as her mother had done--or as
Elizabeth Murray firmly believed she had done. There were, in short, to
be no more elopements from New Moon.

One of the things they fell out about was the fact that Emily, as Aunt
Elizabeth discovered one day, was in the habit of using more of her
egg money to buy paper than Aunt Elizabeth approved of. What did Emily
do with so much paper? They had a fuss over this and eventually Aunt
Elizabeth discovered that Emily was writing stories. Emily had been
writing stories all winter under Aunt Elizabeth’s very nose and Aunt
Elizabeth had never suspected it. She had fondly supposed that Emily
was writing school compositions. Aunt Elizabeth knew in a vague way
that Emily wrote silly rhymes which she called “poetry” but this did
not worry her especially. Jimmy made up a lot of similar trash. It was
foolish but harmless and Emily would doubtless outgrow it. Jimmy had
not outgrown it, to be sure, but then his accident--Elizabeth always
went a little sick in soul when she remembered it--had made him more or
less a child for life.

But writing stories was a very different thing and Aunt Elizabeth was
horrified. Fiction of any kind was an abominable thing. Elizabeth
Murray had been trained up in this belief in her youth and in her
age she had not departed from it. She honestly thought that it was a
wicked and sinful thing in anyone to play cards, dance, or go to the
theatre, read or write novels, and in Emily’s case there was a worse
feature--it was the Starr coming out in her--Douglas Starr especially.
No Murray of New Moon had ever been guilty of writing “stories” or of
ever wanting to write them. It was an alien growth that must be pruned
off ruthlessly. Aunt Elizabeth applied the pruning shears; and found
no pliant, snippable root but that same underlying streak of granite.
Emily was respectful and reasonable and above-board; she bought no
more paper with egg money; but she told Aunt Elizabeth that she could
not give up writing stories and she went right on writing them, on
pieces of brown wrapping paper and the blank backs of circulars which
agricultural machinery firms sent Cousin Jimmy.

“Don’t you know that it is wicked to write novels?” demanded Aunt
Elizabeth.

“Oh, I’m not writing novels--yet,” said Emily. “I can’t get enough
paper. These are just short stories. And it isn’t wicked--Father liked
novels.”

“Your father--” began Aunt Elizabeth, and stopped. She remembered that
Emily had “acted up” before now when anything derogatory was said of
her father. But the very fact that she felt mysteriously compelled to
stop annoyed Elizabeth, who had said what seemed good to her all her
life at New Moon without much regard for other people’s feelings.

“You will not write any more of _this stuff_,” Aunt Elizabeth
contemptuously flourished “The Secret of the Castle” under Emily’s
nose. “I forbid you--remember, I forbid you.”

“Oh, I must write, Aunt Elizabeth,” said Emily gravely, folding her
slender, beautiful hands on the table and looking straight into Aunt
Elizabeth’s angry face with the steady, unblinking gaze which Aunt Ruth
called unchildlike. “You see, it’s this way. It is _in_ me. I can’t
help it. And Father said I was _always_ to keep on writing. He said I
would be famous some day. Wouldn’t you like to have a famous niece,
Aunt Elizabeth?”

“I am not going to argue the matter,” said Aunt Elizabeth.

“I’m not arguing--only explaining.” Emily was exasperatingly
respectful. “I just want you to understand how it is that I _have_
to go on writing stories, even though I am so very sorry you don’t
approve.”

“If you don’t give up this--this worse than nonsense, Emily,
I’ll--I’ll--”

Aunt Elizabeth stopped, not knowing what to say she would do. Emily
was too big now to be slapped or shut up; and it was no use to say,
as she was tempted to, “I’ll send you away from New Moon,” because
Elizabeth Murray knew perfectly well she would not send Emily away from
New Moon--_could_ not send her away, indeed, though this knowledge
was as yet only in her feelings and had not been translated into her
intellect. She only felt that she was helpless and it angered her;
but Emily was mistress of the situation and calmly went on writing
stories. If Aunt Elizabeth had asked her to give up crocheting lace or
making molasses taffy, or eating Aunt Laura’s delicious drop cookies,
Emily would have done so wholly and cheerfully, though she loved
these things. But to give up writing stories--why, Aunt Elizabeth
might as well have asked her to give up breathing. _Why_ couldn’t she
understand? It seemed so simple and indisputable to Emily.

“Teddy can’t help making pictures and Ilse can’t help reciting and I
can’t help writing. _Don’t_ you see, Aunt Elizabeth?”

“I see that you are an ungrateful and disobedient child,” said Aunt
Elizabeth.

This hurt Emily horribly, but she could not give in; and there
continued to be a sense of soreness and disapproval between her and
Aunt Elizabeth in all the little details of daily life that poisoned
existence more or less for the child, who was so keenly sensitive to
her environment and to the feelings with which her kindred regarded
her. Emily felt it all the time--except when she was writing her
stories. _Then_ she forgot everything, roaming in some enchanted
country between the sun and moon, where she saw wonderful beings whom
she tried to describe and wonderful deeds which she tried to record,
coming back to the candle-lit kitchen with a somewhat dazed sense of
having been years in No-Man’s Land.

She did not even have Aunt Laura to back her up in the matter. Aunt
Laura thought Emily ought to yield in such an unimportant matter and
please Aunt Elizabeth.

“But it’s not unimportant,” said Emily despairingly. “It’s the most
important thing in the world to me, Aunt Laura. Oh, I thought _you_
would understand.”

“I understand that you like to do it, dear, and I think it’s a harmless
enough amusement. But it seems to annoy Elizabeth some way and I do
think you might give it up on that account. It is not as if it was
anything that mattered much--it _is_ really a waste of time.”

“No--no,” said distressed Emily. “Why, some day, Aunt Laura, I’ll
write real books--and make lots of money,” she added, sensing that the
businesslike Murrays measured the nature of most things on a cash basis.

Aunt Laura smiled indulgently.

“I’m afraid you’ll never grow rich that way, dear. It would be wiser to
employ your time preparing yourself for some useful work.”

It was maddening to be condescended to like this--maddening that nobody
could see that she _had_ to write--maddening to have Aunt Laura so
sweet and loving and stupid about it.

“Oh,” thought Emily bitterly, “if that hateful _Enterprise_ editor had
printed my piece they’d have believed _then_.”

“At any rate,” advised Aunt Laura, “don’t let Elizabeth _see_ you
writing them.”

But somehow Emily could not take this prudent advice. There _had_
been occasions when she had connived with Aunt Laura to hoodwink
Aunt Elizabeth on some little matter, but she found she could not do
it in this. _This_ had to be open and above-board. She _must_ write
stories--and Aunt Elizabeth _must_ know it--that was the way it had to
be. She could not be false to herself in this--she could not _pretend_
to be false.

She wrote her father all about it--poured out her bitterness and
perplexity to him in what, though she did not suspect it at the time,
was the last letter she was to write him. There was a large bundle
of letters by now on the old sofa shelf in the garret--for Emily had
written many letters to her father besides those which have been
chronicled in this history. There were a great many paragraphs about
Aunt Elizabeth in them, most of them very uncomplimentary and some
of them, as Emily herself would have owned when her first bitterness
was past, overdrawn and exaggerated. They had been written in moments
when her hurt and angry soul demanded some outlet for its emotion and
barbed her pen with venom. Emily was mistress of a subtly malicious
style when she chose to be. After she had written them the hurt had
ceased and she thought no more about them. But they remained.

And one spring day, Aunt Elizabeth, housecleaning in the garret while
Emily played happily with Teddy at the Tansy Patch, found the bundle of
letters on the sofa shelf, sat down, and read them all.

Elizabeth Murray would never have read any writing belonging
to a grown person. But it never occurred to her that there was
anything dishonourable in reading the letters wherein Emily, lonely
and--sometimes--misunderstood, had poured out her heart to the father
she had loved and been loved by, so passionately and understandingly.
Aunt Elizabeth thought she had a right to know everything that this
pensioner on her bounty did, said, or thought. She read the letters
and she found out what Emily thought of her--of her, Elizabeth Murray,
autocrat unchallenged, to whom no one had ever dared to say anything
uncomplimentary. Such an experience is no pleasanter at sixty than
at sixteen. As Elizabeth Murray folded up the last letter her hands
trembled--with anger, and something underneath it that was not anger.

“Emily, your Aunt Elizabeth wants to see you in the parlour,” said
Aunt Laura, when Emily returned from the Tansy Patch, driven home by
the thin grey rain that had begun to drift over the greening fields.
Her tone--her sorrowful look--warned Emily that mischief was in the
wind. Emily had no idea what mischief--she could not recall anything
she had done recently that should bring her up before the tribunal
Aunt Elizabeth occasionally held in the parlour. It must be serious
when it was in the parlour. For reasons best known to herself Aunt
Elizabeth held super-serious interviews like this in the parlour.
Possibly it was because she felt obscurely that the photographs of
the Murrays on the walls gave her a backing she needed when dealing
with this hop-out-of-kin; for the same reason Emily detested a trial in
the parlour. She always felt on such occasions like a very small mouse
surrounded by a circle of grim cats.

Emily skipped across the big hall, pausing, in spite of her alarm, to
glance at the charming red world through the crimson glass; then pushed
open the parlour door. The room was dim, for only one of the slat
blinds was partially raised. Aunt Elizabeth was sitting bolt upright in
Grandfather Murray’s black horsehair-chair. Emily looked at her stern,
angry face first--and then at her lap.

Emily understood.

The first thing she did was to retrieve her precious letters. With the
quickness of light she sprang to Aunt Elizabeth, snatched up the bundle
and retreated to the door; there she faced Aunt Elizabeth, her face
blazing with indignation and outrage. Sacrilege had been committed--the
most sacred shrine of her soul had been profaned.

“How dare you?” she said. “How dare you touch _my private papers_, Aunt
Elizabeth?”

Aunt Elizabeth had not expected _this_. She had looked for
confusion--dismay--shame--fear--for anything but this righteous
indignation, as if _she_, forsooth, were the guilty one. She rose.

“Give me those letters, Emily.”

“No, I will not,” said Emily, white with anger, as she clasped her
hands around the bundle. “They are mine and Father’s--not yours. You
had no right to touch them. I will _never_ forgive you!”

This was turning the tables with a vengeance. Aunt Elizabeth was so
dumfounded that she hardly knew what to say or do. Worst of all, a most
unpleasant doubt of her own conduct suddenly assailed her--driven home
perhaps by the intensity and earnestness of Emily’s accusation. For
the first time in her life it occurred to Elizabeth Murray to wonder if
she had done rightly. For the first time in her life she felt ashamed;
and the shame made her furious. It was intolerable that _she_ should be
made to feel ashamed.

For the moment they faced each other, not as aunt and niece, not as
child and adult, but as two human beings each with hatred for the other
in her heart--Elizabeth Murray, tall and austere and thin-lipped; Emily
Starr, white of face, her eyes pools of black flame, her trembling arms
hugging her letters.

“So _this_ is your gratitude,” said Aunt Elizabeth. “You were a
penniless orphan--I took you to my home--I have given you shelter and
food and education and kindness--and _this_ is my thanks.”

As yet Emily’s tempest of anger and resentment prevented her from
feeling the sting of this.

“You did not _want_ to take me,” she said. “You made me draw lots and
you took me because the lot fell to you. You knew some of you had to
take me because you were the proud Murrays and couldn’t let a relation
go to an orphan asylum. Aunt Laura loves me now but you don’t. So why
should I love you?”

“Ungrateful, thankless child!”

“I’m _not_ thankless. I’ve tried to be good--I’ve tried to obey you and
please you--I do all the chores I can to help pay for my keep. And you
had _no business_ to read my letters to Father.”

“They are disgraceful letters--and must be destroyed,” said Aunt
Elizabeth.

“No,” Emily clasped them tighter. “I’d sooner burn myself. You shall
not have them, Aunt Elizabeth.”

She felt her brows drawing together--she felt the Murray look on her
face--she knew she was conquering.

Elizabeth Murray turned paler, if that were possible. There were
times when she could give the Murray look herself; it was not that
which dismayed her--it was the uncanny something which seemed to
peer out behind the Murray look that always broke her will. She
trembled--faltered--yielded.

“Keep your letters,” she said bitterly, “and scorn the old woman who
opened her home to you.”

She went out of the parlour. Emily was left mistress of the field. And
all at once her victory turned to dust and ashes in her mouth.

She went up to her own room, hid her letters in the cupboard over the
mantel, and then crept up on her bed, huddling down in a little heap
with her face buried in her pillow. She was still sore with a sense of
outrage--but underneath another pain was beginning to ache terribly.

Something in her was hurt because she had hurt Aunt Elizabeth--for
she felt that Aunt Elizabeth, under all her anger, was _hurt_. This
surprised Emily. She would have expected Aunt Elizabeth to be angry, of
course, but she would never have supposed it would affect her in any
other way. Yet she had seen something in Aunt Elizabeth’s eyes when she
had flung that last stinging sentence at her--something that spoke of
bitter hurt.

“Oh! Oh!” gasped Emily. She began to cry chokingly into her pillow. She
was so wretched that she could not get out of herself and watch her
own suffering with a sort of enjoyment in its drama--set her mind to
analyse her feelings--and when Emily was as wretched as that she was
very wretched indeed and wholly comfortless. Aunt Elizabeth would not
keep her at New Moon after a poisonous quarrel like this. She would
send her away, of course. Emily believed this. Nothing was too horrible
to believe just then. How could she live away from dear New Moon?

“And I may have to live eighty years,” Emily moaned.

But worse even than this was the remembrance of that look in Aunt
Elizabeth’s eyes.

Her own sense of outrage and sacrilege ebbed away under the
remembrance. She thought of all the things she had written her father
about Aunt Elizabeth--sharp, bitter things, some of them just, some of
them unjust. She began to feel that she should not have written them.
It was true enough that Aunt Elizabeth had not loved her--had not
wanted to take her to New Moon. But she _had_ taken her and though it
had been done in duty, not in love, the fact remained. It was no use
for her to tell herself that it wasn’t as if the letters were written
to any one living, to be seen and read by others. While she was under
Aunt Elizabeth’s roof--while she owed the food she ate and the clothes
she wore to Aunt Elizabeth--she should not say, even to her father,
harsh things of her. A Starr should not have done it.

“I must go and ask Aunt Elizabeth to forgive me,” thought Emily at
last, all the passion gone out of her and only regret and repentance
left. “I suppose she never will--she’ll hate me always now. But I must
go.”

She turned herself about--and then the door opened and Aunt Elizabeth
entered. She came across the room and stood at the side of the bed,
looking down at the grieved little face on the pillow--a face that in
the dim, rainy twilight, with its tear-stains and black shadowed eyes,
looked strangely mature and chiseled.

Elizabeth Murray was still austere and cold. Her voice sounded stern;
but she said an amazing thing.

“Emily, I had no right to read your letters. I admit I was wrong. Will
you forgive me?”

“Oh!” The word was almost a cry. Aunt Elizabeth had at last discerned
the way to conquer Emily. The latter lifted herself up, flung her arms
about Aunt Elizabeth, and said chokingly,

“Oh--Aunt Elizabeth--I’m sorry--I’m sorry--I shouldn’t have written
those things--but I wrote them when I was vexed--and I didn’t mean
them _all_--truly, I didn’t mean the worst of them. Oh, you’ll believe
_that_, won’t you, Aunt Elizabeth?”

“I’d like to believe it, Emily.” An odd quiver passed through the
tall, rigid form. “I--don’t like to think you--_hate_ me--my sister’s
child--little Juliet’s child.”

“I don’t--oh, I don’t,” sobbed Emily. “And I’ll _love_ you, Aunt
Elizabeth, if you’ll let me--if you _want_ me to. I didn’t think you
cared. _Dear_ Aunt Elizabeth.”

Emily gave Aunt Elizabeth a fierce hug and a passionate kiss on the
white, fine-wrinkled cheek. Aunt Elizabeth kissed her gravely on the
brow in return and then said, as if closing the door on the whole
incident,

“You’d better wash your face and come down to supper.”

But there was yet something to be cleared up.

“Aunt Elizabeth,” whispered Emily. “I _can’t_ burn those letters, you
know--they belong to Father. But I’ll tell you what I will do. I’ll go
over them all and put a star by anything I said about you and then I’ll
add an explanatory footnote saying that I was mistaken.”

Emily spent her spare time for several days putting in her “explanatory
footnotes,” and then her conscience had rest. But when she again tried
to write a letter to her father she found that it no longer meant
anything to her. The sense of reality--nearness--of close communion had
gone. Perhaps she had been outgrowing it gradually, as childhood began
to merge into girlhood--perhaps the bitter scene with Aunt Elizabeth
had only shaken into dust something out of which the spirit had already
departed. But, whatever the explanation, it was not possible to write
such letters any more. She missed them terribly but she could not go
back to them. A certain door of life was shut behind her and could not
be re-opened.




CHAPTER XXX

WHEN THE CURTAIN LIFTED


It would be pleasant to be able to record that after the reconciliation
in the lookout Emily and Aunt Elizabeth lived in entire amity and
harmony. But the truth was that things went on pretty much the same as
before. Emily went softly, and tried to mingle serpent’s wisdom and
dove’s harmlessness in practical proportions, but their points of view
were so different that there were bound to be clashes; they did not
speak the same language, so there was bound to be misunderstanding.

And yet there was a difference--a very vital difference. Elizabeth
Murray had learned an important lesson--that there was not one law of
fairness for children and another for grown-ups. She continued to be
as autocratic as ever--but she did not do or say to Emily anything she
would not have done or said to Laura had occasion called for it.

Emily, on her side, had discovered the fact that, under all her surface
coldness and sternness, Aunt Elizabeth really had an affection for her;
and it was wonderful what a difference this made. It took the sting
out of Aunt Elizabeth’s “ways” and words and healed entirely a certain
little half-conscious sore spot that had been in Emily’s heart ever
since the incident of the drawn slips at Maywood.

“I don’t believe I’m a duty to Aunt Elizabeth any more,” she thought
exultantly.

Emily grew rapidly that summer in body, mind and soul. Life was
delightful, growing richer every hour, like an unfolding rose. Forms of
beauty filled her imagination and were transferred as best she could
to paper, though they were never so lovely there, and Emily had the
heartbreaking moments of the true artist who discovers that

    “Never on painter’s canvas lives
    The charm of his fancy’s dream.”

Much of her “old stuff” she burned; even the _Child of the Sea_ was
reduced to ashes. But the little pile of manuscripts in the mantel
cupboard of the lookout was growing steadily larger. Emily kept her
scribblings there now; the sofa shelf in the garret was desecrated;
and, besides, she felt somehow that Aunt Elizabeth would never meddle
with her “private papers” again, no matter where they were kept. She
did not go now to the garret to read or write or dream; her own dear
lookout was the best place for that. She loved that quaint, little old
room intensely; it was almost like a living thing to her--a sharer in
gladness--a comforter in sorrow.

Ilse was growing, too, blossoming out into strange beauty and
brilliance, knowing no law but her own pleasure, recognizing no
authority but her own whim. Aunt Laura worried over her.

“She will be a woman so soon--and _who_ will look after her? Allan
won’t.”

“I’ve no patience with Allan,” said Aunt Elizabeth grimly. “He is
always ready to hector and advise other people. He’d better look at
home. He’ll come over here and order me to do this or that, or _not_ to
do it, for Emily; but if I say one word to him about Ilse he blows the
roof off. The idea of a man turning against his daughter and neglecting
her as he has neglected Ilse simply because her mother wasn’t all she
ought to be--as if the poor child was to blame for _that_.”

“S--s--sh,” said Aunt Laura, as Emily crossed the sitting-room on her
way upstairs.

Emily smiled sadly to herself. Aunt Laura needn’t be “s-s-sh’ing.”
There was nothing left for her to find out about Ilse’s
mother--nothing, except the most important thing of all, which neither
she nor anybody else living knew. For Emily had never surrendered her
conviction that the whole truth about Beatrice Burnley was not known.
She often worried about it when she lay curled up in her black walnut
bed o’nights, listening to the moan of the gulf and the Wind Woman
singing in the trees, and drifted into sleep wishing intensely that she
could solve the dark old mystery and dissolve its legend of shame and
bitterness.

Emily went rather languidly upstairs to the lookout. She meant to
write some more of her story, _The Ghost of the Well_, wherein she
was weaving the old legend of the well in the Lee field; but somehow
interest was lacking; she put the manuscript back into the mantel
cupboard; she read over a letter from Dean Priest which had come that
day, one of his fat, jolly, whimsical, delightful letters wherein he
had told her that he was coming to stay a month with his sister at
Blair Water. She wondered why this announcement did not excite her
more. She was tired--her head was aching. Emily couldn’t remember ever
having had a headache before. Since she could not write she decided to
lie down and be _Lady Trevanion_ for awhile. Emily was _Lady Trevanion_
very often that summer, in one of the dream lives she had begun to
build up for herself. _Lady Trevanion_ was the wife of an English earl
and, besides being a famous novelist, was a member of the British House
of Commons--where she always appeared in black velvet with a stately
coronet of pearls on her dark hair. She was the only woman in the House
and, as this was before the days of the suffragettes, she had to endure
many sneers and innuendoes and insults from the ungallant males around
her. Emily’s favourite dream scene was where she rose to make her first
speech--a wonderfully thrilling event. As Emily found it difficult
to do justice to the scene in any ideas of her own, she always fell
back on “Pitt’s reply to Walpole,” which she had found in her _Royal
Reader_, and declaimed it, with suitable variations. The insolent
speaker who had provoked _Lady Trevanion_ into speech had sneered at
her as a _woman_, and _Lady Trevanion_, a magnificent creature in her
velvet and pearls, rose to her feet, amid hushed and dramatic silence,
and said,

“The atrocious crime of being a _woman_ which the honourable member
has, with such spirit and decency, charged upon me, I shall attempt
neither to palliate nor deny, but shall content myself with wishing
that I may be one of those whose follies cease with their _sex_ and
_not_ one of that number who are ignorant in spite of _manhood_ and
experience.”

(Here she was always interrupted by thunders of applause.)

But the savour was entirely lacking in this scene today and by the
time Emily had reached the line, “But _womanhood_, Sir, is not my only
crime”--she gave up in disgust and fell to worrying over Ilse’s mother
again, mixed up with some uneasy speculations regarding the climax of
her story about the ghost of the well, mingled with her unpleasant
physical sensations.

Her eyes hurt her when she moved them. She was chilly, although the
July day was hot. She was still lying there when Aunt Elizabeth came up
to ask why she hadn’t gone to bring the cows home from the pasture.

“I--I didn’t know it was so late,” said Emily confusedly. “I--my head
aches, Aunt Elizabeth.”

Aunt Elizabeth rolled up the white cotton blind and looked at Emily.
She noted her flushed face--she felt her pulse. Then she bade her
shortly to stay where she was, went down, and sent Perry for Dr.
Burnley.

“Probably she’s got the measles,” said the doctor as gruffly as usual.
Emily was not yet sick enough to be gentle over. “There’s an outbreak
of them at Derry Pond. Has she had any chance to catch them?”

“Jimmy Joe Belle’s two children were here one afternoon about ten days
ago. She played with them--she’s always playing round with people
she’s no business to associate with. I haven’t heard that they were or
have been sick though.”

Jimmy Joe Belle, when asked plainly, confessed that his “young ones”
had come out with measles the very day after they had been at New Moon.
There was therefore not much doubt as to Emily’s malady.

“It’s a bad kind of measles apparently,” the doctor said. “Quite a
number of the Derry Pond children have died of it. Mostly French
though--the kids would be out of bed when they had no business to be
and caught cold. I don’t think you need worry about Emily. She might as
well have measles and be done with it. Keep her warm and keep the room
dark. I’ll run over in the morning.”

For three or four days nobody was much alarmed. Measles was a disease
everybody had to have. Aunt Elizabeth looked after Emily well and slept
on a sofa which had been moved into the lookout. She even left the
window open at night. In spite of this--perhaps Aunt Elizabeth thought
because of it--Emily grew steadily sicker, and on the fifth day a sharp
change for the worse took place. Her fever went up rapidly, delirium
set in; Dr. Burnley came, looked anxious, scowled, changed the medicine.

“I’m sent for to a bad case of pneumonia at White Cross,” he said, “and
I have to go to Charlottetown in the morning to be present at Mrs.
Jackwell’s operation. I promised her I would go. I’ll be back in the
evening. Emily is very restless--that high-strung system of hers is
evidently very sensitive to fever. What’s that nonsense she’s talking
about the Wind Woman?”

“Oh, I don’t know,” said Aunt Elizabeth worriedly. “She’s always
talking nonsense like that, even when she’s well. Allan, tell me
plainly--is there any danger?”

“There’s always danger in this type of measles. I don’t like these
symptoms--the eruption should be out by now and there’s no sign of
it. Her fever is very high--but I don’t think we need be alarmed
yet. If I thought otherwise I wouldn’t go to town. Keep her as quiet
as possible--humour her whims if you can--I don’t like that mental
disturbance. She looks terribly distressed--seems to be worrying over
something. Has she had anything on her mind of late?”

“Not that I know of,” said Aunt Elizabeth. She had a sudden bitter
realisation that she really did not know much about the child’s mind.
Emily would never have come to her with any of her little troubles and
worries.

“Emily, what is bothering you?” asked Dr. Burnley softly--very softly.
He took the hot, tossing, little hand gently, oh, so gently, in his big
one.

Emily looked up with wild, fever-bright eyes.

“She couldn’t have done it--she _couldn’t_ have done it.”

“Of course she couldn’t,” said the doctor cheerily. “Don’t worry--she
didn’t do it.”

His eyes telegraphed, “What does she mean?” to Elizabeth, but Elizabeth
shook her head.

“Who are you talking about--dear?” she asked Emily. It was the first
time she had called Emily “dear.”

But Emily was off on another tack. The well in Mr. Lee’s field was
open, she declared. Someone would be sure to fall into it. Why didn’t
Mr. Lee shut it up? Dr. Burnley left Aunt Elizabeth trying to reassure
Emily on that point and hurried away to White Cross.

At the door he nearly fell over Perry who was curled up on the
sandstone slab, hugging his sunburned legs desperately. “How is Emily?”
he demanded, grasping the skirt of the doctor’s coat.

“Don’t bother me--I’m in a hurry,” growled the doctor.

“You tell me how Emily is or I’ll hang on to your coat till the seams
go,” said Perry stubbornly. “I can’t get one word of sense out of them
old maids. _You_ tell me.”

“She’s a sick child but I’m not seriously alarmed about her yet.” The
doctor gave his coat another tug--but Perry held on for a last word.

“You’ve _got_ to cure her,” he said. “If anything happens to Emily I’ll
drown myself in the pond--mind that.”

He let go so suddenly that Dr. Burnley nearly went headlong on the
ground. Then Perry curled up on the doorstep again. He watched there
until Laura and Cousin Jimmy had gone to bed and then he sneaked
through the house and sat on the stairs, where he could hear any sound
in Emily’s room. He sat there all night, with his fists clenched, as if
keeping guard against an unseen foe.

Elizabeth Murray watched by Emily until two o’clock, and then Laura
took her place.

“She has raved a great deal,” said Aunt Elizabeth. “I wish I knew what
is worrying her--there _is_ something, I feel sure. It isn’t all mere
delirium. She keeps repeating ‘She couldn’t have done it’ in such
imploring tones. I wonder oh, Laura, you remember the time I read her
letters? Do you think she means me?”

Laura shook her head. She had never seen Elizabeth so moved.

“If the child--doesn’t get--better--” said Aunt Elizabeth. She said no
more but went quickly out of the room.

Laura sat down by the bed. She was pale and drawn with her own worry
and fatigue--for she had not been able to sleep. She loved Emily as
her own child and the awful dread that had possessed her heart would
not lift for an instant. She sat there and prayed mutely. Emily fell
into a troubled slumber which lasted until the grey dawn crept into
the lookout. Then she opened her eyes and looked at Aunt Laura--looked
through her--looked beyond her.

“I see her coming over the fields,” she said in a high, clear voice.
“She is coming so gladly--she is singing--she is thinking of her
baby--oh, keep her back--keep her back--she doesn’t see the well--it’s
so dark she doesn’t see it--oh, she’s gone into it--she’s gone into it!”

Emily’s voice rose in a piercing shriek which penetrated to Aunt
Elizabeth’s room and brought her flying across the hall in her flannel
nightgown.

“What is wrong, Laura?” she gasped.

Laura was trying to soothe Emily, who was struggling to sit up in bed.
Her cheeks were crimson and her eyes had still the same far, wild look.

“Emily--Emily, darling, you’ve just had a bad dream. The old Lee well
isn’t open--nobody has fallen into it.”

“Yes, somebody has,” said Emily shrilly. “_She_ has--I saw her--I saw
her--with the ace of hearts on her forehead. Do you think I don’t know
her?”

She fell back on her pillow, moaned, and tossed the hands which Laura
Murray had loosened in her surprise.

The two ladies of New Moon looked at each other across her bed in
dismay--and something like terror.

“Who did you see, Emily?” asked Aunt Elizabeth.

“Ilse’s mother--of course. I always knew she didn’t do that dreadful
thing. She fell into the old well--she’s there now--go--go and get her
out, Aunt Laura. _Please._”

“Yes--yes, of course we’ll get her out, darling,” said Aunt Laura,
soothingly.

Emily sat up in bed and looked at Aunt Laura again. This time she did
not look through her--she looked into her. Laura Murray felt that
those burning eyes read her soul.

“You are lying to me,” cried Emily. “You don’t mean to try to get
her out. You are only saying it to put me off. Aunt Elizabeth,” she
suddenly turned and caught Aunt Elizabeth’s hand, “you’ll do it for me,
won’t you? You’ll go and get her out of the old well, won’t you?”

Elizabeth remembered that Dr. Burnley had said that Emily’s whims must
be humoured. She was terrified by the child’s condition.

“Yes, I’ll get her out if she is in there,” she said. Emily released
her hand and sank down. The wild glare left her eyes. A great sudden
calm fell over her anguished little face.

“I know _you’ll_ keep your word,” she said. “You are very hard--but
_you_ never lie, Aunt Elizabeth.”

Elizabeth Murray went back to her own room and dressed herself with her
shaking fingers. A little later, when Emily had fallen into a quiet
sleep, Laura went down stairs and heard Elizabeth giving Cousin Jimmy
some orders in the kitchen.

“Elizabeth, you don’t really mean to have that old well searched?”

“I do,” said Elizabeth resolutely. “I know it’s nonsense as well as
you do. But I had to promise it to quiet her down--and I’ll keep my
promise. You heard what she said--she believed I wouldn’t lie to her.
Nor will I. Jimmy, you will go over to James Lee’s after breakfast and
ask him to come here.”

“How has she heard the story?” said Laura.

“I don’t know--oh, some one has told her, of course--perhaps that old
demon of a Nancy Priest. It doesn’t matter who. She _has_ heard it
and the thing is to keep her quiet. It isn’t so much of a job to put
ladders in the well and get some one to go down it. The thing that
matters is the absurdity of it.”

“We’ll be laughed at for a pair of fools,” protested Laura, whose share
of Murray pride was in hot revolt. “And besides, it will open up all
the old scandal again.”

“No matter. I’ll keep my word to the child,” said Elizabeth stubbornly.

       *       *       *       *       *

Allan Burnley came to New Moon at sunset, on his way home from town. He
was tired, for he had been going night and day for over a week; he was
more worried than he had admitted over Emily; he looked old and rather
desolate as he stepped into the New Moon kitchen.

Only Cousin Jimmy was there. Cousin Jimmy did not seem to have much to
do, although it was a good hay-day and Jimmy Joe Belle and Perry were
hauling in the great fragrant, sun-dried loads. He sat by the western
window with a strange expression on his face.

“Hello, Jimmy, where are the girls? And how is Emily?”

“Emily is better,” said Cousin Jimmy. “The rash is out and her fever
has gone down. I think she’s asleep.”

“Good. We couldn’t afford to lose that little girl, could we, Jimmy?”

“No,” said Jimmy. But he did not seem to want to talk about it. “Laura
and Elizabeth are in the sitting-room. They want to see you.” He paused
a minute and then added in an eerie way, “There is nothing hidden that
shall not be revealed.”

It occurred to Allan Burnley that Jimmy was acting mysteriously. And
if Laura and Elizabeth wanted to see him why didn’t they come out? It
wasn’t like them to stand on ceremony in this fashion. He pushed open
the sitting-room door impatiently.

Laura Murray was sitting on the sofa, leaning her head on its arm. He
could not see her face but he felt that she was crying. Elizabeth
was sitting bolt upright on a chair. She wore her second-best black
silk and her second-best lace cap. And she, too, had been crying. Dr.
Burnley never attached much importance to Laura’s tears, easy as those
of most women, but that Elizabeth Murray should cry--had he ever seen
her cry before?

The thought of Ilse flashed into his mind--his little neglected
daughter. Had anything happened to Ilse?

In one dreadful moment Allan Burnley paid the price of his treatment of
his child.

“What is wrong?” he exclaimed in his gruffest manner.

“Oh, Allan,” said Elizabeth Murray. “God forgive us--God forgive us
all!”

“It--is--Ilse,” said Dr. Burnley, dully.

“No--no--not Ilse.”

Then she told him--she told him what had been found at the bottom of
the old Lee well--she told him what had been the real fate of the
lovely, laughing young wife whose name for twelve bitter years had
never crossed his lips.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was not until the next evening that Emily saw the doctor. She was
lying in bed, weak and limp, red as a beet with the measles rash, but
quite herself again. Allan Burnley stood by the bed and looked down at
her.

“Emily--dear little child--do you know what you have done for me? God
knows how you did it.”

“I thought you didn’t believe in God,” said Emily, wonderingly.

“You have given me back my faith in Him, Emily.”

“Why, what have I done?”

Dr. Burnley saw that she had no remembrance of her delirium. Laura had
told him that she had slept long and soundly after Elizabeth’s promise
and had awakened with fever gone and the eruption fast coming out. She
had asked nothing and they had said nothing.

“When you are better we will tell you all,” he said, smiling down at
her. There was something very sorrowful in the smile--and yet something
very sweet.

“He is smiling with his eyes as well as his mouth now,” thought Emily.

“How--how did she know?” whispered Laura Murray to him when he went
down. “I--can’t understand it, Allan.”

“Nor I. These things are beyond us, Laura,” he answered gravely. “I
only know this child has given Beatrice back to me, stainless and
beloved. It can be explained rationally enough perhaps. Emily has
evidently been told about Beatrice and worried over it--her repeated
‘she couldn’t have done it’ shows that. And the tales of the old Lee
well naturally made a deep impression on the mind of a sensitive child
keenly alive to dramatic values. In her delirium she mixed this all up
with the well-known fact of Jimmy’s tumble into the New Moon well--and
the rest was coincidence. I would have explained it all so myself
once--but now--now, Laura, I only say humbly, ‘A little child shall
lead them.’”

“Our stepmother’s mother was a Highland Scotchwoman. They said she had
the second sight,” said Elizabeth. “I never believed in it--before.”

The excitement of Blair Water had died away before Emily was deemed
strong enough to hear the story. That which had been found in the old
Lee well had been buried in the Mitchell plot at Shrewsbury and a
white marble shaft, “Sacred to the memory of Beatrice Burnley, beloved
wife of Allan Burnley,” had been erected. The sensation caused by Dr.
Burnley’s presence every Sunday in the old Burnley pew had died away.
On the first evening that Emily was allowed to sit up Aunt Laura told
her the whole story. Her manner of telling stripped it forever of the
taint and innuendo left by Aunt Nancy.

“I _knew_ Ilse’s mother couldn’t have done it,” said Emily triumphantly.

“We blame ourselves now for our lack of faith,” said Aunt Laura. “We
should have known too--but it _did_ seem black against her at the time,
Emily. She was a bright, beautiful, merry creature--we thought her
close friendship with her cousin natural and harmless. We know now it
was so--but all these years since her disappearance we have believed
differently. Mr. James Lee remembers clearly that the well was open
the night of Beatrice’s disappearance. His hired man had taken the
old rotten planks off it that evening, intending to put the new ones
on at once. Then Robert Greerson’s house caught fire and he ran with
everybody else to help save it. By the time it was out it was too dark
to finish with the well, and the man said nothing about it until the
morning. Mr. Lee was angry with him--he said it was a scandalous thing
to leave a well uncovered like that. He went right down and put the
new planks in place himself. He did not look down in the well--had he
looked he could have seen nothing, for the ferns growing out from the
sides screened the depths. It was just after harvest. No one was in
the field again before the next spring. He never connected Beatrice’s
disappearance with the open well--he wonders now that he didn’t. But
you see--dear--there had been much malicious gossip--and Beatrice was
_known_ to have gone on board _The Lady of Winds_. It was taken for
granted she never came off again. But she did--and went to her death
in the old Lee field. It was a dreadful ending to her bright young
life--but not so dreadful, after all, as what we believed. For twelve
years we have wronged the dead. But--Emily--how could you _know_?”

“I--don’t--know. When the doctor came in that day I couldn’t remember
anything--but now it seems to me that I remember something--just as
if I’d dreamed it--of _seeing_ Ilse’s mother coming over the fields,
singing. It was dark--and yet I could see the ace of hearts--oh, Aunty,
I don’t know--I don’t like to think of it, some way.”

“We won’t talk of it again,” said Aunt Laura gently. “It is one of the
things best not talked of--one of God’s secrets.”

“And Ilse--does her father love her now?” asked Emily eagerly.

“Love her! He can’t love her enough. It seems as if he were pouring out
on her at once all the shut-up love of those twelve years.”

“He’ll likely spoil her now as much with indulgence as he did before
with neglect,” said Elizabeth, coming in with Emily’s supper in time to
hear Laura’s reply.

“It will take a lot of love to spoil Ilse,” laughed Laura. “She’s
drinking it up like a thirsty sponge. And she loves him wildly in
return. There isn’t a trace of grudge in her over his long neglect.”

“All the same,” said Elizabeth grimly, tucking pillows behind Emily’s
back with a very gentle hand, oddly in contrast with her severe
expression, “he won’t get off so easily. Ilse has run wild for twelve
years. He won’t find it so easy to make her behave properly now--if he
ever does.”

“Love will do wonders,” said Aunt Laura softly. “Of course, Ilse is
dying to come and see you, Emily. But she must wait until there is no
danger of infection. I told her she might write--but when she found I
would have to read it because of your eyes she said she’d wait till you
could read it yourself. Evidently”--Laura laughed again--“evidently
Ilse has much of importance to tell you.”

“I didn’t know anybody could be as happy as I am now,” said Emily.
“And oh, Aunt Elizabeth, it is _so_ nice to feel hungry again and to
have something to _chew_.”




CHAPTER XXXI

EMILY’S GREAT MOMENT


Emily’s convalescence was rather slow. Physically she recovered with
normal celerity but a certain spiritual and emotional languor persisted
for a time. One cannot go down to the depths of hidden things and
escape the penalty. Aunt Elizabeth said she “moped.” But Emily was
too happy and contented to mope. It was just that life seemed to have
lost its savour for a time, as if some spring of vital energy had been
drained out of it and refilled slowly.

She had, just then, no one to play with. Perry, Ilse and Teddy had
all come down with measles the same day. Mrs. Kent at first declared
bitterly that Teddy had caught them at New Moon, but all three had
contracted them at a Sunday School picnic where Derry Pond children had
been. That picnic infected all Blair Water. There was a perfect orgy of
measles. Teddy and Ilse were only moderately ill, but Perry, who had
insisted on going home to Aunt Tom at the first symptoms, nearly died.
Emily was not allowed to know his danger until it had passed, lest
it worry her too much. Even Aunt Elizabeth worried over it. She was
surprised to discover how much they missed Perry round the place.

It was fortunate for Emily that Dean Priest was in Blair Water during
this forlorn time. His companionship was just what she needed and
helped her wonderfully on the road to complete recovery. They went for
long walks together all over Blair Water, with Tweed woofing around
them, and explored places and roads Emily had never seen before. They
watched a young moon grow old, night by night; they talked in dim
scented chambers of twilight over long red roads of mystery; they
followed the lure of hill winds; they saw the stars rise and Dean told
her all about them--the great constellations of the old myths. It
was a wonderful month; but on the first day of Teddy’s convalescence
Emily was off to the Tansy Patch for the afternoon and Jarback Priest
walked--if he walked at all--alone.

Aunt Elizabeth was extremely polite to him, though she did not like the
Priests of Priest Pond overmuch, and never felt quite comfortable under
the mocking gleam of “Jarback’s” green eyes and the faint derision of
his smile, which seemed to make Murray pride and Murray traditions seem
much less important than they really were.

“He has the Priest flavour,” she told Laura, “though it isn’t as strong
in him as in most of them. And he’s certainly helping Emily--she has
begun to spunk up since he came.”

Emily continued to “spunk up” and by September, when the measles
epidemic was spent and Dean Priest had gone on one of his sudden swoops
over to Europe for the autumn, she was ready for school again--a
little taller, a little thinner, a little less childlike, with great
grey shadowy eyes that had looked into death and read the riddle of a
buried thing, and henceforth would hold in them some haunting, elusive
remembrance of that world behind the veil. Dean Priest had seen it--Mr.
Carpenter saw it when she smiled at him across her desk at school.

“She’s left the childhood of her soul behind, though she is still a
child in body,” he muttered.

One afternoon amid the golden days and hazes of October he asked her
gruffly to let him see some of her verses.

“I never meant to encourage you in it,” he said. “I don’t mean it
now. Probably you can’t write a line of real poetry and never will.
But let me see your stuff. If it’s hopelessly bad I’ll tell you so. I
won’t have you wasting years striving for the unattainable--at least
I won’t have it on my conscience if you do. If there’s any promise in
it, I’ll tell you so just as honestly. And bring some of your stories,
too--_they’re_ trash yet, that’s certain, but I’ll see if they show
just and sufficient cause for going on.”

Emily spent a very solemn hour that evening, weighing, choosing,
rejecting. To the little bundle of verse she added one of her
Jimmy-books which contained, as she thought, her best stories. She went
to school next day, so secret and mysterious that Ilse took offense,
started in to call her names--and then stopped. Ilse had promised her
father that she would try to break herself of the habit of calling
names. She was making fairly good headway and her conversation, if less
vivid, was beginning to approximate to New Moon standards.

Emily made a sad mess of her lessons that day. She was nervous and
frightened. She had a tremendous respect for Mr. Carpenter’s opinion.
Father Cassidy had told her to keep on--Dean Priest had told her that
some day she might really write--but perhaps they were only trying
to be encouraging because they liked her and didn’t want to hurt her
feelings. Emily knew Mr. Carpenter would not do this. No matter if he
did like her he would nip her aspirations mercilessly if he thought
the root of the matter was not in her. If, on the contrary, he bade
her God-speed, she would rest content with that against the world and
never lose heart in the face of any future criticism. No wonder the day
seemed fraught with tremendous issues to Emily.

When school was out Mr. Carpenter asked her to remain. She was so
white and tense that the other pupils thought she must have been found
out by Mr. Carpenter in some especially dreadful behaviour and knew
she was going to “catch it.” Rhoda Stuart flung her a significantly
malicious smile from the porch--which Emily never even saw. She was,
indeed, at a momentous bar, with Mr. Carpenter as supreme judge, and
her whole future career--so she believed--hanging on his verdict.

The pupils disappeared and a mellow sunshiny stillness settled over
the old schoolroom. Mr. Carpenter took the little packet she had given
him in the morning out of his desk, came down the aisle and sat in the
seat before her, facing her. Very deliberately he settled his glasses
astride his hooked nose, took out her manuscripts and began to read--or
rather to glance over them, flinging scraps of comments, mingled with
grunts, sniffs and hoots, at her as he glanced. Emily folded her cold
hands on her desk and braced her feet against the legs of it to keep
her knees from trembling. This was a very terrible experience. She
wished she had never given her verses to Mr. Carpenter. They were
no good--of course they were no good. Remember the editor of the
_Enterprise_.

“Humph!” said Mr. Carpenter. “_Sunset_--Lord, how many poems have been
written on ‘Sunset’--

    ‘The clouds are massed in splendid state
    At heaven’s unbarred western gate
    Where troops of star-eyed spirits wait’--

By gad, what does that mean?”

“I--I--don’t know,” faltered startled Emily, whose wits had been
scattered by the sudden swoop of his spiked glance.

Mr. Carpenter snorted.

“For heaven’s sake, girl, don’t write what you can’t understand
yourself. And this--_To Life_--‘Life, as thy gift I ask no rainbow
joy’--is that sincere? Is it, girl. Stop and think. _Do_ you ask ‘no
rainbow joy’ of life?”

He transfixed her with another glare. But Emily was beginning to pick
herself up a bit. Nevertheless, she suddenly felt oddly ashamed of the
very elevated and unselfish desires expressed in that sonnet.

“No--o,” she answered reluctantly. “I _do_ want rainbow joy--lots of
it.”

“Of course you do. We all do. We don’t get it--you won’t get it--but
don’t be hypocrite enough to pretend you don’t want it, even in a
sonnet. _Lines to a Mountain Cascade_-- ‘On its dark rocks like the
whiteness of a veil around a bride’--Where did you see a mountain
cascade in Prince Edward Island?”

“Nowhere--there’s a picture of one in Dr. Burnley’s library.”

“_A Wood Stream_--

    ‘The threading sunbeams quiver,
    The bending bushes shiver,
    O’er the little shadowy river’--

There’s only one more rhyme that occurs to me and that’s ‘liver.’ Why
did you leave it out?”

Emily writhed.

“_Wind Song_--

       ‘I have shaken the dew in the meadows
    From the clover’s creamy gown’--

Pretty, but weak. _June_--June, for heaven’s sake, girl, don’t write
poetry on June. It’s the sickliest subject in the world. It’s been
written to death.”

“No, June is immortal,” cried Emily suddenly, a mutinous sparkle
replacing the strained look in her eyes. She was not going to let Mr.
Carpenter have it all his own way.

But Mr. Carpenter had tossed _June_ aside without reading a line of it.

“‘I weary of the hungry world’--what do you know of the hungry
world?--you in your New Moon seclusion of old trees and old maids--but
it _is_ hungry. _Ode to Winter_--the seasons are a sort of disease all
young poets must have, it seems--ha! ‘Spring will not forget’--_that’s_
a good line--the only good line in it. H’m’m--_Wanderings_--

    ‘I’ve learned the secret of the rune
    That the somber pines on the hillside croon’--

Have you--_have_ you learned that secret?”

“I think I’ve always known it,” said Emily dreamily. That flash of
unimaginable sweetness that sometimes surprised her had just come and
gone.

“_Aim and Endeavour_--too didactic--too didactic. You’ve no right to
try to teach until you’re old--and then you won’t want to--

    ‘Her face was like a star all pale and fair’--

Were you looking in the glass when you composed that line?”

“No--” indignantly.

“‘When the morning light is shaken like a banner on the hill’--a good
line--a good line--

    ‘Oh, on such a golden morning
    To be living is delight’--

Too much like a faint echo of Wordsworth. _The Sea in September_--‘blue
and austerely bright’--‘austerely bright’--child, how can you marry the
right adjectives like that? _Morning_--‘all the secret fears that haunt
the night’--what do _you_ know of the fears that haunt the night?”

“I know something,” said Emily decidedly, remembering her first night
at Wyther Grange.

“_To a Dead Day_--

    ‘With the chilly calm on her brow
    That only the dead may wear’--

Have you ever _seen_ the chilly calm on the brow of the dead, Emily?”

“Yes,” said Emily softly, recalling that grey dawn in the old house in
the hollow.

“I thought so--otherwise you couldn’t have written _that_--and even as
it is--how old are you, jade?”

“Thirteen, last May.”

“Humph! _Lines to Mrs. George Irving’s Infant Son_--you should study
the art of titles, Emily--there’s a fashion in them as in everything
else. Your titles are as out of date as the candles of New Moon--

    ‘Soundly he sleeps with his red lips pressed
    Like a beautiful blossom close to her breast’--

The rest isn’t worth reading. _September_--is there a month you’ve
missed?--‘Windy meadows harvest-deep’--good line. _Blair Water by
Moonlight_--gossamer, Emily, nothing but gossamer. _The Garden of New
Moon_--

    ‘Beguiling laughter and old song
    Of merry maids and men’--

Good line--I suppose New Moon _is_ full of ghosts. ‘Death’s fell minion
well fulfilled its part’--that might have passed in Addison’s day but
not now--not now, Emily--

    ‘Your azure dimples are the graves
    Where million buried sunbeams play’--

Atrocious, girl--atrocious. Graves aren’t playgrounds. How much would
_you_ play if you were buried?”

Emily writhed and blushed again. _Why_ couldn’t she have seen that
herself? _Any_ goose could have seen it.

    “‘Sail onward, ships--white wings, sail on,
    Till past the horizon’s purple bar
    You drift from sight.--In flush of dawn
    Sail on, and ’neath the evening star’--

Trash--trash--and yet there’s a picture in it--

    ‘Lap softly, purple waves. I dream,
    And dreams are sweet--I’ll wake no more’--

Ah, but you’ll have to wake if you want to accomplish anything. Girl,
you’ve used _purple_ twice in the same poem.

    ‘Buttercups in a golden frenzy’--

‘a golden frenzy’--girl, I _see_ the wind shaking the buttercups.

    ‘From the purple gates of the west I come’--

You’re too fond of purple, Emily.”

“It’s such a lovely word,” said Emily.

    “‘Dreams that seem too bright to die’--

_Seem_ but never _are_, Emily--

    ‘The luring voice of the echo, fame’--

So you’ve heard it, too? It _is_ a lure and for most of us only an
echo. And that’s the last of the lot.”

Mr. Carpenter swept the little sheets aside, folded his arms on the
desk, and looked over his glasses at Emily.

Emily looked back at him mutely, nervelessly. All the life seemed to
have been drained out of her body and concentrated in her eyes.

“Ten good lines out of four hundred, Emily--comparatively good, that
is--and all the rest balderdash--balderdash, Emily.”

“I--suppose so,” said Emily faintly.

Her eyes brimmed with tears--her lips quivered. She could not help it.
Pride was hopelessly submerged in the bitterness of her disappointment.
She felt exactly like a candle that somebody had blown out.

“What are you crying for?” demanded Mr. Carpenter.

Emily blinked away the tears and tried to laugh.

“I--I’m sorry--you think it’s no good--” she said.

Mr. Carpenter gave the desk a mighty thump.

“No good! Didn’t I tell you there were ten good lines? Jade, for ten
righteous men Sodom had been spared.”

“Do you mean--that--after all--” The candle was being relighted again.

“Of course, I mean. If at thirteen you can write ten good lines, at
twenty you’ll write ten times ten--if the gods are kind. Stop messing
over months, though--and don’t imagine you’re a genius either, if you
_have_ written ten decent lines. I think there’s _something_ trying to
speak through you--but you’ll have to make yourself a fit instrument
for it. You’ve got to work hard and sacrifice--by gad, girl, you’ve
chosen a jealous goddess. And she never lets her votaries go--not even
when she shuts her ears forever to their plea. What have you there?”

Emily, her heart thrilling, handed him her Jimmy-book. She was so happy
that it shone through her whole being with a positive radiance. She
saw her future, wonderful, brilliant--oh, her goddess would listen to
_her_--“Emily B. Starr, the distinguished poet”--“E. Byrd Starr, the
rising young novelist”--

She was recalled from her enchanting reverie by a chuckle from Mr.
Carpenter. Emily wondered a little uneasily what he was laughing at.
She didn’t think there was anything funny in _that_ book. It contained
only three or four of her latest stories--_The Butterfly Queen_, a
little fairy tale; _The Disappointed House_, wherein she had woven a
pretty dream of hopes come true after long years; _The Secret of the
Glen_, which, in spite of its title, was a fanciful little dialogue
between the Spirit of the Snow, the Spirit of the Grey Rain, the
Spirit of Mist, and the Spirit of Moonshine.

“So you think I am not beautiful when I say my prayers?” said Mr.
Carpenter.

Emily gasped--realized what had happened--made a frantic grab at her
Jimmy-book--missed it. Mr. Carpenter held it up beyond her reach and
mocked at her.

She had given him the wrong Jimmy-book! And this one, oh, horrors,
what was in it? Or rather, what wasn’t in it? Sketches of everyone in
Blair Water--and a full--a very full--description of Mr. Carpenter
himself. Intent on describing him exactly, she had been as mercilessly
lucid as she always was, especially in regard to the odd faces he
made on mornings when he opened the school day with a prayer. Thanks
to her dramatic knack of word painting, Mr. Carpenter _lived_ in that
sketch. Emily did not know it, but _he_ did--he saw himself as in a
glass and the artistry of it pleased him so that he cared for nothing
else. Besides, she had drawn his good points quite as clearly as his
bad ones. And there were some sentences in it--“He looks as if he knew
a great deal that can never be any use to him”--“I think he wears the
black coat Mondays because it makes him feel that he hasn’t been drunk
at all.” Who or what had taught the little jade these things? Oh, her
goddess would not pass Emily by!

“I’m--sorry,” said Emily, crimson with shame all over her dainty
paleness.

“Why, I wouldn’t have missed this for all the poetry you’ve written or
ever will write! By gad, it’s literature--_literature_--and you’re only
thirteen. But you don’t know what’s ahead of you--the stony hills--the
steep ascents--the buffets--the discouragements. Stay in the valley if
you’re wise. Emily, _why_ do you want to write? Give me your reason.”

“I want to be famous and rich,” said Emily coolly.

“Everybody does. Is that all?”

“No. I just _love_ to write.”

“A better reason--but not enough--not enough. Tell me this--if you knew
you would be poor as a church mouse all your life--if you knew you’d
never have a line published--would you still go on writing--_would_
you?”

“Of course I would,” said Emily disdainfully. “Why, I _have_ to
write--I can’t help it by times--I’ve just _got_ to.”

“Oh--then I’d waste my breath giving advice at all. If it’s _in_ you
to climb you must--there are those who _must_ lift their eyes to the
hills--they can’t breathe properly in the valleys. God help them if
there’s some weakness in them that prevents their climbing. You don’t
understand a word I’m saying--yet. But go on--climb! There, take
your book and go home. Thirty years from now I will have a claim to
distinction in the fact that Emily Byrd Starr was once a pupil of mine.
Go--go--before I remember what a disrespectful baggage you are to write
such stuff about me and be properly enraged.”

Emily went, still a bit scared but oddly exultant behind her fright.
She was so happy that her happiness seemed to irradiate the world with
its own splendour. All the sweet sounds of nature around her seemed
like the broken words of her own delight. Mr. Carpenter watched her out
of sight from the old worn threshold.

“Wind--and flame--and sea!” he muttered. “Nature is always taking us
by surprise. This child has--what I have never had and would have made
any sacrifice to have. But ‘the gods don’t allow us to be in their
debt’--she will pay for it--she will pay.”

At sunset Emily sat in the lookout room. It was flooded with soft
splendour. Outside, in sky and trees, were delicate tintings and
aerial sounds. Down in the garden Daffy was chasing dead leaves along
the red walks. The sight of his sleek, striped sides, the grace of
his movements, gave her pleasure--as did the beautiful, even, glossy
furrows of the ploughed fields beyond the lane, and the first faint
white star in the crystal-green sky.

The wind of the autumn night was blowing trumpets of fairyland on the
hills; and over in Lofty John’s bush was laughter--like the laughter of
fauns. Ilse and Perry and Teddy were waiting there for her--they had
made a tryst for a twilight romp. She would go to them--presently--not
yet. She was so full of rapture that she must write it out before she
went back from her world of dreams to the world of reality. Once she
would have poured it into a letter to her father. She could no longer
do that. But on the table before her lay a brand-new Jimmy-book. She
pulled it towards her, took up her pen, and on its first virgin page
she wrote.

                                  NEW MOON,
                                    BLAIR WATER,
                                       P. E. ISLAND.
                                   October 8th.

I am going to write a diary, that it may be published when I die.


THE END




Transcriber’s Note:

Attempts have been made to standardise punctuation according to the
style used in the original book. Contractions without apostrophes
have been retained as published. Spelling and hyphenation also have
been retained as printed in the original publication except as follows:

  Page 58
    going to open the window, Aunt Elizaeth _changed to_
    going to open the window, Aunt Elizabeth

  Page 68
    is one of the places were dreams grow _changed to_
    is one of the places where dreams grow

  Page 94
    with this unseenly display of _changed to_
    with this unseemly display of

  Page 117
    ike a huge grey cat basking _changed to_
    like a huge grey cat basking

  Page 145
    as Cousin Jimmie said _changed to_
    as Cousin Jimmy said

  Page 147
    She helped Cousin Jimmie fill it _changed to_
    She helped Cousin Jimmy fill it

  Page 154
    Cousin Jimmie added that Tom _changed to_
    Cousin Jimmy added that Tom

  Page 249
    have run away with him myseif _changed to_
    have run away with him myself

    bad-tempered at the Priests _changed to_
    bad-tempered as the Priests

  Page 270
    to the contrary nothwithstanding _changed to_
    to the contrary notwithstanding





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